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Contents:

• ‘A FAY LIKE OURS’: PORTRAS OF GAY FATHERHOOD
• WALL STREET CEOS OPEN UP ABOUT THEIR GAY SONS
• 'RETURN THE KEY': THE PARENTS WHO REJECT THEIR GAY CHILDREN
• GAY RETIRG OM FAY BS AFTER 35 YEARS
• MATTHEW GONG, GAY MORMON, REFLECTS ON HIS JOURNEY OM NER WAR TO NER PEACE
• I TRIED TO STOP MY SON FROM BEG GAY. I WISH I HADN'T
• DAD AND DAD: A JOURNEY TO GAY FATHERHOOD – PICTUR
• PARENTS OF GAY CHILDREN AND THE ISSU THEY FACE
• GAY MALE UPL FACE MORE CHALLENG, HIGHER STS TO START A FAY
• SHOP THE BT OF 'THE RIGHT STUFF'!OPEN MENUVIOSHOPCULTUREFAYWELLNSFOODLIVGSTYLETRAVELNEWSBOOK CLUBGMA3: WYNTKNEWSLETTERPRIVACY POLICYYOUR US STATE PRIVACY RIGHTSCHILDREN'S ONLE PRIVACY POLICYINTERT-BASED ADSTERMS OF USEDO NOT SELL MY INFOCONTACT USCOPYRIGHT © 2023 ABC NEWS INTER VENTUR. ALL RIGHTS RERVED.SEARCHLIVGFATHER OPENS UP ABOUT G OUT TO HIS 3 SONS: I'M STILL THE SAME DAD AS BEFORE3:16FATHER OPENS UP ABOUT G OUT TO HIS BYGOOD MORNG AMERIJUNE 15, 2023, 4:18 AM"GOOD MORNG AMERI" IS FEATURG STORI CELEBRATN OF PRI MONTH. STT TAKACS, A 46-YEAR-OLD AND FATHER OF THREE, PENNED A PERSONAL SAY ABOUT HIS EXPERIENCE G OUT AS A GAY MAN TO HIS SONS. READ ABOUT HIS JOURNEY BELOW HIS OWN WORDS.COMG OUT AT 42 I WAS 42 YEARS OLD WHEN I ME OUT TO MY WIFE. IT WAS 15 MONTHS LATER THAT I STARTED THAT SAME NVERSATN WH MY THREE BOYS -- 9-YEAR-OLD TWS AND AN 11-YEAR-OLD.THE WHOLE EXPERIENCE IS SOMEWHAT OF A BLUR, MOSTLY PART TO THE FACT THAT AT THAT POT MY LIFE THERE WAS A LOT OF CHANGE HAPPENG AND SOME SIGNIFINT PENT-UP EMOTNS. THERE WASN'T MUCH OF A PLAN, NO GUIBOOK HAND, ONLY GOALS THAT I HOPED MY BOYS WOULD START THE PROCS OF UNRSTANDG AND ACCEPTG THEIR DAD FOR WHOM I TLY WAS: A GAY MAN.STT TAKACSGMA IT HAD BEEN A LONG 15 MONTHS SCE G OUT TO MY WIFE, AN EXPERIENCE I UNFORTUNATELY WOULDN'T SCRIBE AS POSIVE, FUN OR SOMETHG I EVER WANT TO REPEAT. IT WAS WROUGHT WH THE HAPPS OF FALLY TELLG THE CLOST PERSON MY TE INTY, WHILE SIMULTANEOLY RIPPG HER WORLD OUT OM UNR HER. WH MANY EMOTNS AND STRS, I ACCEPTED HER REQUT TO KEEP THE REASON FOR OUR DIVORCE -- DUE TO ME BEG GAY -- A SECRET FOR AT LEAST ANOTHER YEAR. THIS CLUD KEEPG OM OUR KIDS AND HER SI OF THE FAY.WHEN THE MOMENT TO BREAK THE NEWS TO MY KIDS FALLY ME, I HAD A LOT OF ISSU TO NAVIGATE. OVER 15 MONTHS, I HAD FALIZED THE DIVORCE, MOVED AGA AND TAKEN A NEW JOB BASED CHIGO, 250 AWAY OM MY BOYS. THE DISTANCE WAS TO CREATE SOME SPACE BETWEEN MY NOW EX-WIFE, WHO STGGLED BEG PROXIMY TO ME.I HAD CID I NEED TO BE SAFE, EE OF THE STRS AND EMOTNALLY SANE TO BE A GOOD FATHER TO MY BOYS, EVEN IF THAT MEANT TRANSNG OM EVERY VOLVED DAD DAY-TO-DAY TO A DAY SHUTTLG BETWEEN CHIGO AND THE SUBURBS OF DETRO MULTIPL TIM A MONTH. CHIGO OFFERED THE STABILY I NEED A JOB, IENDSHIP AND AT THIS POT, A NEW RELATNSHIP THAT ALL NTRIBUTED TO MY HEALG THIS NEW GAY WORLD.STT WH HIS IENDS.COURTY JOE KOECHERWE WERE ALL ADJTG TO A NEW, MORN FAY, MORE LIKE A FAY TRANSN. HOMOSEXUALY WASN'T A TOPIC WELL DISCSED OUR FAY. IT WASN'T NECSARILY A BAD TOPIC, JT WASN'T DISCSED. GAY IENDS WERE JT IENDS -- RPECTED BUT THEIR RELATNSHIPS NOT NECSARILY DISCSED. GAY MARRIAGE WAS THE NEWS, BUT NOT DISCSED OUR HOE OTHER THAN THE OCSNAL NEGATIVE MENT OM A CLOSE RELATIVE.A 'NEW MORN-FAY'STT'S MOTHER WH HIS THREE SONS.COURTY STT TACKACS MY KIDS ATTEND A VERY NSERVATIVE, PRIVATE CHRISTIAN SCHOOL. WE CHOSE THE SCHOOL BEE WE WANTED TO GIVE OUR KIDS ACCS TO THE BT TN AND A STRONG FOUNDATN TO TAKE ON THE WORLD. IN MANY WAYS, A LOVG PLACE FOR THEM, BUT I ME TO REALIZE THAT TEACHERS SPOKE OPENLY AGAST GAY CULTURE AND TEXTBOOKS LABELED HOMOSEXUALY AS SFUL AND EVIL. MY KIDS LISTENED AND FOLLOWED THEIR LEAD.EVEN PRR TO G OUT, WAS HARD FOR ME TO HEAR MY KIDS E HOME WH STORI OF TEACHERS GRADG GAY MARRIAGE OR GAY PEOPLE, TO SEE THEIR WORKBOOKS, RERCG THE BIAS AGAST BEG GAY. I DID MY BT TO ENURAGE MY KIDS TO UNRSTAND THAT GOD MA EVERYONE JT THE WAY THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO BE, AND THAT GOD LOV EVERYONE.I HAD TO TEMPER MY WORDS WHEN SUATNS ME UP WH MY KIDS' TN, OUT OF FEAR WOULD DISPT THEIR EXPERIENCE SCHOOL. THE LAST THG I WANTED WAS FOR MY KIDS TO BE TREATED DIFFERENTLY BEE THEY HAD A GAY DAD, WHICH I FELT WAS A POSSIBILY.IN THE YEAR FOLLOWG MY DIVORCE, I AGREED NOT TO TELL THE KIDS I WAS GAY, SO I HAD TO BE REFUL. WHEN I BROUGHT THE KIDS TO CHIGO, WE STAYED A HOTEL AND NOT AT THE HOME I SHARED WH MY BOYIEND. THE MAN I WAS DATG WAS JT A IEND. WE WERE REFUL TO AVOID REFERENC TO "GAY" DISCSNS AND PLAC, ALTHOUGH I LIVED THE GAYBORHOOD OF CHIGO, AN UPSLE, PREDOMANTLY GAY AREA ON CHIGO'S NORTH SI.'SRY'TELLG MY KIDS WAS SRY. I WASN'T SURE WHAT TO EXPECT. THEY HAD ALREADY MET MY BOYIEND MULTIPLE TIM BY THAT POT AND HAD BEE IENDS WH HIM.I STARTED WH MY OLST SON AND THEN EVENTUALLY HIS YOUNGER BROTHERS.THE OLST TOOK THE NEWS THE HARST, AS I EXPECTED. HE WAS A FEW YEARS AHEAD OF HIS BROTHERS BEG DOCTRATED BY HIS SCHOOL AGAST HOMOSEXUALY. ANGRY ABOUT THE DIVORCE, HE ACTED OUT AGAST HIS MOM AND ME. HE WAS FIANT AT TIM AND GENERALLY EMBARRASSED ABOUT HIS GAY DAD. HE DIDN'T WANT HIS IENDS TO KNOW AND WAS SRED I MIGHT DO SOMETHG TO CLUE THEM . HE WAS AAID HE WOULD BE TEASED.THE TWS' REACTN WAS MORE MUTED. THEY WERE TOO YOUNG TO UNRSTAND THE NCEPT AND DIDN'T SEEM TO RE AS MUCH. IT WAS MORE OF -- "OK, DAD, LET'S TALK ABOUT SOMETHG ELSE."STT AND HIS TWO 9-YEAR-OLD TW SONS.COURTY STT TACKACS 'HE LOV ME, BUT HE DON'T SUPPORT MY LIFTYLE'I TRIED TO ASSURE MY SONS THAT DAD WAS THE SAME DAD TO THEM I WAS BEFORE. I TRIED TO RERCED THE G-OUT NCEPT TERMS I FELT THEY WOULD UNRSTAND FOR THEIR AGE SCE RELATNSHIP AND SEXUAL LOVE WASN'T SOMETHG THEY UNRSTOOD YET. EVENTUALLY, THOUGH, THAT STARTED TO PASS.AFTER FOUR YEARS, MY OLST SON'S IENDS KNEW HE HAD A GAY DAD, AND, TO PUT TEENAGE TERMS, WASN'T SO BAD. HE IS STILL EMBARRASSED BY THE WHOLE THG ON SOME LEVEL. HE LOV ME, BUT HE DON'T SUPPORT MY LIFTYLE. I THK HE UNRSTANDS BEG GAY ISN'T A CHOICE ANYMORE, AND I BELIEVE THAT WILL NTUE.MY EX-WIFE CERTALY BORE THE BNT OF THE DAY-TO-DAY WH THE KIDS. SHE STILL DO, AND I KNOW 'S STILL NOT EASY. I DO MY BT TO TRY TO REMA ENGAGED OM A DISTANCE, OFFERG AS MUCH HELP WH THGS LIKE DOCTOR APPOTMENTS, HAIRCUTS, BUYG SHO AND CLOTH, RERCG THEM CLEANG THEIR ROOM AS MUCH AS I ULD.MY WEEKEND VISS WH THE KIDS ULD BE SCRIBED, STILL, AS DRIVG 100 AROUND THE SUBURBS NNG ERRANDS WH THE BOYS, HAVG FUN AND TRYG TO MAKE MEMORABLE EXPERIENC WH THEM.STT WH HIS SISTER AND CHILDRENCOURTY STT TAKACSI HAVE WORKED VERY HARD TO STAY NNECTED TO THE BOYS, AND 'S NOT EASY. CALLG EVERY DAY BEFORE SCHOOL TO WISH THEM OFF, LLG TWO TO THREE TIM AFTER SCHOOL, AND FACETIMG THEM OFTEN. I STILL DRIVE BACK AND FORTH TO MICHIGAN MULTIPLE TIM A MONTH, RACKG UP 1,500 TO 2,000 A MONTH.DON'T HI THE TTHWHAT I'VE LEARNED IS THAT THIS PROCS TAK TIME. I HAD MORE THAN 25 YEARS TO E TO TERMS WH MY INTY, AND THK I EXPECTED THOSE CLOST TO ME WOULD ADJT QUICKLY. THAT'S SIMPLY NOT REALISTIC.FOR THOSE GOG THROUGH THE SAME PROCS: GIVE YOUR WIFE (EX) THE SPACE AND TIME SHE NEEDS TO PROCS THE CHANG, LOVE YOUR KIDS WH ALL YOUR HEART AND BE HONT WH THEM ABOUT THE CHANG.DON'T HI THE TTH ONCE 'S OUT. ONE OF MY BIGGT REGRETS IS NOT TELLG EVERYONE MY FAY AT THE SAME TIME, LYG ABOUT THE REASON WE DIVORCED. I WISH I HAD NOT AGREED TO THAT, BUT ALSO UNRSTAND AT THE TIME SEEMED LIKE MA SENSE.I DON'T REGRET THE PATH I WENT DOWN. I STILL BELIEVE WAS GOD'S PLAN THE WAY THGS HAVE GONE; HAD THEY NOT, I WOULDN'T HAVE HAD 20 GOOD YEARS WH MY NOW EX-WIFE, AND I WOULDN'T HAVE THREE AWOME BOYS. I WOULDN'T TRA THAT FOR ANYTHG.MY WISH IS THAT THGS WILL NTUE TO REANIZE AND ONE DAY WE'LL ALL LOOK BACK AT 2014 AND 'LL JT BE ANOTHER FLECTN POTS OUR LIFE.I HELPED START A GROUP FOR GAY FATHERS CHIGO AND HAS SHOWN ME THAT THERE ARE OTHER GAY FATHERS AHEAD OF ME THEIR G-OUT JOURNEY WH POSIVE EXPERIENC TO SHARE. AFTER YEARS OF HARD WORK, THEY HAVE MARRIED MEN, THEIR EX HAVE MARRIED AS WELL, AND THEY ALL ENJOY VATNS, BIRTHDAYS, AND SHARE THE JOY OF THEIR CHILDREN LIKE ONE, BIG, MORN FAY.STT, HIS PARTNER, JOE, AND HIS THREE SONS.COURTY STT TAKACSTHIS STORY WAS ORIGALLY PUBLISHED JUNE 19, 2018.RELATED TOPICSLGBTQUP NEXT LIVG—HOW WBOYS, NSTCTN CREWS AND A NOE CLUB KEPT OTHER MI FIR OM BEG 'ANOTHER LAHAA'AUGT 25, 2023PILOT THANKS FLIGHT ATTENDANT MOM SURPRISE SPEECH ON THEIR 1ST FLIGHT TOGETHERAUGT 24, 2023HOW TO GET $4 MOVIE TICKETS FOR NATNAL CEMA DAYAUGT 24, 2023GROOM GETS NEW PASSPORT TIME FOR WEDDG AFTER DOG ATE AUGT 24, 2023UP NEXT LIVG—HOW WBOYS, NSTCTN CREWS AND A NOE CLUB KEPT OTHER MI FIR OM BEG 'ANOTHER LAHAA'AUGT 25, 2023PILOT THANKS FLIGHT ATTENDANT MOM SURPRISE SPEECH ON THEIR 1ST FLIGHT TOGETHERAUGT 24, 2023HOW TO GET $4 MOVIE TICKETS FOR NATNAL CEMA DAYAUGT 24, 2023GROOM GETS NEW PASSPORT TIME FOR WEDDG AFTER DOG ATE AUGT 24, 2023
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• MY SON MIGHT BE GAY. WHAT SHOULD I SAY TO HIM?
• WHY -- AND HOW -- WE ACCEPT OUR GAY SON AS DEVOUT MORMON PARENTS
• WHAT TO DO WHEN A GAY CHILD MARRI
• A GAY UPLE RAN A RAL RTRANT PEACE. THEN NEW NEIGHBORS ARRIVED.

‘A FAY LIKE OURS’: PORTRAS OF GAY FATHERHOOD

Heynen planned to photograph for a book of photography featurg gay fathers and their children. ”Amerin culture has not been particularly starved of imag of gay fatherhood, particularly recent years.

Celebri like Anrson Cooper have helped normalize the ia of gay men raisg children, and no longer feels revelatory to see them on televisn, as did when “Morn Fay” premiered mon, Mr. Heynen said, are imag of gay fathers who aren’t Instagram ready — like two men bg their dghters’ hair or tossg a football the ont yard.

It’s an unrstandable impulse, which he attribut to a sire among gay parents to feel “normal” after havg their pabili as parents ntually lled to qutn. Heynen said, but rather a celebratn of the day-to-day liv of gay Jt for the YoungCly Rose, 61, and Ryan, 12Cly Rose, who liv Manhattan, was first photographed for “Dads” three years ago after meetg Mr.

WALL STREET CEOS OPEN UP ABOUT THEIR GAY SONS

Heynen “a lot of cred” for cludg a father like him — a sgle dad his 60s — sce he said there is often a lack of reprentatn of olr gay people art and media, which tends to foc on young, f men. In the "boy's club" of Wall Street, some top executiv' views on gay rights changed entirely when the issue beme personal. When he was CEO of Man Stanley (MS) and Cred Suisse First Boston (CS), John Mack was known for his progrsive views on lbian, gay, bisexual and transgenr equaly.

'RETURN THE KEY': THE PARENTS WHO REJECT THEIR GAY CHILDREN

"I had strong views of beg anti-gay, " Mack said this month at a nference hosted by Out on the Street, an anizatn that helps firms rec and reta LGBT talent. And the views of the people at the top are often shaped by simply knowg someone who is gay. Grandfatherhood, " hedge fund billnaire Pl Sger said about his son Andrew when he first realized he was gay.

One night 1998, when he and Andrew were at dner, Andrew started askg Sger about his "views on homosexualy. If your child out to you as LGBTQ (lbian, gay, bisexual, transgenr, or queer), that may or may not be somethg you imaged or feel prepared for—but your acceptance really matters to their health and safety.

Her rearch shows how fai n learn to support the children—even if they believe that beg gay or transgenr is wrong.

GAY RETIRG OM FAY BS AFTER 35 YEARS

Askg them about their experience and how you n help them feel supportedlisteng whout terptg or argugtellg them you love them and exprs affectnlearng together about issu LGBTQ youth face by jog an LGBTQ fay support anizatn, such as PFLAG, Genr Spectm, Genr Odyssey, or Strong Fay Allianctandg up for your child when they are mistreated, even by other fay membershelpg your child fd an LGBTQ role mol for your child among iends and fay members or through PFLAG or other support groupstalkg to your relig lears about helpg your place of worship bee more supportive of LGBTQ people, or fd a more supportive place of worship at, Q Christian Fellowship, Khet, or Mlims for Progrsive Valuenuragg fay and iends to check wh your child and show supportchallengg homophobic mentsgettg to know your child’s LGBTQ iends and romantic partnersupport your child’s genr exprsn... That’s how I feel’The armageddon refers to his mum’s strong Jehovah’s Wns beliefs about the sfulns of homosexualy. ’”Chris, sadly, isn’t alone his story of parental fa of equalyAt the time I terviewed him, a Brazilian mother who killed her teenage son for beg gay is sentenced to 25 years prison.

Celebry stori of heartbreakg parental rejectn are also November, the Amerin thor and producer Robyn Crawford released a book nfirmg she had had a romantic relatnship wh Whney Hoton – but had to abandon out of fear of the repercsns om Hoton’s by Oprah Wey if would have bothered her if her dghter was gay, Cissy Hoton said “Absolutely. Among the openly-gay hyper-wealthy are Domeni Dolce and Stefano Gabbana, the duo behd fashn power hoe Dolce & Gabbana.

5% of Amerins intify as lbian, gay, bisexual or transgenr; statistilly, 19 of Ameri’s 492 billnair should intify as such.

MATTHEW GONG, GAY MORMON, REFLECTS ON HIS JOURNEY OM NER WAR TO NER PEACE

Billnair have exprsed their allegiance for their gay dghters and sons fancially: hedge fund billnaire Pl Sger has given more than $10 ln to support marriage equaly – his gay son, Andrew, tied the knot – while Progrsive surance’s Peter Lewis, recently ceased, donated $250, 000 to the Gay & Lbian Victory Fund 2008, as my lleague Clare O’Connor noted.

Dallas Mavericks owner Mark Cuban ss on the advisory board of Athlete Ally, a nonprof targetg homophobia sports.

I TRIED TO STOP MY SON FROM BEG GAY. I WISH I HADN'T

Of urse, some untri are more equal than others terms of gay rights, which might expla why natns wh the send- and third-hight number of billnair – Cha, 152, and Rsia, 111 – do not list a sgle LGBT billnaire. William Gay has had a quietly important fluence on Jacksonville’s Cy Friday, Gay leav the Stockton Street office of W.

Gay Mechanil Contractors, the bs his father, Bill, started 1962 and grew to a rporatn wh lotns Orlando, Gaville and Arkansas, and annual sal of more than $100 ln.

Retirg as the senr vice print, the 62-year-old Gay says he’s gog to do a lot of huntg and fishg and play a lot of golf, but he hop to put a new sp on the missn of a small polil group he formed about a dozen years ago. “The three of started a year before the electn and we picked a ndidate that we wanted to w each of the 14 rac, ” said Gay. Gay provis ntractg work cludg plumbg, heatg and tomatic fire protectn for mercial, dtrial and stutnal ctomers.

DAD AND DAD: A JOURNEY TO GAY FATHERHOOD – PICTUR

Gay has grown, has mataed a philosophy of treatg s employe says bee of his father’s ncern for payg workers well and providg benefs cludg prof sharg, the pany probably has the lowt turnover rate the nstctn dtry. ”Gay said he don’t always agree wh his iends, but they never have to worry about a disagreement gog public. “In the last few years, I’ve maly worked public relatns and been a legislative liaison, ” said Gay.

”His philosophyGay s when a wars at The Brick, an Avondale rtrant he equents, asks how many days of work he has left. ”Gay’s sunny outlook is improved the days by his alma mater’s stat as kg of the major llege sports’ landspe.

PARENTS OF GAY CHILDREN AND THE ISSU THEY FACE

”That grandmother, his mother’s mom, tght school for 12 years after gettg her of Gay’s six dghters – he has no sons – got her master’s gree om UF. ”And th he me to see his gay self as a “weed” the Latter-day Sat is hardly alone such a feelg of beg misplaced, of urse, but his experience is unual.

”Though Gong’s relatnship wh his parents got off to a “rocky start” after he me out — not for lack of love or rejectn but for mismunitn — they are now as close as ever and talk almost every isn’t to say father and son agree on all asked 2018 if havg a gay son had affected his views on LGBTQ issu, the apostle replied, “We love each member of our fay. C., area, where his dad worked at a policy thk the fay moved to Utah, the young Gong found himself a much more homogeneo muny wh a “domant culture, ” he says, where his peers and teachers weren’t exactly sure about his he Mexin? ”)He didn’t want to accept himself as gay, “bee the only queerns I had ever seen was bad” — the AIDS crisis, promiscuy, ath.

He was lled to London on a Mandar-speakg missn his 21st birthday, at the start of the fal year on his missn, Gong wrote separate emails to each of his brothers and his parents to tell them he was gay. By now u probably have an ia of what i am about to I am gayRyan: i n’t believe i jt told youMom: Are you jokg? Ryan: i know i amRyan: i don’t like hannahRyan: ’s jt a ver-upMom: but that don’t make you gay…Ryan: i knowRyan: but u don’t unrstandRyan: i am gayMom: tell me moreRyan: ’s jt the way i am and ’s somethg i knowRyan: u r not a lbian and u know that.

GAY MALE UPL FACE MORE CHALLENG, HIGHER STS TO START A FAY

Ryan: i am jt gayRyan: i am thatMom: I love you no matter whatRyan: i am whe not blackRyan: i knowRyan: i am a boy not a girlRyan: i am attracted to boys not girlsRyan: u know that about yourself and i know thisMom: what about what God thks about actg on the sir? Not that we didn’t know and love gay people — my only brother had e out to several years before, and we adored him.

SHOP THE BT OF 'THE RIGHT STUFF'!OPEN MENUVIOSHOPCULTUREFAYWELLNSFOODLIVGSTYLETRAVELNEWSBOOK CLUBGMA3: WYNTKNEWSLETTERPRIVACY POLICYYOUR US STATE PRIVACY RIGHTSCHILDREN'S ONLE PRIVACY POLICYINTERT-BASED ADSTERMS OF USEDO NOT SELL MY INFOCONTACT USCOPYRIGHT © 2023 ABC NEWS INTER VENTUR. ALL RIGHTS RERVED.SEARCHLIVGFATHER OPENS UP ABOUT G OUT TO HIS 3 SONS: I'M STILL THE SAME DAD AS BEFORE3:16FATHER OPENS UP ABOUT G OUT TO HIS BYGOOD MORNG AMERIJUNE 15, 2023, 4:18 AM"GOOD MORNG AMERI" IS FEATURG STORI CELEBRATN OF PRI MONTH. STT TAKACS, A 46-YEAR-OLD AND FATHER OF THREE, PENNED A PERSONAL SAY ABOUT HIS EXPERIENCE G OUT AS A GAY MAN TO HIS SONS. READ ABOUT HIS JOURNEY BELOW HIS OWN WORDS.COMG OUT AT 42 I WAS 42 YEARS OLD WHEN I ME OUT TO MY WIFE. IT WAS 15 MONTHS LATER THAT I STARTED THAT SAME NVERSATN WH MY THREE BOYS -- 9-YEAR-OLD TWS AND AN 11-YEAR-OLD.THE WHOLE EXPERIENCE IS SOMEWHAT OF A BLUR, MOSTLY PART TO THE FACT THAT AT THAT POT MY LIFE THERE WAS A LOT OF CHANGE HAPPENG AND SOME SIGNIFINT PENT-UP EMOTNS. THERE WASN'T MUCH OF A PLAN, NO GUIBOOK HAND, ONLY GOALS THAT I HOPED MY BOYS WOULD START THE PROCS OF UNRSTANDG AND ACCEPTG THEIR DAD FOR WHOM I TLY WAS: A GAY MAN.STT TAKACSGMA IT HAD BEEN A LONG 15 MONTHS SCE G OUT TO MY WIFE, AN EXPERIENCE I UNFORTUNATELY WOULDN'T SCRIBE AS POSIVE, FUN OR SOMETHG I EVER WANT TO REPEAT. IT WAS WROUGHT WH THE HAPPS OF FALLY TELLG THE CLOST PERSON MY TE INTY, WHILE SIMULTANEOLY RIPPG HER WORLD OUT OM UNR HER. WH MANY EMOTNS AND STRS, I ACCEPTED HER REQUT TO KEEP THE REASON FOR OUR DIVORCE -- DUE TO ME BEG GAY -- A SECRET FOR AT LEAST ANOTHER YEAR. THIS CLUD KEEPG OM OUR KIDS AND HER SI OF THE FAY.WHEN THE MOMENT TO BREAK THE NEWS TO MY KIDS FALLY ME, I HAD A LOT OF ISSU TO NAVIGATE. OVER 15 MONTHS, I HAD FALIZED THE DIVORCE, MOVED AGA AND TAKEN A NEW JOB BASED CHIGO, 250 AWAY OM MY BOYS. THE DISTANCE WAS TO CREATE SOME SPACE BETWEEN MY NOW EX-WIFE, WHO STGGLED BEG PROXIMY TO ME.I HAD CID I NEED TO BE SAFE, EE OF THE STRS AND EMOTNALLY SANE TO BE A GOOD FATHER TO MY BOYS, EVEN IF THAT MEANT TRANSNG OM EVERY VOLVED DAD DAY-TO-DAY TO A DAY SHUTTLG BETWEEN CHIGO AND THE SUBURBS OF DETRO MULTIPL TIM A MONTH. CHIGO OFFERED THE STABILY I NEED A JOB, IENDSHIP AND AT THIS POT, A NEW RELATNSHIP THAT ALL NTRIBUTED TO MY HEALG THIS NEW GAY WORLD.STT WH HIS IENDS.COURTY JOE KOECHERWE WERE ALL ADJTG TO A NEW, MORN FAY, MORE LIKE A FAY TRANSN. HOMOSEXUALY WASN'T A TOPIC WELL DISCSED OUR FAY. IT WASN'T NECSARILY A BAD TOPIC, JT WASN'T DISCSED. GAY IENDS WERE JT IENDS -- RPECTED BUT THEIR RELATNSHIPS NOT NECSARILY DISCSED. GAY MARRIAGE WAS THE NEWS, BUT NOT DISCSED OUR HOE OTHER THAN THE OCSNAL NEGATIVE MENT OM A CLOSE RELATIVE.A 'NEW MORN-FAY'STT'S MOTHER WH HIS THREE SONS.COURTY STT TACKACS MY KIDS ATTEND A VERY NSERVATIVE, PRIVATE CHRISTIAN SCHOOL. WE CHOSE THE SCHOOL BEE WE WANTED TO GIVE OUR KIDS ACCS TO THE BT TN AND A STRONG FOUNDATN TO TAKE ON THE WORLD. IN MANY WAYS, A LOVG PLACE FOR THEM, BUT I ME TO REALIZE THAT TEACHERS SPOKE OPENLY AGAST GAY CULTURE AND TEXTBOOKS LABELED HOMOSEXUALY AS SFUL AND EVIL. MY KIDS LISTENED AND FOLLOWED THEIR LEAD.EVEN PRR TO G OUT, WAS HARD FOR ME TO HEAR MY KIDS E HOME WH STORI OF TEACHERS GRADG GAY MARRIAGE OR GAY PEOPLE, TO SEE THEIR WORKBOOKS, RERCG THE BIAS AGAST BEG GAY. I DID MY BT TO ENURAGE MY KIDS TO UNRSTAND THAT GOD MA EVERYONE JT THE WAY THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO BE, AND THAT GOD LOV EVERYONE.I HAD TO TEMPER MY WORDS WHEN SUATNS ME UP WH MY KIDS' TN, OUT OF FEAR WOULD DISPT THEIR EXPERIENCE SCHOOL. THE LAST THG I WANTED WAS FOR MY KIDS TO BE TREATED DIFFERENTLY BEE THEY HAD A GAY DAD, WHICH I FELT WAS A POSSIBILY.IN THE YEAR FOLLOWG MY DIVORCE, I AGREED NOT TO TELL THE KIDS I WAS GAY, SO I HAD TO BE REFUL. WHEN I BROUGHT THE KIDS TO CHIGO, WE STAYED A HOTEL AND NOT AT THE HOME I SHARED WH MY BOYIEND. THE MAN I WAS DATG WAS JT A IEND. WE WERE REFUL TO AVOID REFERENC TO "GAY" DISCSNS AND PLAC, ALTHOUGH I LIVED THE GAYBORHOOD OF CHIGO, AN UPSLE, PREDOMANTLY GAY AREA ON CHIGO'S NORTH SI.'SRY'TELLG MY KIDS WAS SRY. I WASN'T SURE WHAT TO EXPECT. THEY HAD ALREADY MET MY BOYIEND MULTIPLE TIM BY THAT POT AND HAD BEE IENDS WH HIM.I STARTED WH MY OLST SON AND THEN EVENTUALLY HIS YOUNGER BROTHERS.THE OLST TOOK THE NEWS THE HARST, AS I EXPECTED. HE WAS A FEW YEARS AHEAD OF HIS BROTHERS BEG DOCTRATED BY HIS SCHOOL AGAST HOMOSEXUALY. ANGRY ABOUT THE DIVORCE, HE ACTED OUT AGAST HIS MOM AND ME. HE WAS FIANT AT TIM AND GENERALLY EMBARRASSED ABOUT HIS GAY DAD. HE DIDN'T WANT HIS IENDS TO KNOW AND WAS SRED I MIGHT DO SOMETHG TO CLUE THEM . HE WAS AAID HE WOULD BE TEASED.THE TWS' REACTN WAS MORE MUTED. THEY WERE TOO YOUNG TO UNRSTAND THE NCEPT AND DIDN'T SEEM TO RE AS MUCH. IT WAS MORE OF -- "OK, DAD, LET'S TALK ABOUT SOMETHG ELSE."STT AND HIS TWO 9-YEAR-OLD TW SONS.COURTY STT TACKACS 'HE LOV ME, BUT HE DON'T SUPPORT MY LIFTYLE'I TRIED TO ASSURE MY SONS THAT DAD WAS THE SAME DAD TO THEM I WAS BEFORE. I TRIED TO RERCED THE G-OUT NCEPT TERMS I FELT THEY WOULD UNRSTAND FOR THEIR AGE SCE RELATNSHIP AND SEXUAL LOVE WASN'T SOMETHG THEY UNRSTOOD YET. EVENTUALLY, THOUGH, THAT STARTED TO PASS.AFTER FOUR YEARS, MY OLST SON'S IENDS KNEW HE HAD A GAY DAD, AND, TO PUT TEENAGE TERMS, WASN'T SO BAD. HE IS STILL EMBARRASSED BY THE WHOLE THG ON SOME LEVEL. HE LOV ME, BUT HE DON'T SUPPORT MY LIFTYLE. I THK HE UNRSTANDS BEG GAY ISN'T A CHOICE ANYMORE, AND I BELIEVE THAT WILL NTUE.MY EX-WIFE CERTALY BORE THE BNT OF THE DAY-TO-DAY WH THE KIDS. SHE STILL DO, AND I KNOW 'S STILL NOT EASY. I DO MY BT TO TRY TO REMA ENGAGED OM A DISTANCE, OFFERG AS MUCH HELP WH THGS LIKE DOCTOR APPOTMENTS, HAIRCUTS, BUYG SHO AND CLOTH, RERCG THEM CLEANG THEIR ROOM AS MUCH AS I ULD.MY WEEKEND VISS WH THE KIDS ULD BE SCRIBED, STILL, AS DRIVG 100 AROUND THE SUBURBS NNG ERRANDS WH THE BOYS, HAVG FUN AND TRYG TO MAKE MEMORABLE EXPERIENC WH THEM.STT WH HIS SISTER AND CHILDRENCOURTY STT TAKACSI HAVE WORKED VERY HARD TO STAY NNECTED TO THE BOYS, AND 'S NOT EASY. CALLG EVERY DAY BEFORE SCHOOL TO WISH THEM OFF, LLG TWO TO THREE TIM AFTER SCHOOL, AND FACETIMG THEM OFTEN. I STILL DRIVE BACK AND FORTH TO MICHIGAN MULTIPLE TIM A MONTH, RACKG UP 1,500 TO 2,000 A MONTH.DON'T HI THE TTHWHAT I'VE LEARNED IS THAT THIS PROCS TAK TIME. I HAD MORE THAN 25 YEARS TO E TO TERMS WH MY INTY, AND THK I EXPECTED THOSE CLOST TO ME WOULD ADJT QUICKLY. THAT'S SIMPLY NOT REALISTIC.FOR THOSE GOG THROUGH THE SAME PROCS: GIVE YOUR WIFE (EX) THE SPACE AND TIME SHE NEEDS TO PROCS THE CHANG, LOVE YOUR KIDS WH ALL YOUR HEART AND BE HONT WH THEM ABOUT THE CHANG.DON'T HI THE TTH ONCE 'S OUT. ONE OF MY BIGGT REGRETS IS NOT TELLG EVERYONE MY FAY AT THE SAME TIME, LYG ABOUT THE REASON WE DIVORCED. I WISH I HAD NOT AGREED TO THAT, BUT ALSO UNRSTAND AT THE TIME SEEMED LIKE MA SENSE.I DON'T REGRET THE PATH I WENT DOWN. I STILL BELIEVE WAS GOD'S PLAN THE WAY THGS HAVE GONE; HAD THEY NOT, I WOULDN'T HAVE HAD 20 GOOD YEARS WH MY NOW EX-WIFE, AND I WOULDN'T HAVE THREE AWOME BOYS. I WOULDN'T TRA THAT FOR ANYTHG.MY WISH IS THAT THGS WILL NTUE TO REANIZE AND ONE DAY WE'LL ALL LOOK BACK AT 2014 AND 'LL JT BE ANOTHER FLECTN POTS OUR LIFE.I HELPED START A GROUP FOR GAY FATHERS CHIGO AND HAS SHOWN ME THAT THERE ARE OTHER GAY FATHERS AHEAD OF ME THEIR G-OUT JOURNEY WH POSIVE EXPERIENC TO SHARE. AFTER YEARS OF HARD WORK, THEY HAVE MARRIED MEN, THEIR EX HAVE MARRIED AS WELL, AND THEY ALL ENJOY VATNS, BIRTHDAYS, AND SHARE THE JOY OF THEIR CHILDREN LIKE ONE, BIG, MORN FAY.STT, HIS PARTNER, JOE, AND HIS THREE SONS.COURTY STT TAKACSTHIS STORY WAS ORIGALLY PUBLISHED JUNE 19, 2018.RELATED TOPICSLGBTQUP NEXT LIVG—HOW WBOYS, NSTCTN CREWS AND A NOE CLUB KEPT OTHER MI FIR OM BEG 'ANOTHER LAHAA'AUGT 25, 2023PILOT THANKS FLIGHT ATTENDANT MOM SURPRISE SPEECH ON THEIR 1ST FLIGHT TOGETHERAUGT 24, 2023HOW TO GET $4 MOVIE TICKETS FOR NATNAL CEMA DAYAUGT 24, 2023GROOM GETS NEW PASSPORT TIME FOR WEDDG AFTER DOG ATE AUGT 24, 2023UP NEXT LIVG—HOW WBOYS, NSTCTN CREWS AND A NOE CLUB KEPT OTHER MI FIR OM BEG 'ANOTHER LAHAA'AUGT 25, 2023PILOT THANKS FLIGHT ATTENDANT MOM SURPRISE SPEECH ON THEIR 1ST FLIGHT TOGETHERAUGT 24, 2023HOW TO GET $4 MOVIE TICKETS FOR NATNAL CEMA DAYAUGT 24, 2023GROOM GETS NEW PASSPORT TIME FOR WEDDG AFTER DOG ATE AUGT 24, 2023

He read all the Christian books that explaed where his gay feelgs me om and dove to unselg to further disver the orig of his unwanted attractn to other guys. But not at all the way we had, when I thk back on the fear that erned all my reactns durg those first six years after Ryan told he was gay, I crge as I realize how foolish I was. Now, whenever Rob and I jo our gay iends for an eveng, I thk about how much I would love to be visg wh Ryan and his partner over dner.

MOVG PORTRAS OF GAY FATHERS WH THEIR FAI ACROSS AMERI

Clton, MarylandThey are the first both their fai to bee gay fathers, and received a warm wele to parenthood.

Asbury Park, New JerseyThe most stunng takeaway om photographg gay dads is the equaly of their partnership while raisg their children. Brooklyn, New YorkWhile makg Dads I was surprised to fd out how many gay sgle dads there are creatg their fay through adoptn or surrogacy. Province, Rho IslandArt and Jim were one of the first gay upl to bee fathers through adoptn.

MY SON MIGHT BE GAY. WHAT SHOULD I SAY TO HIM?

Tom and Mike wh their son Jack at a lacrosse practice at Horace Mann School, Bronx, New YorkThroughout the book the children of gay dads grow olr. Although the school and Jack’s iends know that Jack has two gay dads there was some tensn the air while posg for this photo the middle of a sports field wh all the other players around. Parents of gay children may be shocked when their kids e out of the closet, but once the dt settl, most parents realize that their child is the same one they have loved and red for all their liv, they jt happen to be gay.

WHY -- AND HOW -- WE ACCEPT OUR GAY SON AS DEVOUT MORMON PARENTS

And while parental acceptance is one hurdle for a gay child, there are many other issu facg gay kids and their parents.

Issu for parents of gay kids as intified by Parents, Fai and Friends of Lbians and Gays (PFLAG), clu:1. Fay acceptance – n the rt of the fay accept the gay child as the parents of the gay child has. Hate crim preventn – workg to prevent gay bashg and other forms of hate crim agast gay kids.

WHAT TO DO WHEN A GAY CHILD MARRI

Relatnship regnn – workg to achieve equal rights and regnn for gay relatnships as for heterosexual relatnships.

Workplace fairns – supportg the gay child and any issu they face when enterg the workforce.

It may be that the child bucks tradnal genr stereotyp or they may not show attentn to the oppose sex; but are the signs of a gay child? Acrdg to some rearch, genr atypil behavr may, fact, be an ditor that the child may grow up to be gay.

A GAY UPLE RAN A RAL RTRANT PEACE. THEN NEW NEIGHBORS ARRIVED.

So, for example, boys that play wh dolls and have primarily girliends or girls who are tomboys and prefer to play wh guns may have an creased likelihood of growg up to be gay.

Another sign your child might be gay is if he is a male that choos more solary sports such as cyclg or swimmg. There also appears to be a relatnship where the more a child shows genr-nonnformg characteristics, the greater the chance that they may grow up to be gay. While knowg your child is gay may help you ease the transn to adulthood, 's cril to remember that a gay child is jt a child like any other and a parent of gay child is jt a parent, like any other.

Parents of gay kids mt e to accept and love their children for who they are and not bee of their sexualy. PFLAG supports loved on of homosexuals by providg helpl, support group meetgs, tn and rourc. As I relayed When Your Child Is Gay: What You Need To Know (Sterlg, 2016), I found out that my son was gay om a note wh our son's name entwed wh another boy's, surround by a heart.