There's a way to burst through the shame gay men are ma to feel about homosexualy.
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THIS IS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE WHEN YOUR HIGH SCHOOL CSH MIGHT BE GAY
High school n be an excg but a strsful time. As you are gettg to know about yourself, you may have realized that you are gay, pansexual, or bisexual. Datg high school n be hard, and fdg someone to love while you are... * gay when high *
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Perhaps was the support of iends, nts, and those around me that ma me not want to feel ashamed about myself anymore, even if that meant God damng me to the begng of senr year, I went om “I’m gay” to whoever asked, to “Can you stop sayg faggot please? A month later, I cid to no longer participate the mentorship program, and every time I was asked why, I ma exc about beg too time, I retreated to my fantasy world, where I was not sixteen and gay a homophobic environment, but a world where I was olr, the future, when I would arrive to a betiful home om a long day at work, and be weled by a hband who lov me and bears my burns on his shoulrs.
I was thrilled to be leavg and movg on, but I uld see that many of my fellow graduat were facg siar hurdl, on that I had enuntered, and had only masked their tth wh homophobia.