HOCD / Gay OCD: Common Subtyp

Contents:

• AN ILLTRATED GUI TO REGNIZG YOUR GAY STEREOTYP
• A HANDY GUI TO ALL GAY MEN
• THIS QUIZ CLAIMS TO BE ABLE TO TELL WHICH GAY STEREOTYPE YOU ARE
• WHAT DO PEOPLE BELIEVE ABOUT GAY MAL? A STUDY OF STEREOTYPE NTENT AND STRENGTH
• THE CHANGG MIX OF GAY BAR SUBTYP AFTER COVID-19 RTRICTNS THE UNED STAT, 2017 TO 2023
• UNRSTANDG GAY COMMUNY SUBCULTUR: IMPLITNS FOR HIV PREVENTN
• SLANG FOR GAY
• [WATCH] UNSEEN FOOTAGE OF KG VON CLAIMG HE’S GAY TO BE PLACED PRISON PROTECTIVE CTODY
• CALIFORNIA SCHOOL BOARD ADOPTS SOCIAL STUDI TEXTBOOKS THAT CLU GAY RIGHTS AFTER WARNGS OM ERNOR

AN ILLTRATED GUI TO REGNIZG YOUR GAY STEREOTYP

Bee most LGBTQ people are raised the same society as heterosexuals, they learn the same beliefs and stereotyp prevalent the domant society, leadg to a phenomenon known as ternalized homophobia, whereas LGBTQ-intified dividuals feel shame, guilt or hatred towards the part of themselv intified as LGBTQ. In the spir of batg stereotyp by reclaimg and celebratg them, BBDO NY Art Director Jam Kuczynski and illtrator Pl Tuller have created a “Gui to Gay Stereotyp, ” a seri of silk screened imag pturg the sence of your neighborhood gay posters, released this week as we head to Pri season, celebrate the recent Supreme Court cisn on DOMA. In short, All-Or-Nothg HOCD scrib the experience of those who have always been of one orientatn, have never experimented wh other orientatns, and who do not have gay fantasi, but who jt randomly have a “gay” thought or feelg one day and sr them.

By Spectm HOCD do you mean somethg like this: I for example feel tense sexual stimulatn by thkg homosexual thoughts, but on the other hand I’m feelg extremely uncerta if I am gay and the thoughts leave me very prsed, somethg I never experienced wh heterosexual thoughts ever.

A HANDY GUI TO ALL GAY MEN

I have had hocd for about 17 years now, and I have the groal rponse hocd, but what’s been happeng for the past year the rponse is stronger and now I get like excement feelgs and my penis gets a ltle bigger and when I tt myself wh gay sexual thoughts I don’t know that I don’t like anymore and when my penis mov when this is happeng I thk this means I am gay or bisexual….

Bian, you report wakg up every day feelg anx, havg unwanted tsive thoughts about your sexual orientatn, over-analyzg thoughts, and engagg pulsive checkg ruals that volve thgs like lookg at women and readg g out stori to sn them for proof you are not gay.

THIS QUIZ CLAIMS TO BE ABLE TO TELL WHICH GAY STEREOTYPE YOU ARE

Hey – I had an stance where I was at a public venue and the mens room was so crowd…I jt urated and was leavg but I had to squeeze between people and what happened was my rear end bshed up agast some guys privat and then I felt movement my penis…I was panicked and annoyed… do that mean I was aroed or that I am gay? You say I n’t base posive and negative feelgs to discern them…well this nf me… Fantasizg about the oppose sex feels good and don’t make me anx whereas thkg about the possibily that I uld be a homosexual and have to engage such acts mak me really sred. I also wonr why I read a post on a magaze webse that talked about a bunch of straight women who are turned on by gay porn or fantansi but say they doubt they would follow through bee they aren’t emotnally attracted when down to .

Oh and what I meant about my other ment that I didn’t expla very clearly the post before this one was this: I unrstand the ncept of beg nial, but I’m assumg the people refe to thk about and mentally explore the optn of beg gay. I was wonrg sce OCD-ers are prone to analysis, and many of dont have a problem wh homobophia, do this dite that if we were gay we would be bee our problem isn’t actually g out ’s dog somethg our md is tellg to, but what we tly don’t. You wre, “I also wonr why I read a post on a magaze webse that talked about a bunch of straight women who are turned on by gay porn or fantansi but say they doubt they would follow through bee they aren’t emotnally attracted when down to .

I thk I do that bee I have this big disturbg obssn: that as long I have no proof for not beg gay or not beg bi-seksual, I will not be able to go for a lovg relatnship wh a girl (what I’m almost sure of I prefer, e I never felt love wh a guy)..

WHAT DO PEOPLE BELIEVE ABOUT GAY MAL? A STUDY OF STEREOTYPE NTENT AND STRENGTH

If you were to track somethg like gay pornography om s least mdful perspective to s most mdful, would go like this: a terrifyg threat to your existence, a potential source of nfn about sexualy, gay people havg sex, imagery pictg gay people havg sex, erotic imagery, imagery on a puter or tv screen, and fally, lights on a box wh sounds. Freaked out: went to work…saw a uple of girls thought they were attractive and I thought of beg wh them sexually and I was gettg aroed then I started talkg to a worker who is gay and he was cheery when greetg me and then I saw a betiful girl who I was attracted to but I was discsg somethg wh you the gay worker and he was cheery and I thought he’s all bubbly and I felt a weird magic kid oof attractn or somethg and I thought he’s good lookg and I looked at him when he walked and noticed and thought he looked gay and I had a feelg my penis…and I thk I had a thought about kissg him and a feelg gro aga… was weird I don’t know if was anxiety or if I really liked him or I was jt aroed general wh all the women I was seeg and gettg turned on by……or I don’t know if this means I amm gay or bisexual now……what was that? Katie, looks like you have enough sight to see the tth of the suatn, which is that you are a heterosexual woman who ocsnally fantasiz about gay sex and has the pacy to regnize when another woman is sexually attractive (eher objectively or subjectively).

Im not diagnosed wh OCD, but seeg as my problem was centered aeound anxiety, nd havg suffered om anxiety all my life (led to believe as my dad was never around) she thought was a simple anxiety problem, though bee s not OCD (When first started, whout lookg onle i was mentally checkg) dont mean im gay, my therapist said s not un mon for people my age (18) to obss over their sexually. And a thought of “maybe ’s bee you’re supposed to be wh a girl” and my whole life fell apart that seemed to make sense so I me out to my parents and everythg however I didn’t want a relatnship wh a woman and I didn’t want to go near one sexually once I accepted they I was gay and got my life back orr mean while I still had anxiety still didn’t seem to be the answer then I started fdg men attractive aga and was like no I’m not gay how ridiculo I’m straight!!

THE CHANGG MIX OF GAY BAR SUBTYP AFTER COVID-19 RTRICTNS THE UNED STAT, 2017 TO 2023

I noticed your ments to Daemon on July 23, 2011 you mentn Spectm HOCD as “beg a ltle gayish and obsg about s meang” But acrdg to the article there are heterosexual men who enjoy gay fatasi and are not bisexual or gay e they are not pable of dog anythg wh a man. I have been alg wh unwanted gay thought s for about a year now I don’t like the thoughts I get really big migra when they bash themselv to my head and I get really anx I nstantly check myself for aroal and even if I’ve read this webse all I have managed to do is latch onto the negative thgs I read and right now I’m up to the pot where I evenn believe Imight be gay.

There is so much more I uld say I feel like I’m beg tortured my own body and my life is jt cmblg around me I have also been diagnosed wh prsn and generalized anxiety but not OCD I found this webse by mere chance I don’t unrstand what’s happeng anymore and one of my biggt qutns is HOCD somethg I’m hopg I have jt so I don’t believe I’m gay or is real I have all the symptoms but is jt me hopg ’s real bee I don’t want to be gay I have no problem wh gay people or beg gay what bothers me is that I know me and I know that ’s wrong but I feel like my md and subnscareelg me other wise I’m tired of the thoughts I do not want them anymore I mange to reprs them for awhile then I get h twice as hard I’m at the end of the rope here I hontly don’t know what to believe and what to feel I hontly have no tert Anythg anymore I uld say more wre a book on this as I’m sure everyone else uld and I know that I’m probably dog this to re assure myself but please uld anyone help me.

I have a qutn I have been alg still wh all this and I read this and I have everythg hocd scrib my qutn to you is hocd real many psychologist steer away om this and don’t cred as real and another qutn n you believe you are gay llong enough to were you actually feel like your gay n bee so overwhelmg that th only way out is to accept that you are gay and live athat way even though don’t feel right also excement and anxiety are two sis to the same if you are havg trouble feelg or seeg the difference between the two is that normal what if you have gay thoughts for so long that everythg your head keeps swchg on you lets say like me I have always waned a fay a wi and everythg a girliend and I’ll know what I’m sayg but my head will swch everythg I will remember a good experience I had wh amy girliend and will be her mymnd and I’ll be happy but my head will swch the word om girliend to boyiend or when you tell yourself I have always liked girls gets to the pot where swch words on me and feel wrong and anxiety kicks or is excement I have even so overwhelmed that I n’t even remember how I e to feel and all my memori and feelgs are beg taken over wh stuff that I don’t like I dije know what to do I see my only optn as hopg out of the closet be of all this the thg is I’ve been so open wh all this I’ve told everyone om my psychologist to my fay and iends to me beg gay is not wrong I don’t hate them to me ’s myself I’m not aaid of the stigma of beg gay I font feel right if I say I am even though I’m up to the pot where I believe I am and I don’t like at all and I feels wrong and if I get a moment where I feel alright feels wrong bee I feel like I’m jt acceptg that I’m gay I don’t want to be gay but the thoughts and the abily to feel lime I ed to is killg me I wake up wh spltg headach and am aaid to go to sleep anymore bee I know I’m jt gonna wake up to the same but the exhstn om not sleepg don’t let me fight the thoughts and they repulse to the pot where I want to throw up or make myself I get weird sensatns everywhere my voy and I want tell if there good or not I n’t tell if I like or not is hocd real and do I have or is some exce for gay dividuals not wantg to accept I obss over all this the thoughts the hocd and the fact that this is rag my life I have not been able to be happy a very long time and people I love are beg hurt and are leavg I have nobly been diagnosed wh generalized anxiety I read this webse and all the symptoms I n remember havg om the start but I’m up to the pot where I don’t know anythg anymore I miss beg attracted to women i miss beg aroed by them I miss fantasizg about them or checkg them out I feel nullified sexually bee the send I feel aroed I believe for somethg else and I don’t want that and I won’t want so I’d rather not believe any if that n hocd if ’s real twist your memori even though you member how you felt and was real but now you don’t know even though those thoughts and memori where how you felt and still want to feel what do I believe anymore I lost someone I loved bee ofall of this and I n’t even remember the good time we had together bee my md swch everythg on me what do I do. I thk this is a fairly natural batn of obssns – after all, if you are volved wh a woman and are havg unwanted thoughts about beg wh men, mak sense that your md would then obss about what those unwanted gay thoughts might be ditg about your relatnship.

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I started masturbate to my homosexual thoughts and that backfired bee sometim feels like I Like (and that mak me feel bad) and sometim when I masturbate n put away bee I n feel that I do not like (and that mak me relax and happy). The thg which make me doubt, is that i have the imprsn that girls are imperfect, they are not perfect, i am not able to see a perfect girl, i uld crise their boobs ( too big or too small) or vaga ( i uld see a vaga and say is gtg and i have the same pot of view for every vaga) a negatif way or fd somethg negatif on their body and all this make me believe that i am gay but i have always been exced by girls and i love my girliend. I n remember eakg out afterwards and beg sred that I was gay even though I have always liked girls and even after that I had csh on girls and was always sexually and physilly attracted to girls I always had a Fear that I was gay.

For some reason I n see my self more fortable a relatnship wh one of my mat but I don’t love them and I’m not physilly or sexually attracted to them ’s jt this thought and I don’t md the thoughts of livg wh them and this me to thk I’m gay and I am always obssg about and I am nfed 24 hours a day about my sexualy and my bra says I want to be gay and ’s always tellg me to e out and I will be happy. I n remember beg very bored one day and obsssg over events my past that are still disturbg to me to this day (not homosexualy-related), and all of a sudn, I remembered a specific experience I had when I was about 20, beeg dkenly kissed the neck by a female iend of me and fdg rather pleasant. I know for a fact that I’ve been romantilly and sexually attracted to men (even though at the ripe age of 28, I still haven’t had any long-term relatnship, never longer than a few months, which also worri me a lot), on the other hand, but I’m still qutng to what gree, as if the “gay thoughts” meant I had been wrong all along and nullified my love for men.

I thk she liked me (even though I don’t actually know if she was gay or not), whout beg “agrsive” about or tryg anythg, and this was very nfg to me bee I thk I enjoyed the attentn, whout actually feelg attracted to her or wantg anythg to happen. But now that I have accepted unpleasant gay thoughts, that I’ve proved able to “enjoy” some same-sex fantasi, I feel like the last thg that mak me straight and not gay (very black and whe, I know)is that up until very recently, I knew I had never felt attracted to a woman real life. I believe i have been sufferg om gay obssns sce i was about 11 (after a same sex experience that seems to affected me ever sce, i am now 45) I am married, enjoy sex wh my wife, get turned on by women really easily, masturbate to womens imag etc) Never got an erectn wh a man or felt horny wh any man etc.

SLANG FOR GAY

The fact that you scribe one of your gay thoughts as “sick” is a pretty good ditor of how much importance you place on the thoughts, which are really jt mental dross floatg around your bra, and not worth even one send of your time.

I’m 13 and 1 month ago I got a random thought sayg your gay, I was eaked out, everyday I fight the thought, sometim I’m like wow they are stupid thoughts and other tim I n’t ntrol my thoughts tellg me I’m gay, I talked to my parents they say thkg about gay thoughts and dog that stuff is all a part of puberty, I want to have a wife and kids and when I get gay thoughts my anxiety rag and my stomach hurts and I need to go to the bathroom.

For the fear of gog wh a therapist who do not unrstands this, i havent seek for help, what i started to do, is to stop my mental pulsns and stop seekg reassurance, i´ve jt started to stop the pulsns, and ´s difficult, but i n manage , an i have noticed improvement, i mean i jt have like 3 days tryg to stop my mental pulsns, but i thk that the most difficult part of , is that i start thkg thgs like ¨this is not gog to change anythg, maybe uld if this was OCD, But maybe s not, maybe you are jt beg sudnly gay, and there is no treatment for that¨, or like ¨how much time is this gog to take to improve, what if i do not do pulsns and stop seekg for reassurance but still n´t get rid of the thoughts, maybe bee is not OCD¨, those are some thoughts that get me down. I keep havg the analysis of my past and “fdg thgs” which “tell me I’m gay”, not jt porn but also that I’ve never been a “mascule guy”: to sports etc I read somethg onle about Genr nonnformy and how many GNC kids end up beg gay, I was many ways GNC through middle school and worry that some of my “girly” mannerisms are an ditn of my sexualy, spe not beg happy about my lack of guy iends and beg bullied adolcence. I jt cried every day, felt anx all the time, uldn’t unrstand what was happeng, started ttg if was attracted to mal, lookg at pictur to prove I wasn’t aroed, and specially thkg about sexual gay suatns, and if I wasn’t aroed, then I was sure I still wasn’t gay.

[WATCH] UNSEEN FOOTAGE OF KG VON CLAIMG HE’S GAY TO BE PLACED PRISON PROTECTIVE CTODY

However, the past, whenever I experienced a “gay thought” I was easily able to dismiss , for I was always attracted to girls and the fears never manifted any sort of perceived or real attractnFast forward to a month or two ago, one of my childhood iends passed away om a heroe overdose and I was super prsed. The thg that really bothers me is when I smoke weed and thk about this I feel like I am fely gay and then when I try to tt myself to gay porn while stoned I get aroed and “enjoy” ( feels like I am but there’s still anxiety and I don’t know if I’m actually enjoyg or my HOCD is jt much more magnified. I’m not sure if I should seek treatment as I’ve mostly stopped reassurance seekg and pulsns, I don’t unrstand ERP as I’ve also exposed myself to many shows volvg gay characters and gay porn and I don’t get as anx as before but how do that help gettg rid of the HOCD.

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Im 15 and have had thoughts about Beg gay for maybe 2 years, IT started wh me watchg an episo of fay guy when 2 guys had sex and i felt somethg i dont know what But jt somethg, i got sred and sce then ive had thoughts such as “am i gay”, is that person attractive, Watchg guys to see a reactn, scrollg up and down to see the picture aga, to see My first rponse, all of the thoughts was horrible for me and wasnt pleasible at all, i uld watch a Guy to see My rponse for 20 mut jt to be sure.. I rpect gay people, But I jt nt accept the fact that I’m gay and wont be able to Love girls aga, I watch straight porn and I sometim tt Watchg gay porn to see What I might feel, But IT always turns me off, I hate the feelgs and thoughts…. My iends have said “why don’t you try kissg or hookg uo woth a girl” and my first ial reactn is “ew I would never ew no no no” but my md thks that’s nial and even though I relate to a lot of what people say here I’m jt nial and I like the thoughts pecially sexual on my md tells me I like them and I’m nial but they make me so prsed and ep down I know I’m straight but apart of me still thks I’m aftaid to e out and I know that if I was gay i would jt know but my md tells me I do know and I jt accept or I need to learn to love .