Backstreet Boys' A.J. McLean Talks Gay Band Members, Beg A 'Fag Hag' | HuffPost Voic

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• BACKSTREET BOYS' A.J. MCLEAN TALKS GAY BAND MEMBERS, BEG A 'FAG HAG'
• WHICH BACKSTREET BOY IS GAY?
• BACKSTREET BOYS' A.J. MCLEAN TALKS GAY BAND MEMBERS, BEG A 'FAG HAG'
• WHICH BACKSTREET BOY IS GAY?THE Z100 MORNG ZOO1 VIEWER2 CONTRIBUTORSWHICH BACKSTREET BOY IS GAY? LYRICSYEHWE ARE ON FIREWE HAVE SIRBUT ONE IS THAT WAYONE BACKSTREET BOY IS GAYBUT WE DON'T WANT TO BE MEANSCE NOW HE'S A QUEENDON'T ASK PLEASEWHICH BACKSTREET BOY IS GAY?TELL ME WHOA'T SAYG THAT 'S A.JTELL ME WHO A'T SAYG THAT S HOWIETELL ME WHOI NEVER WANNA HEAR U SAYWHICH BACKSTREET BOY IS GAY?NOW I N SEE HIMHE'S WOMEN'S CLOTHBUT HE DON'T NEED AN I.U.D YEHHE LIK VILLAGE PEOPLEHE'S PLAYG CROQUETHIS DOG IS A PEKEHE IS ON FIREHIS BACK PERSPIRWON'T SAY (WON'T SAY WON'T SAY) WHO'S GAYYOU MIGHT ALSO LIKEHE'S ALWAYS SAYGA'T NOTHG BUT A BUTT ACHEA'T NOTHG BUT A UKEI NEVER WANNA HEAR YOU SAY (NEVER WANNA HEAR YOU SAY)WHICH ONE OF IS GAY?TELL ME WHO?A'T SAYG THAT 'S BRIAN (WWOOAAHH)TELL ME WHOA'T SAYG NICK OR KEVTELL ME WHOHE'S MAKG UP A SOUFFLéWHICH BACKSTREET BOY IS GAY?OK WE'RE ALL GAY!EMBEDCANCELHOW TO FORMAT LYRICS:TYPE OUT ALL LYRICS, EVEN REPEATG SONG PARTS LIKE THE CHOSLYRICS SHOULD BE BROKEN DOWN TO DIVIDUAL LUSE SECTN HEARS ABOVE DIFFERENT SONG PARTS LIKE [VERSE], [CHOS], ETC.USE ALICS (<I>LYRIC</I>) AND BOLD (<B>LYRIC</B>) TO DISTGUISH BETWEEN DIFFERENT VOLISTS THE SAME SONG PARTIF YOU DON’T UNRSTAND A LYRIC, E [?]TO LEARN MORE, CHECK OUT OUR TRANSCRIPTN GUI OR VIS OUR TRANSCRIBERS FOMABOUT
• 20 YEARS AGO, THE BACKSTREET BOYS USHERED MY GAYNSJT WHEN I WAS STARTG TO FORM MY FIRST SAME-SEX CSH ON MY CLASSMATE JOSé, THEIR MSAGE WAS EXACTLY I NEED TO HEAR: LOVE IS ALL THAT {FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}LIFEBY XORJE OLIVARAUGT 14, 2017/3:46 {HEIGHT:HER;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;POSN:RELATIVE;-WEBK-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-MS-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-WEBK-ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-ALIGN:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-ALIGN:CENTER;ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-WEBK-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;-MS-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;} IMG{HEIGHT:100%;WIDTH:100%;OBJECT-F:VER;}{HEIGHT:574PX;WIDTH:1020PX;}BRENDA CHASE/STRGERBACKSTREET BOYSBY XORJE OLIVARAUGT 14, 2017 / 3:46 PM{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"NEWSARTICLE","HEADLE":"20 YEARS AGO, THE BACKSTREET BOYS USHERED MY GAYNS","THUMBNAILURL":","DATEPUBLISHED":"2017-08-14T19:46:36.000+0000","DATEMODIFIED":"2017-08-14T19:46:36.000+0000","IMAGE":{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT","URL":","WIDTH":1920,"HEIGHT":1080},"URL":","THOR":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","NAME":"LOGO TV"},"MAENTYOFPAGE":{"@TYPE":"WEBPAGE","@ID":"},"PUBLISHER":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","@ID":","NAME":"LOGO TV","URL":","LOGO":{"@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT"}},"CREATOR":"XORJE OLIVAR","ARTICLESECTN":"LIFE"}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}LEANG EVER-SO SUALLY AGAST WHAT APPEARS TO BE A WHE-PATED WALL (ALTHOUGH LEAD SGER AND MY FIRST IMAGARY HBAND, BRIAN LTRELL, RTS AGAST A BRICK WALL), THE BACKSTREET BOYS ME TO MY LIFE 20 YEARS AGO, ON AUGT 12, 1997, BY WAY OF THEIR SELF-TLED BUT ALBUM. THE ALBUM VER FEATURED THE MOST ATTRACTIVE MEN THAT I HAD EVER SEEN ALL MY NE YEARS OF LIFE. IN THIRD GRA I BARELY KNEW WHAT POP MIC WAS, LET ALONE SEXUAL SIRE, BUT THE IMAGE GAVE ME URG THAT FIED {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS SURE OF ONE THG: I HAD TO KEEP MY LOVE FOR KEV, HOWIE, BRIAN, A.J., AND NICK A SECRET. HOW WOULD I EXPLA TO MY CATHOLIC, MEXIN-AMERIN PARENTS THAT I WANTED MY OWN PY OF THE RERD THAT MY OLR SISTER PLAYED CSANTLY HER ANTI-SKIP PORTABLE CD PLAYER? THAT I WANTED TO GAWK AT THE Y PRETTY BOYS TRYG WAY TOO HARD TO LOOK TOUGH?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THE BT PART ABOUT THAT ALBUM IS THAT WAS EVERYWHERE. DUE TO THE SIZE AND NVENIENCE OF CDS, I NEVER ULD PE THE PHOTO THAT SIGNALED MY EARLY SEXUAL ATTRACTN TO MEN. I SOON UNRSTOOD I SHARED THE SAME YEARNGS AS MY FEMALE IENDS, AND THOUGH THIS REALIZATN WAS UNSETTLG AT FIRST, MAND AN ANSWER: DID I LIKE BOYS?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}“AS LONG AS YOU LOVE ME” REMAS ONE OF MY FAVORE BACKSTREET BOY SONGS. IN THE MIC VIO, BETIFUL FEMALE MOLS PE AFTER THE BOYS DURG A PHOTOSHOOT, WHILE EACH SGER GIV A HEARTFELT SOLO BEFORE JOG TOGETHER FOR THEIR INIC FOLDG CHAIR DANCE. IT WAS UNNIABLY CHEY, GRA-A ’90S MP, BUT I WAS SOLD, AND MY HEART PULSED WHEN THE CHOS ME: I DON’T RE WHO YOU ARE, WHERE YOU’RE OM, WHAT YOU DID, AS LONG AS YOU LOVE ME. JT WHEN I WAS STARTG TO FORM MY FIRST SAME-SEX CSH ON MY CLASSMATE JOSé, THIS WAS THE MSAGE I NEED TO HEAR: LOVE IS ALL THAT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:75%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BUT WAS LOVE THAT I FELT FOR JOSé, THE KID WHO SAT ACROSS THE ROOM OM ME MY THIRD-GRA CLASS? THE ONE WHOSE HAND I MA SURE TO HOLD DURG A ROUND OF RED ROVER ON THE PLAYGROUND, EVEN AS HE REACHED FOR A GIRL’S? JOSé GAVE ME THE SAME SORT OF BUTTERFLI THAT BRIAN LTRELL DID, BUT JOSé WAS A TANGIBLE PRENCE MY LIFE, SOMEONE I ULD ENGAGE WH THE FLH—AND NOT MERELY OVER SOUND WAV. WHEN I’D GO HOME AFTER A LONG DAY AT ELEMENTARY SCHOOL, I PICTURED JOSé WHILE I LISTENED TO BRIAN AND PANY CROON A SENSIVE BALLAD, PECIALLY “QU PLAYG GAM (WH MY HEART)” BEE, ULTIMATELY, I REALIZED THAT SPE HIS EAGERNS TO HANG OUT WH ME, HE WAS STILL JT ANOTHER STRAIGHT BOY OBLIV TO MY SCHOOLYARD FLIRTATN. “YOU WANT TO E OVER AND PLAY?” I ASKED, UGH, BUT YOU’RE NOT GOG TO SPEND THE NIGHT?, I’D THK, YOU’RE KILLG ME!{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}LOOKG BACK, I CLEARLY MISREAD JOSé’S PLATONIC FEELGS, LIKE MANY GAY KIDS DO WHEN THEY’RE TRYG TO GET A HANDLE OF NEW AND STRANGE SEXUAL SIR. I’D OFTEN S MY ROOM BLARG "I’LL NEVER BREAK YOUR HEART" OM MY SISTER’S CD PLAYER, WHICH I BORROWED CLANSTELY, HOPG THAT ONE DAY I’D FD THE ONE I ULD EVENTUALLY SG TO. AND AT NE YEARS OLD, WHO KNEW WHEN THAT’D {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I RECENTLY REVISED THE ALBUM AFTER 18 YEARS, AND I WAS IMMEDIATELY REMD OF S POP GENI. BACKSTREET BOYS WILL ALWAYS BE THE CD THAT ALLOWED ME TO REGNIZE MY SAME-SEX ATTRACTNS, AND HOWEVER MOR, ACT UPON THEM. 1997 WILL FOREVER-REMA A PERD WHEN YOUTHFUL CURSY AND SELF-DISVERY FLOURISHED, WHEN MIC AND FANTASY AND SELF NVERGED. 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BACKSTREET BOYS' A.J. MCLEAN TALKS GAY BAND MEMBERS, BEG A 'FAG HAG'

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WHICH BACKSTREET BOY IS GAY?

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BACKSTREET BOYS' A.J. MCLEAN TALKS GAY BAND MEMBERS, BEG A 'FAG HAG'

"Everyone always says, 'When you look at a boy band, one of them has to be gay. Instead of me beg gay, I'm the fag hag, " he said.

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" The 35-year-old McLean, who married 2011 and is the father of a ltle girl, long supported equal rights and the band's gay fan base. "We have a huge gay followg -- 's awome, " he told Out magaze back 2010. "I, personally, am tryg to get more and more volved wh the gay and lbian movement, very much so.

WHICH BACKSTREET BOY IS GAY?THE Z100 MORNG ZOO1 VIEWER2 CONTRIBUTORSWHICH BACKSTREET BOY IS GAY? LYRICSYEHWE ARE ON FIREWE HAVE SIRBUT ONE IS THAT WAYONE BACKSTREET BOY IS GAYBUT WE DON'T WANT TO BE MEANSCE NOW HE'S A QUEENDON'T ASK PLEASEWHICH BACKSTREET BOY IS GAY?TELL ME WHOA'T SAYG THAT 'S A.JTELL ME WHO A'T SAYG THAT S HOWIETELL ME WHOI NEVER WANNA HEAR U SAYWHICH BACKSTREET BOY IS GAY?NOW I N SEE HIMHE'S WOMEN'S CLOTHBUT HE DON'T NEED AN I.U.D YEHHE LIK VILLAGE PEOPLEHE'S PLAYG CROQUETHIS DOG IS A PEKEHE IS ON FIREHIS BACK PERSPIRWON'T SAY (WON'T SAY WON'T SAY) WHO'S GAYYOU MIGHT ALSO LIKEHE'S ALWAYS SAYGA'T NOTHG BUT A BUTT ACHEA'T NOTHG BUT A UKEI NEVER WANNA HEAR YOU SAY (NEVER WANNA HEAR YOU SAY)WHICH ONE OF IS GAY?TELL ME WHO?A'T SAYG THAT 'S BRIAN (WWOOAAHH)TELL ME WHOA'T SAYG NICK OR KEVTELL ME WHOHE'S MAKG UP A SOUFFLéWHICH BACKSTREET BOY IS GAY?OK WE'RE ALL GAY!EMBEDCANCELHOW TO FORMAT LYRICS:TYPE OUT ALL LYRICS, EVEN REPEATG SONG PARTS LIKE THE CHOSLYRICS SHOULD BE BROKEN DOWN TO DIVIDUAL LUSE SECTN HEARS ABOVE DIFFERENT SONG PARTS LIKE [VERSE], [CHOS], ETC.USE ALICS (<I>LYRIC</I>) AND BOLD (<B>LYRIC</B>) TO DISTGUISH BETWEEN DIFFERENT VOLISTS THE SAME SONG PARTIF YOU DON’T UNRSTAND A LYRIC, E [?]TO LEARN MORE, CHECK OUT OUR TRANSCRIPTN GUI OR VIS OUR TRANSCRIBERS FOMABOUT

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The song Which Backstreet Boy Is Gay? YehWe are on fireWe have sirBut one is that wayOne backstreet boy is gayBut we don't want to be meanSce now he's a queenDon't ask pleaseWhich backstreet boy is gay?

20 YEARS AGO, THE BACKSTREET BOYS USHERED MY GAYNSJT WHEN I WAS STARTG TO FORM MY FIRST SAME-SEX CSH ON MY CLASSMATE JOSé, THEIR MSAGE WAS EXACTLY I NEED TO HEAR: LOVE IS ALL THAT {FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}LIFEBY XORJE OLIVARAUGT 14, 2017/3:46 {HEIGHT:HER;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;POSN:RELATIVE;-WEBK-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-MS-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-WEBK-ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-ALIGN:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-ALIGN:CENTER;ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-WEBK-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;-MS-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;} IMG{HEIGHT:100%;WIDTH:100%;OBJECT-F:VER;}{HEIGHT:574PX;WIDTH:1020PX;}BRENDA CHASE/STRGERBACKSTREET BOYSBY XORJE OLIVARAUGT 14, 2017 / 3:46 PM{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"NEWSARTICLE","HEADLE":"20 YEARS AGO, THE BACKSTREET BOYS USHERED MY GAYNS","THUMBNAILURL":","DATEPUBLISHED":"2017-08-14T19:46:36.000+0000","DATEMODIFIED":"2017-08-14T19:46:36.000+0000","IMAGE":{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT","URL":","WIDTH":1920,"HEIGHT":1080},"URL":","THOR":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","NAME":"LOGO TV"},"MAENTYOFPAGE":{"@TYPE":"WEBPAGE","@ID":"},"PUBLISHER":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","@ID":","NAME":"LOGO TV","URL":","LOGO":{"@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT"}},"CREATOR":"XORJE OLIVAR","ARTICLESECTN":"LIFE"}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}LEANG EVER-SO SUALLY AGAST WHAT APPEARS TO BE A WHE-PATED WALL (ALTHOUGH LEAD SGER AND MY FIRST IMAGARY HBAND, BRIAN LTRELL, RTS AGAST A BRICK WALL), THE BACKSTREET BOYS ME TO MY LIFE 20 YEARS AGO, ON AUGT 12, 1997, BY WAY OF THEIR SELF-TLED BUT ALBUM. THE ALBUM VER FEATURED THE MOST ATTRACTIVE MEN THAT I HAD EVER SEEN ALL MY NE YEARS OF LIFE. IN THIRD GRA I BARELY KNEW WHAT POP MIC WAS, LET ALONE SEXUAL SIRE, BUT THE IMAGE GAVE ME URG THAT FIED {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS SURE OF ONE THG: I HAD TO KEEP MY LOVE FOR KEV, HOWIE, BRIAN, A.J., AND NICK A SECRET. HOW WOULD I EXPLA TO MY CATHOLIC, MEXIN-AMERIN PARENTS THAT I WANTED MY OWN PY OF THE RERD THAT MY OLR SISTER PLAYED CSANTLY HER ANTI-SKIP PORTABLE CD PLAYER? THAT I WANTED TO GAWK AT THE Y PRETTY BOYS TRYG WAY TOO HARD TO LOOK TOUGH?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}THE BT PART ABOUT THAT ALBUM IS THAT WAS EVERYWHERE. DUE TO THE SIZE AND NVENIENCE OF CDS, I NEVER ULD PE THE PHOTO THAT SIGNALED MY EARLY SEXUAL ATTRACTN TO MEN. I SOON UNRSTOOD I SHARED THE SAME YEARNGS AS MY FEMALE IENDS, AND THOUGH THIS REALIZATN WAS UNSETTLG AT FIRST, MAND AN ANSWER: DID I LIKE BOYS?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}“AS LONG AS YOU LOVE ME” REMAS ONE OF MY FAVORE BACKSTREET BOY SONGS. IN THE MIC VIO, BETIFUL FEMALE MOLS PE AFTER THE BOYS DURG A PHOTOSHOOT, WHILE EACH SGER GIV A HEARTFELT SOLO BEFORE JOG TOGETHER FOR THEIR INIC FOLDG CHAIR DANCE. IT WAS UNNIABLY CHEY, GRA-A ’90S MP, BUT I WAS SOLD, AND MY HEART PULSED WHEN THE CHOS ME: I DON’T RE WHO YOU ARE, WHERE YOU’RE OM, WHAT YOU DID, AS LONG AS YOU LOVE ME. 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