How to Cope When Your Spoe Is Gay

Contents:

• I MARRIED A GAY MAN
• GAY SUPPORT: WHERE TO FD LGBT HELP AND SUPPORT GROUPS
• HOW TO COPE WHEN YOUR SPOE COM OUT AS GAY
• I’M A STRAIGHT WOMAN WHO MARRIED A GAY MAN
• STRAIGHT WOMEN AND THEIR GAY HBANDS
• FDG OUT YOUR SPOE IS GAY
• WHEN GAY MEN (MIS)MARRY STRAIGHT WOMEN, PART 2

I MARRIED A GAY MAN

GAMMA is a peer support group for men who are gay, bisexual, qutng or don't intify themselv as any of the above, but who are attracted to men; and who are, or who were, married or otherwise volved wh a woman. Sadly, most married, closeted gay men are manipulative, narcissistic n artists who only thk about themselv wh only ocsnal feelgs of guilt and remorse. Often is acpanied by doubt and self-blame, for example, "If I'd been enough of a woman (or man), he (or she) would not be gay.

Sce all men and women have been raised siar cultur, they have rporated the “ials” of masculy whether they are gay, straight, bisexual, or other. But toxic masculy is not a uniquely heterosexual problem, and some straight women are or were married to very toxic gay men. My closeted gay hband looks at me wh rentment and disda, and he ab me physilly, emotnally, and verbally.

Projectn is fundamental to toxic masculy, and one of the characteristics is a disda for homosexualy which generat shame, self-hatred, and even gay bashg. One woman wrote, Don't tell me they don't know they're gay by the time they're their teens.

GAY SUPPORT: WHERE TO FD LGBT HELP AND SUPPORT GROUPS

Early theori about the velopment of homosexualy rerced this ia that to be “a well-veloped homosexual, ” startg adolcence, one begs to pass through stag of homosexual velopment a lear fashn. My experienc nnot be ed to generalize about all gay men mixed-orientatn marriag, and I would not enurage anyone to seek rapprochement wh an abive man, but gay men are as different om each other as are heterosexual men.

HOW TO COPE WHEN YOUR SPOE COM OUT AS GAY

Many lbian, gay, bisexual or transgenr people e out years after they have been married to an oppose-sex heterosexual wife or hband. "It's nobody that I knew� was mostly oral sex� jt happened� At gay bars, there are back rooms wh hol the walls�" A wave of nsea swept over me as I listened to his agonized nfsn. At that moment, I felt as if I were standg alone the world, stripped of all digny, wh a big sign on me that read movie Brokeback Mounta turned a spotlight on gay men who lead double liv, havg sex wh other men while they are married to women.

That means there are a large number of women who have no ia what their hband do perdilly see stori about married men public life who are gay or have been implited homosexual behavr—such as Senator Larry Craig (R—Idaho), who was arrted last summer for allegedly solicg a male police officer an airport bathroom, and former New Jersey ernor Jam McGreevey, who proclaimed that he was a "gay Amerin" when he announced his rignatn om office. Early our relatnship, Chris told me he'd had homosexual experienc as a teenager but assured me was youthful cursy. But I also didn't believe that a gay man would ever be attracted to a straight woman, and I was naive—too naive to see why a homosexual man would marry and spend years lyg to his wife, his iends, his fay and begngI was a 19-year-old llege hman Kentucky when I met Chris.

I’M A STRAIGHT WOMAN WHO MARRIED A GAY MAN

Chris's father was a Southern Baptist mister who preached fire and brimstone, and Chris was tght that beg gay was the ultimate s—an absolute sentence to unual thgs happened on our first date. Then, after he kissed me good-night, he shocked me aga, sayg, "No matter what you hear, I'm not gay.

STRAIGHT WOMEN AND THEIR GAY HBANDS

But the world we lived , people often claimed a guy was gay if he wasn't a jock or really macho, so I didn't want to judge someone bee of who his iends were and what he did.

FDG OUT YOUR SPOE IS GAY

At a party wh his work iends, I got to an argument wh a woman who'd been drkg, and she said, out of the blue, "Well, at least my hband's not gay. Later that eveng, when I told Chris what happened, he remd me that he'd always been teased about beg gay, but he assured me, "It's not te. He beme fensive and announced, "I haven't gone to bed wh anybody, but I've been gog to gay bars.

WHEN GAY MEN (MIS)MARRY STRAIGHT WOMEN, PART 2

As ual, I didn't dwell on my emotns; I foced more on my fay's well-beg than on what the future might wonr why Chris uldn't accept his homosexualy, but the s factor was graed him at an early age. Beg gay would not only endanger his job and fay life, uld also st him his relatnship wh his parents, his church and God.

Chris feared that g out would validate him as a human beg—and might even send him to therapist doubted the marriage uld survive, yet I was dited to our unn if Chris was termed not to be gay.

The therapist told Chris that he'd have to stop gog to gay bars, and we tried, aga, to start ah. It was the worst time of my only thg that saved my sany was the Straight Spoe Network, an ternatnal support group found by another woman who'd been married to a gay man. I also learned that a surprisg number of gays the ary are married bee marriage is such a eful ont.