This is the story of my first time and, as many first tim on anythg, didn't´t go well bee of my experience. Many say they knew they were gay their whole liv, not my se. I had no ia. If somebody would tell me I was gay before that day, I would have given them a middle fger. But I
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- WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST KISS LIKE?"WE END UP LYG ON HIS FLOOR, LISTENG TO JANE'S ADDICTN AND MAKG OUT UNTIL STARTED GETTG LIGHT OUT."{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}LIFEBY DAN AVERYJUNE 15, 2016/12:30 {HEIGHT:HER;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;POSN:RELATIVE;-WEBK-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-MS-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-WEBK-ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-ALIGN:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-ALIGN:CENTER;ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-WEBK-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;-MS-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;} IMG{HEIGHT:100%;WIDTH:100%;OBJECT-F:VER;}{HEIGHT:574PX;WIDTH:1020PX;}VANILLE SCHOKOBY DAN AVERYJUNE 15, 2016 / 12:30 PM{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"NEWSARTICLE","HEADLE":"WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST KISS LIKE?","THUMBNAILURL":","DATEPUBLISHED":"2016-06-15T16:30:46.000+0000","DATEMODIFIED":"2016-06-15T16:30:46.000+0000","IMAGE":{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT","URL":","WIDTH":1920,"HEIGHT":1080},"URL":","THOR":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","NAME":"LOGO TV"},"MAENTYOFPAGE":{"@TYPE":"WEBPAGE","@ID":"},"PUBLISHER":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","@ID":","NAME":"LOGO TV","URL":","LOGO":{"@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT"}},"CREATOR":"DAN AVERY","ARTICLESECTN":"LIFE"}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}FOR GAYS AND LBIANS, THAT FIRST KISS WH SOMEONE OF THE SAME GENR IS MAGIL. NOT JT FOR ALL BUTTERFLI--THE-STOMACH REASONS 'S WONRFUL FOR EVERYONE, BUT BEE 'S OFTEN A NFIRMATN OF SOMETHG THAT WAS BREWG {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WE LERALLY HEARD BELLS RG THE FIRST TIME A BOY PLANTED HIS LIPS ON {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}A ER ON THE GAYBROS REDD ASKED REARS TO REUNT THEIR FIRST KISS, AND THE STORI VARY GREATLY. (NOTE, YOUR TONGUE SHOULD NEVER BE ED AS A WEAPON.){BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SOMETIM TAK A LOT OF WORK TO GET TO THAT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS 14 AND WE'D BEEN CHATTG ON MSN MSENGER FOR LIKE FOUR MONTHS. I WAS PRETTY SURE I WAS LOVE. UNFORTUNATELY HE LIVED OVER AN HOUR AWAY AND I HAD NO WAY OF GETTG {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}ONE OF MY OLR IENDS VED ME TO THIS WEIRD PARA FTIVAL THG THE SAME TOWN. I ACCEPTED THE OFFER, BUT STEAD OF SPENDG THE DAY WH HER, I WANRED OFF AND PRETEND TO BE LOST WHILE I MET UP WH MY DU. WE ULDN'T DO ANYTHG PUBLIC (WE WERE SOUTHERN INDIANA) SO WE WENT TO A PUBLIC RTROOM TO SMOOCH. I'LL NEVER FET THE SORT OF SHOCKWAVE I FELT OVER MY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}AFTERWARDS WE GOT SOME ICE CREAM AND HUNG OUT AT SOME WICN LADI' VENDG TENT. I DIDN'T SEE HIM AGA UNTIL THIS PAST JUNE AT CCNATI PRI. I DON'T THK HE SAW/REGNIZED {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SOMETIM WHO YOU'RE KISSG N SURPRISE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY FIRST GAY KISS WAS MY STRAIGHT CSH OF 5+ YEARS AFTER A FEW DRKS A HOT TUB TTH OR DARE MATCH. HE WAS MORE EXCED FOR THAN I WAS!{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IT. WAS. {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THERE MAY BE PA {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS 18 WHEN I HAD MY FIRST MAKE-OUT SSN WH A GUY WHO WAS SEVEN YEARS OLR THAN ME. HE WENT AT ME WH FULL FORCE, TONGUE EVERYWHERE. THE WORST PART: HE HAD NOT SHAVED A DAY OR TWO, SO HE HAD SHARP STUBBLE THAT SCRAPPED ALONG AS HE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BEG A YOUNG, NAIVE NEWBIE I JT WENT ALONG WH . IT LASTED NEARLY SIX {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THE NEXT DAY I HAD PASH RASH OM THE NOSE TO UNR CH AND OM EAR TO EAR. IT LASTED NEARLY TWO WEEKS. I WAS WORKG A RETAIL JOB AND GOT ASKED NSTANTLY WHAT HAD {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THERE MAY BE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SIXTH GRA, AFTER SCHOOL, HI AND SEEK. HE GOT TOUCHY-FEELY AND WE KISSED. A LOT OF HI AND SEEK FOLLOWED UNTIL 10TH GRA, JT FOR AN EXCE TO HI TOGETHER AND {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THERE'S NOTHG MORE ELECTRIC THAN THE REGNN THAT WH A FIRST GAY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY FIRST KISS WAS LAST MARCH, THE THIRD OF THE MONTH TO BE EXACT, WH A GRADUATE STUNT AT MY SCHOOL. WE HAD BEEN CHATTG ON GRDR SCE THE START OF THE SEMTER, AND HE TRIED VG ME OVER ONE FRIDAY BUT I CLED DUE TO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I ULDN'T UNRSTAND WHAT A VERY HOT, MCULAR DOMIN GUY WOULD WANT OM A TALL AVERAGE-BUILT WHE GUY LIKE ME. IT HONTLY DIDN'T MAKE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}ANYWHO, I FALLY GIVE BEE I WAS ON MP WHEN HE MSAGED ME ABOUT MEETG UP. SO I WAED THE LOBBY AND WAS GREETED BY SAID DOMIN. WE HOP HIS R AND HEAD TO HIS PLACE WHERE WE STARTED BY WATCHG GLEE ON HIS UCH UNR A {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THE EPISO ENDS AND I'M ASKED IF 'S TE THAT I'VE REALLY NEVER KISSED ANYONE. I GOT NERVO AND SAID I'D LIKE TO TRY. AND BOOM! WE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}PRR TO THAT I WOULD LEAN AND THEN BACK UP LIKE A BABY, SO WHEN WE DID FALLY KISS, THIS GUY ACTUALLY HAD TO LIKE HOLD ME CLOSE TO HIM SO I ULDN'T GET AWAY. IT WAS NICE AND HE GAVE ME TIPS ON WHAT I ULD DO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I KEPT BEG WEIRD AND ASKG "OH, N I TRY THAT AGA?" TO WHICH HE HAD NO PROBLEM WH {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BEFORE I KNOW , CLOTH ARE OFF AND I'M ALSO GIVG MY FIRST {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SOMETIM 'S NOT THE FAIRY TALE YOU THK WILL {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY FIRST KISS WH A GUY WAS WHEN I WAS 14 AND WAS AWFUL. IT WAS LIKE SOMEBODY SMASHED A WATERMELON TO MY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WENT OVER TO HIS PLACE FOR A RANDOM HOOK UP/LOSE MY VIRGY WHEN I WAS 19. HE WAS 35 AND WAS TERRIBLE. IT WAS LIKE KISSG THE OPENG TO A GATORA BOTTLE WH RANDOM TONGUE. HE DIDN'T MOVE HIS MOUTH AT ALL... NOT SEXY THE SLIGHTT AND KILLED THE MOOD SO I {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THIS ONE HURTS THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY ABSOLUTE FIRST KISS WAS WH THIS GIRL NAMED RUTH. THAT WAS THE BEGNG OF A STRG OF SAD {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY FIRST KISS WH A MAN WAS NEARLY 15 YEARS LATER, WH A RANDOM HOOKUP. IT WAS ALSO THE FIRST TIME I HAD SEX. THAT'S WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT SP ≠ {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}EVEN WHEN 'S NOT SUPER-ROMANTIC N BE HOT AS {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY FIRST GAY KISS WAS THIS GUY VISG HIS OPEN-RELATNSHIP BOYIEND. WE WERE WASTED AND IMMEDIATELY AFTER HE WANTED TO KNOW IF I WANTED TO SUCK MY FIRST DICK TOO. HE WAS A GOOD {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}EVEN THE UNAD N'T PETE WH A GOOD GAY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS 20, AND WAS THE FIRST DATE I'VE EVER GONE ON WH A BOY. WE'D JT GOTTEN DNER AND GONE FOR A WALK DOWNTOWN AND REACHED MY R AGA. THE OBV NEXT STEP WAS FOR ME TO TAKE HIM HOME, BUT NEHER OF WANTED THE NIGHT TO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WE GOT TO THE BACK OF MY R AND STARTED WATCHG THE FIRST EPISO OF THE WALKG DEAD. IT TOOK ABOUT 15 MUT UNTIL WE STOPPED LOOKG AT THE TABLET SCREEN WE WERE WATCHG ON AND STARTED MAKG OUT, THE HUNGRY GROANS OF ZOMBI FILLG THE MOMENTS BETWEEN OUR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I TOOK HIM OUT TO BREAKFAST THE NEXT MORNG AND THEN NEVER SAW HIM {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SOMETIM YOU NEED TO BE SCHOOLED ON HOW TO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WE WERE BOTH HMEN HIGH SCHOOL. I WAS OUT, HE WAS NOT. BUT WE NNECTED AND ONE NIGHT ON THE TELEPHONE HE SPILLED HE WOULDN'T BE OPPOSED TO DATG A DU. THIS WAS LIKE WNG THE LOTTERY TO A HORNY GAY 14-YEAR OLD VIRG WH NO INTER EAST TENNSEE DURG THE EARLY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SO WE "DATED." TALKED ON THE PHONE NIGHTLY, HUNG OUT AT SCHOOL. ONE FRIDAY NIGHT WE MET UP AT THE MALL BEE THAT'S WHAT YOU DID BACK THEN... WE SNUCK OFF TO ONE OF THOSE SERVICE/EMERGENCY EX HALLWAYS THAT MALLS ALWAYS HAVE HIDN {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WE FOUND A POORLY L RNER AND STOOD THERE WH OUR ARMS AROUND EACH OTHER CHATTG FOR A B. HE BEGAN TO LEAN AND I PANICKED—"WA... I DON'T KNOW HOW." HE SMIRKED, SAID "JT RELAX" AND KISSED ME. ELECTRICY EXPLOD THROUGH MY BODY. Y TO LIFE AND Y TO MAGIC! THE CHOS OM "MY BABY TAK THE MORNG TRA" BLARED MY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I'D KNOWN I WAS GAY FOR YEARS—BUT THIS? THIS CEMENTED . I'VE BEEN CHASG THAT PARTICULAR DRAGON EVER {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHEN YOU KNOW, YOU {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY FIRST KISS WAS WH A GIRL WHEN I WAS 13 AND SHE WAS 14 (OLR WOMAAAAAAN). ALL I ULD THK OF WAS THAT HER LIPS WERE JT TOO SOFT AND SQUISHY! LIKE MACK' ON TWO WET GUMMY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}A MONTH LATER I KISSED A GUY—THE DIFFERENCE WAS NIGHT AND DAY! FIRM LIPS, ROUGHER SK, AND DIDN'T SMELL LIKE FLOWERS AND WATERMELON BODY SPRAY... AND I WAS ACTUALLY TURNED {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MOM WAS RIGHT: POT IS A GATEWAY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY BT IEND AND I CLEARLY WANTED EACH OTHER, BUT WE WERE BOTH TOO SHY/AWKWARD TO MAKE A MOVE. PART OF HOW THIS WAS PAFULLY OBV HDSIGHT: TO NSERVE WEED, ONE OF WOULD TAKE A H AND "SHOTGUN" TO THE OTHER, MOUTH ON MOUTH. THIS WENT ON FOR WEEKS UNTIL ONE NIGHT, STG HIS ROOM THE WEE HOURS, SMOKG A BOWL, HE TAK A H AND PUTS HIS MOUTH ON ME. AND WHILE HE'S EXHALG, HE MORE OR LS LICKS MY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}INSTEAD OF BACKG OFF AND TRYG TO MAKE A JOKE, AS IS OUR STANDARD, I LICKED BACK. WE END UP LYG ON HIS FLOOR, LISTENG TO JANE'S ADDICTN AND MAKG OUT UNTIL STARTED GETTG LIGHT OUT AND I HAD TO SNEAK BACK {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SO MANY GREAT ON, BUT THIS MIGHT BE OUR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}"I WAS THE KID WHO GOT TROUBLE FOR KISSG OTHER BOYS PRE-SCHOOL. MY PARENTS LIKE TO BRG THAT UP A LOT."{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;CLEAR:BOTH;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;MARG:0 TO;WIDTH:90%;M-WIDTH:288PX;MAX-WIDTH:1440PX;M-HEIGHT:194PX;}LATT NEWS
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WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST KISS LIKE?"WE END UP LYG ON HIS FLOOR, LISTENG TO JANE'S ADDICTN AND MAKG OUT UNTIL STARTED GETTG LIGHT OUT."{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}LIFEBY DAN AVERYJUNE 15, 2016/12:30 {HEIGHT:HER;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;POSN:RELATIVE;-WEBK-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-MS-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-WEBK-ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-ALIGN:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-ALIGN:CENTER;ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-WEBK-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;-MS-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;} IMG{HEIGHT:100%;WIDTH:100%;OBJECT-F:VER;}{HEIGHT:574PX;WIDTH:1020PX;}VANILLE SCHOKOBY DAN AVERYJUNE 15, 2016 / 12:30 PM{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"NEWSARTICLE","HEADLE":"WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST KISS LIKE?","THUMBNAILURL":","DATEPUBLISHED":"2016-06-15T16:30:46.000+0000","DATEMODIFIED":"2016-06-15T16:30:46.000+0000","IMAGE":{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT","URL":","WIDTH":1920,"HEIGHT":1080},"URL":","THOR":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","NAME":"LOGO TV"},"MAENTYOFPAGE":{"@TYPE":"WEBPAGE","@ID":"},"PUBLISHER":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","@ID":","NAME":"LOGO TV","URL":","LOGO":{"@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT"}},"CREATOR":"DAN AVERY","ARTICLESECTN":"LIFE"}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}FOR GAYS AND LBIANS, THAT FIRST KISS WH SOMEONE OF THE SAME GENR IS MAGIL. NOT JT FOR ALL BUTTERFLI--THE-STOMACH REASONS 'S WONRFUL FOR EVERYONE, BUT BEE 'S OFTEN A NFIRMATN OF SOMETHG THAT WAS BREWG {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WE LERALLY HEARD BELLS RG THE FIRST TIME A BOY PLANTED HIS LIPS ON {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}A ER ON THE GAYBROS REDD ASKED REARS TO REUNT THEIR FIRST KISS, AND THE STORI VARY GREATLY. (NOTE, YOUR TONGUE SHOULD NEVER BE ED AS A WEAPON.){BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SOMETIM TAK A LOT OF WORK TO GET TO THAT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS 14 AND WE'D BEEN CHATTG ON MSN MSENGER FOR LIKE FOUR MONTHS. I WAS PRETTY SURE I WAS LOVE. UNFORTUNATELY HE LIVED OVER AN HOUR AWAY AND I HAD NO WAY OF GETTG {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}ONE OF MY OLR IENDS VED ME TO THIS WEIRD PARA FTIVAL THG THE SAME TOWN. I ACCEPTED THE OFFER, BUT STEAD OF SPENDG THE DAY WH HER, I WANRED OFF AND PRETEND TO BE LOST WHILE I MET UP WH MY DU. WE ULDN'T DO ANYTHG PUBLIC (WE WERE SOUTHERN INDIANA) SO WE WENT TO A PUBLIC RTROOM TO SMOOCH. I'LL NEVER FET THE SORT OF SHOCKWAVE I FELT OVER MY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}AFTERWARDS WE GOT SOME ICE CREAM AND HUNG OUT AT SOME WICN LADI' VENDG TENT. I DIDN'T SEE HIM AGA UNTIL THIS PAST JUNE AT CCNATI PRI. I DON'T THK HE SAW/REGNIZED {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SOMETIM WHO YOU'RE KISSG N SURPRISE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY FIRST GAY KISS WAS MY STRAIGHT CSH OF 5+ YEARS AFTER A FEW DRKS A HOT TUB TTH OR DARE MATCH. HE WAS MORE EXCED FOR THAN I WAS!{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IT. WAS. {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THERE MAY BE PA {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS 18 WHEN I HAD MY FIRST MAKE-OUT SSN WH A GUY WHO WAS SEVEN YEARS OLR THAN ME. HE WENT AT ME WH FULL FORCE, TONGUE EVERYWHERE. THE WORST PART: HE HAD NOT SHAVED A DAY OR TWO, SO HE HAD SHARP STUBBLE THAT SCRAPPED ALONG AS HE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BEG A YOUNG, NAIVE NEWBIE I JT WENT ALONG WH . IT LASTED NEARLY SIX {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THE NEXT DAY I HAD PASH RASH OM THE NOSE TO UNR CH AND OM EAR TO EAR. IT LASTED NEARLY TWO WEEKS. I WAS WORKG A RETAIL JOB AND GOT ASKED NSTANTLY WHAT HAD {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THERE MAY BE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SIXTH GRA, AFTER SCHOOL, HI AND SEEK. HE GOT TOUCHY-FEELY AND WE KISSED. A LOT OF HI AND SEEK FOLLOWED UNTIL 10TH GRA, JT FOR AN EXCE TO HI TOGETHER AND {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THERE'S NOTHG MORE ELECTRIC THAN THE REGNN THAT WH A FIRST GAY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY FIRST KISS WAS LAST MARCH, THE THIRD OF THE MONTH TO BE EXACT, WH A GRADUATE STUNT AT MY SCHOOL. WE HAD BEEN CHATTG ON GRDR SCE THE START OF THE SEMTER, AND HE TRIED VG ME OVER ONE FRIDAY BUT I CLED DUE TO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I ULDN'T UNRSTAND WHAT A VERY HOT, MCULAR DOMIN GUY WOULD WANT OM A TALL AVERAGE-BUILT WHE GUY LIKE ME. IT HONTLY DIDN'T MAKE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}ANYWHO, I FALLY GIVE BEE I WAS ON MP WHEN HE MSAGED ME ABOUT MEETG UP. SO I WAED THE LOBBY AND WAS GREETED BY SAID DOMIN. WE HOP HIS R AND HEAD TO HIS PLACE WHERE WE STARTED BY WATCHG GLEE ON HIS UCH UNR A {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THE EPISO ENDS AND I'M ASKED IF 'S TE THAT I'VE REALLY NEVER KISSED ANYONE. I GOT NERVO AND SAID I'D LIKE TO TRY. AND BOOM! WE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}PRR TO THAT I WOULD LEAN AND THEN BACK UP LIKE A BABY, SO WHEN WE DID FALLY KISS, THIS GUY ACTUALLY HAD TO LIKE HOLD ME CLOSE TO HIM SO I ULDN'T GET AWAY. IT WAS NICE AND HE GAVE ME TIPS ON WHAT I ULD DO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I KEPT BEG WEIRD AND ASKG "OH, N I TRY THAT AGA?" TO WHICH HE HAD NO PROBLEM WH {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BEFORE I KNOW , CLOTH ARE OFF AND I'M ALSO GIVG MY FIRST {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SOMETIM 'S NOT THE FAIRY TALE YOU THK WILL {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY FIRST KISS WH A GUY WAS WHEN I WAS 14 AND WAS AWFUL. IT WAS LIKE SOMEBODY SMASHED A WATERMELON TO MY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WENT OVER TO HIS PLACE FOR A RANDOM HOOK UP/LOSE MY VIRGY WHEN I WAS 19. HE WAS 35 AND WAS TERRIBLE. IT WAS LIKE KISSG THE OPENG TO A GATORA BOTTLE WH RANDOM TONGUE. HE DIDN'T MOVE HIS MOUTH AT ALL... NOT SEXY THE SLIGHTT AND KILLED THE MOOD SO I {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THIS ONE HURTS THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY ABSOLUTE FIRST KISS WAS WH THIS GIRL NAMED RUTH. THAT WAS THE BEGNG OF A STRG OF SAD {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY FIRST KISS WH A MAN WAS NEARLY 15 YEARS LATER, WH A RANDOM HOOKUP. IT WAS ALSO THE FIRST TIME I HAD SEX. THAT'S WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT SP ≠ {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}EVEN WHEN 'S NOT SUPER-ROMANTIC N BE HOT AS {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY FIRST GAY KISS WAS THIS GUY VISG HIS OPEN-RELATNSHIP BOYIEND. WE WERE WASTED AND IMMEDIATELY AFTER HE WANTED TO KNOW IF I WANTED TO SUCK MY FIRST DICK TOO. HE WAS A GOOD {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}EVEN THE UNAD N'T PETE WH A GOOD GAY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS 20, AND WAS THE FIRST DATE I'VE EVER GONE ON WH A BOY. WE'D JT GOTTEN DNER AND GONE FOR A WALK DOWNTOWN AND REACHED MY R AGA. THE OBV NEXT STEP WAS FOR ME TO TAKE HIM HOME, BUT NEHER OF WANTED THE NIGHT TO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WE GOT TO THE BACK OF MY R AND STARTED WATCHG THE FIRST EPISO OF THE WALKG DEAD. IT TOOK ABOUT 15 MUT UNTIL WE STOPPED LOOKG AT THE TABLET SCREEN WE WERE WATCHG ON AND STARTED MAKG OUT, THE HUNGRY GROANS OF ZOMBI FILLG THE MOMENTS BETWEEN OUR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I TOOK HIM OUT TO BREAKFAST THE NEXT MORNG AND THEN NEVER SAW HIM {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SOMETIM YOU NEED TO BE SCHOOLED ON HOW TO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WE WERE BOTH HMEN HIGH SCHOOL. I WAS OUT, HE WAS NOT. BUT WE NNECTED AND ONE NIGHT ON THE TELEPHONE HE SPILLED HE WOULDN'T BE OPPOSED TO DATG A DU. THIS WAS LIKE WNG THE LOTTERY TO A HORNY GAY 14-YEAR OLD VIRG WH NO INTER EAST TENNSEE DURG THE EARLY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SO WE "DATED." TALKED ON THE PHONE NIGHTLY, HUNG OUT AT SCHOOL. ONE FRIDAY NIGHT WE MET UP AT THE MALL BEE THAT'S WHAT YOU DID BACK THEN... WE SNUCK OFF TO ONE OF THOSE SERVICE/EMERGENCY EX HALLWAYS THAT MALLS ALWAYS HAVE HIDN {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WE FOUND A POORLY L RNER AND STOOD THERE WH OUR ARMS AROUND EACH OTHER CHATTG FOR A B. HE BEGAN TO LEAN AND I PANICKED—"WA... I DON'T KNOW HOW." HE SMIRKED, SAID "JT RELAX" AND KISSED ME. ELECTRICY EXPLOD THROUGH MY BODY. Y TO LIFE AND Y TO MAGIC! THE CHOS OM "MY BABY TAK THE MORNG TRA" BLARED MY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I'D KNOWN I WAS GAY FOR YEARS—BUT THIS? THIS CEMENTED . I'VE BEEN CHASG THAT PARTICULAR DRAGON EVER {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHEN YOU KNOW, YOU {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY FIRST KISS WAS WH A GIRL WHEN I WAS 13 AND SHE WAS 14 (OLR WOMAAAAAAN). ALL I ULD THK OF WAS THAT HER LIPS WERE JT TOO SOFT AND SQUISHY! LIKE MACK' ON TWO WET GUMMY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}A MONTH LATER I KISSED A GUY—THE DIFFERENCE WAS NIGHT AND DAY! FIRM LIPS, ROUGHER SK, AND DIDN'T SMELL LIKE FLOWERS AND WATERMELON BODY SPRAY... AND I WAS ACTUALLY TURNED {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MOM WAS RIGHT: POT IS A GATEWAY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}MY BT IEND AND I CLEARLY WANTED EACH OTHER, BUT WE WERE BOTH TOO SHY/AWKWARD TO MAKE A MOVE. PART OF HOW THIS WAS PAFULLY OBV HDSIGHT: TO NSERVE WEED, ONE OF WOULD TAKE A H AND "SHOTGUN" TO THE OTHER, MOUTH ON MOUTH. THIS WENT ON FOR WEEKS UNTIL ONE NIGHT, STG HIS ROOM THE WEE HOURS, SMOKG A BOWL, HE TAK A H AND PUTS HIS MOUTH ON ME. AND WHILE HE'S EXHALG, HE MORE OR LS LICKS MY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}INSTEAD OF BACKG OFF AND TRYG TO MAKE A JOKE, AS IS OUR STANDARD, I LICKED BACK. WE END UP LYG ON HIS FLOOR, LISTENG TO JANE'S ADDICTN AND MAKG OUT UNTIL STARTED GETTG LIGHT OUT AND I HAD TO SNEAK BACK {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SO MANY GREAT ON, BUT THIS MIGHT BE OUR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}"I WAS THE KID WHO GOT TROUBLE FOR KISSG OTHER BOYS PRE-SCHOOL. MY PARENTS LIKE TO BRG THAT UP A LOT."{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;CLEAR:BOTH;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;MARG:0 TO;WIDTH:90%;M-WIDTH:288PX;MAX-WIDTH:1440PX;M-HEIGHT:194PX;}LATT NEWS
We’ll never fet watchg the inic gay kissg scen for the first time. * my first gay kiss *
For gays and lbians, that first kiss wh someone of the same genr is magil. A er on the Gaybros redd asked rears to reunt their first kiss, and the stori vary greatly.
Sometim who you're kissg n surprise first gay kiss was my straight csh of 5+ years after a few drks a hot tub tth or dare match. A lot of hi and seek followed until 10th gra, jt for an exce to hi together and 's nothg more electric than the regnn that wh a first gay first kiss was last March, the third of the month to be exact, wh a graduate stunt at my school.
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There's a way to burst through the shame gay men are ma to feel about homosexualy. * my first gay kiss *
That's when I found out that sp ≠ when 's not super-romantic n be hot as first gay kiss was this guy visg his open-relatnship boyiend. He was a good the unad n't pete wh a good gay kiss.
LGBT REPRENTATN ON TV THROUGH THE AG – OM EASTENRS’ FIRST GAY KISS TO TRANSGENR SUPERHERO
* my first gay kiss *
This was like wng the lottery to a horny gay 14-year old virg wh no Inter East Tennsee durg the early we "dated. I'd known I was gay for years—but this? Growg up Hawaii, was different, was a b isolated, I didn’t have a lot of gay iends, I didn’t have any gay iends actually.
I didn’t really know anybody who was gay but I knew that I was gay.
We went through middle school to high school together and I fely had a csh on him, I jt never really, was jt like I really liked him, I didn’t know if he was gay, we never talked about , I never even let that part of me really out.
JONATHAN GROFF REUNTS SWEET STORY OF HIS FIRST GAY KISS DURG ‘BROADWAY GIV BACK’ INTERVIEW: ‘I WAS LEVATG’
The New Zealand group Love Your Condom promot safe sex between gay and bi men wh s own adorable take on the 'First Kiss' viral vio. * my first gay kiss *
We were on dance teams together, I gus I should have known he was gay then, but, we were on dance teach together, we ran track, we did a lot of sports together so I was always sleepg over at his hoe, and there would be tim that I would be over there spendg the night wishg somethg would happen, anythg, a kiss, jt him tellg me, like, you know, high school boy’s fantasy I gus. I would say was a uple weeks before I moved to Geia, was the summer after my sophomore year of high school and I stayed at his hoe jt as a kd of a last hoorah.
The gay kissg scen had on the edge of our seats! HBO/Foc Featur/HuluEven 2023, ’s still not entirely mon for movi and TV shows to promently feature scen between two gay men kissg.
SIZZLG ! 20 YEARS AGO, THIS GAY KISS MA TV HISTORY: WATCH
"Haton" star Jonathan Groff talked about his first gay kiss durg an terview on the "Broadway Giv Back" podst. * my first gay kiss *
There are still a lot of nservativ who fight back agast the characters, storyl, and scen – which is upsettg, but very an effort to celebrate the moments, we’ve put together a list featurg some of our favore gay kissg scen om film and televisn. Scroll through to check out the gay kissg scen om movi and TV shows that we’ll never fet!
GROUNDBREAKG ON-SCREEN GAY KISS THROUGH HISTORY
The Season 3 fale of Dawson's Creek aired 20 years ago on May 24, 2000. The episo featured TV's first gay kiss, between Kerr Smh's character Jack * my first gay kiss *
One of the cutt and most romantic gay kissg scen ever took place on Young Royals.
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1987’s Mrice featured a very subtle and tentative – but still inic – gay kiss between Clive (Hugh Grant) and Mrice (Jam Wilby) durg a time when queer romance wasn’t at all somethg we expected to see on the big screen. HuluNoah (Joel Kim Booster) really wanted to be an pennt gay guy jt havg fun 2022’s Fire Island, but he didn’t foree fallg love wh Will (Conrad Rimora) while tryg to party up.
As the only out young gay kid at my school, I took the advancement of my sexual experienc to my own hands and I did what we all do: I bought a fake ID and h the gay clubs. While I knew wouldn’t be like a gay llege eroti I’d read on (gay non, really), I rather naively wasn’t expectg the fall out. I realize I fell to that old gay adage of placg my feelgs on a person who, for whatever reason, was never gog to vt them back me.
SPIR-MAN SUBWAY GAY KISS VIO GO VIRAL AND ’S BEYOND ADORABLE
Worst of all, though, the shame attached to the memori of those first tim marred how I would approach sex for was listeng to Years & Years’ new song “Sanctify, ” and seeg the band’s out gay sger Olly Alexanr talk about how the song was spired his sexual trysts wh straight men, that I realized that the feelgs are way more mon than people let on. Sure, I know all about gay guys havg sex wh straight guys, but felt reassurg to see him scribe the “sat and sner role” he embodied durg those experienc, and to hear the uncertaty and melancholy weaved to the than anythg though, was the repeated lyril mantra of “I won’t be ashamed.