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THE 'GAY' SI OF HAZG
I was a young gay man hopg universy athletics would help me f . I had no ia llege was gog to be so much like a gay porn movie. After two weeks of tryouts, we had fally ma the gra, and this was our reward: An afternoon of embarrassg hazg activi, followed by a homoerotic climax that seemed to have e straight out of my 17-year-old gay subnsc.
On top of that, I'd known I was gay sce I was 8. Not only did beg a jock boost my self-nfince, was an antidote to my anxieti about my burgeong homosexualy, about the girlish lilt that uld emerge my voice or my ocsnal extravagant hand motns. I had always been pretty fortable wh the ia that I was gay, but I was still stgglg wh the implitn that meant beg ls manly than the other boys.
THE SECRET GAY HISTORY OF AN AMERIN FRATERNY
When I stepped onto that oil-vered tarp to face off agast my opponent, I wasn't preoccupied by the sane homoeroticism of the moment. Instead, I was thkg about how this entire display was predited on the fact that gay sexualy was lghable and gross. If this was the kd of macho, homophobic stuff I had to tolerate to be on a sports team, there was no pot even tryg.