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A profsor talks about the long-term effects of beg bullied for beg gay middle school and high school, even though they’ve never intified as gay.

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READG MY DIARY OM WHEN I WAS A TEEN MA ME REALIZE I ALWAYS KNEW I WAS GAY

The thor shar how readg through her notebook om when she was an early teen showed her what she always spected: she knew she was gay. * when i was a kid i thought i was gay *

Readg my diary nfirmed that I knew way before then that I was gay.

But the most movg tail was somethg I had no rellectn of — I always knew I was gay. I am nfint that, had the Deidre who wrote the words been exposed to healthy reprentatns of queer love om an early age, she would have known that beg gay was OK.

WHEN I ME OUT AS GAY, MY DAD THOUGHT I WAS POSSSED BY A MON AND FORCED ME TO NVERSN THERAPY. YEARS LATER, I'M NOW A HAPPY GAY MAN.

Democratic printial ndidate Robert F. Kennedy Jr. has a history of repeatedly sharg unfound nspiraci that man-ma chemils the environment uld be makg children gay or transgenr and g the femizatn of boys and masculizatn of girls. * when i was a kid i thought i was gay *

She wore a red sequned drs and my head her hair was bigger than Dolly Parton’s, although is highly likely that uld be me leang to the gay fantasy. While eventually I would e to realise I am also a gay man, long before my gay shame me the shame of beg a boy whose bt iend was a Barbie. Has a history of repeatedly sharg unfound nspiraci that man-ma chemils the environment uld be makg children gay or transgenr and g the femizatn of boys and masculizatn of girls.

The basels claim that chemils – particularly tap water – uld turn people gay has gaed populary wh nspiracy theorists over the years, most memorably wh nservative rad host Alex Jon, who said chemils the water were “turng the igg’ ogs gay. As a 30-year-old gay man, I’ve met a lot of other queer people who also hid parts of themselv childhood.

SAME LOVEMACKLEMORE & RYAN LEWISTRACK 5 ON THE HEIST FEATURGMARY LAMBERTPRODUCED BYRYAN LEWISTHE THIRD SGLE OM MACKLEMORE AND RYAN LEWIS’S BUT ALBUM THE HEIST, “SAME LOVE” IS A POWERFUL SONG ABOUT MARRIAGE EQUALY FOR SAME-SEX UPL, AND HAS PLAYED A BIG… READ MORE JUL. 18, 20121 VIEWER3.7M VIEWS286 CONTRIBUTORSTRANSLATNSFRANçAISSAME LOVE LYRICS[PIANO INTRO][VERSE 1: MACKLEMORE]WHEN I WAS THE THIRD GRA, I THOUGHT THAT I WAS GAY'CSE I ULD DRAW, MY UNCLE WAS, AND I KEPT MY ROOM STRAIGHTI TOLD MY MOM, TEARS SHG DOWN MY FACESHE'S LIKE, "BEN, YOU'VE LOVED GIRLS SCE BEFORE PRE-K"TRIPP', YEAH, I GUS SHE HAD A POT, DIDN'T SHE?A BUNCH OF STEREOTYP ALL MY HEADI REMEMBER DOG THE MATH LIKE, "YEAH, I'M GOOD AT LTLE LEAGUE"A PRE-NCEIVED IA OF WHAT ALL MEANTFOR THOSE THAT LIKE THE SAME SEX HAD THE CHARACTERISTICSTHE RIGHT-WG NSERVATIV THK 'S A CISNAND YOU N BE CURED WH SOME TREATMENT AND RELIGNMAN-MA, REWIRG OF A PRE-DISPOSNPLAYG GOD, AW NAH, HERE WE GOAMERI THE BRAVE STILL FEARS WHAT WE DON'T KNOWAND "GOD LOV ALL HIS CHILDREN" IS SOMEHOW FOTTENBUT WE PARAPHRASE A BOOK WRTEN THIRTY-FIVE HUNDRED YEARS AGOI DON'T KNOW[CHOS: MARY LAMBERT]AND I N'T CHANGEEVEN IF I TRIEDEVEN IF I WANTED TOAND I N'T CHANGEEVEN IF I TRIEDEVEN IF I WANTED TOMY LOVE, MY LOVE, MY LOVESHE KEEPS ME WARMSHE KEEPS ME WARMSHE KEEPS ME WARMSHE KEEPS ME WARMYOU MIGHT ALSO LIKE[VERSE 2: MACKLEMORE]IF I WAS GAY, I WOULD THK HIP-HOP HAT MEHAVE YOU READ THE YOUTUBE MENTS LATELY?"MAN, THAT'S GAY" GETS DROPPED ON THE DAILYWE'VE BEE SO NUMB TO WHAT WE'RE SAY'OUR CULTURE FOUND OM OPPRSNYET WE DON'T HAVE ACCEPTANCE FOR 'EMCALL EACH OTHER FAGGOTS BEHD THE KEYS OF A MSAGE BOARDA WORD ROOTED HATE, YET OUR GENRE STILL IGNOR AND "GAY" IS SYNONYMO WH THE LSERIT'S THE SAME HATE THAT'S ED WARS OM RELIGNGENR TO SK LOR, THE PLEXN OF YOUR PIGMENTTHE SAME FIGHT THAT LED PEOPLE TO WALK-OUTS AND S-SIT'S HUMAN RIGHTS FOR EVERYBODY, THERE IS NO DIFFERENCELIVE ON AND BE YOURSELFWHEN I WAS AT CHURCH THEY TGHT ME SOMETHG ELSEIF YOU PREACH HATE AT THE SERVICE, THOSE WORDS AREN'T ANOTEDTHAT HOLY WATER THAT YOU SOAK HAS BEEN POISONEDWHEN EVERYONE ELSE IS MORE FORTABLE REMAG VOICELSRATHER THAN FIGHTG FOR HUMANS THAT HAVE HAD THEIR RIGHTS STOLENI MIGHT NOT BE THE SAME, BUT THAT'S NOT IMPORTANTNO EEDOM 'TIL WE'RE EQUAL, DAMN RIGHT I SUPPORT [TROMBONE INTERLU][CHOS: MARY LAMBERT]AND I N'T CHANGEEVEN IF I TRIEDEVEN IF I WANTED TOMY LOVE, MY LOVE, MY LOVESHE KEEPS ME WARMSHE KEEPS ME WARMSHE KEEPS ME WARMSHE KEEPS ME WARM[VERSE 3: MACKLEMORE]WE PRS PLAY, DON'T PRS PSE, PROGRS, MARCH ONWH A VEIL OVER OUR EY, WE TURN OUR BACK ON THE E'TIL THE DAY THAT MY UNCL N BE UNED BY LAWWHEN KIDS ARE WALKG 'ROUND THE HALLWAYPLAGUED BY A PA THEIR HEARTA WORLD SO HATEFUL, SOME WOULD RATHER DIE THAN BE WHO THEY AREAND A CERTIFITE ON PAPER ISN'T GONNA SOLVE ALLBUT 'S A DAMN GOOD PLACE TO STARTNO LAW'S GONNA CHANGE , WE HAVE TO CHANGE WHATEVER GOD YOU BELIEVE , WE E OM THE SAME ONESTRIP AWAY THE FEAR, UNRNEATH 'S ALL THE SAME LOVEABOUT TIME THAT WE RAISED UP, SG[CHOS: MARY LAMBERT]AND I N'T CHANGEEVEN IF I TRIEDEVEN IF I WANTED TOAND I N'T CHANGEEVEN IF I TRIEDEVEN IF I WANTED TOMY LOVE, MY LOVE, MY LOVESHE KEEPS ME WARMSHE KEEPS ME WARMSHE KEEPS ME WARMSHE KEEPS ME WARM[OUTRO: MARY LAMBERT]LOVE IS PATIENTLOVE IS KDLOVE IS PATIENTLOVE IS KD (NOT CRYG ON SUNDAYS)LOVE IS PATIENT (NOT CRYG ON SUNDAYS)LOVE IS KD (I'M NOT CRYG ON SUNDAYS)LOVE IS PATIENT (NOT CRYG ON SUNDAYS)LOVE IS KD (I'M NOT CRYG ON SUNDAYS)LOVE IS PATIENT (NOT CRYG ON SUNDAYS)LOVE IS KD (I'M NOT CRYG ON SUNDAYS)LOVE IS PATIENTLOVE IS KD231EMBEDCANCELHOW TO FORMAT LYRICS:TYPE OUT ALL LYRICS, EVEN REPEATG SONG PARTS LIKE THE CHOSLYRICS SHOULD BE BROKEN DOWN TO DIVIDUAL LUSE SECTN HEARS ABOVE DIFFERENT SONG PARTS LIKE [VERSE], [CHOS], ETC.USE ALICS (<I>LYRIC</I>) AND BOLD (<B>LYRIC</B>) TO DISTGUISH BETWEEN DIFFERENT VOLISTS THE SAME SONG PARTIF YOU DON’T UNRSTAND A LYRIC, E [?]TO LEARN MORE, CHECK OUT OUR TRANSCRIPTN GUI OR VIS OUR TRANSCRIBERS FOMABOUT

Barbiemania htg s peak summer 2023 helped one 30-year-old wrer release the childhood shame he felt when playg wh Barbie dolls as a young gay child. * when i was a kid i thought i was gay *

Experimentg wh femy the safety of the home — even somethg as mcule as selectg girl characters vio gam and livg virly through her abily to kick ass — seems to be a shared gay experience for many of .

None of this mak a person gay, of urse.

It feels remiscent of the adoratn that gay fans hold toward old Hollywood beti like Joan Crawford and Judy Garland, or the pageant-style exaggeratns of femy that unrpned so much of early drag culture.

KEV MAXEN, JAGUARS ASSOCIATE STRENGTH ACH, OUT AS GAY A FIRST FOR U.S.-BASED PRO LEAGU

Same Love Lyrics: When I was the third gra, I thought that I was gay / 'Cse I uld draw, my uncle was, and I kept my room straight / I told my mom, tears shg down my face / She's like, " * when i was a kid i thought i was gay *

Barbie has been the subject of the same gay diva worship over the years, and Gerwig’s film promently featurg LGBTQ+ actors feels like a nod to that history.

Part of Barbie’s gay appeal might be that, spe beg plastic and unmalleable, she n transform herself to anythg: doctor, lawyer, judge, journalist, and vet, or whatever Mattel thks will sell the most dolls. ) As the world’s most famo doll, she has been st as both an aspiratnal hero and a rctive villa — the gay world, this polarizg dualy often turns women to ins. After I me out as gay, I spent a lot of my younger adult life reilg when people said that they “already knew.

Now, I feel proud of my ltle gay self for havg the urage to play wh those fabulo dolls — and of my parents for buyg me the toys I wanted, not the on I was supposed to like. At 17, he accepted himself as gay and wrote a one-person play about his experience. He texted me one day and asked if I was gay.

HOW DO I KNOW I’M NOT REALLY GAY/STRAIGHT?

Then Dad drove me four hours to see a therapist; that's when my gay nversn therapy started. At other pots, I was schooled on how to s appropriately and talk the right way for a my later teen years, I went back to the closet and tried to be straight 3 separate timEach time I pretend to be straight, my gay tennci rose up, which led to feelgs of shame.

WHAT IF YOU ONLY THOUGHT YOU WERE GAY?

I had a girliend at one pot, even though I knew that wasn't right for parents cid to move and enrolled me a new school bee mors were circulatg that I was gay, and they felt before turng 16, I tried leadg a straight life wh a secretive double life as a gay boy. At 30, I now live my life openly as a gay man and have a good relatnship wh my mom, who has divorced my dad. My life as an openly gay man is now fabuloly brilliant.

Although this wasn’t the first rap song to fend homosexualy (See “Animal Style” by Murs), this was the first to see mastream succs.

ED SHEERAN RELLS THKG HE WAS ’GAY’ AS A KID: ‘I’M NOT A HUGELY MASCULE PERSON’

In 2015, twelve years after the US Supreme Court validated laws prohibg gay sex, and two years after the Court extend Feral regnn of same-sex marriag, gay marriage fally beme legalized s entirety all 50 a qutn about this songAsk a qutn *What have the artists said about the song?

As I relayed When Your Child Is Gay: What You Need To Know (Sterlg, 2016), I found out that my son was gay om a note wh our son's name entwed wh another boy's, surround by a heart. I had spected at tim that he was gay. Had I asked him if he were gay when he was 13, he probably would have fensively said "No!

San Berland, the mother of a gay son who ach parents of LGBTQ kids, utn, "It's not a good ia to ask.

I WAS BULLIED FOR BEG GAY AS A KID EVEN THOUGH I’M STRAIGHT

Acrdg to my -thor, psychiatrist Jonathan Tobk, "Gay children feel credibly vulnerable when g out to their parents, and tak time to work up the urage to do this. Mol acceptance by not g gay slurs and never tellg gay jok.

ED SHEERAN REVEALED WHY HE THOUGHT HE WAS GAY WHILE GROWG UP

Watch gay-themed shows together such as "The Fosters" and "Will and Grace. " How do they pict gay people?

*BEAR-MAGAZINE.COM* WHEN I WAS A KID I THOUGHT I WAS GAY

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I knew a bunch of other kids om the other feer elementary schools and, after puberty h me hard fourth gra (wh all the cintal Catholic shame about my sir and the explic nature of my fantasi), I felt awkward but super to girls—crazily to girls, sanely to girls. I hoped I would have girliends and iends, and feel more fortable my own sk. That hope lasted until the end of the first day of seventh gra. I was gog to play sports, bee playg sports was one way to be “ol,” pecially after three years of takg jazz and tap dancg class—ually beg the only boy a class of girls leotards. It was somethg that add to my girl crazs, even as iends qutned, gently, whether I was gay or not for takg dance class. So, I felt a need to do somethg “manly,” even though I had been part of the suburbs’ great pastime—soccer— the lol Catholic church league. Of urse, we need to take physils first to make sure we were healthy. While wag for one, all went wrong. I saw one of my iends om elementary school, Ali, so I sat down next to her. I thought she was cute, of urse, and liked her; she had lived my neighborhood, but she went out wh my iend, Dave, and not me. That was OK though. As we sat talkg, I did what awkward 12-year-old boys do to girls they like and teased her. It was not malic bee I had known her so long, but apparently seemed malic to some olr boys I didn’t know. They rose to her fense and began teasg me. It was savage. I pulled back to a fensive physil pose, holdg my right shoulr wh my right hand, which looked funny. But I was sred and fensive. They began to tease me for that awkward pose and said I looked like a girl and that I was a “femme.” Like most childhood trmas, I don’t remember how long I sat there as three boys told me I looked like a girl and asked me if I was gay. By the time I got home, I was broken. What began that day was six years of bullyg about my sexualy, lastg until I graduated high school.\r\nWhat Is Was Like Beg Bullied for Beg Gay When I’m Straight\r\nI am a straight, cis-genred male, so the bullyg was about who I wasn’t, not about who I was. However, was relentls. Middle school, like is for most people, was hell. I dread changg class bee if one of my tormentors saw me the hallways he’d scream, “FEMME! THAT KID’S A FEMME.” Some of the popular kids, who had been my iends, would shy away om me public spac, lt my low stat b off on them. The dreams I had of havg iends and beg popular were ad. Bee of middle school dynamics, my tormenters grew numbers as they roped their iends to their raveno wolfpack of sexualy-based bullyg. Several tim a day, while changg class, I endured screamed tnts and public huiatn. They didn’t have to touch me physilly bee they stroyed me emotnally. The sound of the bell rgg at the end of each class sent a shiver of terror down my spe bee I didn’t know if I’d be seen and tnted. I learned to change rout and flee, to keep my head down and hi, hopg that I would be unseen as I moved about my day. Eighth gra brought a severe se of chickenpox bee of urse did. It left me vered om head to toe sbs and pox marks. I remember now, wh shame, beg mean to another kid my class, who had bad ae, bee I wanted the foc off my sbs, supposed “femy” and homosexualy. The vic dynamics of that age and my sense of hopelsns ma me act celly sometim, even though never alleviated my torment. As wh seventh gra, I dread the end of the class bell, the b ri home, the random enunters at the mall. I did extracurricular activi every day, jt so I uld take the late b home om school to avoid my bulli.\r\nOnce the Bullyg Starts, It Don’t Stop\r\nNo matter what, one nnot flee forever. I always got ught. One event stands out. I had to take the regular b home one time, schleppg my heavy tenor saxophone. I got stuck stg near my tormentors bee of urse I did, wh my big se the aisle, my hand on the handle to keep om slidg. After endurg what felt like an eterny of slurs and sults, we arrived at the stop where a uple of them were gettg off. Each ma sure to step on the hand clutchg the handle to hurt me. I got home, went to my room and jt cried. I was cled to tear up when bullied, but this was one of those broken moments that etched self to my nscns forever. The mix of fear, rage at my powerlsns and sadns at my ongog huiatn didn’t often break me down, but, when did, I broke down hard. I endured middle school, earned high gras, was a good athlete and even had a girliend or two, though never for more than a few days—I always tried to hi her om the public lt my low stat her reputatn. I lived on high alert om my tormentors, aaid to date girls, though sperately wantg to do so bee of my ragg hormon. Still, I was ashamed of the ias those hormon engenred. It was a toxic stew and would not abate high school.\r\nThe Bullyg Even Had My Parents Thkg I Was Gay\r\nIn my first year high school, I had a specified lunch perd, as one do. Lunch had always been a sry time for me middle school, but I had luckily managed to avoid most of my tormentors. My luck would not hold. I was able to shelter among my sister’s olr iends through lunch, and tried to wear their skater inty as my own. I fally jt abandoned lunch and schled class place of lunch for my remag high school years—not the worst thg for an amic kid. It was around this time that my uncle died, and my parents somehow got wd of my torment. I’m not sure why wasn’t until high school, but the nversatn happened the r on the way home.  “But do you thk might be te? What did they say about you? Are you gay? Your uncle was gay,” my mom asked.  “No, mom, It hurts so much bee I am not gay, bee ’s not who I am.”  I don’t remember much more of the nversatn, but revealed somethg important about my recently ceased uncle. It was real, and filled me wh qutns about his life and ath.\r\nGettg Bullied at School Affects the Rt of Your Life\r\nFor three more years I endured abe. I was ually hungry om skippg my lunch perd and aaid to date girls, spe sperately wantg to; I worked as hard as I uld to be a great athlete and prove my manls. Some tormentors stopped. One even apologized bee his girliend, a iend, asked him to. Many more joed the actn. Durg the senr talent show, I was somehow asked to -host, and I dread . I’d spent years beg huiated the hallways and around town. If anyone screamed anythg, would be ont of an dience. They did, and I persisted anyway while ad si. The posive mpaign “It Gets Better” for gay youth was te for me, too. When I graduated, got better. 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