“He was unapologetilly, glorly proud to be a gay Jew. That feelg radiated om him and spired everyone his prence."
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- ARI GOLD, PNEERG DANCE ARTIST AND GAY NIGHTLIFE IN, DI AT 47
- BOY CULTURE : COVERG HOT MEN, GAY ISSU, CELEBRI, MOVI, MIC & MORE
- THE ‘SUPER-GAY, SUPER-JEWISH’ ARI GOLD’S IENDS AND FAY REMEMBER THE LATE POP STAR WHO EMBRACED BOTH INTI
- GAY SHAME AND CANCER SHAME AREN'T THAT DIFFERENT, I WOULD KNOW"SOON AFTER I WAS DIAGNOSED, I REALIZED MY SHAME HAD RETURNED WH A VENGEANCE, THIS TIME AS NCER," WR GAY POP SGER ARI {FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}LIFEBY ARI GOLDMAY 15, 2018/9:38 {HEIGHT:HER;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;POSN:RELATIVE;-WEBK-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-MS-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-WEBK-ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-ALIGN:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-ALIGN:CENTER;ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-WEBK-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;-MS-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;} IMG{HEIGHT:100%;WIDTH:100%;OBJECT-F:VER;}{HEIGHT:4368PX;WIDTH:2912PX;}JOHN AIGNERBY ARI GOLDMAY 15, 2018 / 9:38 AM{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"NEWSARTICLE","HEADLE":"GAY SHAME AND CANCER SHAME AREN'T THAT DIFFERENT, I WOULD KNOW","THUMBNAILURL":","DATEPUBLISHED":"2018-05-15T13:38:37.000+0000","DATEMODIFIED":"2018-05-15T13:38:37.000+0000","IMAGE":{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT","URL":","WIDTH":1920,"HEIGHT":1080},"URL":","THOR":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","NAME":"LOGO TV"},"MAENTYOFPAGE":{"@TYPE":"WEBPAGE","@ID":"},"PUBLISHER":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","@ID":","NAME":"LOGO TV","URL":","LOGO":{"@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT"}},"CREATOR":"ARI GOLD","ARTICLESECTN":"LIFE"}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS DIAGNOSED WH MYELODSPLASTIC SYNDROM (MDS) ABOUT FIVE YEARS AGO. IT IS A BLOOD NCER CURABLE WH A BONE MARROW TRANSPLANT FOR WHICH MY OLST BROTHER IS A PERFECT MATCH DONOR (AND MY ONLY MATCH CURRENTLY THE DATABASE). I HAVE BEEN HOLDG OFF TREATMENT WHILE I SEE HOW MY BODY RPONDS TO A CHANGE DIET (PALEO/KETOGENIC) AND SUPPLEMENTS BEFORE PUTTG THE TOXIC CHEMOTHERAPY REQUIRED FOR TRANSPLANT. WHILE MY DOCTORS AT SLOAN KETTERG ARE STRONGLY REMENDG THE TRANSPLANT AS SOON AS POSSIBLE, WHICH TAK ABOUT A YEAR OM START TO PLETE REVERY (ASSUMG ALL GO SMOOTHLY), THEY ARE RPECTFUL OF MY CISN TO POSTPONE AND NTUE TO BE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I’LL SAVE YOU OM THE PLATUS ABOUT HOW PREC LIFE IS, BUT I REALLY DO TRY TO LIVE EACH DAY AS IF ’S MY LAST. NOTHG LIKE YEARS OF EXCCIATG DAILY PA, THREE SURGERI, HOSPAL FECTNS, MISDIAGNOS, WEEKLY BLOOD TTS, SIX BONE MARROW BPSI, AND MAKG TO THE MEDIL BOOKS FOR HAVG ILLNS THAT HAVE NEVER BEEN DOCUMENTED FOSTERS A KD OF BASELE EP GRATU FOR MY LIFE—PECIALLY NOW THAT I HAVE BEEN LIVG PA-EE FOR OVER TWO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}NOBODY WANTS TO HAVE NCER. IT MAY BE THE ONLY THG WE N ALL AGREE ON. (NOT EVEN TMP SUPPORTERS WANT NCER!) BUT NOBODY WANTS TO GROW UP GAY THE ‘80S A RELIG HOEHOLD LIKE I DID, EHER. I LIVED EACH DAY OF MY CLOSETED ADOLCENCE THKG THAT WHO I WAS WOULD DISAPPOT, SRE, AND UPSET ALL THE PEOPLE I LOVED MY LIFE. WHO I WAS ULD HAVE EXMUNITED ME OM MY MUNY AND EVEN MY OWN FAY. BUT I VOWED TO VOTE MY ENTIRE ADULT LIFE TO MAKG SURE KIDS (AND ADULTS) DIDN’T FEEL LIKE I DID GROWG {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS AN OUT AND PROUD GAY POP MIC ARTIST AT A TIME WHEN MANY FEARED THAT BEG OPEN ABOUT THEIR SEXUALY WOULD THEIR REERS. I MA EVERY ATTEMPT I ULD TO WAVE THE GAY FLAG, OM G MALE PRONOUNS TO MEN-ON-MEN LOVE SCEN MY VIOS. I TOLD STORI OM A POTEDLY GAY PERSPECTIVE.JASON KEMP/WIREIMAGEARI GOLD ATTENDS THE 10TH ANNUAL AMFAR HONORG WH PRI CELEBRATN AT THE EDISON BALLROOM ON JUNE 11, 2009 NEW YORK CY. (PHOTO BY JASON KEMP/WIREIMAGE){BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}ARI GOLD PERFORMG AT THE 10TH ANNUAL AMFAR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}YET, NO MATTER HOW MANY GAY PRIS I PERFORMED ALL OVER THE WORLD, I STILL RRIED A HEAVY BAG OF GAY SHAME WH ME. AN TERVIEW WH OPRAH AND RERDG ARTIST INDIA ARIE GAVE ME MY OWN A-HA MOMENT. OPRAH ASKED INDIA HOW WAS POSSIBLE THAT SHE ULD BE RIDDLED WH SECURY WHEN SHE WR AND SGS SUCH EMPOWERG BLACK FEMALE SELF-TEEM ANTHEMS. INDIA RPOND WH A QUOTE OM OPRAH’S OWN MENTOR, MAYA ANGELOU: “WE OFTEN TEACH THE LSON WE NEED TO LEARN MOST FOR OURSELV.” IN THAT MOMENT, I UNRSTOOD THAT’S WHAT I HAD BEEN DOG ALL THOSE YEARS. I WAS SO PROUD BEE I HAD BEEN SO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SOON AFTER I WAS DIAGNOSED WH MDS, I REALIZED MY SHAME HAD RETURNED WH A VENGEANCE, THIS TIME AS NCER. THE ULTRA-ORTHODOX JEWISH NEWSPAPERS I GREW UP READG SCRIBED AIDS AS A PUNISHMENT FOR HOMOSEXUALY. MY RELIG MUNY THOUGHT THAT JT BY BEG GAY ONE WOULD HAVE AIDS OR WOULD GET AIDS—WHETHER THAT PERSON WAS HAVG SEX OR NOT. (THIS PRUMPTN WAS SIAR TO THE TIME A STRAIGHT DOCTOR ASSUMED I HAD BUTT NCER SIMPLY BEE I WAS GAY WHOUT KNOWG ANYTHG ABOUT MY PERSONAL SEXUAL PREFERENC OR PRACTIC. HE WAS WRONG, I DIDN’T HAVE ANAL NCER.){BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SHAME LIVED SO EP WH ME THAT I FELT LIKE WAS MY FLT I HAD NCERO CELLS MY MARROW—NOT JT BEE OF SOMETHG I MAY HAVE DONE OR HAD BEEN EXPOSED TO, BUT BEE OF SOMETHG I WAS. REARCHER AND PROFSOR DR. BRENé BROWN TELLS THAT GUILT IS “I DID BAD,” BUT SHAME IS “I AM BAD.” NOW THE SHAME MONSTER WAS BACK, DRSED A NEW BLOODY OUTF STRAIGHT OUT OF CARRIE: THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:56.49999999999999%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}YOU N IMAGE MY ASSUMPTN THAT PEOPLE WOULD TREAT ME WH GREATER KDNS AND GENTLENS WHEN THEY HEARD I HAD THE BIG C, BUT TURNED OUT TO BE EXACTLY THE OPPOSE. SAN SONTAG MA SENSE OF THIS EXPERIENCE HER 1978 BOOK ILLNS AS {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}“[CANCER] ARO THOROUGHLY OLD-FASHNED KDS OF DREAD. ANY DISEASE THAT IS TREATED AS A MYSTERY AND ACUTELY ENOUGH FEARED WILL BE FELT TO BE MORALLY, IF NOT LERALLY, NTAG. TH A SURPRISGLY LARGE NUMBER OF PEOPLE WH NCER FD THEMSELV BEG SHUNNED BY RELATIV AND IENDS AND ARE THE OBJECT OF PRACTIC OF NTAMATN BY MEMBERS OF THEIR HOEHOLD, AS IF NCER, LIKE TB, WERE AN FECT DISEASE.”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}CLOSE FAY MEMBERS HAVE ACCED ME OF MAKG ALL UP. I N’T TELL YOU HOW MANY TIM I’VE BEEN REPRIMAND BY VAR IENDS AND FAY FOR MAKG PUBLIC POSTS ABOUT MY NDN. I’VE BEEN TOLD TO MY FACE THAT I WAS NOT LLED FOR A JOB OR EVEN AN DN BEE THEY ASSUMED I WAS “SICK.”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THEN THERE WAS THE TIME A MARRIED UPLE I’M CLOSE WH SAT ME DOWN AND SAID: “WE ARE UPSET WH YOU THAT YOU TOLD YOU HAD NCER ON CHRISTMAS EVE. IT ED OUR PARTY.”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I SWIFTLY APOLOGIZED. RUG A PARTY GO AGAST EVERYTHG I BELIEVE ! PERHAPS BEG JEWISH I DIDN’T UNRSTAND THE L OF CHRISTMAS, BUT MY NON-JEWISH IENDS CERTALY DIDN’T UNRSTAND THE LE OF BEG JEWISH: THERE’S NEVER A BAD TIME TO TALK ABOUT OUR AILMENTS! (JT MAKE SURE YOU SAY THE WORD “NCER” A HHED, WHISPERY TONE. “CAAAAANCER.”). IT REMDS ME OF ALL THOSE TIM I WAS ACCED OF “THROWG BEG GAY PEOPL FAC” SIMPLY BEE I MENTNED —OR SANG ABOUT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THE HEALG WORK OF ART-MAKG ADDN TO A MULTI-PRONG APPROACH TOWARD SELF-RE THAT CLUD YEARS OF THERAPY, REVERY MEETGS, SELF-HELP BOOKS, MEDATN, AND OPRAH, HELPED ME NAVIGATE, LIVE WH, AND RIGHT SIZE MY SHAME MONSTER. A LOW RED BLOOD CELL UNT WON’T STOP ME OM PUTTG ON A KICK-ASS SHOW, BUT ALSO MEANS I RERVE MY ENERGY FOR THOSE WHO DON’T HANG THEIR SH ON ME. I ACCEPT WHATEVER WAY PEOPLE ARE PABLE OF LOVG A PROFOUNDLY TWISTED ARTIST LIKE MYSELF, GIVE WAY LS FUCKS ABOUT HOW MY HEALTH IS AFFECTG THEM, AND WAY MORE FUCKS ABOUT MY OWN {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SELF-RE IS A FULL-TIME JOB, PECIALLY KNOWG THAT I NNOT EVER AGA PUT MY PLETE TST THE MEDIL TABLISHMENT. I LISTEN TO AND RPECT MY DOCTORS KNOWLEDGE AND SKILLS, BUT EVERY CISN I MAKE ABOUT MY BODY MT BE ME AND ONLY ME TO MAKE. THE REALY IS THAT NEARLY 40% OF AMERINS WILL BE DIAGNOSED WH NCER AT SOME POT THEIR LIFETIME. THERE IS MUCH WORK TO BE DONE TO CHANGE THE WAY PEOPLE THK OF ILLNS AND DISABILY, AND GOOD HEALTH RE IS NOT A PRIVILEGE BUT A HUMAN {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IF NCER IS THE RD I’VE BEEN ALT, I HAVE NO PROBLEM G . A GOOD NCER PATIENT NEVER HIS NCER RD AND EVERYONE AROUND THEM FEELS MORE FORTABLE WH THE DISEASE. BUT I AM A VERY BAD PATIENT, LIKE SPANK-MY-ASS-WHEN-I’M-BAD BAD. DID YOU KNOW THE NCER RD IS EE AND YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE PRE-APPROVED? I LIKE TO E MY NCER RD LIKE NEW MONEY THEIR BLACK AMEX. IT’S THE RD I PULL WHEN ASKED TO DO THGS I DON’T FEEL LIKE DOG. IT’S THE RD I TAKE OUT WHEN I’M TOLD I NEED TO GET A JOB IF I AM HAVG TROUBLE PAYG THE BILLS; THE RD I E WHEN I NEED TO GO AWAY ON A VATN OM NOT WORKG; THE RD I PLAY SO MY IENDS WH MONEY N TAKE THEIR OWN CRED RD OUT AND TREAT ME TO DNER—AND A BROADWAY SHOW! AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, ’S THE RD I TAKE OUT TO REMD MYSELF: EASY DO , STOP BEG SO HARD ON {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SO I SAY, THANK YOU, NCER. THANK YOU FOR BEG THE GREATT, GAYT, SEXIT THG TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME, FOR REMDG ME THAT I DO KNOW MYSELF BT, THAT I AM WORTHY OF LIVG MY BT LIFE—WORTHY OF LOVG AND BEG LOVED. THANK YOU NCER FOR SHOWG ME THAT MY PARENTS DO LOVE ME UNNDNALLY SPE OUR PAST STGGL. AND THANK YOU, SHAME. FOR TEACHG ME THAT AS OLD, SID, AND POWERFUL YOU MAY BE, I AM STILL MORE POWERFUL. AND SO IS LOVE. AND THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IF YOU ARE A NCER WARRR OR A WARRR OF SHAME, DON’T FET TO TREAT YOURSELF BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE ULD EVER TREAT YOU, TELL YOUR STORY PROUDLY EVERY DAY YOU WALK THIS EARTH, AND E THAT FUCKG NCER RD, GAY RD, OR ANY RD THAT YOU’VE EARNED AS IF YOU HAVE ALL THE CRED THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;CLEAR:BOTH;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;MARG:0 TO;WIDTH:90%;M-WIDTH:288PX;MAX-WIDTH:1440PX;M-HEIGHT:194PX;}LATT NEWS
ARI GOLD, PNEERG DANCE ARTIST AND GAY NIGHTLIFE IN, DI AT 47
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Ari Gold, a trailblazg gay mician and New York DJ, died Sunday after battlg lkemia. ” He me out as gay to his Orthodox Jewish fay when he was 18. In a 2006 say for The Advote, he wrote ndidly of his tratns, notg his work had been praised by several mic executiv who were nohels reluctant to sign an openly gay artist at the time.
BOY CULTURE : COVERG HOT MEN, GAY ISSU, CELEBRI, MOVI, MIC & MORE
Is beg gay all of who I am? In his 20s, Gold beme a star of the gay club scene New York Cy before releasg his but album 2001, which openly referenced gay relatnships and earned him a followg as an artist unaaid to sg about his inty.
Gold also worked wh homels gay youth and worked to raise awarens about AIDS. Ari was amb, openly gay and talented at a time jt before that was a recipe for mastream succs, but succeed he did, puttg out seven albums (cludg remix albums — as a mega Madonna fan, You Can Dance tght him not to skimp on reventns) and beg well-known NYC for his sexy and charisma-drenched shows.
THE ‘SUPER-GAY, SUPER-JEWISH’ ARI GOLD’S IENDS AND FAY REMEMBER THE LATE POP STAR WHO EMBRACED BOTH INTI
When he died on Valente’s Day 2021 after a battle wh lkemia, pop sger and LGBTQ+ activist Ari Gold left behd a legacy of love and pri both his gay and Jewish inty. “He was a gay in om a um background, ” said producer Howard (Zvi) Rosenman, a longtime iend of the Gold fay and a mentor to Ari. He was like the Elvis Prley of gaydom.
Gold’s dual embrace of his Orthodox Jewish and gay inty was clear at the “tense” Zoom shiva held for him, said Rosenman. “To be super proud of beg Jewish the gay ntext, where that was not always ol, and to be super-gay the Jewish ntext, pecially the morn Orthodox one where we both me om, was fely not always very ol.
GAY SHAME AND CANCER SHAME AREN'T THAT DIFFERENT, I WOULD KNOW"SOON AFTER I WAS DIAGNOSED, I REALIZED MY SHAME HAD RETURNED WH A VENGEANCE, THIS TIME AS NCER," WR GAY POP SGER ARI {FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}LIFEBY ARI GOLDMAY 15, 2018/9:38 {HEIGHT:HER;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;POSN:RELATIVE;-WEBK-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-MS-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-WEBK-ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-ALIGN:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-ALIGN:CENTER;ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-WEBK-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;-MS-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;} IMG{HEIGHT:100%;WIDTH:100%;OBJECT-F:VER;}{HEIGHT:4368PX;WIDTH:2912PX;}JOHN AIGNERBY ARI GOLDMAY 15, 2018 / 9:38 AM{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"NEWSARTICLE","HEADLE":"GAY SHAME AND CANCER SHAME AREN'T THAT DIFFERENT, I WOULD KNOW","THUMBNAILURL":","DATEPUBLISHED":"2018-05-15T13:38:37.000+0000","DATEMODIFIED":"2018-05-15T13:38:37.000+0000","IMAGE":{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT","URL":","WIDTH":1920,"HEIGHT":1080},"URL":","THOR":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","NAME":"LOGO TV"},"MAENTYOFPAGE":{"@TYPE":"WEBPAGE","@ID":"},"PUBLISHER":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","@ID":","NAME":"LOGO TV","URL":","LOGO":{"@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT"}},"CREATOR":"ARI GOLD","ARTICLESECTN":"LIFE"}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS DIAGNOSED WH MYELODSPLASTIC SYNDROM (MDS) ABOUT FIVE YEARS AGO. IT IS A BLOOD NCER CURABLE WH A BONE MARROW TRANSPLANT FOR WHICH MY OLST BROTHER IS A PERFECT MATCH DONOR (AND MY ONLY MATCH CURRENTLY THE DATABASE). I HAVE BEEN HOLDG OFF TREATMENT WHILE I SEE HOW MY BODY RPONDS TO A CHANGE DIET (PALEO/KETOGENIC) AND SUPPLEMENTS BEFORE PUTTG THE TOXIC CHEMOTHERAPY REQUIRED FOR TRANSPLANT. WHILE MY DOCTORS AT SLOAN KETTERG ARE STRONGLY REMENDG THE TRANSPLANT AS SOON AS POSSIBLE, WHICH TAK ABOUT A YEAR OM START TO PLETE REVERY (ASSUMG ALL GO SMOOTHLY), THEY ARE RPECTFUL OF MY CISN TO POSTPONE AND NTUE TO BE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I’LL SAVE YOU OM THE PLATUS ABOUT HOW PREC LIFE IS, BUT I REALLY DO TRY TO LIVE EACH DAY AS IF ’S MY LAST. NOTHG LIKE YEARS OF EXCCIATG DAILY PA, THREE SURGERI, HOSPAL FECTNS, MISDIAGNOS, WEEKLY BLOOD TTS, SIX BONE MARROW BPSI, AND MAKG TO THE MEDIL BOOKS FOR HAVG ILLNS THAT HAVE NEVER BEEN DOCUMENTED FOSTERS A KD OF BASELE EP GRATU FOR MY LIFE—PECIALLY NOW THAT I HAVE BEEN LIVG PA-EE FOR OVER TWO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}NOBODY WANTS TO HAVE NCER. IT MAY BE THE ONLY THG WE N ALL AGREE ON. (NOT EVEN TMP SUPPORTERS WANT NCER!) BUT NOBODY WANTS TO GROW UP GAY THE ‘80S A RELIG HOEHOLD LIKE I DID, EHER. I LIVED EACH DAY OF MY CLOSETED ADOLCENCE THKG THAT WHO I WAS WOULD DISAPPOT, SRE, AND UPSET ALL THE PEOPLE I LOVED MY LIFE. WHO I WAS ULD HAVE EXMUNITED ME OM MY MUNY AND EVEN MY OWN FAY. BUT I VOWED TO VOTE MY ENTIRE ADULT LIFE TO MAKG SURE KIDS (AND ADULTS) DIDN’T FEEL LIKE I DID GROWG {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS AN OUT AND PROUD GAY POP MIC ARTIST AT A TIME WHEN MANY FEARED THAT BEG OPEN ABOUT THEIR SEXUALY WOULD THEIR REERS. I MA EVERY ATTEMPT I ULD TO WAVE THE GAY FLAG, OM G MALE PRONOUNS TO MEN-ON-MEN LOVE SCEN MY VIOS. I TOLD STORI OM A POTEDLY GAY PERSPECTIVE.JASON KEMP/WIREIMAGEARI GOLD ATTENDS THE 10TH ANNUAL AMFAR HONORG WH PRI CELEBRATN AT THE EDISON BALLROOM ON JUNE 11, 2009 NEW YORK CY. (PHOTO BY JASON KEMP/WIREIMAGE){BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}ARI GOLD PERFORMG AT THE 10TH ANNUAL AMFAR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}YET, NO MATTER HOW MANY GAY PRIS I PERFORMED ALL OVER THE WORLD, I STILL RRIED A HEAVY BAG OF GAY SHAME WH ME. AN TERVIEW WH OPRAH AND RERDG ARTIST INDIA ARIE GAVE ME MY OWN A-HA MOMENT. OPRAH ASKED INDIA HOW WAS POSSIBLE THAT SHE ULD BE RIDDLED WH SECURY WHEN SHE WR AND SGS SUCH EMPOWERG BLACK FEMALE SELF-TEEM ANTHEMS. INDIA RPOND WH A QUOTE OM OPRAH’S OWN MENTOR, MAYA ANGELOU: “WE OFTEN TEACH THE LSON WE NEED TO LEARN MOST FOR OURSELV.” IN THAT MOMENT, I UNRSTOOD THAT’S WHAT I HAD BEEN DOG ALL THOSE YEARS. I WAS SO PROUD BEE I HAD BEEN SO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SOON AFTER I WAS DIAGNOSED WH MDS, I REALIZED MY SHAME HAD RETURNED WH A VENGEANCE, THIS TIME AS NCER. THE ULTRA-ORTHODOX JEWISH NEWSPAPERS I GREW UP READG SCRIBED AIDS AS A PUNISHMENT FOR HOMOSEXUALY. MY RELIG MUNY THOUGHT THAT JT BY BEG GAY ONE WOULD HAVE AIDS OR WOULD GET AIDS—WHETHER THAT PERSON WAS HAVG SEX OR NOT. (THIS PRUMPTN WAS SIAR TO THE TIME A STRAIGHT DOCTOR ASSUMED I HAD BUTT NCER SIMPLY BEE I WAS GAY WHOUT KNOWG ANYTHG ABOUT MY PERSONAL SEXUAL PREFERENC OR PRACTIC. HE WAS WRONG, I DIDN’T HAVE ANAL NCER.){BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SHAME LIVED SO EP WH ME THAT I FELT LIKE WAS MY FLT I HAD NCERO CELLS MY MARROW—NOT JT BEE OF SOMETHG I MAY HAVE DONE OR HAD BEEN EXPOSED TO, BUT BEE OF SOMETHG I WAS. REARCHER AND PROFSOR DR. BRENé BROWN TELLS THAT GUILT IS “I DID BAD,” BUT SHAME IS “I AM BAD.” NOW THE SHAME MONSTER WAS BACK, DRSED A NEW BLOODY OUTF STRAIGHT OUT OF CARRIE: THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:56.49999999999999%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}YOU N IMAGE MY ASSUMPTN THAT PEOPLE WOULD TREAT ME WH GREATER KDNS AND GENTLENS WHEN THEY HEARD I HAD THE BIG C, BUT TURNED OUT TO BE EXACTLY THE OPPOSE. SAN SONTAG MA SENSE OF THIS EXPERIENCE HER 1978 BOOK ILLNS AS {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}“[CANCER] ARO THOROUGHLY OLD-FASHNED KDS OF DREAD. ANY DISEASE THAT IS TREATED AS A MYSTERY AND ACUTELY ENOUGH FEARED WILL BE FELT TO BE MORALLY, IF NOT LERALLY, NTAG. TH A SURPRISGLY LARGE NUMBER OF PEOPLE WH NCER FD THEMSELV BEG SHUNNED BY RELATIV AND IENDS AND ARE THE OBJECT OF PRACTIC OF NTAMATN BY MEMBERS OF THEIR HOEHOLD, AS IF NCER, LIKE TB, WERE AN FECT DISEASE.”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}CLOSE FAY MEMBERS HAVE ACCED ME OF MAKG ALL UP. I N’T TELL YOU HOW MANY TIM I’VE BEEN REPRIMAND BY VAR IENDS AND FAY FOR MAKG PUBLIC POSTS ABOUT MY NDN. I’VE BEEN TOLD TO MY FACE THAT I WAS NOT LLED FOR A JOB OR EVEN AN DN BEE THEY ASSUMED I WAS “SICK.”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THEN THERE WAS THE TIME A MARRIED UPLE I’M CLOSE WH SAT ME DOWN AND SAID: “WE ARE UPSET WH YOU THAT YOU TOLD YOU HAD NCER ON CHRISTMAS EVE. IT ED OUR PARTY.”{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I SWIFTLY APOLOGIZED. RUG A PARTY GO AGAST EVERYTHG I BELIEVE ! PERHAPS BEG JEWISH I DIDN’T UNRSTAND THE L OF CHRISTMAS, BUT MY NON-JEWISH IENDS CERTALY DIDN’T UNRSTAND THE LE OF BEG JEWISH: THERE’S NEVER A BAD TIME TO TALK ABOUT OUR AILMENTS! (JT MAKE SURE YOU SAY THE WORD “NCER” A HHED, WHISPERY TONE. “CAAAAANCER.”). IT REMDS ME OF ALL THOSE TIM I WAS ACCED OF “THROWG BEG GAY PEOPL FAC” SIMPLY BEE I MENTNED —OR SANG ABOUT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THE HEALG WORK OF ART-MAKG ADDN TO A MULTI-PRONG APPROACH TOWARD SELF-RE THAT CLUD YEARS OF THERAPY, REVERY MEETGS, SELF-HELP BOOKS, MEDATN, AND OPRAH, HELPED ME NAVIGATE, LIVE WH, AND RIGHT SIZE MY SHAME MONSTER. A LOW RED BLOOD CELL UNT WON’T STOP ME OM PUTTG ON A KICK-ASS SHOW, BUT ALSO MEANS I RERVE MY ENERGY FOR THOSE WHO DON’T HANG THEIR SH ON ME. I ACCEPT WHATEVER WAY PEOPLE ARE PABLE OF LOVG A PROFOUNDLY TWISTED ARTIST LIKE MYSELF, GIVE WAY LS FUCKS ABOUT HOW MY HEALTH IS AFFECTG THEM, AND WAY MORE FUCKS ABOUT MY OWN {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SELF-RE IS A FULL-TIME JOB, PECIALLY KNOWG THAT I NNOT EVER AGA PUT MY PLETE TST THE MEDIL TABLISHMENT. I LISTEN TO AND RPECT MY DOCTORS KNOWLEDGE AND SKILLS, BUT EVERY CISN I MAKE ABOUT MY BODY MT BE ME AND ONLY ME TO MAKE. THE REALY IS THAT NEARLY 40% OF AMERINS WILL BE DIAGNOSED WH NCER AT SOME POT THEIR LIFETIME. THERE IS MUCH WORK TO BE DONE TO CHANGE THE WAY PEOPLE THK OF ILLNS AND DISABILY, AND GOOD HEALTH RE IS NOT A PRIVILEGE BUT A HUMAN {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IF NCER IS THE RD I’VE BEEN ALT, I HAVE NO PROBLEM G . A GOOD NCER PATIENT NEVER HIS NCER RD AND EVERYONE AROUND THEM FEELS MORE FORTABLE WH THE DISEASE. BUT I AM A VERY BAD PATIENT, LIKE SPANK-MY-ASS-WHEN-I’M-BAD BAD. DID YOU KNOW THE NCER RD IS EE AND YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE PRE-APPROVED? I LIKE TO E MY NCER RD LIKE NEW MONEY THEIR BLACK AMEX. IT’S THE RD I PULL WHEN ASKED TO DO THGS I DON’T FEEL LIKE DOG. IT’S THE RD I TAKE OUT WHEN I’M TOLD I NEED TO GET A JOB IF I AM HAVG TROUBLE PAYG THE BILLS; THE RD I E WHEN I NEED TO GO AWAY ON A VATN OM NOT WORKG; THE RD I PLAY SO MY IENDS WH MONEY N TAKE THEIR OWN CRED RD OUT AND TREAT ME TO DNER—AND A BROADWAY SHOW! AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, ’S THE RD I TAKE OUT TO REMD MYSELF: EASY DO , STOP BEG SO HARD ON {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SO I SAY, THANK YOU, NCER. THANK YOU FOR BEG THE GREATT, GAYT, SEXIT THG TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME, FOR REMDG ME THAT I DO KNOW MYSELF BT, THAT I AM WORTHY OF LIVG MY BT LIFE—WORTHY OF LOVG AND BEG LOVED. THANK YOU NCER FOR SHOWG ME THAT MY PARENTS DO LOVE ME UNNDNALLY SPE OUR PAST STGGL. AND THANK YOU, SHAME. FOR TEACHG ME THAT AS OLD, SID, AND POWERFUL YOU MAY BE, I AM STILL MORE POWERFUL. AND SO IS LOVE. AND THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IF YOU ARE A NCER WARRR OR A WARRR OF SHAME, DON’T FET TO TREAT YOURSELF BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE ULD EVER TREAT YOU, TELL YOUR STORY PROUDLY EVERY DAY YOU WALK THIS EARTH, AND E THAT FUCKG NCER RD, GAY RD, OR ANY RD THAT YOU’VE EARNED AS IF YOU HAVE ALL THE CRED THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;CLEAR:BOTH;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;MARG:0 TO;WIDTH:90%;M-WIDTH:288PX;MAX-WIDTH:1440PX;M-HEIGHT:194PX;}LATT NEWS
“He was unapologetilly, glorly proud to be a gay Jew. When her son enuntered former yhiva kids who intified as gay, she add, Gold urged them “to tegrate their Jewishns and not throw away. “Proud to be gay.
To ask the all-important qutn: How do one bee an ternatnal gay sex symbol? So how do one rencile nservative Judaism wh open, celebratory homosexualy?