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I was alone. I waed until after she had gone to bed, and I watched wh a sense of amazement that a mastream film about a gay Pakistani immigrant fallg love wh a handsome, Brish gang member even existed. </p><style data-emotn="css 18vfmjb">{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-size:1.1875rem;le-height:1.6;} em{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-style:alic;} strong{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-weight:bold;}</style><p data-no-id="2" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">It was 2005, and my teenage years were spent watchg gay men take leadg rol on televisn for the first time shows like <em>Will & Grace</em> and <em>Queer as Folk</em>, as well as watchg openly gay Graham Norton and Pl O’Grady host primetime talkshows. But Stephen Frears’s 1985 film, starrg a very young Daniel Day-Lewis as the street punk Johnny, was the first time I had seen two men om different rac – never md a fellow Pakistani – kiss on-screen. 15 years later, has stayed wh me.</p><p data-no-id="3" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">The film follows the g-of-age of Omar, a pre-llege, overly dutiful son, bound by fay expectatn. He balanc a tight schle between lookg after his elrs and fdg his pennce. Johnny is different. He is a eewheelg, n-kickg outst. He flnts his toned and lhe body. He has a shock of bleached hair. He has a south London accent. In short: the oppose of Omar – and me, another le-abidg, good Asian son. 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Of this mentaly, Omar feels at odds, not only pursug his affectns for a whe, unemployed man, but also tearg himself away om his father’s sire for him to pursue tn. He also fi Pakistani fay nventns by refg to marry his . He is, ultimately, livg a double life: the goln boy to his fay, and the lover boy of a fascist troublemaker. His sire for Johnny is a sire for another life.</p><p data-no-id="6" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">Growg up a send-generatn Pakistani hoehold, I remember the difficulti not only tryg to navigate and exprs my sexualy, but to break ee om the pret fay role of both provir and retaker which fell onto my shoulrs as the only son. Although this was the London of the early Noughti, and Omar is Thatchere Bra, fay and cultural norms endure, and though I had e out to my close iends at school, I was the closet at home. For the first time, I had seen myself reprented. 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The P Word wrten by Waleed Akhtar explor the experience of gay Pakistani men the UK and stggle of LGBTQ+ asylum seekers.

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The P Word is a new play wrten by and starrg Waleed Akhtar which explor the experience of gay Pakistani men the UK and the stggle of LGBTQ+ asylum seekers.

Spl to two halv, the first act we meet Billy (Akhtar), a gay Pakistani man who has faced discrimatn om all sis and spends his days on Grdr.

We also meet gay asylum seeker Zafar (Esh Alladi), who fled Pakistan when his father tried to kill him, only to be met wh a hostile Home Office. The P Word talks about the gay muny general, and how there n be problematic spac wh that as well. I waed until after she had gone to bed, and I watched wh a sense of amazement that a mastream film about a gay Pakistani immigrant fallg love wh a handsome, Brish gang member even existed.

GROWG UP GAY A PAKISTANI HOEHOLD, 'MY BETIFUL LNDRETTE' GAVE ME HOPE

Pakistan is not the kd of place that most people would associate wh gay liberatn - but some say Pakistan is a great place to be a gay man. * gay pakistani uk *

It was 2005, and my teenage years were spent watchg gay men take leadg rol on televisn for the first time shows like Will & Grace and Queer as Folk, as well as watchg openly gay Graham Norton and Pl O’Grady host primetime talkshows. It is this lovemakg that transforms the former dilapidated social club to somethg the film, Omar’s , who he was expected to marry, intifi his homosexualy, but mak no fs of .

AWARD-WNG PAKISTANI LGBTQ SHORT FILM TAK UNFLCHG LOOK AT GAY LIFE SOUTH ASIA

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” As a self-nsc, semi-closeted gay who traed himself to look wh sire but never touch, is here I was remd of the power and vulnerabily admtg a need for physil ’s the moment when Omar embrac Johnny outsi the newly renovated lndrette, to an dience of Johnny’s right-wg extremist gang members, when Johnny secretly licks Omar’s neck, that shows My Betiful Lnrette at s headit.

GAY PAKISTAN: WHERE SEX IS AVAILABLE AND RELATNSHIPS ARE DIFFICULT

Exclive: Director Iqran Rasheed tells Attu he hop his work will help move forward the nversatn untri where remas illegal to be gay.

Aadat (‘Hab’), om Pakistani film-maker Iqran Rasheed, tak an timate and unflchg look at the reali of gay life South Asia, a regn where LGBTQ life remas largely relegated to the shadows. Homophobic people e relign to fend their hatred towards an already vulnerable muny.

GAY DATG PAKISTAN

Homosexualy remas illegal Pakistan and punishable wh jail time. Gay rights. Pakistan is not the kd of place that most people would associate wh gay liberatn.

PAKISTANI KILLER MURRED 3 GAY MEN AFTER HAVG SEX WH THEM

But some say the untry is a great place to be gay - even scribg the port cy of Karachi as "a gay man's paradise". Unrground parti, group sex at shr and "marriag of nvenience" to members of the oppose sex are jt some of the surpris that gay Pakistan has to offer. Danyaal, as he's asked to be known, is a 50-somethg bsman who liv an affluent part of Karachi, and his smartphone to anise Karachi's gay party scene.

"The days there are smartphone apps that e GPS to tell you how close you are to another gay person wh an onle profile. There are thoands of gay men onle Pakistan at any one time. "If you want sex too, 's a gay man's paradise.

"The vatn-only parti are a rare opportuny for gay men to be open about their sexualy. "Gay men will make every effort to stop any vtment a same-sex relatnship bee they know that one day they will have to get married to a woman, " he says.

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For participants, 's anonymo group kd of behavur is, of urse, not ndoned by Pakistan's relig Pakistanis view homosexualy as sful.

The vast majory of clerics terpret the Qoranic story of Lot as a clear ditn that God nmns homosexual men. The shre is far om the only place Karachi where gay sex is eely is, for example, easy to buy om a malchi walah - a massr who offers massage and "extras" for the equivalent of £5, or $7. " Technilly, homosexual acts are illegal Pakistan.

HOW GAY IS PAKISTAN?

"In almost all s charg will be dropped, Iqbal says, but the boys will be forced to get married by their ocsnally, though, Pakistani parents do rencile themselv to children enterg a long-term gay and Ali are one such uple who have ma thgs work, agast the odds. For many gay men Pakistan, a heterosexual marriage and a life of anonymo gropg is the long-term life n be even more difficult for gay women. So how do gay women make their liv work?

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I was alone. I waed until after she had gone to bed, and I watched wh a sense of amazement that a mastream film about a gay Pakistani immigrant fallg love wh a handsome, Brish gang member even existed. </p><style data-emotn="css 18vfmjb">{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-size:1.1875rem;le-height:1.6;} em{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-style:alic;} strong{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-weight:bold;}</style><p data-no-id="2" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">It was 2005, and my teenage years were spent watchg gay men take leadg rol on televisn for the first time shows like <em>Will & Grace</em> and <em>Queer as Folk</em>, as well as watchg openly gay Graham Norton and Pl O’Grady host primetime talkshows. But Stephen Frears’s 1985 film, starrg a very young Daniel Day-Lewis as the street punk Johnny, was the first time I had seen two men om different rac – never md a fellow Pakistani – kiss on-screen. 15 years later, has stayed wh me.</p><p data-no-id="3" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">The film follows the g-of-age of Omar, a pre-llege, overly dutiful son, bound by fay expectatn. He balanc a tight schle between lookg after his elrs and fdg his pennce. Johnny is different. He is a eewheelg, n-kickg outst. He flnts his toned and lhe body. He has a shock of bleached hair. He has a south London accent. In short: the oppose of Omar – and me, another le-abidg, good Asian son. That difference was eply attractive. </p><div supprsHydratnWarng data-no-id="4" class="embed css-0 e9hzx6g0"><style data-emotn="css 10klw3m">{height:100%;}</style><div data-embed="youtube" class="embed align-center css-10klw3m ez8lbhw1"><style data-emotn="css 63r9na">{-webk-align-ems:center;-webk-box-align:center;-ms-flex-align:center;align-ems:center;display:-webk-box;display:-webk-flex;display:-ms-flexbox;display:flex;-webk-box-pack:center;-ms-flex-pack:center;-webk-jtify-ntent:center;jtify-ntent:center;m-height:10rem;background-lor:#F5F5F5;lor:#000;-webk-flex-directn:lumn;-ms-flex-directn:lumn;flex-directn:lumn;height:100%;marg-bottom:0.9375rem;}</style><div class="css-63r9na ez8lbhw0"><style data-emotn="css 1msakm2">{width:3.125rem;height:3.125rem;}</style><img data-dynamic-svg src="/_assets/sign-tokens/e/static/ins/social/;id=lk-out-embed" loadg="lazy" alt="youtube in" height="to" width="to" class="css-1msakm2 ez8lbhw2" /><a target="_blank" rel="noreferrer noopener" href=" aria-label="View full post on Youtube" class="css-0 e1c1bym14">View full post on Youtube</a></div></div></div><p data-no-id="5" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">Omar’s fay was part of the Asian aspirg-middle class: sperate to ga a higher social strata through hard work, while simultaneoly seekg acceptance a foreign untry by actg as if 's already happened. Of this mentaly, Omar feels at odds, not only pursug his affectns for a whe, unemployed man, but also tearg himself away om his father’s sire for him to pursue tn. He also fi Pakistani fay nventns by refg to marry his . He is, ultimately, livg a double life: the goln boy to his fay, and the lover boy of a fascist troublemaker. His sire for Johnny is a sire for another life.</p><p data-no-id="6" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">Growg up a send-generatn Pakistani hoehold, I remember the difficulti not only tryg to navigate and exprs my sexualy, but to break ee om the pret fay role of both provir and retaker which fell onto my shoulrs as the only son. Although this was the London of the early Noughti, and Omar is Thatchere Bra, fay and cultural norms endure, and though I had e out to my close iends at school, I was the closet at home. For the first time, I had seen myself reprented. In one scene, we see Omar begdggly cuttg his Dad’s overgrown toenails at home on a Friday night, only to accintally cut his father’s foot open when he receiv a vert phone ll om his lover, Johnny. </p><p data-no-id="7" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">Johnny is disillned wh the stat of the workg class, and is stgglg to fd a sense of inty Eighti immigrant-heavy London. Yet when Johnny and Omar lli, stead of simply both fdg a way to make ends meet, they mutually disver a new sense of purpose: Omar to reach fancial and sexual eedom, and Johnny to pe a cycle of ad-end tratn. What mak Daniel Day-Lewis’s portrayal so toxitg is that his Johnny don’t jt reprent the exoticism of a different world, but also that of acceptance and belongg for Omar the landspe of a changg untry. Then, Johnny be the protector and ultimate participant realisg Omar’s dreams.</p><p data-no-id="8" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">The sensualy between them boils over when they both fd belongg. Johnny is weled to Omar’s fay home as a worker, and the tenure serv as a talyst to a long-awaed kiss unr the streetlights. This is the first time we get to see the vert lovers succumb to unntrollable lt. It is electrifyg.</p><p data-no-id="9" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">The next time is the backroom of their newly acquired premis – the tular lnrette – where we first see the two disrobe, and exprs those hidn sir away om the racial and class divis occurrg Thatcher’s Bra. 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