Neil Patrick Harris talks 'Unupled,' 'rnal' world of gay datg

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• SAM HARRIS OF 1980S "STAR SEARCH" FAME: THEY KNEW I WAS THE "LTLE GAY KID"ALSO: WHAT'S GOG ON VENICE?{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}CELEBRIBY MICHAEL MTOSEPTEMBER 2, 2019/10:51 {HEIGHT:HER;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;POSN:RELATIVE;-WEBK-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-MS-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-WEBK-ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-ALIGN:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-ALIGN:CENTER;ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-WEBK-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;-MS-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;} IMG{HEIGHT:100%;WIDTH:100%;OBJECT-F:VER;}{HEIGHT:3000PX;WIDTH:2247PX;}RON GALELLA/RON GALELLA COLLECTN VIA GETTY IMAGWEST HOLLYWOOD, CA - APRIL 21: ACTOR SAM HARRIS BACKSTAGE AT HIS OPENG ON APRIL 21, 1982 AT STUD ONE'S BACKLOT WT HOLLYWOOD, CALIFORNIA. (PHOTO BY RON GALELLA/RON GALELLA COLLECTN VIA GETTY IMAG)BY MICHAEL MTOSEPTEMBER 2, 2019 / 10:51 AM{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"NEWSARTICLE","HEADLE":"SAM HARRIS OF 1980S \"STAR SEARCH\" FAME: THEY KNEW I WAS THE \"LTLE GAY KID\"","THUMBNAILURL":","DATEPUBLISHED":"2019-09-02T14:51:06.000+0000","DATEMODIFIED":"2019-09-02T14:51:06.000+0000","IMAGE":{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT","URL":","WIDTH":1920,"HEIGHT":1080},"URL":","THOR":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","NAME":"LOGO TV"},"MAENTYOFPAGE":{"@TYPE":"WEBPAGE","@ID":"},"PUBLISHER":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","@ID":","NAME":"LOGO TV","URL":","LOGO":{"@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT"}},"CREATOR":"MICHAEL MTO","KEYWORDS":"MTO UNFILTERED","ARTICLESECTN":"CELEBRI"}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IN 1983, WHEN ADAM LAMBERT WAS JT A BABY, OKLAHOMA-BORN SAM HARRIS WAS THE GRAND CHAMPN SGER ON THE SMASH WEEKLY PETN SHOW STAR SEARCH. FRH LOOKG SAM SENT BALLADS OUT OF THE PARK WH IMPRSIVE PYROTECHNICS, BOTH VOL AND THEATRIL, WHILE MANAGG TO KEEP HEARTFELT. BUT WHILE SIRS—OR ALMOST ANYONE WH A BRA—KNEW HE WAS GAY, SAM KEPT DISCREET, WHICH HE FELT WAS NECSARY FOR THAT TIME.ARCHIV/WALT DISNEY TELEVISN VIA GETTY IMAGAMERICAN BANDSTAND - "SHOW COVERAGE" - AIRDATE OCTOBER 10, 1984. (PHOTO BY WALT DISNEY TELEVISN VIA GETTY IMAG PHOTO ARCHIV/WALT DISNEY TELEVISN VIA GETTY IMAG) SAM {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}OF URSE, THAT EVENTUALLY CHANGED, AND 1994, HE MET HIS FUTURE HBAND, PRENTATN ACH-PRODUCER DANNY JABSEN, WH WHOM HE HAS AN 11-YEAR-OLD KID, COOPER ATTIC HARRIS-JABSEN. WHAT’S MORE, SAM (WHO WAS TONY-NOMATED FOR 1997’S THE LIFE) WROTE A REVEALG BOOK, HAM: SLIC OF A LIFE, WHICH BEME A STAGE SHOW AND IS NOW A FILMED VERSN, HAM: A MIL MEMOIR, HAVG PREMIERED AT OUTFT LOS ANGEL. I TALKED TO THE BIG HAM FOR A SUMMATN OF WHAT’S CHANGED SOCIETY—AND HIMSELF—THROUGH THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}HELLO, SAM. CONGRATS ON THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THANK YOU. IT’S HALF ORIGAL MIC AND HALF FAIAR MIC. UNLIKE THE BOOK, ’S CHRONOLOGIL AND GO THROUGH MY LIFE, AND ’S FUNNY AND {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I’M GLAD YOU DIDN’T SAY JOURNEY. I HATE THAT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IT’S OVESED. [LGHS]{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}TELL ME ABOUT YOUR EARLY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I LEFT HOME WHEN I WAS 15. I GOT A JOB AT OPRYLAND USA NASHVILLE, SO I QU HIGH SCHOOL AND WENT AND DID SHOWS AND A TOUR. I GOT TO BE WH OTHER PEOPLE. I HAD GROWN UP A LTLE TOWN OKLAHOMA, THE BIBLE BELT, GAY AND TALENTED, AND I FOUND A TRIBE. WHEN I LOOK AT 15-YEAR-OLDS TODAY, I THK, “HOW DID MY PARENTS EVER LET ME GO?” BUT I WAS SO FOCED, WHETHER BY IGNORANCE OR BLD FAH. MY PARENTS FELT, “HE NEEDS TO DO THIS.”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BUT I HAD A SUICI ATTEMPT WHEN I WAS 16 AND HAD E BACK TO OKLAHOMA FOR THE SUMMER. THIS IS AFTER I HAD FALLEN LOVE FOR THE FIRST TIME. WHEN I RETURNED, STEAD OF THE MOST JOYFUL THG, I HAD THIS FEELG OF, “THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE. IT’S UNFATHOMABLE.” I ULDN’T IMAGE THE LIFE I HAVE NOW, WHICH IS I’M MARRIED AND HAVE A CHILD. IT WAS NOT EVEN POSSIBLE TO FANTASIZE ABOUT . FDG THAT JOY AND LOVE SENT ME TO THE PTHS OF PRSN BEE ONCE YOU’VE TASTED SOMETHG, THKG YOU’LL NEVER HAVE FOR REAL IS WORSE THAN NEVER HAVG THE TASTE AT ALL.RON GALELLA, LTD./RON GALELLA COLLECTN VIA GETTY IMAGNEW YORK CITY - SEPTEMBER 12: ACTOR SAM HARRIS ATTENDS THE "AMA" PREMIERE PARTY ON SEPTEMBER 12, 1984 AT THE LIMELIGHT NEW YORK CY. (PHOTO BY RON GALELLA, LTD./RON GALELLA COLLECTN VIA GETTY IMAG){BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}AND YOU DID END UP ACHIEVG . BY THE WAY, FOR MY YOUNGER REARS, STAR SEARCH WAS THE ORIGAL AMERIN IDOL AND THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}UNLIKE NOW, THIS WAS A SHOW WHEN THERE WEREN’T 4,000 CHANNELS. IT WAS ONE OF A KD. WE HAD 25 OR 30 LN PEOPLE A WEEK WATCHG. IT WAS SANE, THE WAY THAT UGHT FIRE. IT WAS A LIFE-CHANGER FOR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}HOW DID YOU GET ON THE SHOW?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IT WAS THE FIRST SEASON. THEY WERE SUTG PEOPLE AND SAW ME THIS TRASHY LTLE NASTY CLUB AND ASKED ME TO DN. IT WAS A LTLE JAZZ CLUB SANTA MONI—THE KD OF PLACE YOU DON’T WANT TO SEE WH THE LIGHTS ON, BUT A PLACE TO LEARN AND FAIL, WHICH IS VAL. FOR MY DN, I SANG A ROOM FOR 10 OR 12 PEOPLE. THE ROOM WAS SO TY, THE PIANO WAS THE HALL. I STOOD THE DOORWAY AND SANG, AND THEY REJECTED ME. THEY SAID I WAS TOO THEATRIL, WHICH IS {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IS “TOO THEATRIL” FOR “TOO GAY”?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}COULD BE. THEY DO GO TOGETHER, DON’T THEY? BUT THERE WERE TWO PEOPLE WHO SAID, “THERE’S SOMETHG SPECIAL HERE. WE’RE TRYG TO DO SOMETHG UNIQUE.” SO I GOT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}AND VOTG ON THE WNERS WERE…?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THEY HAD FOUR JUDG THAT CHANGED EVERY WEEK—EVERYONE OM DAVID FOSTER TO ANN MILLER. IT WAS NOT MEAN SPIRED. THERE WAS NO POP TALOGUE, NO MENTOR, NO STYLIST. I SANG WHAT I WANTED AND WORE WHAT I WANTED. THERE WAS A EEDOM TO NOT CREATE SOME SORT OF A POP STAR. YOU DID YOUR OWN THG, AND IF H, {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:75%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BEE OF YOUR POWERFUL STYLE, WAS THERE PRSURE ON YOU TO SELL OUT OF THE PARK EVERY WEEK?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I DID FEEL LIKE I CREATED A STCTURE THAT WORKED FOR ME, AND THAT EVABLY HAD A KEY CHANGE AND A BIG FISH. WHEN YOU WATCH MY PERFORMANC BACK-TO-BACK, ’S THE SAME ARRANGEMENT! [LGHS] BUT I DID BREAK OUT OF AND DO AN UPTEMPO SONG OR SOMETHG ELSE. THE TRICKY PART WAS NOT THE SHOW, BUT AFTERWARD. I KNEW YOU N’T BUILD A REER ON SGG POWER BALLADS AND TORCH SONGS OVER AND OVER AGA. IT WOULD BE LIKE PATG ONE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}DID ANYONE WORKG ON STAR SEARCH SAY, “BUT ‘OVER THE RABOW’ IS A WOMAN’S SONG”?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}NO, THEY DIDN’T SAY ANYTHG. I SANG A LOT OF WOMEN’S SONGS. “I AM CHANGG”, “GOD BLS THE CHILD”, “IT’S MY TURN.” IT WASN’T SOMETHG NSC. I WAS THIS LTLE GAY KID WEARG OVERSIZED TUXEDO JACKETS WH TEARY EY AND SGG MY HEART OUT. THOSE WERE THE SONGS THAT APPEALED TO ME. THEY WERE TTHFUL TO ME, AND MAYBE THAT THENTICY IS WHAT REACHED {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}DID YOU HAVE SCREAMG GIRL GROUPI WHO WERE TOTAL NIAL?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}PEOPLE ONLY SEE WHAT THEY WANT TO SEE. ANYONE THE BS OR WHO HAD ANY KNOWLEDGE KNEW, “THIS IS THE LTLE GAY KID,” BUT NOBODY ELSE KNEW. I HAD ALL THE GIRLS THROWG THEIR PANTI AT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BUT YOU WERE OBVLY A FLAMBOYANT GUY SPARKL SGG JUDY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I DON’T THK I WAS EFFEMATE AS MUCH AS I WAS EMOTNALLY RAW. I DON’T THK GIRLY AS MUCH AS EMOTNALLY AVAILABLE. I WASN’T AAID TO SL MY WRISTS ONT OF YOU AND GET TEARY-EYED AND EXPOSE MYSELF A DRAMATIC WAY THAT WAS ULTIMATELY A CELEBRATN TOO. THEY WERE ALL SONGS ABOUT TRIUMPH OVER ADVERSY AND, “WHY, OH, WHY N’T I?”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:56.49999999999999%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}DID YOU EVER HAVE A FAKE GIRLIEND FOR SHOW?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}NO, BUT IF I WENT TO THE GRAMMYS, I WAS ALWAYS GIVEN A {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}DID YOU FEEL SHAMEFUL ABOUT THAT?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I DON’T THK I FELT SHAMEFUL UNTIL LATER BEE WAS JT THE WAY WAS. I DIDN’T HANG MY HEAD SOME DAILY SHAME. I DID WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IT WASN’T POSSIBLE TO E OUT BACK THEN?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}NOT A LN YEARS. NOT ONLY WAS NOT POSSIBLE, BUT I DIDN’T EXPECT TO BE. GROWG UP, THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO WERE GAY WEREN’T EVEN OUT—PL LYN AND LIBERACE. THERE WERE NO ROLE MOLS. YOU N BE BEATEN AND CERTALY I WAS {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHEN DID YOU REALIZE YOU ULD HAVE A FUTURE BEG WHO YOU ARE?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I STARTED MY FIRST LONG-TERM RELATNSHIP WHEN I WAS 23, BUT WAS THE CLOSET, AT A TIME WHEN RERD PANI WOULD TELL TERVIEWERS, “DON’T ASK HIM ABOUT HIS PERSONAL LIFE.” I NEVER LIED, BUT I LIED THROUGH OMISSN. IT BE A DIRTY SECRET. AFTER MY SUICI ATTEMPT, I HAD A PSYCHOLOGY TEACHER—THE FIRST ONE I ME OUT TO—AND HE SAID, “THERE’S NOTHG WRONG WH YOU. YOU N’T PICK AND CHOOSE PIEC OF YOUR LIFE. YOU HAVE TO BE THE WHOLE PERSON. YOU HAVE TO EMBRACE ALL.”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}HE TOLD ME TO LIVE MY LIFE. HE ALSO TOLD ME THAT HOMOSEXUALY HAD BEEN CLASSIFIED AS A MENTAL DISORR FIVE YEARS PRR— WAS THAT RECENT. WHEN YOU AND I WERE GROWG UP, WAS ILLEGAL AND A MENTAL DISORR AND THE LOWT OF THE LOW. WE’VE SEEN THIS CHANGE AND ’S EXTRAORDARY. LOOK WHAT WE DID. WE TURNED THAT KD OF PA TO SOMETHG THAT MA CHANGE AND MA A STATEMENT AND LET OTHERS KNOW THEY’RE NOT ALONE. WE’VE DONE .RON GALELLA/RON GALELLA COLLECTN VIA GETTY IMAGWEST HOLLYWOOD, CA - APRIL 21: ACTOR SAM HARRIS BACKSTAGE AT HIS OPENG ON APRIL 21, 1982 AT STUD ONE'S BACKLOT WT HOLLYWOOD, CALIFORNIA. (PHOTO BY RON GALELLA/RON GALELLA COLLECTN VIA GETTY IMAG){BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}YOU WERE SO FOCED, BUT DID YOU EVER LOSE THAT AND PERHAPS PARTY TOO MUCH?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}OH, PLEASE. I’M AN ALHOLIC, SOBER FOR 15 YEARS. I’VE BEEN LOST, PRSED. IT’S A BIG ROLLER ASTER. I’M CERTALY NOT SOMEBODY WHO WAK UP SUNSHY AND SKIPS MY WAY THROUGH THE DAY. I’VE BEEN THROUGH DARK PERDS AND ’S THE WAY I AM. THE PLAY AND MOVIE ARE ABOUT THIS NSTANT STGGLE FOR WHAT IS ENOUGH? THIS NEED FOR MORE AND NEVER BEG ENOUGH AND ALG WH WHY THAT IS AND WHAT I’M TRYG TO PROVE AND ULTIMATELY FDG WHAT IS ENOUGH, WHICH IS WHERE I AM {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS PRETTY PETIVE. I WAS AAID TO EVEN MEET SOMEONE UNLS THEY HAD HEARD ME SG. THAT WAS THE PLACE I WAS SURE OF. THAT’S ALSO BEEN MY MO FOREVER WH ALL THE OTHER THGS. IT’S JT GOG AND GOG TO A DANGERO GREE OF MORE, MORE MORE. IT’S SO EASY TO GET HARD AND A B OF AN ARMOR SO YOU DON’T FEEL SO MUCH WHEN YOU’RE REJECTED. I MA A CISN THAT I WOULD RATHER FEEL THE PTHS OF THAT THAN SHIELD MYSELF, BEE IF YOU SHIELD YOURSELF, YOU N’T FEEL THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SO I HAVE PRETTY EXTREME HIGHS AND PRETTY EXTREME LOWS, BUT I’M A FATHER AND I HAVE TO REMA NSISTENT BEE ’S NOT ABOUT ME. I HAVE SO MANY IENDS WHO ARE MUCH BIGGER STARS THAN ME WHO HAVE CHOSEN NOT TO HAVE A SPOE OR KIDS BEE THEY NEED FOR TO BE ABOUT THEM. I HAVE RPECT FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE PLETELY REER-DRIVEN, BUT I KNOW PEOPLE WHO DON’T EVEN HAVE A CIRCLE OF IENDS BEE THEY’RE ALWAYS TRAVELG AND DOG AND I THK, HONEY, WHAT’S GONNA HAPPEN LATER?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:56.49999999999999%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IS THE THRILL OF DOG THEATER DIFFERENT THAN A NCERT?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}OH, SURE. I LOVE A NCERT AND A ONE-MAN SHOW, BUT THE ONE-MAN SHOW IS BTAL PHYSILLY, VOLLY, AND EMOTNALLY, AND I ULDN’T DO ANY LENGTH OF TIME. WH A PANY, YOU LGH AND YOU’RE A FAY. YOU HAVE AN EXPERIENCE ONSTAGE THAT YOU’RE REVENTG ALL THE TIME. I LOVE WALKG THROUGH A MOTHERFUCKG STAGE DOOR MORE THAN ANYTHG. THE TTH IS, I LOVE WHATEVER I’M DOG. WHEN I’M WRG A BOOK, I N WRE 14 HOURS A DAY AND FET TO EAT. I LOVE MY LIFE AND I DON’T REGRET ANY OF {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}OH, BRAD! OH, DAMM!{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THERE HAVE BEEN NO REGRETS AT THE VENICE FILM FTIVAL, WHERE MY MOL HAVE SOME THGS TO SAY ABOUT THE DAZZLG SIR HAPPENGS {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:56.49999999999999%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}“NOAH BMBACH’S MARRIAGE STORY–SPIRED BY HIS DIVORCE OM JENNIFER JASON LEIGH—PLAYED VERY WELL, WH EDY AND FURY. IT’S A SHOCK TO SEE SRLETT JOHANSSON SUDNLY HER MID-30S, BUT SHE’S BETIFUL, AND ONE SCENE WHERE SHE AND ADAM DRIVER TEAR TO EACH OTHER SEEMS TO SCREAM OSR NOMATNS, THOUGH I ULD HAVE LIVED WHOUT THE TWO SONDHEIM {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:56.49999999999999%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}"AD ASTRA, PRODUCED BY AND STARRG BRAD PT, HAS A SUCCSN OF EXPLOSNS AND ATHS AND ALSO A LOT OF NARRATN, BUT I LIKED THE FILM; 'S BETTER THAN FIRST MAN. IN PERSON, BRAD LOOKED AMAZG, WH BICEPS BULGG AND LOTS OF BRACELETS AND TATS. THE POLANSKI FILM, AN OFFICER AND A SPY (J’ACCE), WAS RIVETG, AND WHILE HE DIDN’T MAKE HIS ANNOUNCED SKYPE APPEARANCE AT THE PREMIERE—NO DOUBT BEE OF NTROVERSY—THE STANDG OVATN FOR THE STARS SEEMED TO BE VALIDATN FOR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}"AND CATHERE DENVE GIV A REER-HIGH PERFORMANCE THE TTH, PROVG ONCE AGA THAT SHE’S THE MERYL STREEP OF FRANCE.”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}AND THAT’S THE TTH—SO LET’S END ON A HIGH {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;CLEAR:BOTH;}MTO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;MARG:0 TO;WIDTH:90%;M-WIDTH:288PX;MAX-WIDTH:1440PX;M-HEIGHT:194PX;}LATT NEWS
• IS SAM HARRIS GAY?

SAM HARRIS OF 1980S "STAR SEARCH" FAME: THEY KNEW I WAS THE "LTLE GAY KID"ALSO: WHAT'S GOG ON VENICE?{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}CELEBRIBY MICHAEL MTOSEPTEMBER 2, 2019/10:51 {HEIGHT:HER;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;POSN:RELATIVE;-WEBK-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-MS-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-WEBK-ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-ALIGN:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-ALIGN:CENTER;ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-WEBK-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;-MS-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;} IMG{HEIGHT:100%;WIDTH:100%;OBJECT-F:VER;}{HEIGHT:3000PX;WIDTH:2247PX;}RON GALELLA/RON GALELLA COLLECTN VIA GETTY IMAGWEST HOLLYWOOD, CA - APRIL 21: ACTOR SAM HARRIS BACKSTAGE AT HIS OPENG ON APRIL 21, 1982 AT STUD ONE'S BACKLOT WT HOLLYWOOD, CALIFORNIA. (PHOTO BY RON GALELLA/RON GALELLA COLLECTN VIA GETTY IMAG)BY MICHAEL MTOSEPTEMBER 2, 2019 / 10:51 AM{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"NEWSARTICLE","HEADLE":"SAM HARRIS OF 1980S \"STAR SEARCH\" FAME: THEY KNEW I WAS THE \"LTLE GAY KID\"","THUMBNAILURL":","DATEPUBLISHED":"2019-09-02T14:51:06.000+0000","DATEMODIFIED":"2019-09-02T14:51:06.000+0000","IMAGE":{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT","URL":","WIDTH":1920,"HEIGHT":1080},"URL":","THOR":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","NAME":"LOGO TV"},"MAENTYOFPAGE":{"@TYPE":"WEBPAGE","@ID":"},"PUBLISHER":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","@ID":","NAME":"LOGO TV","URL":","LOGO":{"@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT"}},"CREATOR":"MICHAEL MTO","KEYWORDS":"MTO UNFILTERED","ARTICLESECTN":"CELEBRI"}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IN 1983, WHEN ADAM LAMBERT WAS JT A BABY, OKLAHOMA-BORN SAM HARRIS WAS THE GRAND CHAMPN SGER ON THE SMASH WEEKLY PETN SHOW STAR SEARCH. FRH LOOKG SAM SENT BALLADS OUT OF THE PARK WH IMPRSIVE PYROTECHNICS, BOTH VOL AND THEATRIL, WHILE MANAGG TO KEEP HEARTFELT. BUT WHILE SIRS—OR ALMOST ANYONE WH A BRA—KNEW HE WAS GAY, SAM KEPT DISCREET, WHICH HE FELT WAS NECSARY FOR THAT TIME.ARCHIV/WALT DISNEY TELEVISN VIA GETTY IMAGAMERICAN BANDSTAND - "SHOW COVERAGE" - AIRDATE OCTOBER 10, 1984. (PHOTO BY WALT DISNEY TELEVISN VIA GETTY IMAG PHOTO ARCHIV/WALT DISNEY TELEVISN VIA GETTY IMAG) SAM {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}OF URSE, THAT EVENTUALLY CHANGED, AND 1994, HE MET HIS FUTURE HBAND, PRENTATN ACH-PRODUCER DANNY JABSEN, WH WHOM HE HAS AN 11-YEAR-OLD KID, COOPER ATTIC HARRIS-JABSEN. WHAT’S MORE, SAM (WHO WAS TONY-NOMATED FOR 1997’S THE LIFE) WROTE A REVEALG BOOK, HAM: SLIC OF A LIFE, WHICH BEME A STAGE SHOW AND IS NOW A FILMED VERSN, HAM: A MIL MEMOIR, HAVG PREMIERED AT OUTFT LOS ANGEL. I TALKED TO THE BIG HAM FOR A SUMMATN OF WHAT’S CHANGED SOCIETY—AND HIMSELF—THROUGH THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}HELLO, SAM. CONGRATS ON THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THANK YOU. IT’S HALF ORIGAL MIC AND HALF FAIAR MIC. UNLIKE THE BOOK, ’S CHRONOLOGIL AND GO THROUGH MY LIFE, AND ’S FUNNY AND {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I’M GLAD YOU DIDN’T SAY JOURNEY. I HATE THAT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IT’S OVESED. [LGHS]{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}TELL ME ABOUT YOUR EARLY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I LEFT HOME WHEN I WAS 15. I GOT A JOB AT OPRYLAND USA NASHVILLE, SO I QU HIGH SCHOOL AND WENT AND DID SHOWS AND A TOUR. I GOT TO BE WH OTHER PEOPLE. I HAD GROWN UP A LTLE TOWN OKLAHOMA, THE BIBLE BELT, GAY AND TALENTED, AND I FOUND A TRIBE. WHEN I LOOK AT 15-YEAR-OLDS TODAY, I THK, “HOW DID MY PARENTS EVER LET ME GO?” BUT I WAS SO FOCED, WHETHER BY IGNORANCE OR BLD FAH. MY PARENTS FELT, “HE NEEDS TO DO THIS.”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BUT I HAD A SUICI ATTEMPT WHEN I WAS 16 AND HAD E BACK TO OKLAHOMA FOR THE SUMMER. THIS IS AFTER I HAD FALLEN LOVE FOR THE FIRST TIME. WHEN I RETURNED, STEAD OF THE MOST JOYFUL THG, I HAD THIS FEELG OF, “THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE. IT’S UNFATHOMABLE.” I ULDN’T IMAGE THE LIFE I HAVE NOW, WHICH IS I’M MARRIED AND HAVE A CHILD. IT WAS NOT EVEN POSSIBLE TO FANTASIZE ABOUT . FDG THAT JOY AND LOVE SENT ME TO THE PTHS OF PRSN BEE ONCE YOU’VE TASTED SOMETHG, THKG YOU’LL NEVER HAVE FOR REAL IS WORSE THAN NEVER HAVG THE TASTE AT ALL.RON GALELLA, LTD./RON GALELLA COLLECTN VIA GETTY IMAGNEW YORK CITY - SEPTEMBER 12: ACTOR SAM HARRIS ATTENDS THE "AMA" PREMIERE PARTY ON SEPTEMBER 12, 1984 AT THE LIMELIGHT NEW YORK CY. (PHOTO BY RON GALELLA, LTD./RON GALELLA COLLECTN VIA GETTY IMAG){BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}AND YOU DID END UP ACHIEVG . BY THE WAY, FOR MY YOUNGER REARS, STAR SEARCH WAS THE ORIGAL AMERIN IDOL AND THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}UNLIKE NOW, THIS WAS A SHOW WHEN THERE WEREN’T 4,000 CHANNELS. IT WAS ONE OF A KD. WE HAD 25 OR 30 LN PEOPLE A WEEK WATCHG. IT WAS SANE, THE WAY THAT UGHT FIRE. IT WAS A LIFE-CHANGER FOR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}HOW DID YOU GET ON THE SHOW?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IT WAS THE FIRST SEASON. THEY WERE SUTG PEOPLE AND SAW ME THIS TRASHY LTLE NASTY CLUB AND ASKED ME TO DN. IT WAS A LTLE JAZZ CLUB SANTA MONI—THE KD OF PLACE YOU DON’T WANT TO SEE WH THE LIGHTS ON, BUT A PLACE TO LEARN AND FAIL, WHICH IS VAL. FOR MY DN, I SANG A ROOM FOR 10 OR 12 PEOPLE. THE ROOM WAS SO TY, THE PIANO WAS THE HALL. I STOOD THE DOORWAY AND SANG, AND THEY REJECTED ME. THEY SAID I WAS TOO THEATRIL, WHICH IS {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IS “TOO THEATRIL” FOR “TOO GAY”?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}COULD BE. THEY DO GO TOGETHER, DON’T THEY? BUT THERE WERE TWO PEOPLE WHO SAID, “THERE’S SOMETHG SPECIAL HERE. WE’RE TRYG TO DO SOMETHG UNIQUE.” SO I GOT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}AND VOTG ON THE WNERS WERE…?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THEY HAD FOUR JUDG THAT CHANGED EVERY WEEK—EVERYONE OM DAVID FOSTER TO ANN MILLER. IT WAS NOT MEAN SPIRED. THERE WAS NO POP TALOGUE, NO MENTOR, NO STYLIST. I SANG WHAT I WANTED AND WORE WHAT I WANTED. THERE WAS A EEDOM TO NOT CREATE SOME SORT OF A POP STAR. YOU DID YOUR OWN THG, AND IF H, {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:75%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BEE OF YOUR POWERFUL STYLE, WAS THERE PRSURE ON YOU TO SELL OUT OF THE PARK EVERY WEEK?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I DID FEEL LIKE I CREATED A STCTURE THAT WORKED FOR ME, AND THAT EVABLY HAD A KEY CHANGE AND A BIG FISH. WHEN YOU WATCH MY PERFORMANC BACK-TO-BACK, ’S THE SAME ARRANGEMENT! [LGHS] BUT I DID BREAK OUT OF AND DO AN UPTEMPO SONG OR SOMETHG ELSE. THE TRICKY PART WAS NOT THE SHOW, BUT AFTERWARD. I KNEW YOU N’T BUILD A REER ON SGG POWER BALLADS AND TORCH SONGS OVER AND OVER AGA. IT WOULD BE LIKE PATG ONE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}DID ANYONE WORKG ON STAR SEARCH SAY, “BUT ‘OVER THE RABOW’ IS A WOMAN’S SONG”?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}NO, THEY DIDN’T SAY ANYTHG. I SANG A LOT OF WOMEN’S SONGS. “I AM CHANGG”, “GOD BLS THE CHILD”, “IT’S MY TURN.” IT WASN’T SOMETHG NSC. I WAS THIS LTLE GAY KID WEARG OVERSIZED TUXEDO JACKETS WH TEARY EY AND SGG MY HEART OUT. THOSE WERE THE SONGS THAT APPEALED TO ME. THEY WERE TTHFUL TO ME, AND MAYBE THAT THENTICY IS WHAT REACHED {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}DID YOU HAVE SCREAMG GIRL GROUPI WHO WERE TOTAL NIAL?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}PEOPLE ONLY SEE WHAT THEY WANT TO SEE. ANYONE THE BS OR WHO HAD ANY KNOWLEDGE KNEW, “THIS IS THE LTLE GAY KID,” BUT NOBODY ELSE KNEW. I HAD ALL THE GIRLS THROWG THEIR PANTI AT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BUT YOU WERE OBVLY A FLAMBOYANT GUY SPARKL SGG JUDY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I DON’T THK I WAS EFFEMATE AS MUCH AS I WAS EMOTNALLY RAW. I DON’T THK GIRLY AS MUCH AS EMOTNALLY AVAILABLE. I WASN’T AAID TO SL MY WRISTS ONT OF YOU AND GET TEARY-EYED AND EXPOSE MYSELF A DRAMATIC WAY THAT WAS ULTIMATELY A CELEBRATN TOO. THEY WERE ALL SONGS ABOUT TRIUMPH OVER ADVERSY AND, “WHY, OH, WHY N’T I?”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:56.49999999999999%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}DID YOU EVER HAVE A FAKE GIRLIEND FOR SHOW?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}NO, BUT IF I WENT TO THE GRAMMYS, I WAS ALWAYS GIVEN A {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}DID YOU FEEL SHAMEFUL ABOUT THAT?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I DON’T THK I FELT SHAMEFUL UNTIL LATER BEE WAS JT THE WAY WAS. I DIDN’T HANG MY HEAD SOME DAILY SHAME. I DID WHAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IT WASN’T POSSIBLE TO E OUT BACK THEN?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}NOT A LN YEARS. NOT ONLY WAS NOT POSSIBLE, BUT I DIDN’T EXPECT TO BE. GROWG UP, THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO WERE GAY WEREN’T EVEN OUT—PL LYN AND LIBERACE. THERE WERE NO ROLE MOLS. YOU N BE BEATEN AND CERTALY I WAS {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHEN DID YOU REALIZE YOU ULD HAVE A FUTURE BEG WHO YOU ARE?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I STARTED MY FIRST LONG-TERM RELATNSHIP WHEN I WAS 23, BUT WAS THE CLOSET, AT A TIME WHEN RERD PANI WOULD TELL TERVIEWERS, “DON’T ASK HIM ABOUT HIS PERSONAL LIFE.” I NEVER LIED, BUT I LIED THROUGH OMISSN. IT BE A DIRTY SECRET. AFTER MY SUICI ATTEMPT, I HAD A PSYCHOLOGY TEACHER—THE FIRST ONE I ME OUT TO—AND HE SAID, “THERE’S NOTHG WRONG WH YOU. YOU N’T PICK AND CHOOSE PIEC OF YOUR LIFE. YOU HAVE TO BE THE WHOLE PERSON. YOU HAVE TO EMBRACE ALL.”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}HE TOLD ME TO LIVE MY LIFE. HE ALSO TOLD ME THAT HOMOSEXUALY HAD BEEN CLASSIFIED AS A MENTAL DISORR FIVE YEARS PRR— WAS THAT RECENT. WHEN YOU AND I WERE GROWG UP, WAS ILLEGAL AND A MENTAL DISORR AND THE LOWT OF THE LOW. WE’VE SEEN THIS CHANGE AND ’S EXTRAORDARY. LOOK WHAT WE DID. WE TURNED THAT KD OF PA TO SOMETHG THAT MA CHANGE AND MA A STATEMENT AND LET OTHERS KNOW THEY’RE NOT ALONE. WE’VE DONE .RON GALELLA/RON GALELLA COLLECTN VIA GETTY IMAGWEST HOLLYWOOD, CA - APRIL 21: ACTOR SAM HARRIS BACKSTAGE AT HIS OPENG ON APRIL 21, 1982 AT STUD ONE'S BACKLOT WT HOLLYWOOD, CALIFORNIA. (PHOTO BY RON GALELLA/RON GALELLA COLLECTN VIA GETTY IMAG){BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}YOU WERE SO FOCED, BUT DID YOU EVER LOSE THAT AND PERHAPS PARTY TOO MUCH?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}OH, PLEASE. I’M AN ALHOLIC, SOBER FOR 15 YEARS. I’VE BEEN LOST, PRSED. IT’S A BIG ROLLER ASTER. I’M CERTALY NOT SOMEBODY WHO WAK UP SUNSHY AND SKIPS MY WAY THROUGH THE DAY. I’VE BEEN THROUGH DARK PERDS AND ’S THE WAY I AM. THE PLAY AND MOVIE ARE ABOUT THIS NSTANT STGGLE FOR WHAT IS ENOUGH? THIS NEED FOR MORE AND NEVER BEG ENOUGH AND ALG WH WHY THAT IS AND WHAT I’M TRYG TO PROVE AND ULTIMATELY FDG WHAT IS ENOUGH, WHICH IS WHERE I AM {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS PRETTY PETIVE. I WAS AAID TO EVEN MEET SOMEONE UNLS THEY HAD HEARD ME SG. THAT WAS THE PLACE I WAS SURE OF. THAT’S ALSO BEEN MY MO FOREVER WH ALL THE OTHER THGS. IT’S JT GOG AND GOG TO A DANGERO GREE OF MORE, MORE MORE. IT’S SO EASY TO GET HARD AND A B OF AN ARMOR SO YOU DON’T FEEL SO MUCH WHEN YOU’RE REJECTED. I MA A CISN THAT I WOULD RATHER FEEL THE PTHS OF THAT THAN SHIELD MYSELF, BEE IF YOU SHIELD YOURSELF, YOU N’T FEEL THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SO I HAVE PRETTY EXTREME HIGHS AND PRETTY EXTREME LOWS, BUT I’M A FATHER AND I HAVE TO REMA NSISTENT BEE ’S NOT ABOUT ME. I HAVE SO MANY IENDS WHO ARE MUCH BIGGER STARS THAN ME WHO HAVE CHOSEN NOT TO HAVE A SPOE OR KIDS BEE THEY NEED FOR TO BE ABOUT THEM. I HAVE RPECT FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE PLETELY REER-DRIVEN, BUT I KNOW PEOPLE WHO DON’T EVEN HAVE A CIRCLE OF IENDS BEE THEY’RE ALWAYS TRAVELG AND DOG AND I THK, HONEY, WHAT’S GONNA HAPPEN LATER?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:56.49999999999999%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IS THE THRILL OF DOG THEATER DIFFERENT THAN A NCERT?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}OH, SURE. I LOVE A NCERT AND A ONE-MAN SHOW, BUT THE ONE-MAN SHOW IS BTAL PHYSILLY, VOLLY, AND EMOTNALLY, AND I ULDN’T DO ANY LENGTH OF TIME. WH A PANY, YOU LGH AND YOU’RE A FAY. YOU HAVE AN EXPERIENCE ONSTAGE THAT YOU’RE REVENTG ALL THE TIME. I LOVE WALKG THROUGH A MOTHERFUCKG STAGE DOOR MORE THAN ANYTHG. THE TTH IS, I LOVE WHATEVER I’M DOG. WHEN I’M WRG A BOOK, I N WRE 14 HOURS A DAY AND FET TO EAT. I LOVE MY LIFE AND I DON’T REGRET ANY OF {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}OH, BRAD! OH, DAMM!{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THERE HAVE BEEN NO REGRETS AT THE VENICE FILM FTIVAL, WHERE MY MOL HAVE SOME THGS TO SAY ABOUT THE DAZZLG SIR HAPPENGS {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:56.49999999999999%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}“NOAH BMBACH’S MARRIAGE STORY–SPIRED BY HIS DIVORCE OM JENNIFER JASON LEIGH—PLAYED VERY WELL, WH EDY AND FURY. IT’S A SHOCK TO SEE SRLETT JOHANSSON SUDNLY HER MID-30S, BUT SHE’S BETIFUL, AND ONE SCENE WHERE SHE AND ADAM DRIVER TEAR TO EACH OTHER SEEMS TO SCREAM OSR NOMATNS, THOUGH I ULD HAVE LIVED WHOUT THE TWO SONDHEIM {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:56.49999999999999%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}"AD ASTRA, PRODUCED BY AND STARRG BRAD PT, HAS A SUCCSN OF EXPLOSNS AND ATHS AND ALSO A LOT OF NARRATN, BUT I LIKED THE FILM; 'S BETTER THAN FIRST MAN. IN PERSON, BRAD LOOKED AMAZG, WH BICEPS BULGG AND LOTS OF BRACELETS AND TATS. THE POLANSKI FILM, AN OFFICER AND A SPY (J’ACCE), WAS RIVETG, AND WHILE HE DIDN’T MAKE HIS ANNOUNCED SKYPE APPEARANCE AT THE PREMIERE—NO DOUBT BEE OF NTROVERSY—THE STANDG OVATN FOR THE STARS SEEMED TO BE VALIDATN FOR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}"AND CATHERE DENVE GIV A REER-HIGH PERFORMANCE THE TTH, PROVG ONCE AGA THAT SHE’S THE MERYL STREEP OF FRANCE.”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}AND THAT’S THE TTH—SO LET’S END ON A HIGH {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;CLEAR:BOTH;}MTO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;MARG:0 TO;WIDTH:90%;M-WIDTH:288PX;MAX-WIDTH:1440PX;M-HEIGHT:194PX;}LATT NEWS

"Which was for, 'He's gay, and we don't talk about . In the above vio, Sam opens up about livg a lie, growg up gay and the dark day he tried to take his own life. But while sirs—or almost anyone wh a bra—knew he was gay, Sam kept discreet, which he felt was necsary for that urse, that eventually changed, and 1994, he met his future hband, prentatn ach-producer Danny Jabsen, wh whom he has an 11-year-old kid, Cooper Attic Harris-Jabsen.

I had grown up a ltle town Oklahoma, the Bible Belt, gay and talented, and I found a tribe.

IS SAM HARRIS GAY?

They said I was too theatril, which is “too theatril” for “too gay”? I was this ltle gay kid wearg oversized tuxedo jackets wh teary ey and sgg my heart out. Anyone the bs or who had any knowledge knew, “This is the ltle gay kid, ” but nobody else knew.

Growg up, the only people who were gay weren’t even out—Pl Lyn and Liberace.

He also told me that homosexualy had been classified as a mental disorr five years prr— was that recent. Is Sam Harris Gay?

When to the sexual orientatn of Sam Harris, there is no such mor which dit if he is gay. ” Lookg back, might seem that Harris, who is gay and was still the closet the 1984, picked that tune to send a d msage to Ameri about his sexualy.

”Harris don’t rell anyone his mp, or anyone at Star Search, advisg him to keep mum about his homosexualy. “And terviewers were told, ‘Do not ask him about his personal life’ — which is for ‘he's gay.

“Here I am, a gay kid high school the Bible Belt the ‘70s.

Sexualy: Gay. Sam Harris has never ma any public statement about this, so all mors about if Sam Harris is gay rema pletely unfound and unproven.