</tle><path fill-le="evenodd" clip-le="evenodd" d="M12.1303 0.000379039C10.9833 -0.00959082 9.87819 0.431464 9.05309 1.22855L9.04556 1.23593L7.79145 2.48303C7.50587 2.767 7.50453 3.22877 7.78844 3.51441C8.07235 3.80004 8.53401 3.80139 8.81959 3.51741L10.0698 2.27423C10.6194 1.74503 11.3546 1.45229 12.1177 1.45892C12.8824 1.46556 13.6139 1.77236 14.1546 2.31323C14.6954 2.8541 15.0021 3.58577 15.0087 4.35065C15.0154 5.11353 14.7229 5.84857 14.1943 6.39829L12.0116 8.58145L12.0115 8.58155C11.7159 8.87739 11.36 9.10617 10.9682 9.25237C10.5764 9.39857 10.1577 9.45878 9.74051 9.42889C9.32337 9.39901 8.91752 9.27975 8.55051 9.07918C8.1835 8.87862 7.8639 8.60146 7.6134 8.26649C7.3722 7.94396 6.91526 7.87807 6.5928 8.11933C6.27034 8.36059 6.20447 8.81763 6.44567 9.14016C6.82142 9.64261 7.30082 10.0584 7.85134 10.3592C8.40186 10.66 9.01062 10.8389 9.63634 10.8838C10.2621 10.9286 10.8901 10.8383 11.4779 10.619C12.0656 10.3997 12.5994 10.0565 13.0429 9.61274L15.2302 7.42494L15.2391 7.4159C16.036 6.59062 16.4769 5.48529 16.467 4.33797C16.457 3.19066 15.9969 2.09316 15.1858 1.28185C14.3746 0.470545 13.2774 0.0103489 12.1303 0.000379039ZM7.29806 5.11625C6.67234 5.07142 6.0443 5.16173 5.45654 5.38103C4.86882 5.60031 4.33502 5.94355 3.89153 6.38727L1.70423 8.57506L1.69534 8.5841C0.898438 9.40939 0.457483 10.5147 0.467451 11.662C0.477418 12.8094 0.937512 13.9069 1.74864 14.7182C2.55976 15.5295 3.65701 15.9897 4.80407 15.9996C5.95113 16.0096 7.05622 15.5685 7.88132 14.7715L7.89035 14.7626L9.13717 13.5155C9.42192 13.2307 9.42192 12.7689 9.13717 12.4841C8.85243 12.1993 8.39077 12.1993 8.10602 12.4841L6.86392 13.7265C6.31432 14.2552 5.57945 14.5477 4.81675 14.5411C4.05204 14.5344 3.32054 14.2276 2.77979 13.6868C2.23904 13.1459 1.93231 12.4142 1.92566 11.6494C1.91904 10.8865 2.21146 10.1514 2.74011 9.60172L4.92287 7.41846C5.21854 7.12262 5.57437 6.89384 5.96621 6.74763C6.35805 6.60143 6.77674 6.54123 7.19389 6.57111C7.61104 6.601 8.01688 6.72026 8.38389 6.92082C8.75091 7.12138 9.0705 7.39855 9.32101 7.73352C9.56221 8.05605 10.0191 8.12194 10.3416 7.88068C10.6641 7.63942 10.7299 7.18238 10.4887 6.85985C10.113 6.3574 9.63359 5.94165 9.08307 5.64081C8.53255 5.33997 7.92378 5.16107 7.29806 5.11625Z"></path></g></svg></div><div translated class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-14--Ume6q ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-normal--s54Wf ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-text--QmNJR ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-sendary--WRADg ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__body4--Pl3xY">Copy lk</div></button><button tabInx="0" type="button" class="button share-actn"><div class="actn-in"><svg role="img" width="16" height="17" viewBox="0 0 16 17" fill="none" stroke-width="1.8" stroke="#000" xmlns="><g><tle></tle><path d="M10.6543 1.38723C10.3533 0.960814 9.95383 0.61341 9.48976 0.374567C9.02902 0.137956 8.51908 0.0130716 8.00115 0.0100098C7.86087 0.0101844 7.72354 0.0502687 7.60519 0.125581C7.48684 0.200893 7.39237 0.308324 7.3328 0.435326L5.00368 5.67077H3.029C2.72335 5.66964 2.42059 5.73003 2.13876 5.84833C1.85692 5.96663 1.60177 6.14043 1.38849 6.35938C1.16707 6.57502 0.991841 6.83346 0.873459 7.11897C0.755078 7.40447 0.696022 7.71108 0.699885 8.02014V13.691C0.699885 14.3087 0.945273 14.9012 1.38207 15.338C1.81886 15.7747 2.41128 16.0201 3.029 16.0201H13.348C13.8951 16.021 14.425 15.8283 14.8438 15.4762C15.2626 15.1241 15.5434 14.6352 15.6366 14.0961L16.6493 8.4252C16.7252 8.09192 16.7252 7.74582 16.6493 7.41254C16.566 7.08205 16.4104 6.7742 16.1936 6.51128C15.9746 6.25 15.7017 6.03926 15.3936 5.89355C15.0762 5.7467 14.7306 5.67068 14.3809 5.67077H10.5328L11.0391 4.37457C11.2397 3.88784 11.3162 3.35894 11.2619 2.83533C11.1853 2.30894 10.9763 1.81065 10.6543 1.38723ZM4.75052 14.5518H3.029C2.91049 14.5525 2.79303 14.5296 2.68349 14.4844C2.57394 14.4392 2.47452 14.3726 2.39102 14.2885C2.23609 14.1199 2.14945 13.8997 2.14799 13.6708V8.02014C2.14913 7.901 2.17389 7.78328 2.22082 7.67377C2.26775 7.56427 2.33592 7.46515 2.4214 7.38216C2.50369 7.29576 2.60267 7.22698 2.71233 7.17998C2.822 7.13298 2.94007 7.10874 3.05938 7.10874H4.7809L4.75052 14.5518ZM10.6746 7.05811H14.3809C14.5145 7.05821 14.6462 7.08942 14.7657 7.14925C14.8875 7.20532 14.9948 7.28845 15.0796 7.39229C15.1675 7.49052 15.2301 7.60871 15.2619 7.73659C15.2922 7.8665 15.2922 8.00162 15.2619 8.13153L14.2493 13.8024C14.2087 14.017 14.094 14.2106 13.9252 14.3492C13.7619 14.4812 13.558 14.5528 13.348 14.5518H6.19862V6.45052L8.43659 1.38723H8.52773C8.9042 1.50037 9.23304 1.73413 9.4636 2.05252C9.69416 2.37092 9.81365 2.75627 9.80368 3.14925C9.8181 3.39741 9.78015 3.64583 9.69229 3.87836L9.23659 5.04292C9.15397 5.273 9.12623 5.51921 9.15558 5.76191C9.1877 6.00427 9.27425 6.23623 9.40875 6.44039C9.5535 6.6376 9.74028 6.80017 9.95558 6.91634C10.1774 7.03206 10.4244 7.0912 10.6746 7.08849V7.05811Z"></path></g></svg></div><div translated class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-14--Ume6q ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-normal--s54Wf ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-text--QmNJR ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-sendary--WRADg ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__body4--Pl3xY">Facebook</div></button><button tabInx="0" type="button" class="button share-actn"><div class="actn-in"><svg role="img" width="21" height="16" viewBox="0 0 21 16" fill="none" stroke-width="1.8" stroke="#000" xmlns="><g><tle></tle><path fill-le="evenodd" clip-le="evenodd" d="M2.22192 2.20503C2.36754 1.77115 2.78269 1.45455 3.26639 1.45455H17.9332C18.4169 1.45455 18.8321 1.77118 18.9777 2.2051L10.5999 8.02107L2.22192 2.20503ZM2.16639 3.94198V13.4545C2.16639 14.0529 2.66307 14.5455 3.26639 14.5455H17.9332C18.5365 14.5455 19.0332 14.0529 19.0332 13.4545V3.94206L11.0204 9.50462C10.7679 9.67991 10.4318 9.67991 10.1793 9.50462L2.16639 3.94198ZM20.4999 2.55809V13.4545C20.4999 14.8562 19.3465 16 17.9332 16H3.26639C1.85304 16 0.699707 14.8562 0.699707 13.4545V2.54545C0.699707 1.14379 1.85304 0 3.26639 0H17.9332C19.3407 0 20.4904 1.13441 20.4998 2.52818C20.5 2.53816 20.5001 2.54813 20.4999 2.55809Z"></path></g></svg></div><div translated class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-14--Ume6q ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-normal--s54Wf ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-text--QmNJR ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-sendary--WRADg ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__body4--Pl3xY">Email</div></button><button tabInx="0" type="button" class="button share-actn"><div class="actn-in"><svg role="img" width="24" height="24" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke-width="1.8" stroke="#000" xmlns="><g><tle></tle><path d="M6.785 1.92766C5.45134 1.57031 4.08049 2.36176 3.72314 3.69543L0.444815 15.9303C0.0874636 17.264 0.878901 18.6348 2.21255 18.9922L5.37495 19.8396V7.66664C5.37495 6.40099 6.40096 5.37498 7.66661 5.37498H19.4723C19.3299 5.30548 19.1788 5.24858 19.0201 5.20604L6.785 1.92766Z" stroke="none"></path><path fill-le="evenodd" clip-le="evenodd" d="M8.44161 7.4C7.86632 7.4 7.39995 7.86637 7.39995 8.44167V22.1081C7.39995 22.6834 7.86631 23.1498 8.4416 23.1498L22.1083 23.15C22.6836 23.15 23.1499 22.6836 23.1499 22.1083V8.44167C23.1499 7.86637 22.6836 7.4 22.1083 7.4H8.44161ZM10.3999 9.65C9.84766 9.65 9.39995 10.0977 9.39995 10.65C9.39995 11.2023 9.84766 11.65 10.3999 11.65H18.3999C18.9522 11.65 19.3999 11.2023 19.3999 10.65C19.3999 10.0977 18.9522 9.65 18.3999 9.65H10.3999ZM10.3999 14.15C9.84766 14.15 9.39995 14.5977 9.39995 15.15C9.39995 15.7023 9.84766 16.15 10.3999 16.15H15.3999C15.9522 16.15 16.3999 15.7023 16.3999 15.15C16.3999 14.5977 15.9522 14.15 15.3999 14.15H10.3999Z" stroke="none"></path></g></svg></div><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-14--Ume6q ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-normal--s54Wf ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-text--QmNJR ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-sendary--WRADg ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__body4--Pl3xY">Not</div></button><button tabInx="0" id="trigger818423" aria-expand="false" aria-haspopup="dialog" aria-ntrols="dialog818424" ariaLabel="View more" type="button" class="button share-actn"><div class="actn-in"><svg role="img" width="100" height="100" viewBox="0 0 100 100" fill="none" stroke-width="1.8" stroke="#000" xmlns="><g><tle></tle><circle cx="23" cy="50" r="9"></circle><circle cx="50" cy="50" r="9"></circle><circle cx="77" cy="50" r="9"></circle></g></svg></div><div translated class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-14--Ume6q ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-normal--s54Wf ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-text--QmNJR ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-sendary--WRADg ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__body4--Pl3xY">Other</div></button></div></div></div></div></div></div></div><div class="post-hear"><h1 class="post-tle unpublished">Porn Legend Tom Chase Is Nearly 60 And Wants To Make More Films </h1><h3 class="subtle">The 90s Faln and 2000s Colt star had a years-long breakdown due to paternal rejectn but has had a spirual rebirth Portland, Oregon.</h3><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-directn-lumn--Rq7pk ontend-pencraft-Box-module__paddg-bottom-16--KVxKv"><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-directn-lumn--Rq7pk ontend-pencraft-Box-module__paddg-y-16--ohCEm"><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-jtify-start--_8fEd ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-align-center--rSd6h ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-gap-12--rODKq"><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt"><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flexGrow--mx4xz ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-align-center--rSd6h ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-gap-8--HFpIK facepile"><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-align-center--rSd6h"><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-align-center--rSd6h ontend-ponents-Facepile-module__fac--FVkdk ontend-ponents-Facepile-module__size-40--pH6IT"><div class="profile-hover-rd-target ontend-rear2-ProfileAndPublitnHoverCard-module__profileHoverCardTarget--Od_YL"><a href=" target="_blank" rel="noopener" class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flexAuto--CnX9I ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset=" /><img src=" siz="100vw" alt style="z-x: 1;" width="80" class="ontend-ponents-rponsive_img-module__img--Pgjj2 facepile-face ontend-ponents-Facepile-module__face--uAQkp ontend-ponents-Facepile-module__size-40--pH6IT ontend-ponents-Facepile-module__first--TZamh ontend-ponents-Facepile-module__last--DT3p3" /></picture></a></div></div></div></div></div><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-directn-lumn--Rq7pk"><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-11--k1e8b ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-medium--x7khA ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-meta--U_nxy ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-pub-primary-text--RzL7j ontend-pencraft-Text-module__transform-upperse--IDkUL ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__meta--jzHdd"><div class="profile-hover-rd-target ontend-rear2-ProfileAndPublitnHoverCard-module__profileHoverCardTarget--Od_YL"><a href=" class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ratn-hover-unrle--BEYAn ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ">Tim Murphy</a></div></div><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-gap-4--zeW5_"><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-11--k1e8b ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-medium--x7khA ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-meta--U_nxy ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-pub-sendary-text--OzRTa ontend-pencraft-Text-module__transform-upperse--IDkUL ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__meta--jzHdd">Jul 11, 2022</div><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-11--k1e8b ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-medium--x7khA ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-meta--U_nxy ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-pub-sendary-text--OzRTa ontend-pencraft-Text-module__transform-upperse--IDkUL ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__meta--jzHdd">∙ Paid</div></div></div></div></div><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flexGrow--mx4xz ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-jtify-space-between--NvIcg ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-align-center--rSd6h ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-gap-16--TpblU ontend-pencraft-Box-module__paddg-y-16--ohCEm ontend-pencraft-Box-module__borr-top-tail-themed--e17yZ ontend-pencraft-Box-module__borr-bottom-tail-themed--eVwFY post-ufi"><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-gap-8--HFpIK"><div class="like-button-ntaer post-ufi-button style-button"><a role="button" class="post-ufi-button style-button has-label wh-borr"><svg role="img" style="height: 20px; width: 20px;" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="#000000" stroke-width="2" stroke="#000" xmlns=" class="in"><g><tle></tle><svg xmlns=" width="24" height="24" viewBox="0 0 24 24" stroke-width="2" stroke-lep="round" stroke-lejo="round" class="luci luci-heart"><path d="M19 14c1.49-1.46 3-3.21 3-5.5A5.5 5.5 0 0 0 16.5 3c-1.76 0-3 .5-4.5 2-1.5-1.5-2.74-2-4.5-2A5.5 5.5 0 0 0 2 8.5c0 2.3 1.5 4.05 3 5.5l7 7Z"></path></svg></g></svg><div class="label">17</div></a><div ert role="dialog" class="modal typography out gone share-dialog popup"><div class="modal-table"><div class="modal-row"><div class="modal-cell modal-ntent no-fullscreen"><div class="ntaer"><button tabInx="0" type="button" data-ttid="close-modal" class="pencraft modal-btn modal-ex-btn no-marg ontend-pencraft-Button-module__inButton--xpBoH ontend-pencraft-Button-module__buttonBase--T0hXz ontend-pencraft-Button-module__size_40--RASvV ontend-pencraft-Button-module__prry_sendary--UEXV6 ontend-pencraft-Button-module__fill_empty--OPYgN ontend-pencraft-Button-module__round--D6jfD"><svg xmlns=" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="sendary" stroke-width="2" stroke-lep="round" stroke-lejo="round" class="luci luci-x"><le x1="18" x2="6" y1="6" y2="18"></le><le x1="6" x2="18" y1="6" y2="18"></le></svg></button><div class="share-dialog-tle">Share this post</div><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-directn-lumn--Rq7pk ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-gap-32--uRr14 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__paddg-x-24--ViY5j ontend-pencraft-Box-module__paddg-top-32--hE9Ly ontend-pencraft-Box-module__paddg-bottom-48--OND"><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__paddg-8--wF5Sz ontend-pencraft-Box-module__borr-tail--MiH57 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__borr-radi-12--AmQy9 social-preview-box post"><div class="social-image-box"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset=" /><img src=" siz="100vw" alt loadg="lazy" width="120" class="ontend-ponents-rponsive_img-module__img--Pgjj2 social-image" /></picture></div><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-directn-lumn--Rq7pk ontend-pencraft-Box-module__paddg-y-8--exiCC ontend-pencraft-Box-module__paddg-left-12--eE6bp"><h4 class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-16--fFowu ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-bold--Ps9DB ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-text--QmNJR ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-primary--ud4Z0 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ">Porn Legend Tom Chase Is Nearly 60 And Wants To Make More Films </h4><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-14--Ume6q ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-normal--s54Wf ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-text--QmNJR ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-sendary--WRADg ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__body4--Pl3xY"></div></div></div><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-jtify-space-between--NvIcg ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-gap-8--HFpIK share-dialog-buttons-wrapper"><button tabInx="0" type="button" class="button share-actn"><div class="actn-in"><svg role="img" width="20" height="16" viewBox="0 0 20 16" fill="none" stroke-width="1.8" stroke="#000" xmlns="><g><tle></tle><path fill-le="evenodd" clip-le="evenodd" d="M12.1303 0.000379039C10.9833 -0.00959082 9.87819 0.431464 9.05309 1.22855L9.04556 1.23593L7.79145 2.48303C7.50587 2.767 7.50453 3.22877 7.78844 3.51441C8.07235 3.80004 8.53401 3.80139 8.81959 3.51741L10.0698 2.27423C10.6194 1.74503 11.3546 1.45229 12.1177 1.45892C12.8824 1.46556 13.6139 1.77236 14.1546 2.31323C14.6954 2.8541 15.0021 3.58577 15.0087 4.35065C15.0154 5.11353 14.7229 5.84857 14.1943 6.39829L12.0116 8.58145L12.0115 8.58155C11.7159 8.87739 11.36 9.10617 10.9682 9.25237C10.5764 9.39857 10.1577 9.45878 9.74051 9.42889C9.32337 9.39901 8.91752 9.27975 8.55051 9.07918C8.1835 8.87862 7.8639 8.60146 7.6134 8.26649C7.3722 7.94396 6.91526 7.87807 6.5928 8.11933C6.27034 8.36059 6.20447 8.81763 6.44567 9.14016C6.82142 9.64261 7.30082 10.0584 7.85134 10.3592C8.40186 10.66 9.01062 10.8389 9.63634 10.8838C10.2621 10.9286 10.8901 10.8383 11.4779 10.619C12.0656 10.3997 12.5994 10.0565 13.0429 9.61274L15.2302 7.42494L15.2391 7.4159C16.036 6.59062 16.4769 5.48529 16.467 4.33797C16.457 3.19066 15.9969 2.09316 15.1858 1.28185C14.3746 0.470545 13.2774 0.0103489 12.1303 0.000379039ZM7.29806 5.11625C6.67234 5.07142 6.0443 5.16173 5.45654 5.38103C4.86882 5.60031 4.33502 5.94355 3.89153 6.38727L1.70423 8.57506L1.69534 8.5841C0.898438 9.40939 0.457483 10.5147 0.467451 11.662C0.477418 12.8094 0.937512 13.9069 1.74864 14.7182C2.55976 15.5295 3.65701 15.9897 4.80407 15.9996C5.95113 16.0096 7.05622 15.5685 7.88132 14.7715L7.89035 14.7626L9.13717 13.5155C9.42192 13.2307 9.42192 12.7689 9.13717 12.4841C8.85243 12.1993 8.39077 12.1993 8.10602 12.4841L6.86392 13.7265C6.31432 14.2552 5.57945 14.5477 4.81675 14.5411C4.05204 14.5344 3.32054 14.2276 2.77979 13.6868C2.23904 13.1459 1.93231 12.4142 1.92566 11.6494C1.91904 10.8865 2.21146 10.1514 2.74011 9.60172L4.92287 7.41846C5.21854 7.12262 5.57437 6.89384 5.96621 6.74763C6.35805 6.60143 6.77674 6.54123 7.19389 6.57111C7.61104 6.601 8.01688 6.72026 8.38389 6.92082C8.75091 7.12138 9.0705 7.39855 9.32101 7.73352C9.56221 8.05605 10.0191 8.12194 10.3416 7.88068C10.6641 7.63942 10.7299 7.18238 10.4887 6.85985C10.113 6.3574 9.63359 5.94165 9.08307 5.64081C8.53255 5.33997 7.92378 5.16107 7.29806 5.11625Z"></path></g></svg></div><div translated class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-14--Ume6q ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-normal--s54Wf ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-text--QmNJR ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-sendary--WRADg ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__body4--Pl3xY">Copy lk</div></button><button tabInx="0" type="button" class="button share-actn"><div class="actn-in"><svg role="img" width="16" height="17" viewBox="0 0 16 17" fill="none" stroke-width="1.8" stroke="#000" xmlns="><g><tle></tle><path d="M10.6543 1.38723C10.3533 0.960814 9.95383 0.61341 9.48976 0.374567C9.02902 0.137956 8.51908 0.0130716 8.00115 0.0100098C7.86087 0.0101844 7.72354 0.0502687 7.60519 0.125581C7.48684 0.200893 7.39237 0.308324 7.3328 0.435326L5.00368 5.67077H3.029C2.72335 5.66964 2.42059 5.73003 2.13876 5.84833C1.85692 5.96663 1.60177 6.14043 1.38849 6.35938C1.16707 6.57502 0.991841 6.83346 0.873459 7.11897C0.755078 7.40447 0.696022 7.71108 0.699885 8.02014V13.691C0.699885 14.3087 0.945273 14.9012 1.38207 15.338C1.81886 15.7747 2.41128 16.0201 3.029 16.0201H13.348C13.8951 16.021 14.425 15.8283 14.8438 15.4762C15.2626 15.1241 15.5434 14.6352 15.6366 14.0961L16.6493 8.4252C16.7252 8.09192 16.7252 7.74582 16.6493 7.41254C16.566 7.08205 16.4104 6.7742 16.1936 6.51128C15.9746 6.25 15.7017 6.03926 15.3936 5.89355C15.0762 5.7467 14.7306 5.67068 14.3809 5.67077H10.5328L11.0391 4.37457C11.2397 3.88784 11.3162 3.35894 11.2619 2.83533C11.1853 2.30894 10.9763 1.81065 10.6543 1.38723ZM4.75052 14.5518H3.029C2.91049 14.5525 2.79303 14.5296 2.68349 14.4844C2.57394 14.4392 2.47452 14.3726 2.39102 14.2885C2.23609 14.1199 2.14945 13.8997 2.14799 13.6708V8.02014C2.14913 7.901 2.17389 7.78328 2.22082 7.67377C2.26775 7.56427 2.33592 7.46515 2.4214 7.38216C2.50369 7.29576 2.60267 7.22698 2.71233 7.17998C2.822 7.13298 2.94007 7.10874 3.05938 7.10874H4.7809L4.75052 14.5518ZM10.6746 7.05811H14.3809C14.5145 7.05821 14.6462 7.08942 14.7657 7.14925C14.8875 7.20532 14.9948 7.28845 15.0796 7.39229C15.1675 7.49052 15.2301 7.60871 15.2619 7.73659C15.2922 7.8665 15.2922 8.00162 15.2619 8.13153L14.2493 13.8024C14.2087 14.017 14.094 14.2106 13.9252 14.3492C13.7619 14.4812 13.558 14.5528 13.348 14.5518H6.19862V6.45052L8.43659 1.38723H8.52773C8.9042 1.50037 9.23304 1.73413 9.4636 2.05252C9.69416 2.37092 9.81365 2.75627 9.80368 3.14925C9.8181 3.39741 9.78015 3.64583 9.69229 3.87836L9.23659 5.04292C9.15397 5.273 9.12623 5.51921 9.15558 5.76191C9.1877 6.00427 9.27425 6.23623 9.40875 6.44039C9.5535 6.6376 9.74028 6.80017 9.95558 6.91634C10.1774 7.03206 10.4244 7.0912 10.6746 7.08849V7.05811Z"></path></g></svg></div><div translated class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-14--Ume6q ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-normal--s54Wf ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-text--QmNJR ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-sendary--WRADg ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__body4--Pl3xY">Facebook</div></button><button tabInx="0" type="button" class="button share-actn"><div class="actn-in"><svg role="img" width="21" height="16" viewBox="0 0 21 16" fill="none" stroke-width="1.8" stroke="#000" xmlns="><g><tle></tle><path fill-le="evenodd" clip-le="evenodd" d="M2.22192 2.20503C2.36754 1.77115 2.78269 1.45455 3.26639 1.45455H17.9332C18.4169 1.45455 18.8321 1.77118 18.9777 2.2051L10.5999 8.02107L2.22192 2.20503ZM2.16639 3.94198V13.4545C2.16639 14.0529 2.66307 14.5455 3.26639 14.5455H17.9332C18.5365 14.5455 19.0332 14.0529 19.0332 13.4545V3.94206L11.0204 9.50462C10.7679 9.67991 10.4318 9.67991 10.1793 9.50462L2.16639 3.94198ZM20.4999 2.55809V13.4545C20.4999 14.8562 19.3465 16 17.9332 16H3.26639C1.85304 16 0.699707 14.8562 0.699707 13.4545V2.54545C0.699707 1.14379 1.85304 0 3.26639 0H17.9332C19.3407 0 20.4904 1.13441 20.4998 2.52818C20.5 2.53816 20.5001 2.54813 20.4999 2.55809Z"></path></g></svg></div><div translated class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-14--Ume6q ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-normal--s54Wf ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-text--QmNJR ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-sendary--WRADg ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__body4--Pl3xY">Email</div></button><button tabInx="0" type="button" class="button share-actn"><div class="actn-in"><svg role="img" width="24" height="24" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke-width="1.8" stroke="#000" xmlns="><g><tle></tle><path d="M6.785 1.92766C5.45134 1.57031 4.08049 2.36176 3.72314 3.69543L0.444815 15.9303C0.0874636 17.264 0.878901 18.6348 2.21255 18.9922L5.37495 19.8396V7.66664C5.37495 6.40099 6.40096 5.37498 7.66661 5.37498H19.4723C19.3299 5.30548 19.1788 5.24858 19.0201 5.20604L6.785 1.92766Z" stroke="none"></path><path fill-le="evenodd" clip-le="evenodd" d="M8.44161 7.4C7.86632 7.4 7.39995 7.86637 7.39995 8.44167V22.1081C7.39995 22.6834 7.86631 23.1498 8.4416 23.1498L22.1083 23.15C22.6836 23.15 23.1499 22.6836 23.1499 22.1083V8.44167C23.1499 7.86637 22.6836 7.4 22.1083 7.4H8.44161ZM10.3999 9.65C9.84766 9.65 9.39995 10.0977 9.39995 10.65C9.39995 11.2023 9.84766 11.65 10.3999 11.65H18.3999C18.9522 11.65 19.3999 11.2023 19.3999 10.65C19.3999 10.0977 18.9522 9.65 18.3999 9.65H10.3999ZM10.3999 14.15C9.84766 14.15 9.39995 14.5977 9.39995 15.15C9.39995 15.7023 9.84766 16.15 10.3999 16.15H15.3999C15.9522 16.15 16.3999 15.7023 16.3999 15.15C16.3999 14.5977 15.9522 14.15 15.3999 14.15H10.3999Z" stroke="none"></path></g></svg></div><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-14--Ume6q ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-normal--s54Wf ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-text--QmNJR ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-sendary--WRADg ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__body4--Pl3xY">Not</div></button><button tabInx="0" id="trigger818425" aria-expand="false" aria-haspopup="dialog" aria-ntrols="dialog818426" ariaLabel="View more" type="button" class="button share-actn"><div class="actn-in"><svg role="img" width="100" height="100" viewBox="0 0 100 100" fill="none" stroke-width="1.8" stroke="#000" xmlns="><g><tle></tle><circle cx="23" cy="50" r="9"></circle><circle cx="50" cy="50" r="9"></circle><circle cx="77" cy="50" r="9"></circle></g></svg></div><div translated class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__size-14--Ume6q ontend-pencraft-Text-module__le-height-20--p0dP8 ontend-pencraft-Text-module__weight-normal--s54Wf ontend-pencraft-Text-module__font-text--QmNJR ontend-pencraft-Text-module__lor-sendary--WRADg ontend-pencraft-Text-module__ret--dW0zZ ontend-pencraft-Text-module__body4--Pl3xY">Other</div></button></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div><a role="button" href=" class="post-ufi-button style-button post-ufi-ment-button has-label wh-borr"><svg role="img" style="height: 20px; width: 20px;" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="#000000" stroke-width="2" stroke="#000" xmlns=" class="in"><g><tle></tle><svg xmlns=" width="24" height="24" viewBox="0 0 24 24" stroke-width="2" stroke-lep="round" stroke-lejo="round" class="luci luci-msage-circle"><path d="m3 21 1.9-5.7a8.5 8.5 0 1 1 3.8 3.8z"></path></svg></g></svg><div class="label">6</div></a></div><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-gap-8--HFpIK"><a role="button" href="javascript:void(0)" class="post-ufi-button style-button no-in has-label wh-borr"><div class="label">Share</div></a></div></div></div></div><div class="visibily-check"></div><div class class><div class="available-ntent"><div dir="to" class="body markup"><div class="ptned-image-ntaer"><figure><a class="image-lk is-viewable-img image2" target="_blank" href=" data-ponent-name="Image2ToDOM" rel><div class="image2-set"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset=" 424w, 848w, 1272w, 1456w" siz="100vw" /><img src=" width="536" height="692" data-attrs="{"src":"" class="sizg-normal" alt srcset=" 424w, 848w, 1272w, 1456w" siz="100vw" fetchprry="high" /></picture><div class="image-lk-expand"><svg xmlns=" width="16" height="16" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="#FFFFFF" stroke-width="2" stroke-lep="round" stroke-lejo="round" class="luci luci-maximize2"><polyle pots="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyle><polyle pots="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyle><le x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></le><le x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></le></svg></div></div></a><figptn class="image-ptn">A recent shot of Tom, 58, at home Portland.</figptn></figure></div><p><span>Happy midsummer, Caftan rears! I hope you are havg a good one spe the bad thgs that ntue to swirl around the U.S. and elsewhere. It is so important that Democrats w as many rac as possible this November, and </span><a href=" rel>here</a><span> is a recent </span><em>New York</em><span> magaze piece on the ccial rac to not only watch—but, if you n, to donate to and/or even nvass for if you have the means and the time. In late October/earlyNovember, I will probably head wh some iends aga to Pennsylvania, as we did 2020, to nvass for Democratic Senate ndidate John Fetterman. But as I wre this, I leave ls than 24 hours for three weeks GREECE, where I’ve never been. I’m exced! I’m also gog to try to be off my laptop for the longt time sce I n’t even remember, and to try to READ READ READ, cludg Zadie Smh’s </span><em>Whe Teeth</em><span>, which, believe or not, I’ve yet to tackle. </span></p><p><span>But enough about that! I’m actually so exced to have terviewed for this Caftan Chronicl my first porn star—neti Faln and 2000s Colt legend Tom Chase. I reached out to him bee, y, I am a big porn fan and I’ve long been a big Tom Chase fan, bee he always seemed to me, addn to beg a very petent hung dom top (at least the Faln years), kd of a nice regular guy, almost like your iendly, affable high school gym teacher you had a huge secret closeted csh on. But more so, I thk porn is more important the liv of gay men than we give cred for. It’s where many of actually </span><em>see</em><span> what gay sex looks like for the first time, what the different typ and trop of gay sire are, and a sense ’s where many of actually kd of </span><em>learn</em><span> how to have gay sex—at least the technil, if not necsarily the emotnal, sense. And I am also terted sex work as a reer and how different sex workers go about their reers—eher haphazardly and msily, or wh tentn and thoughtfulns. Tom (whose real name, Tom Moore, he is open about) is fely the latter tegory, as you’ll see. He had a visn for the arc of his porn reer that he executed, and he tends to have another chapter. But what I did </span><em>not</em><span> expect necsarily was that he would be so forthg about a years-long breakdown he had the 2000s and the 2010s, and how he lerally cried his way through , largely whout profsnal help—that, too, was a nsc choice, although not one I’d remend—to e out the other si. I thk what I took away om his story is that not even someone who was a kd of gay physil ial was spared the pa of parental and social rejectn that so many of gay men—perhaps more so on the olr si?—experience as children and teenagers. </span></p><p><span>I do want to note that this is a very sexually graphic terview, so please proceed wh that md. And I’ve ma the choice to, well, censor the part of Tom he is perhaps most known for, bee if there is some kd of Substack algorhm out there, I don’t want shuntg The Caftan Chronicl to a porn cul--sac. And wh that, I give you Tom Chase, to whom I am very thankful for the </span><em>three</em><span> separate hours-long ssns he spent wh me on the phone, always beg thoughtful and open about whatever I asked him. He took his porn reer serly and was able to talk about wh tail and pth, which I really appreciated. So here we go! Oh! But before we do, I want to say, as always, thanks to those of you who support Caftan wh your $5/month subscriptn, and if you have the unpaid versn, please nsir, if you n, dog the $5 versn— really helps me ntue rvg out the time for this labor of love! </span></p><div><hr /></div><p>Tim: Tom, thank you so much for dog a Caftan talk wh me! moved to Portland, Oregon, 2012, rrect?</p><p>Tom: Y. Prr to that, I was Dallas [where he grew up]. There was a turng pot my life where I was learng how to stroy my ego orr to be ee. Basilly everythg life I'd attached to emotnally I had to let go of, or I was gog to die on the si. I saw my parents do that, by livg out of duty and not for their own happs. So 2012 this feelg beme so profound that I had to leave Dallas so I uld dissolve, and when I say that, I'm talkg about a nervo breakdown. I did what a wound animal would do, which is go lie down unr a bh until I was healed. I realized that my unhapps was nnected to my immediate fay, which had bee toxic. My parents were que wealthy but my childhood was unhappy bee was so le-oriented, and of urse my beg gay didn't f to that. I also disvered that my father was a narcissist.</p><div class="ptned-image-ntaer"><figure><a class="image-lk is-viewable-img image2" target="_blank" href=" data-ponent-name="Image2ToDOM" rel><div class="image2-set"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset=" 424w, 848w, 1272w, 1456w" siz="100vw" /><img src=" width="795" height="1072" data-attrs="{"src":"" class="sizg-normal" alt srcset=" 424w, 848w, 1272w, 1456w" siz="100vw" /></picture><div class="image-lk-expand"><svg xmlns=" width="16" height="16" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="#FFFFFF" stroke-width="2" stroke-lep="round" stroke-lejo="round" class="luci luci-maximize2"><polyle pots="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyle><polyle pots="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyle><le x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></le><le x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></le></svg></div></div></a><figptn class="image-ptn">Tom at eight years old.</figptn></figure></div><p></p><p>Tim: How did you disver that?</p><p>Tom: I didn't have a therapist. My nscience was my gui through five years of ep cryg every sgle day, 2010 to 2015, not stoppg until I went to bed. I'd sleep well, wake up and do all over aga. After five years, I'd cried out all of my pa and sorrow and had let go of my guilt, shame, anger and rentments. I let go of bad habs, actns and thoughts that got the way of my joy. All my iends and fay had to go.</p><p>Tim: All of them?</p><p>Tom: Y. Any iend who tly loved me would meet me on the other si of [my transformatn] and none did except for one, Gordon, my current roommate, who stayed by my si, so he is the first iend of this new chapter of my life. </p><div class="ptned-image-ntaer"><figure><a class="image-lk is-viewable-img image2" target="_blank" href=" data-ponent-name="Image2ToDOM" rel><div class="image2-set"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset=" 424w, 848w, 1272w, 1456w" siz="100vw" /><img src=" width="1456" height="1092" data-attrs="{"src":"" class="sizg-normal" alt srcset=" 424w, 848w, 1272w, 1456w" siz="100vw" loadg="lazy" /></picture><div class="image-lk-expand"><svg xmlns=" width="16" height="16" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="#FFFFFF" stroke-width="2" stroke-lep="round" stroke-lejo="round" class="luci luci-maximize2"><polyle pots="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyle><polyle pots="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyle><le x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></le><le x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></le></svg></div></div></a><figptn class="image-ptn">Tom and Gordon.</figptn></figure></div><p>All the people the past were dog the same thgs and thkg the same way I was—drkg and dog dgs, believg thgs that aren't te or learng not to believe at all. </p><p>Tim: Some of what you're talkg about sounds very Buddhist, lettg go of the self. Did you get to Buddhism or medatn?</p><p>Tom: No. It all happened anilly. When I'd had enough of beg unhappy and livg paycheck to paycheck, I surrenred myself to my higher power, which is love, to heal my life.</p><p>Tim: Okay—let's get back to this a b, but now I want to go all the way back. So you are 57 now?</p><p>Tom: Y. I was born Columb, Oh. Both my parents were om Oklahoma, high school sweethearts, the basketball pta and the homeg queen who fell love and married. My father went on to bee a renowned pediatrician. When I was five, we moved to Highland Park, a very wealthy part of Dallas. I knew I was gay at five. Homosexualy is the most predomant theme my life. When my father would take to the Y to swim, was required then that you swim nu—so I'm seeg all kds of men naked and am beg turned on right and left. But I'm not aware that the turn-on is disgtg to most people. When I was seven, I had a iend spend the night. He got a boner and humped me and got my crack. I liked a lot and I didn't feel badly about .</p><div class="ptned-image-ntaer"><figure><a class="image-lk is-viewable-img image2" target="_blank" href=" data-ponent-name="Image2ToDOM" rel><div class="image2-set"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset=" 424w, 848w, 1272w, 1456w" siz="100vw" /><img src=" width="949" height="787" data-attrs="{"src":"" class="sizg-normal" alt srcset=" 424w, 848w, 1272w, 1456w" siz="100vw" loadg="lazy" /></picture><div class="image-lk-expand"><svg xmlns=" width="16" height="16" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="#FFFFFF" stroke-width="2" stroke-lep="round" stroke-lejo="round" class="luci luci-maximize2"><polyle pots="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyle><polyle pots="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyle><le x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></le><le x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></le></svg></div></div></a><figptn class="image-ptn">Tom at twelve.</figptn></figure></div><p></p><p>But then Highland Park, I transfer to my new school at eight and immediately get lled a faggot on my first day—not bee I acted like one but bee I wouldn't fight. </p><p>I had a major break wh my dad early on. When I was five, I gave my dad a stuffed watermelon pillow for his birthday. He took me to the other room and said, "Don't you ever buy me somethg like this aga." So right then, I knew this was not a man to tst or learn om. I knew what he did was wrong. So I cid I would not let him raise me. The wall went up on him and he uld never reach me aga. I survived bee I behaved myself until I uld move out after age 18. I hung out wh my mom, but over time I realized she loved him more than her own children, so I put the wall up on her, too. I was on my own. I never went to them for advice.</p><p>In elementary school, I got lled a faggot every day. But I knew they were rrect, so even though I didn't say "Y, I am," I also didn't ny . By high school, I wasn't popular but I was rpected. I was a gymnast. </p><div class="ptned-image-ntaer"><figure><a class="image-lk is-viewable-img image2" target="_blank" href=" data-ponent-name="Image2ToDOM" rel><div class="image2-set"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset=" 424w, 848w, 1272w, 1456w" siz="100vw" /><img src=" width="742" height="1022" data-attrs="{"src":"" class="sizg-normal" alt srcset=" 424w, 848w, 1272w, 1456w" siz="100vw" loadg="lazy" /></picture><div class="image-lk-expand"><svg xmlns=" width="16" height="16" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="#FFFFFF" stroke-width="2" stroke-lep="round" stroke-lejo="round" class="luci luci-maximize2"><polyle pots="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyle><polyle pots="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyle><le x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></le><le x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></le></svg></div></div></a><figptn class="image-ptn">Tom at 15.</figptn></figure></div><p></p><p>Then nth gra, a kid named Chris mov to town and be my iend. He was clearly gay, very effemate, gettg teased left and right. I do not like effemate men and I never have. I've examed this wh myself for years as to why. I thought maybe there was an effemate si to me. But I jt don't like . </p><p>Tim: You mean you're not sexually attracted to effemate men or you don't like them generally? And why do you thk bothers you so much? Do you thk you simply ternalized the ep anti-effemacy [ men] stra that ns through society, even more so then than now?</p><p>Tom: I don't re if you're effemate if you're my iend. And I vote for the rights of everybody. But a lot of effemate men e on to me bee I'm what they want. But I don't want them. So Chris was everythg that put me off. It's embarrassg to hang out wh someone who swish around. But we beme iends anyway, although not sexually. And I adapted to his effemacy. And I learned that he was not such a bad guy. We beme bt iends out of survival. We were tagged as gay school. We avoid each other the hallway and hung out after school. But then he got a r and we cid to go to this gay bar lled The Village Statn. We're unrage wh brac and ae, but the owner let anyway.</p><p>Tim: Oh wow, so you started gog to gay venu early. Do you remember watchg your first porn?</p><p><span>Tom: Y, at Chris' hoe. His stepfather's [straight] porn movi. We saw </span><em>The Story of O, Behd the Green Door</em><span>, </span><em>Deep Throat. </em><span>Of urse I was turned on by the guys. The first gay porn I saw was [1988's]</span><a href=" rel> </a><em><a href=" rel>Cis'</a><span> </span></em><span>wh Joe Ca. [Tim: Tom and Joe later married 1998 and were together until 2000.]</span></p><div class="ptned-image-ntaer"><figure><a class="image-lk is-viewable-img image2" target="_blank" href=" data-ponent-name="Image2ToDOM" rel><div class="image2-set"><picture><source type="image/webp" srcset=" 424w, 848w, 1272w, 1456w" siz="100vw" /><img src=" width="1256" height="870" data-attrs="{"src":"" class="sizg-normal" alt srcset=" 424w, 848w, 1272w, 1456w" siz="100vw" loadg="lazy" /></picture><div class="image-lk-expand"><svg xmlns=" width="16" height="16" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="#FFFFFF" stroke-width="2" stroke-lep="round" stroke-lejo="round" class="luci luci-maximize2"><polyle pots="15 3 21 3 21 9"></polyle><polyle pots="9 21 3 21 3 15"></polyle><le x1="21" x2="14" y1="3" y2="10"></le><le x1="3" x2="10" y1="21" y2="14"></le></svg></div></div></a><figptn class="image-ptn">Tom (left) and Joe gettg married 1998.</figptn></figure></div><p></p><p>Tim: So when is your first gay sex?</p><p>Tom: When I was 16, I met a hot waer who was 28. I show up at his doorstep wh two steaks and tell him he's hot. And we date for two years, so that was my high school boyiend. </p><p>Tim: Wow, so he was 28 and you were high school. In retrospect, do you thk that was wrong of him?</p><p><span>Tom: No. I was a boy who wanted to sleep wh men. I would have slept wh my gymnastics ach if I uld have. When I disvered NAMBLA [the ntroversial </span><a href=" rel>North Amerin Man-Boy Love Associatn</a><span>, which apparently barely exists anymore], ma sense to me. An olr man wh a younger boy don't disturb me, bee I know that if the boy is to , 's a very good maturg suatn for him. It's fely what I wanted. I wasn't lettg my dad raise me, so as I entered to homosexualy, I need the advice and guidance of olr men. I never liked people my own age. So around this time I meet a man who suggts that I do porn when he se how big my dick is. Up to that pot, I thought everyone's dick was the same size.</span></p><p>Tim: Y, I did want to ask you about your relatnship wh your own dick, bee has been such a fg feature of your porn reer. How do you feel about ? Grateful for ?</p><p></p></div></div><div class="visibily-check"></div><div data-ttid="paywall" data-ponent-name="Paywall" class="paywall"><h2 class="paywall-tle">This post is for paid subscribers</h2><div class="paywall-cta"><a href=" native><button tabInx="0" type="button" class="button subscribe-btn"><div class="pencraft ontend-pencraft-Box-module__ret--VfQY8 ontend-pencraft-Box-module__display-flex--ZqeZt ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-align-center--rSd6h ontend-pencraft-Box-module__flex-gap-8--HFpIK"><svg xmlns=" width="20" height="20" viewBox="0 0 24 24" fill="none" stroke="currentColor" stroke-width="2" stroke-lep="round" stroke-lejo="round" class="luci luci-pl"><le x1="12" x2="12" y1="5" y2="19"></le><le x1="5" x2="19" y1="12" y2="12"></le></svg>Subscribe</div></button></a></div><div class="paywall-log"><a href=" native>Already a paid subscriber? <b>Sign </b></a></div></div></div></article></div></div></div></div><div class="footer-wrap publitn-footer"><div class="visibily-check"></div><div class="footer themed-background"><div class="ntaer"><div class="footer-blurbs"><div class="footer-pyright-blurb">© 2023 Tim Murphy</div><div class="footer-terms-blurb"><a href=" target="__blank">Privacy</a><span> ∙ </span><a href=" target="__blank">Terms</a><span> ∙ </span><a href=" target="__blank">Collectn notice</a></div></div><div class="footer-buttons"><a native href=" class="footer-substack-cta start-publishg"><svg role="img" width="1000" height="1000" viewBox="0 0 1000 1000" fill="#FF6719" stroke-width="1.8" stroke="none" xmlns="><g><tle>
.