Roxane Gay on Beg a 'Fat' Woman - and Reachg 577 lbs: 'The Pa Can Be Unbearable'

Contents:

• BE BIGGER, FIGHT HARR: ROXANE GAY ON A LIFETIME OF 'HUNGER'
• THE BOLDNS OF ROXANE GAY’S HUNGER
• ROXANE GAY ON GETTG WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY AND LOVE-HATE RELATNSHIP WH HER BODY
• ROXANE GAY: ‘IF I WAS NVENTNALLY HOT AND HAD A SLAMM’ BODY, I WOULD BE PRINT’
• ROXANE GAY ON BEG A 'FAT' WOMAN - AND REACHG 577 LBS: 'THE PA CAN BE UNBEARABLE'
• ROXANE GAY’S COMPLITED “HUNGER”
• ROXANE GAY REVEALS WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY MOVG SAY
• SIMPLE JTICE ROXANE GAY, STILL THE VICTIM
• ‘I’LL ALWAYS BE A BAD FEMIST!’: ROXANE GAY ON LOVE, SUCCS – AND UPSETTG PIERS MAN
• ROXANE GAY'S NEW MEMOIR ABOUT HER WEIGHT MAY BE HER MOST FEMIST—AND REVEALG—ACT YET
• ROXANE GAY FDS ESPE THROUGH VIRTUAL-REALY WORKOUTS AND P-VALLEY EPISOS
• IN HUNGER, ROXANE GAY SAYS WHAT NO ONE ELSE WILL ABOUT BEG FAT AMERI

BE BIGGER, FIGHT HARR: ROXANE GAY ON A LIFETIME OF 'HUNGER'

Gay trac her plited relatnship wh her weight back to beg a victim of sexual asslt as a child. The Boldns of Roxane Gay’s HungerIn her movg new memoir, the wrer explor sire, nial, and life an “unly body. At a time when there is no shortage of remendatns for women on how to disciple or make peace wh their bodi, Roxane Gay’s book, Hunger: A Memoir of (My) Body, stands out precisely bee she begs by clarg that she hasn’t overe her “unly body and unly appet.

” The story of Roxane Gay’s body did not beg wh this vlatn of her nocence, but was the acture that would e to fe her relatnship wh food, sire, and nial for s. Remend ReadgHunger builds on Gay’s wrg about femism, women’s bodi, and rape culture to unflchgly tackle personal experienc. Or I do” and “I do not have an answer to that qutn, or I do, ” imply that Gay unrstands all too well a broar culture that ref to acmodate fat bodi and the rtrat required to scribe the slights she’s experienced wh Gay is grapplg wh a paful, first-person story, she gracefully weav the sharp mentary that she’s e to be known for.

But what Hunger illumat is that food and the anonymy of wrg on the ter were two of the salv for the lonels and anxiety that enveloped Gay to her 20s. Its short, timate chapters follow Gay through the brokenns of her teens, the recklsns of the followg , and her current, ongog stggle to rencile the fact that beg an overweight black woman at tim mak her body a se for mentary and her humany visible.

THE BOLDNS OF ROXANE GAY’S HUNGER

You are your body, nothg more, and your body should damn well bee is not the first time Gay has wrten about her weight, the asslt she experienced her youth, and the ways that society assigns value to women of her size.

An Untamed State, a novel that some ways parallels Gay’s own experienc, follows a protagonist who is btally kidnapped and then raped. Bad Femist clud an say about Gay’s trip to fat mp, and untls says she’s prevly published onle—cludg “Breakg Uniform, ” and “My Body Is Wildly Undiscipled And I Deny Myself Nearly Everythg I Dire”—are reprted Hunger. Last year she appeared on This Amerin Life, where she noted the difference between beg “Lane Bryant fat” and super-morbidly obe (the latter the clil term for Gay’s size) Hunger, she repeatedly juxtapos an herent, ternal nflict: the survival mechanism of makg herself bigger the years followg her rape and the ways which that very act has ma her life difficult a new way.

ROXANE GAY ON GETTG WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY AND LOVE-HATE RELATNSHIP WH HER BODY

In one revealg sectn, Gay scrib the kds of exhstg nsiratns that she mak daily bee of her size—om googlg event venu to see if there are stairs, to worryg about airport seatg, to drsg mostly jeans and tton shirts, to wonrg whether a rtrant’s chairs will have arms that will pch her.

In a 2012 article for The Rump, Gay wrote that she is “always terted the reprentatns of strength women...

In addrsg unwieldy topics such as weight, sexual vlence, and trma, Gay’s takeaways are many and her endg impossible to classify as a statn. Roxane Gay, the thor of Hunger, is no stranger to topics about her body, weight loss, and food habs.

ROXANE GAY: ‘IF I WAS NVENTNALLY HOT AND HAD A SLAMM’ BODY, I WOULD BE PRINT’

How Roxane Gay’s Weight Ga StartedIn Hunger, Gay has tailed her trmatic experience wh rape at jt 12 and how that changed her life.

(Photo: Roxane Gay/Instagram) She hid om everyone, even her parents, and found fort food.

" Roxane Gay’s Weight Loss JourneyGay first ntemplated weight loss when she attend an orientatn semar at the Cleveland Clic wh her father. Roxane Gay’s Hunger: A Memoir of (My) Body was scribed to me by multiple people as an almost unbearably btal book, and is.

ROXANE GAY ON BEG A 'FAT' WOMAN - AND REACHG 577 LBS: 'THE PA CAN BE UNBEARABLE'

You yearn for Gay to be a ltle kr to herself as she glis through her past, reckong wh all the thgs she did wh her body and, more signifintly, the thgs that were done to . We don’t hold back when we talk to ourselv about ourselv, and that’s what Gay has given here: elegantly renred says wh the timacy of an ner monologue.

Gay may not want to be a spokperson for all fat people – Hunger is adamantly her story, not a universal story – but the fact is that th people will read this book and be changed.

ROXANE GAY’S COMPLITED “HUNGER”

That you ed craft to wre the book, that ’s not a therapy ssn, or a diary A Memoir of (My) Body by Roxane Gay Photograph: PR Company HandoutThere is this ia that ’s, like: “Oh yeah, I jt sort of jotted down a few memori, ” but no, that’s not te. That is somethg I do enjoy wrg about, as much as one n enjoy , bee jt boggl the md that we’re still havg the nversatns about equable accs to women’s Gay: ‘I’ve spent at least $150, 000 on weight loss. By the time Roxane Gay was a teenager, her once-lanky body had bee somethg she barely regnized: fat.

Today, Gay, 42, still fac the daily challenge of livg as an overweight woman an often unfivg, th-obssed world. At the heart of Gay’s disfort — and why she would like to be smaller — is a sire to feel healthier and move through life more easily. “Chairs wh arms are generally unbearable, ” wr Gay, who is a bt-sellg thor of Bad Femist.

ROXANE GAY REVEALS WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY MOVG SAY

While Gay is currently workg wh a dietician and acknowledg her relatnship wh her body is still a work--progrs, she feels fat-shamg is unacceptable. For much more om Gay and an exclive excerpt om Hunger, please pick up this week’s issue of PEOPLE.

chapter that reads like a trailer for a future fact, Gay rarely wr scen—preferrg to foc on material that. Roxane Gay has revealed she has unrgone weight loss surgery, a movg personal Bad Femist thor wrote that she had a sleeve gastrectomy January a piece published on the onle self-publishg platform, Medium, as part of a seri Gay has thored on the webse tled, "Unly Bodi" Roxane Jay Grabiec"I pulated to a procre after more than 15 years of ristance and had a sleeve gastrectomy at the UCLA Ronald Reagan Hospal January 2018, " Gay wrote. LoadgShe scribed her 2017 book, Hunger: a memoir of (my) body, as "a book about livg the world when you are three or four hundred pounds overweight, when you are not obe or morbidly obe but super morbidly obe" her say, Gay, 43, said the day she cid to get weight loss surgery was an "ordary day".

SIMPLE JTICE ROXANE GAY, STILL THE VICTIM

"Throughout the say, Gay wrote of her fear that someone would fd out she had cid to have weight loss surgery, after prevly wrg Hunger of her ntempt for the practice after attendg an take semar wh her father more than a earlier.

"A lot of planng has to go to a vis om bt-sellg thor, llege profsor and wrer, Roxane Gay, " the troductn to Gay's terview wh Mamamia's publisher, Mia Freedman, read. As long as there’s no bld transgenr Alt the room, Roxane Gay gets away wh g her victim pots to attack anyone who pots out that she’s full of sh.

Hey, there’s only so much an op-ed the New York Tim, where her margalized voice seems to fd a remarkable amount of real tate, Gay has e to the ironic realizatn that tws are nasty, btish and is where I found a muny beyond my graduate school peers. It’s hard to librate how we engage or om a woman whose ia of empathy is to mand the burng of a black guy who was acquted of rape, but who Gay cid was guilty anyway bee that’s how she felt, this rgs rather hollow. Gay is the is a cur phenomenon that fects the pathologilly twisted self-anoted victims where they n spew their vrl at will, utter the most absurdly irratnal nonsense and attack at will.

‘I’LL ALWAYS BE A BAD FEMIST!’: ROXANE GAY ON LOVE, SUCCS – AND UPSETTG PIERS MAN

There is another tegory entirely of racists, homophob, transphob, xenophob and other bigots who target the subjects of their ire relentlsly and are largely unchecked by the platforms enablg them.

ROXANE GAY'S NEW MEMOIR ABOUT HER WEIGHT MAY BE HER MOST FEMIST—AND REVEALG—ACT YET

And then, of urse, there are the straight-up trolls, gleefully wreakg this ems the stench of “’s so exhstg to be right and have to al wh all the wrong people who don’t adore me, ” that’s nothg pared to the lndry list of pejorativ st on the “straight-up trolls, gleefully wreakg havoc” whom Gay hasn’t already blocked for not replyg “Yasss Queen” to her is Gay’s pulsn to simultaneoly attack even as she wh about poor her scere? Th was Roxane Gay propelled to the lerary stratosphere and – as such fairytal tend to go – sted to be forever after probed about the current state of, ne years on, do the wrer, edor, profsor, podster, cultural cric, and Gloria Steem Endowed Chair Media, Culture and Femist Studi at Rutgers Universy, New Jersey, still nsir herself a bad femist? ”It is mid-morng New York and Gay, 48, is drkg a takeaway cup of ffee the eav of the brownstone hoe she shar wh her wife Debbie Millman.

ROXANE GAY FDS ESPE THROUGH VIRTUAL-REALY WORKOUTS AND P-VALLEY EPISOS

Such quali are too often terpreted as ldns or ferocy women, but the abidg imprsn Gay giv is of someone who is not gog to promise herself.

”Last year Gay argued that ncel culture “is the bogeyman that people have e up wh to expla away bad behavur” and she prefers to thk terms of nsequence culture. ”In Bad Femist, Gay admted listeng to “thuggish rap … even though the lyrics are gradg to women and offend me to my re”.

More recently she took her podst – The Roxane Gay Agenda, which she talks, mostly to Black women, about issu cludg race, femism, pop culture and polics – off Spotify over s “unfettered accs” to the “misrmatn” spread by Joe isn’t nsirg leavg Twter, notg that sce Elon Mk’s takeover the platform hasn’t “gotten measurably worse for me bee ’s always been terrible.

IN HUNGER, ROXANE GAY SAYS WHAT NO ONE ELSE WILL ABOUT BEG FAT AMERI

” The week after we speak Gay is one of nearly 1, 000 New York Tim ntributors to sign an open letter nmng the newspaper’s verage of trans, non-bary, and genr non-nformg people. ’”Gay is jugglg an overwhelmg number of projects: her podst and publishg imprt, film and TV scriptwrg (she was the first Black woman to wre for Marvel, penng the Black Panther: World of Wakanda ic seri), a book of wrg advice lled How to Be Heard, a llectn of TV cricism, a pilatn of opn piec for the New York Tim and the Guardian US, and “a few novels” – cludg a young adult novel and – y, the mours are te – a romance wh Channg Tatum.

Her mother has stage four ncer and last year Gay’s brother, Joel, died sudnly at the age of 43. ”Gay and her two younger brothers grew up a lovg, relig, strict hoehold Omaha, Nebraska.