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i didn't want to be gay

Ed Smart didn’t want to be gay. The father of kidnappg and rape survivor Elizabeth Smart spent most of his life nflicted over who he felt he was si and who he thought his fay, iends and church wanted him to be.

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I LIKE GUYS BUT I DON’T WANT TO BE GAY. HOW DO I STOP BEG GAY?

* i didn't want to be gay *

I like guys but I don’t want to be gay. How do I stop beg gay?

You don’t need to be certa you are gay before talkg to someone or attendg an LGBTQ+ meetg.

I am a gay male. I have been out nearly 7 years now (age 16, sophomore year of HS).

I DIDN’T WANT TO BE GAY, ED SMART TELLS LGBTQ NFERENCE

That week I told my iends and fay I was gay.

It is very homogeneo/ hetero-normative and beg a tholic stutn is not the easit environment for queer stunts. Smart, 64, said that not only didn’t he want to be gay, but he was “homophobic” about . He said he has sce e to believe he was born gay.

I wanted be fahful and do all those thgs that would enable me to be a place that was the bt place that I uld be, whether was beg the bt person I uld be here on Earth or whether was beg the bt place the hereafter, ” he said was a year ago this month durg a discsn about the church wh his wife, Lois, that she asked him if he was gay. The suatn is I’m gay and I’m tryg to be straight.

SPORT'I DIDN'T WANT TO BE GAY': ASH BRAZILL OPENS UP ABOUT THE IMPORTANCE OF SUPER NETBALL'S NEW PRI MATCH

Smart, a father of six children, said he talked to church lears and a therapist who told him he wasn’t gay. “There are two people who know that I am gay.

JAGS' MAXEN IS FIRST MALE AMERIN PRO SPORTS ACH TO E OUT AS GAY

” Smart said he ma early morng phone lls to each of his children the day after he me out to his wife, tellg them he was gay and gettg a divorce. ”While he agonized over tellg his mother that he is gay, his wife beat him to , “which blew me away, ” Smart said. “Do my beg gay mean that I’m gog to be ls of a person, that I’m not gog to be that good person that I’ve tried to be all my life?

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