HOCD - Homosexual or Gay OCD Revery

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• HOCD – GAY OR HOMOSEXUAL OCD AND REVERY

HOCD – GAY OR HOMOSEXUAL OCD AND REVERY

Currently sufferg om OCD (Obssive Compulsive Disorr)Recurrg unwanted or tsive thoughts about your own sexualyConstantly reassurg yourself that you are straightAvoidg people of your same genr due to anxiety or unwanted fears that you might be gayWorryg that you might be sendg out “signals” that will make others thk you are gayHomosexual thoughts are repulsive to you, rather than arogFeelg no attractn to your same sexRepeatg an actn bee you worry that you might have done somethg a way that mak others thk you are gay (example: a man repeatedly gets up and ss down on a chair bee he worri that he tak a seat a way that looks too feme). Homosexual thoughts are enjoyable and/or arog to the person, even if they hi their sexual orientatn om others or are ashamed of Havg had past sexual experienc wh those of their same genrPreferrg to date or have sexual enunters wh people of their same genr stead of wh those of the oppose sexOften, people who are gay report havg felt differently than their same-sex peers at an early age. A person sufferg om this sub-type of OCD nstantly doubts their sexual orientatn:A straight person worri whether they might actually be gay even though they haven’t doubted their sexual orientatn the pastThey might worry that homosexualy is “tchg”They may thk that talkg wh a gay person will make them act out by triggerg their own latent homosexual tennci.

Where a tly gay person obtas happs and relief the act of revealg their homosexual orientatn, HOCD people who e out ntue to doubt their wh tradnal OCD, people who are affected by this ternalized homophobia engage ruals to help them alleviate their anxiety and prove to themselv that they are tly straight. For most, this appears not to be a fear of negative evaluatn, but more a fear that this imaged person who may somehow intify them as gay will actually be seeg to their soul – that if another person lls them gay, this person is seeg their “te self” and this will nfirm their worst fear… gay nial! If somehow they managed to be such nial that they nvced an OCD specialist to diagnose them wh a disorr they didn’t have, then they mt have been obssg over that nial to such an extent that they pulsively sought reassurance om a treatment provir who would tell them they weren’t gay.

He answered that both groups experience pulsns rponse to upsettg thoughts, however those wh OCD experienced relief om dog pulsns while those wh a te orientatn crisis did not I was somewhat nfed about this bee after dog extensive rearch on HOCD and beg gay to my unrstandg those who are gay don’t perform pulsns orr to “figure out” their sexualy. Hey I’m 23 years old I have a two year old son a betiful gf whom I love havg terurse wh but idk If I have hocd or if I’m jt gay, bc I judge dus all the time whether or not they look good jt as much as I do women I’ve never wanted to have terurse wh a male, sometim I jt tell myself I’m gay and then I thk no I’m jt psycho idk what’s gog on, I don’t wanna be homosexual ’s jt eakg me out, stuff like this has bothered me for years, I would really appreciate some help.

But now when i thk about , i’m sayg to myself if i was sufferg om an HOCD do this mean that i was mentally ill and get a strs attack but not as much as i thought i was gay i uldn’t sleep well, i was pg, had hemmoroids and an urge to go to sleep very early. Hi I’m not sure if this is the right place for me to post my ment but I hope someone se this and n help me, I am 14 years of age (female) and when I was 12 I watched another girls g out story the thgs that sred me where the fact that she didn’t know she was gay, she had had boyiends the past and she jt never felt the sire to kiss them. I’m obssed wh the number 5 and do many actns a sequence of five to almost be reassured ‘ if I n turn off and on the tv 5 tim whout someone sayg anythg I’m straight’ ‘ if I n tap that pole five tim I’m straight’ I have been to therapy but I was told that was only anxiety and that ma me eak if I didn’t hv hocd I mt b gay?