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• EXCLIVE: EX-"AMERIN IDOL" STAR DAVID HERNANZ: I WAS ARRTED ON BOOZE AND XANAXALSO: TIMOTHéE CHALAMET ON HOW "BETIFUL BOY" IS SIAR TO "CALL ME BY YOUR NAME."{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}CELEBRIBY MICHAEL MTOOCTOBER 15, 2018/10:14 {HEIGHT:HER;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;POSN:RELATIVE;-WEBK-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-MS-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-WEBK-ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-ALIGN:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-ALIGN:CENTER;ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-WEBK-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;-MS-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;} IMG{HEIGHT:100%;WIDTH:100%;OBJECT-F:VER;}{HEIGHT:854PX;WIDTH:1280PX;}DAVID HERNANZBY MICHAEL MTOOCTOBER 15, 2018 / 10:14 AM{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"NEWSARTICLE","HEADLE":"EXCLIVE: EX-\"AMERIN IDOL\" STAR DAVID HERNANZ: I WAS ARRTED ON BOOZE AND XANAX","THUMBNAILURL":","DATEPUBLISHED":"2018-10-15T14:14:23.000+0000","DATEMODIFIED":"2018-10-15T14:14:23.000+0000","IMAGE":{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT","URL":","WIDTH":1920,"HEIGHT":1080},"URL":","THOR":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","NAME":"LOGO TV"},"MAENTYOFPAGE":{"@TYPE":"WEBPAGE","@ID":"},"PUBLISHER":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","@ID":","NAME":"LOGO TV","URL":","LOGO":{"@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT"}},"CREATOR":"MICHAEL MTO","KEYWORDS":"MTO UNFILTERED","ARTICLESECTN":"CELEBRI"}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BT KNOWN FOR APPEARG ON THE SEVENTH SEASON OF AMERIN IDOL, GAY SGER DAVID HERNANZ WAS OUTED AS A FORMER STRIPPER WHILE HE WAS A NTTANT. (HE MA TO THE TOP 12, THEN WAS ELIMATED.) BUT THAT PAL NEXT TO THE REAL-LIFE DRAMA HE’S ENDURED. YEARS AGO, HERNANZ BEGAN TAKG PRCRIPTN DGS AND LATER BEME SO ADDICTED TO THEM THAT HIS LIFE WAS VIRTUALLY SHAMBL. DPE THIS, HE STILL MANAGED TO MAKE MIC, THE RULT OF WHICH IS HIS NEW EP, KGDOM: THE MIXTAPE, AND THE SONG “SHIELD,” ABOUT HOW HE KEEPS SAFE OM DARK CRAVGS LIKE XANAX AND {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IN AN EXCLIVE TERVIEW, HERNANZ OPENED UP TO ME ABOUT HOW HE'S BATTLED THOSE MONS—AND THE TIME HE LAND JAIL AS A RULT.DAVID {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}HELLO, DAVID. IN 2009 YOU TOLD ME ABOUT YOUR HAVG BEEN VOTED OFF AMERIN IDOL, “IT WASN’T THE STRIPPER THG. IT WAS THE GAY THG. THAT’S MIDDLE AMERI FOR YOU.” THOUGHTS TODAY?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I THK THAT STILL PROBABLY HOLDS TE, FOR 10 YEARS AGO AND A LTLE B NOW {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}YOU ALSO SUGGTED THAT ADAM LAMBERT WOULD BE BOOTED OFF SOON FOR THE SAME REASON, BUT TURNS OUT HE MA TO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}HE’S A IEND AND EXTREMELY TALENTED. I JT RAN TO HIM. I DON’T HAVE THE SAME VIEWS AS BACK THEN. I’VE GOTTEN OLR AND WISER AND MORE MATURE. I FELY BELIEVE THAT “GAY FORMER STRIPPER”—ALL THAT TOGETHER—WAS A RECIPE FOR A NO GO. IT PROBABLY DIDN’T HELP THAT THAT WEEK I DID MY SHTIT SONG—"I SAW HER STANDG THERE." I WASN’T ALLOWED TO CHANGE THE ARRANGEMENT OF BEE WAS A BEATL SONG. I DON’T THK ’S A SHTY SONG, ’S JT NOT A GO-TO FOR ME, NOT A SONG I WOULD {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SPEAKG OF UNWELE VELOPMENTS, TELL ME ABOUT YOUR XANAX {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IT STARTED ABOUT 12 YEARS AGO, BEFORE AMERIN IDOL. I STARTED TAKG AS A SLEEP AID. A PIECE HERE AND A PIECE THERE, TO GO TO BED. THAT WAS OK FOR THE FIRST UPLE OF YEARS. BUT I STARTED TAKG MORE AND MORE, NOT REALIZG MY BODY WAS CREATG A PENNCY ON AND AT THE SAME TIME WAS [BEG] RILIENT TO THE EFFECTS OF , SO THE DOS GOT HIGHER AND HIGHER. BY TIME I GOT TO L.A., THERE WERE SO MANY PSYCHIATRISTS WHO’D PRCRIBE YOU ANYTHG YOU WANTED. I KEPT TRYG TO JUGGLE ANXIETY THAT WAS G ON REALLY THICK, SO I TURNED TO XANAX AS MORE THAN A SLEEP AID. I’D TAKE A QUARTER THE MORNG, A QUARTER AFTER LUNCH, AND A WHOLE PILL BEFORE BED. IT STARTED LOSG S {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHY DID YOU FEEL SO MUCH ANXIETY?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS PRETTY SHTY RELATNSHIPS, TUMULTUO ON WH VERBAL AND PHYSIL ABE. I GREW UP NOT SEEG POSIVE RELATNSHIPS, SO SUBNSCLY THAT SEEPED TO THE PEOPLE I PICKED TO DATE. THAT’S SORT OF WHEN I WANTED TO NUMB MYSELF WH ALHOL AND OTHER SUBSTANC. IN L.A. THGS ARE PRETTY AVAILABLE, PECIALLY IF YOU’RE OF ANY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I’M SO SORRY TO HEAR YOU WERE ABED. DID YOU EVER LL THE PS OR HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSPAL?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}NO. THERE WERE SOME TIM WHEN THE PS ULD HAVE BEEN LLED, BUT NEVER HAPPENED TO THAT EXTENT. I THK MY PRCRIPTN DG ABE STARTED BEE OF THOSE RELATNSHIPS AND ANXIETY OF THIS BS—FAILED RERD ALS AND SO ON. I DIDN’T REALIZE I WAS SLOWLY KILLG MY BODY. I WROTE A GOOD CHUNK OF THE CURRENT CD DURG THIS PERD. IT WAS REALLY PERSONAL TO ME BEE I WAS SO FAR DOWN, AND THAT WAS MY ONLY WAY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I HEAR THAT YOU WERE ARRTED ONCE. CAN YOU TELL ME NOW, EXCLIVELY, WHAT HAPPENED?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHEN I WAS GOG THROUGH MY FIRST BREAKUP, I HAD A DUI ARIZONA. MY BT IEND AND I HAD BEEN OUT DRKG. I WAS TAKG XANAX AND ADRALL. I DROVE HER R HOME AND GOT PULLED OVER. THEY SAID I WAS VERY, VERY DNK. I END UP JAIL FOR NE DAYS, UNR HOE ARRT FOR 36 DAYS, AND WH A BREATHALYZER MY R FOR TWO YEARS. I WAS SWERVG ALL OVER THE ROAD. I THK I MA A RIGHT HAND TURN AND PULLED TO THE LEFT HAND LANE, WHICH WOULD NORMALLY NOT BE A BIG AL, BUT WAS 2:30AM AND I WAS DRIVG SLOW, SO I WAS VERY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I’M GLAD YOU WEREN’T SPEEDG. DID YOU HAVE TO WEAR AN ANKLE BRACELET WHEN YOU WERE UNR HOE ARRT?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I DID. I ALWAYS WEAR SKNY JEANS, SO IMAGE TRYG TO VER THAT UP. IT WASN’T EASY.DAVID {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHEN DID YOU FALLY GO TO REHAB?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}JANUARY 7 OF THIS YEAR. I SAID JANUARY, “I NEED TO GET THIS SH UNR NTROL.” I WAS AT ROCK BOTTOM, TO SAY THE LEAST. I WENT BACK HOME TO ARIZONA, TO A VOLUNTARY FACILY, AND I WAS THERE ABOUT A WEEK. I THOUGHT I WAS OK, BUT THEN THE ONSET OF THE WHDRAWAL OM XANAX ULD LAST FOR YEARS. I DIDN’T REALIZE WHEN I CHECKED OUT THAT I STILL HAD A LONG WAY TO GO. I WAS HAVG HALLUCATNS. MY BODY WAS EAKG OUT. MY DAD’S GIRLIEND HAD TO LL THE PARAMEDICS, AND I WENT TO THE HOSPAL FOR A FEW {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}GOG SEMI-LD TURKEY MT BE VERY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BEFORE I CHECKED , I WAS OFF OF XANAX FOR THREE DAYS. BUT THEY SAID, “YOU ULD HAVE A SEIZURE, YOU ULD DIE.” I ALMOST DIED. MY MOM’S A NURSE AND DIDN’T KNOW [IF] I WOULD EVER BOUNCE BACK. MY MD WAS GOG THROUGH PSYCHOS. I’D HALLUCATE PEOPLE TRYG TO KILL ME. IN RETROSPECT, I’D TELL PEOPLE TO STAY REHAB FOR A MONTH AT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHY DID TAKE YOU CLOSE TO 10 YEARS TO GO TO REHAB?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I DIDN’T FEEL LIKE I HAD A PROBLEM UNTIL THEN. MY BODY STARTED SHUTTG DOWN LAST YEAR. MY STOMACH WAS BURNG, BUT I WOULD ALWAYS TREAT THAT WH MORE XANAX. I THOUGHT WAS MANAGEABLE. I DIDN’T THK I WAS ADDICTED TO ANYTHG. YOU HAVE TO ACKNOWLEDGE YOU HAVE A PROBLEM BEFORE DOG SOMETHG ABOUT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHAT’S YOUR ATTU TODAY ABOUT ALL THIS?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I’M TERRIFIED OF GOG DOWN THAT RABB HOLE AGA. I’M MUCH MORE FOCED, STILL DRIVEN, THE STUD ALL THE TIME, AND STILL {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}DO YOU HAVE ANY VIC NOW?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I’M A WORK PROGRS. EVERY DAY IS A STEP THE RIGHT DIRECTN. I‘M ALWAYS GOG TO HAVE THAT MONKEY ON MY BACK, SO TO SPEAK. BUT I’VE NOT TAKEN A PILL SCE BEFORE JANUARY 7 AND I DON’T PLAN ON . GOG THROUGH WHAT I WENT THROUGH IS LIKE A SEPARATE UNIVERSE. YOUR MD IS DISNNECTED OM YOUR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:56.49999999999999%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHAT DO YOUR SONG “SHIELD” MEAN TO YOU?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}“SHIELD” IS SORT OF A UNIVERSAL SONG. PEOPLE N TERPRET THE WAY THEY WANT TO. FOR ME, ’S AN EMPOWERG SONG. I ORIGALLY WROTE OM MY STRONGER SELF TO MY WEAKER SELF. WHEN I SG , I DITE TO MY IEND WHO HAD A STROKE, SO HE KNOWS EVERY STEP OF THE WAY THAT SOMEONE IS THERE FOR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}DO YOU TALK ABOUT YOUR PERSONAL PROBLEMS NCERT?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}NOT THIS. BUT I TALK ABOUT MY SHTY RELATNSHIPS BEE PEOPLE N RELATE. I TALK ABOUT MY MOM. PEOPLE NNECT BEE I’M A REAL PERSON AND THERE’S NO HOLLYWOOD-NS ABOUT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}HOW’S YOUR LOVE LIFE TODAY?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IT’S GREAT. I TRY TO KEEP AS PRIVATE AS POSSIBLE. PEOPLE ON SOCIAL WORKS START STALKG WHOEVER I’M {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BUT YOU FEEL HEALTHIER?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I FEEL VERY HAPPY MY LOVE LIFE AND REER-WISE, THGS ARE GOG REALLY WELL. I HAVE A GREAT AGENT. THIS MIXTAPE IS ALL SELF-PROMOTED. I DON’T HAVE A LABEL OR A BIG TIME MANAGER. IT’S TCHG FIRE. AND THERE ARE 23 SONGS. THE STUFF THAT HAPPENED UNTIL I GOT CLEAN WAS THE TIME I WROTE ALL THE SONGS THAT WERE SUPPOSED TO BE REAFFIRMG, AND THEY WERE. BUT I REALLY NEED MEDIL HELP TO GET THROUGH. YOU N’T DO THAT ON YOUR OWN. BUT MIC GAVE ME A PURPOSE. IT REALLY SAVED ME. I N’T TELL YOU WHAT WOULD HAVE HAPPENED IF I DIDN’T HAVE THAT TO GUI ME.DAVE J HOGAN/DAVE J HOGAN/GETTY IMAGLONDON, ENGLAND - OCTOBER 13: STEVE CARELL (L) AND TIMOTHEE CHALAMET ATTEND THE UK PREMIERE OF "BETIFUL BOY" & HEADLE GALA DURG THE 62ND BFI LONDON FILM FTIVAL ON OCTOBER 13, 2018 LONDON, ENGLAND. (PHOTO BY DAVE J HOGAN/DAVE J HOGAN/GETTY IMAG){BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}FROM LEFT: STEVE CARRELL AND TIMOTHéE CHALAMET ATTEND THE BETIFUL BOY U.K. {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}OF TIMOTHéE I {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IN OTHER DG SURVIVAL NEWS, NIC SHEFF’S MEMOIRS—AND HIS DAD, DAVID'S—HAVE BEEN TURNED TO THE FILM BETIFUL BOY STARRG THE OSR-NOMATED DUO OF TIMOTHéE CHALAMET AND STEVE CARELL. AT A LUNCHEON AT LOTOS CLUB THE OTHER DAY, CHALAMET WAS ASKED WHY HE TOOK THE ROLE, AND HE REPLIED, “I HAD NO REER AT THIS POT. THIS WAS A JOB.” CARELL CHIMED , “AND I NTUE TO FEEL THAT WAY.” WE ALL LGHED EVEN {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}“IT RONATED WH ME,” NTUED CARELL, “AND THE HOPE WAS WOULD RONATE WH PEOPLE THAT SAW AND WOULD START A NVERSATN.” HAVG MULLED OVER HIS ABBREVIATED RPONSE, CHALAMET THEN ADD THAT HE READ THE BOOKS AND THE SCRIPT AND FELT, “I NEED TO BE THIS. A LOT OF PEOPLE MY AGE ARE GOG THROUGH THIS. LAST YEAR, I WAS A FILM THAT FELT LIKE WAS A NEW WDOW OF EXPERIENCE THAT PEOPLE HADN’T SEEN BEFORE.” NATURALLY, HE MEANT CALL ME BY YOUR NAME, THE MOVIE THAT HAD HIS CHARACTER—AND THE ENTIRE WORLD—GOG GAY FOR ARMIE HAMMER. HE FELT THAT BOY, WHICH ADDICTN IS TREATED AS A DISEASE AND THE VICTIM ISN’T BLAMED, IS SIAR THAT REGARD. “IT’S A HUMAN STORY,” SAID CHALAMET, “AND THE BIGGT THG I LEARNED REARCHG THIS ROLE IS THAT THERE IS NO REGNIZABLE FACE TO DG ADDICTN. IT’S SRY AND PLEX TO SOME PEOPLE AND RAIS QUTNS AND A STIGMA. I WAS LOOKG FOR A CLUE OR A WAY , AND ’S A STORY ABOUT HUMANY. I’M NOT GOG TO PLAY A DG ADDICT. I’M GOG TO PLAY A HUMAN WHO’S ADDICTED TO DGS.” CHEERS—WH CRANBERRY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}"TIRED OLD QUEEN" STEVE HAY IS NOT TIRED AT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}ANOTHER DG SURVIVOR WHO’S FLOURISHG: KNOWN FOR THE MOVIE TRICK (1999) AS WELL AS THE BIG GAY MIL (2009) AND HIS “TIRED OLD QUEEN AT THE MOVI” VIOS, STEVE HAY IS A VERY FUNNY MAN WHO’S BEEN THERE AND BACK. IN A PERFORMANCE FOR TWEED’S SUNDAYS AT 7 SERI AT PANGEA, PRENTED BY KEV MALONY, HAY WAS WILDLY ENARG AS HE TALKED ABOUT GOG TO L.A. TO THE HOE OF THE PRODUCER OF THE TRICK SEQUEL AND PRACTILLY ASMG WHEN HE SAW A FRENCH POSTER FOR THE PILL-POPPG MP CLASSIC VALLEY OF THE DOLLS ON THE WALL. THE PRODUCER IMMEDIATELY WENT TO PATTY DE’S DIALOGUE OM THE BATHROOM SCENE, AND HAY RPOND WH SAN HAYWARD’S L, AND THEY PLAYED ALL THE WAY THROUGH—“AND WE HADN’T EVEN BEEN FORMALLY TRODUCED!” HAY ALSO TALKED ABOUT HIS YOUTH, WHEN HE VALIANTLY TRIED TO BOND WH HIS FATHER BY JOG HIM TARRG THE ROOF OF THEIR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}AT ONE POT, DAD REALIZED THAT STEVE HAD TARRED HIMSELF TO A RNER AND WAS VISIBLY CRYG. “WHAT’S THE MATTER?” ASKED DAD. “I’M GAY AND A DG ADDICT!” BLURTED STEVE, TO HIS OWN SURPRISE. DAD OFFERED FORT, SAYG THEY’D GET THROUGH THIS TOGETHER (THE DG ADDICT PART, ANYWAY) AND THEN HE HOOKED HIM UP WH STEVE’S NURSE SISTER, WHO PROVID SOME REHABBG ACTN. (“AND I GOT SOBER 15 YEARS LATER,” LGHED STEVE.) AS FOR THE GAY STUFF, STEVE EVENTUALLY WAS SO OUT THAT HE WAS ASKED TO S DOWN WH HIS 17-YEAR-OLD GAY NEPHEW AND GIVE ADVICE. (“DON’T EAT YELLOW SNOW,” WAS HIS BT OFFERG.) HAY ALSO PERFORMED A MEDLEY OF HARD BOILED DIALOGUE OM FILM NOIR CLASSICS, AND HE CLOSED WH A ROG “I AM WHAT I AM”. HE CERTALY IS. GIVE HIM THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;CLEAR:BOTH;}MTO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;MARG:0 TO;WIDTH:90%;M-WIDTH:288PX;MAX-WIDTH:1440PX;M-HEIGHT:194PX;}LATT NEWS
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EXCLIVE: EX-"AMERIN IDOL" STAR DAVID HERNANZ: I WAS ARRTED ON BOOZE AND XANAXALSO: TIMOTHéE CHALAMET ON HOW "BETIFUL BOY" IS SIAR TO "CALL ME BY YOUR NAME."{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}{FONT:NORMAL 800 1.2REM/1.2 "D BOLD",SANS-SERIF;TEXT-TRANSFORM:NORMAL;LOR:HER;DISPLAY:LE-BLOCK;PADDG-BOTTOM:6PX;POSN:RELATIVE;TEXT-TRANSFORM:UPPERSE;}{BACKGROUND:#89308A;BOTTOM:0;NTENT:'';DISPLAY:BLOCK;HEIGHT:2PX;LEFT:0;POSN:ABSOLUTE;RIGHT:0;-WEBK-TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;TRANSN:ALL 0.2S EASE;WIDTH:100%;}{LEFT:51%;RIGHT:51%;WIDTH:0;}CELEBRIBY MICHAEL MTOOCTOBER 15, 2018/10:14 {HEIGHT:HER;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;POSN:RELATIVE;-WEBK-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-MS-FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;FLEX-WRAP:WRAP;-WEBK-ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-ALIGN:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-ALIGN:CENTER;ALIGN-EMS:CENTER;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-WEBK-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;-MS-TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;TRANSFORM-ORIG:CENTER;} IMG{HEIGHT:100%;WIDTH:100%;OBJECT-F:VER;}{HEIGHT:854PX;WIDTH:1280PX;}DAVID HERNANZBY MICHAEL MTOOCTOBER 15, 2018 / 10:14 AM{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"NEWSARTICLE","HEADLE":"EXCLIVE: EX-\"AMERIN IDOL\" STAR DAVID HERNANZ: I WAS ARRTED ON BOOZE AND XANAX","THUMBNAILURL":","DATEPUBLISHED":"2018-10-15T14:14:23.000+0000","DATEMODIFIED":"2018-10-15T14:14:23.000+0000","IMAGE":{"@NTEXT":","@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT","URL":","WIDTH":1920,"HEIGHT":1080},"URL":","THOR":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","NAME":"LOGO TV"},"MAENTYOFPAGE":{"@TYPE":"WEBPAGE","@ID":"},"PUBLISHER":{"@TYPE":"ORGANIZATN","@ID":","NAME":"LOGO TV","URL":","LOGO":{"@TYPE":"IMAGEOBJECT"}},"CREATOR":"MICHAEL MTO","KEYWORDS":"MTO UNFILTERED","ARTICLESECTN":"CELEBRI"}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BT KNOWN FOR APPEARG ON THE SEVENTH SEASON OF AMERIN IDOL, GAY SGER DAVID HERNANZ WAS OUTED AS A FORMER STRIPPER WHILE HE WAS A NTTANT. (HE MA TO THE TOP 12, THEN WAS ELIMATED.) BUT THAT PAL NEXT TO THE REAL-LIFE DRAMA HE’S ENDURED. YEARS AGO, HERNANZ BEGAN TAKG PRCRIPTN DGS AND LATER BEME SO ADDICTED TO THEM THAT HIS LIFE WAS VIRTUALLY SHAMBL. DPE THIS, HE STILL MANAGED TO MAKE MIC, THE RULT OF WHICH IS HIS NEW EP, KGDOM: THE MIXTAPE, AND THE SONG “SHIELD,” ABOUT HOW HE KEEPS SAFE OM DARK CRAVGS LIKE XANAX AND {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IN AN EXCLIVE TERVIEW, HERNANZ OPENED UP TO ME ABOUT HOW HE'S BATTLED THOSE MONS—AND THE TIME HE LAND JAIL AS A RULT.DAVID {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}HELLO, DAVID. IN 2009 YOU TOLD ME ABOUT YOUR HAVG BEEN VOTED OFF AMERIN IDOL, “IT WASN’T THE STRIPPER THG. IT WAS THE GAY THG. THAT’S MIDDLE AMERI FOR YOU.” THOUGHTS TODAY?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I THK THAT STILL PROBABLY HOLDS TE, FOR 10 YEARS AGO AND A LTLE B NOW {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}YOU ALSO SUGGTED THAT ADAM LAMBERT WOULD BE BOOTED OFF SOON FOR THE SAME REASON, BUT TURNS OUT HE MA TO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}HE’S A IEND AND EXTREMELY TALENTED. I JT RAN TO HIM. I DON’T HAVE THE SAME VIEWS AS BACK THEN. I’VE GOTTEN OLR AND WISER AND MORE MATURE. I FELY BELIEVE THAT “GAY FORMER STRIPPER”—ALL THAT TOGETHER—WAS A RECIPE FOR A NO GO. IT PROBABLY DIDN’T HELP THAT THAT WEEK I DID MY SHTIT SONG—"I SAW HER STANDG THERE." I WASN’T ALLOWED TO CHANGE THE ARRANGEMENT OF BEE WAS A BEATL SONG. I DON’T THK ’S A SHTY SONG, ’S JT NOT A GO-TO FOR ME, NOT A SONG I WOULD {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}SPEAKG OF UNWELE VELOPMENTS, TELL ME ABOUT YOUR XANAX {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IT STARTED ABOUT 12 YEARS AGO, BEFORE AMERIN IDOL. I STARTED TAKG AS A SLEEP AID. A PIECE HERE AND A PIECE THERE, TO GO TO BED. THAT WAS OK FOR THE FIRST UPLE OF YEARS. BUT I STARTED TAKG MORE AND MORE, NOT REALIZG MY BODY WAS CREATG A PENNCY ON AND AT THE SAME TIME WAS [BEG] RILIENT TO THE EFFECTS OF , SO THE DOS GOT HIGHER AND HIGHER. BY TIME I GOT TO L.A., THERE WERE SO MANY PSYCHIATRISTS WHO’D PRCRIBE YOU ANYTHG YOU WANTED. I KEPT TRYG TO JUGGLE ANXIETY THAT WAS G ON REALLY THICK, SO I TURNED TO XANAX AS MORE THAN A SLEEP AID. I’D TAKE A QUARTER THE MORNG, A QUARTER AFTER LUNCH, AND A WHOLE PILL BEFORE BED. IT STARTED LOSG S {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHY DID YOU FEEL SO MUCH ANXIETY?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I WAS PRETTY SHTY RELATNSHIPS, TUMULTUO ON WH VERBAL AND PHYSIL ABE. I GREW UP NOT SEEG POSIVE RELATNSHIPS, SO SUBNSCLY THAT SEEPED TO THE PEOPLE I PICKED TO DATE. THAT’S SORT OF WHEN I WANTED TO NUMB MYSELF WH ALHOL AND OTHER SUBSTANC. IN L.A. THGS ARE PRETTY AVAILABLE, PECIALLY IF YOU’RE OF ANY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I’M SO SORRY TO HEAR YOU WERE ABED. DID YOU EVER LL THE PS OR HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSPAL?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}NO. THERE WERE SOME TIM WHEN THE PS ULD HAVE BEEN LLED, BUT NEVER HAPPENED TO THAT EXTENT. I THK MY PRCRIPTN DG ABE STARTED BEE OF THOSE RELATNSHIPS AND ANXIETY OF THIS BS—FAILED RERD ALS AND SO ON. I DIDN’T REALIZE I WAS SLOWLY KILLG MY BODY. I WROTE A GOOD CHUNK OF THE CURRENT CD DURG THIS PERD. IT WAS REALLY PERSONAL TO ME BEE I WAS SO FAR DOWN, AND THAT WAS MY ONLY WAY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I HEAR THAT YOU WERE ARRTED ONCE. CAN YOU TELL ME NOW, EXCLIVELY, WHAT HAPPENED?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHEN I WAS GOG THROUGH MY FIRST BREAKUP, I HAD A DUI ARIZONA. MY BT IEND AND I HAD BEEN OUT DRKG. I WAS TAKG XANAX AND ADRALL. I DROVE HER R HOME AND GOT PULLED OVER. THEY SAID I WAS VERY, VERY DNK. I END UP JAIL FOR NE DAYS, UNR HOE ARRT FOR 36 DAYS, AND WH A BREATHALYZER MY R FOR TWO YEARS. I WAS SWERVG ALL OVER THE ROAD. I THK I MA A RIGHT HAND TURN AND PULLED TO THE LEFT HAND LANE, WHICH WOULD NORMALLY NOT BE A BIG AL, BUT WAS 2:30AM AND I WAS DRIVG SLOW, SO I WAS VERY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I’M GLAD YOU WEREN’T SPEEDG. DID YOU HAVE TO WEAR AN ANKLE BRACELET WHEN YOU WERE UNR HOE ARRT?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I DID. I ALWAYS WEAR SKNY JEANS, SO IMAGE TRYG TO VER THAT UP. IT WASN’T EASY.DAVID {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHEN DID YOU FALLY GO TO REHAB?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}JANUARY 7 OF THIS YEAR. I SAID JANUARY, “I NEED TO GET THIS SH UNR NTROL.” I WAS AT ROCK BOTTOM, TO SAY THE LEAST. I WENT BACK HOME TO ARIZONA, TO A VOLUNTARY FACILY, AND I WAS THERE ABOUT A WEEK. I THOUGHT I WAS OK, BUT THEN THE ONSET OF THE WHDRAWAL OM XANAX ULD LAST FOR YEARS. I DIDN’T REALIZE WHEN I CHECKED OUT THAT I STILL HAD A LONG WAY TO GO. I WAS HAVG HALLUCATNS. MY BODY WAS EAKG OUT. MY DAD’S GIRLIEND HAD TO LL THE PARAMEDICS, AND I WENT TO THE HOSPAL FOR A FEW {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}GOG SEMI-LD TURKEY MT BE VERY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BEFORE I CHECKED , I WAS OFF OF XANAX FOR THREE DAYS. BUT THEY SAID, “YOU ULD HAVE A SEIZURE, YOU ULD DIE.” I ALMOST DIED. MY MOM’S A NURSE AND DIDN’T KNOW [IF] I WOULD EVER BOUNCE BACK. MY MD WAS GOG THROUGH PSYCHOS. I’D HALLUCATE PEOPLE TRYG TO KILL ME. IN RETROSPECT, I’D TELL PEOPLE TO STAY REHAB FOR A MONTH AT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHY DID TAKE YOU CLOSE TO 10 YEARS TO GO TO REHAB?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I DIDN’T FEEL LIKE I HAD A PROBLEM UNTIL THEN. MY BODY STARTED SHUTTG DOWN LAST YEAR. MY STOMACH WAS BURNG, BUT I WOULD ALWAYS TREAT THAT WH MORE XANAX. I THOUGHT WAS MANAGEABLE. I DIDN’T THK I WAS ADDICTED TO ANYTHG. YOU HAVE TO ACKNOWLEDGE YOU HAVE A PROBLEM BEFORE DOG SOMETHG ABOUT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHAT’S YOUR ATTU TODAY ABOUT ALL THIS?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I’M TERRIFIED OF GOG DOWN THAT RABB HOLE AGA. I’M MUCH MORE FOCED, STILL DRIVEN, THE STUD ALL THE TIME, AND STILL {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}DO YOU HAVE ANY VIC NOW?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I’M A WORK PROGRS. EVERY DAY IS A STEP THE RIGHT DIRECTN. I‘M ALWAYS GOG TO HAVE THAT MONKEY ON MY BACK, SO TO SPEAK. BUT I’VE NOT TAKEN A PILL SCE BEFORE JANUARY 7 AND I DON’T PLAN ON . GOG THROUGH WHAT I WENT THROUGH IS LIKE A SEPARATE UNIVERSE. YOUR MD IS DISNNECTED OM YOUR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-BOX;DISPLAY:-WEBK-FLEX;DISPLAY:-MS-FLEXBOX;DISPLAY:FLEX;-WEBK-BOX-PACK:CENTER;-WEBK-JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;-MS-FLEX-PACK:CENTER;JTIFY-NTENT:CENTER;POSN:RELATIVE;PADDG-BOTTOM:56.49999999999999%;} .TWTER-TWEET-RENRED, {M-WIDTH:65%;WIDTH:TO !IMPORTANT;} {WIDTH:100%;} {MARG-LEFT:TO !IMPORTANT;MARG-RIGHT:TO !IMPORTANT;} IMG{MAX-WIDTH:100%;WIDTH:100%;} > IAME{BORR:NONE;MAX-WIDTH:100%;} > *{MAX-WIDTH:NONE !IMPORTANT;POSN:ABSOLUTE;HEIGHT:100% !IMPORTANT;WIDTH:100% !IMPORTANT;}{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}WHAT DO YOUR SONG “SHIELD” MEAN TO YOU?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}“SHIELD” IS SORT OF A UNIVERSAL SONG. PEOPLE N TERPRET THE WAY THEY WANT TO. FOR ME, ’S AN EMPOWERG SONG. I ORIGALLY WROTE OM MY STRONGER SELF TO MY WEAKER SELF. WHEN I SG , I DITE TO MY IEND WHO HAD A STROKE, SO HE KNOWS EVERY STEP OF THE WAY THAT SOMEONE IS THERE FOR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}DO YOU TALK ABOUT YOUR PERSONAL PROBLEMS NCERT?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}NOT THIS. BUT I TALK ABOUT MY SHTY RELATNSHIPS BEE PEOPLE N RELATE. I TALK ABOUT MY MOM. PEOPLE NNECT BEE I’M A REAL PERSON AND THERE’S NO HOLLYWOOD-NS ABOUT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}HOW’S YOUR LOVE LIFE TODAY?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IT’S GREAT. I TRY TO KEEP AS PRIVATE AS POSSIBLE. PEOPLE ON SOCIAL WORKS START STALKG WHOEVER I’M {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}BUT YOU FEEL HEALTHIER?{BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}I FEEL VERY HAPPY MY LOVE LIFE AND REER-WISE, THGS ARE GOG REALLY WELL. I HAVE A GREAT AGENT. THIS MIXTAPE IS ALL SELF-PROMOTED. I DON’T HAVE A LABEL OR A BIG TIME MANAGER. IT’S TCHG FIRE. AND THERE ARE 23 SONGS. THE STUFF THAT HAPPENED UNTIL I GOT CLEAN WAS THE TIME I WROTE ALL THE SONGS THAT WERE SUPPOSED TO BE REAFFIRMG, AND THEY WERE. BUT I REALLY NEED MEDIL HELP TO GET THROUGH. YOU N’T DO THAT ON YOUR OWN. BUT MIC GAVE ME A PURPOSE. IT REALLY SAVED ME. I N’T TELL YOU WHAT WOULD HAVE HAPPENED IF I DIDN’T HAVE THAT TO GUI ME.DAVE J HOGAN/DAVE J HOGAN/GETTY IMAGLONDON, ENGLAND - OCTOBER 13: STEVE CARELL (L) AND TIMOTHEE CHALAMET ATTEND THE UK PREMIERE OF "BETIFUL BOY" & HEADLE GALA DURG THE 62ND BFI LONDON FILM FTIVAL ON OCTOBER 13, 2018 LONDON, ENGLAND. (PHOTO BY DAVE J HOGAN/DAVE J HOGAN/GETTY IMAG){BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}FROM LEFT: STEVE CARRELL AND TIMOTHéE CHALAMET ATTEND THE BETIFUL BOY U.K. {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}OF TIMOTHéE I {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}IN OTHER DG SURVIVAL NEWS, NIC SHEFF’S MEMOIRS—AND HIS DAD, DAVID'S—HAVE BEEN TURNED TO THE FILM BETIFUL BOY STARRG THE OSR-NOMATED DUO OF TIMOTHéE CHALAMET AND STEVE CARELL. AT A LUNCHEON AT LOTOS CLUB THE OTHER DAY, CHALAMET WAS ASKED WHY HE TOOK THE ROLE, AND HE REPLIED, “I HAD NO REER AT THIS POT. THIS WAS A JOB.” CARELL CHIMED , “AND I NTUE TO FEEL THAT WAY.” WE ALL LGHED EVEN {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}“IT RONATED WH ME,” NTUED CARELL, “AND THE HOPE WAS WOULD RONATE WH PEOPLE THAT SAW AND WOULD START A NVERSATN.” HAVG MULLED OVER HIS ABBREVIATED RPONSE, CHALAMET THEN ADD THAT HE READ THE BOOKS AND THE SCRIPT AND FELT, “I NEED TO BE THIS. A LOT OF PEOPLE MY AGE ARE GOG THROUGH THIS. LAST YEAR, I WAS A FILM THAT FELT LIKE WAS A NEW WDOW OF EXPERIENCE THAT PEOPLE HADN’T SEEN BEFORE.” NATURALLY, HE MEANT CALL ME BY YOUR NAME, THE MOVIE THAT HAD HIS CHARACTER—AND THE ENTIRE WORLD—GOG GAY FOR ARMIE HAMMER. HE FELT THAT BOY, WHICH ADDICTN IS TREATED AS A DISEASE AND THE VICTIM ISN’T BLAMED, IS SIAR THAT REGARD. “IT’S A HUMAN STORY,” SAID CHALAMET, “AND THE BIGGT THG I LEARNED REARCHG THIS ROLE IS THAT THERE IS NO REGNIZABLE FACE TO DG ADDICTN. IT’S SRY AND PLEX TO SOME PEOPLE AND RAIS QUTNS AND A STIGMA. I WAS LOOKG FOR A CLUE OR A WAY , AND ’S A STORY ABOUT HUMANY. I’M NOT GOG TO PLAY A DG ADDICT. I’M GOG TO PLAY A HUMAN WHO’S ADDICTED TO DGS.” CHEERS—WH CRANBERRY {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}"TIRED OLD QUEEN" STEVE HAY IS NOT TIRED AT {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}ANOTHER DG SURVIVOR WHO’S FLOURISHG: KNOWN FOR THE MOVIE TRICK (1999) AS WELL AS THE BIG GAY MIL (2009) AND HIS “TIRED OLD QUEEN AT THE MOVI” VIOS, STEVE HAY IS A VERY FUNNY MAN WHO’S BEEN THERE AND BACK. IN A PERFORMANCE FOR TWEED’S SUNDAYS AT 7 SERI AT PANGEA, PRENTED BY KEV MALONY, HAY WAS WILDLY ENARG AS HE TALKED ABOUT GOG TO L.A. TO THE HOE OF THE PRODUCER OF THE TRICK SEQUEL AND PRACTILLY ASMG WHEN HE SAW A FRENCH POSTER FOR THE PILL-POPPG MP CLASSIC VALLEY OF THE DOLLS ON THE WALL. THE PRODUCER IMMEDIATELY WENT TO PATTY DE’S DIALOGUE OM THE BATHROOM SCENE, AND HAY RPOND WH SAN HAYWARD’S L, AND THEY PLAYED ALL THE WAY THROUGH—“AND WE HADN’T EVEN BEEN FORMALLY TRODUCED!” HAY ALSO TALKED ABOUT HIS YOUTH, WHEN HE VALIANTLY TRIED TO BOND WH HIS FATHER BY JOG HIM TARRG THE ROOF OF THEIR {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;PADDG:24PX 0;} A{LOR:#354A4E;-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;TEXT-RATN:UNRLE;} A:HOVER, A:FOC{-WEBK-TEXT-RATN:NONE;TEXT-RATN:NONE;} B, STRONG{FONT-WEIGHT:700;}AT ONE POT, DAD REALIZED THAT STEVE HAD TARRED HIMSELF TO A RNER AND WAS VISIBLY CRYG. “WHAT’S THE MATTER?” ASKED DAD. “I’M GAY AND A DG ADDICT!” BLURTED STEVE, TO HIS OWN SURPRISE. DAD OFFERED FORT, SAYG THEY’D GET THROUGH THIS TOGETHER (THE DG ADDICT PART, ANYWAY) AND THEN HE HOOKED HIM UP WH STEVE’S NURSE SISTER, WHO PROVID SOME REHABBG ACTN. (“AND I GOT SOBER 15 YEARS LATER,” LGHED STEVE.) AS FOR THE GAY STUFF, STEVE EVENTUALLY WAS SO OUT THAT HE WAS ASKED TO S DOWN WH HIS 17-YEAR-OLD GAY NEPHEW AND GIVE ADVICE. (“DON’T EAT YELLOW SNOW,” WAS HIS BT OFFERG.) HAY ALSO PERFORMED A MEDLEY OF HARD BOILED DIALOGUE OM FILM NOIR CLASSICS, AND HE CLOSED WH A ROG “I AM WHAT I AM”. HE CERTALY IS. GIVE HIM THE {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;CLEAR:BOTH;}MTO {BOX-SIZG:BORR-BOX;MARG:0 TO;WIDTH:90%;M-WIDTH:288PX;MAX-WIDTH:1440PX;M-HEIGHT:194PX;}LATT NEWS

How have you overe body issu as prsured by our gay muny?

‘AMERIN IDOL’ ALUM DAVID HERNANZ EMBRAC BEG GAY WH ‘BETIFUL’ MIC VIO – WATCH

Bt known for appearg on the seventh season of Amerin Idol, gay sger David Hernanz was outed as a former stripper while he was a nttant. It was the gay thg.

I fely believe that “gay former stripper”—all that together—was a recipe for a no go.

” Naturally, he meant Call Me By Your Name, the movie that had his character—and the entire world—gog gay for Armie Hammer. "Tired Old Queen" Steve Hay Is Not Tired at AllAnother dg survivor who’s flourishg: Known for the movie Trick (1999) as well as The Big Gay Mil (2009) and his “Tired Old Queen at the Movi” vios, Steve Hay is a very funny man who’s been there and back.

GAY AMERIN IDOL NAKED PHOTOS PUBLISHED ON TER

“I’m gay and a dg addict! ) As for the gay stuff, Steve eventually was so out that he was asked to s down wh his 17-year-old gay nephew and give advice. In 2008, Hernanz suggted to Michael Mto that the reason he was elimated by Idol voters was not his stripper past but rather dience members' disquiet wh ‘the gay thg', implyg that perhaps if he had been a male stripper for female dienc he would have received ls notoriety and remaed on the show longer.

“That's why I wanted to share my own story as a gay man. Amerin Idol Season 7 nner-up David Archuleta has discsed the journey he went on wh his sexualy a recent social media Instagram June (aka Pri Month), the sger and Mormon revealed that he discsed g out as gay to his fay 2014, six years after beg on post scrib how Archuleta stggled to fd a better scriptn of his sexualy than simply "gay.

DAVID HERNANZ-"JT BEE YOU'RE GAY DON'T MEAN YOUR CAN'T BE A POP STAR"

I me out 2014 as gay to my fay. Amerin Idol had s first gay nttant way back s first season wh Jim Verraros, who ma the top his public life, he has sce said that Fox ma him lete an onle journal post where he talked about his sexualy, wh the work claimg he was not able to "self-promote" as a told The Advote: "Lookg back, [the work's policy] uld be terpreted a bunch of different ways.

Shortly after his n on the show, Aiken told Rollg Stone: "One thg I've found of people the public eye, eher you're a womanizer or you've got to be gay. He me out as gay 2016.

That's why I wanted to share my own story as a gay man. He said, "I don't thk should be a surprise for anyone to hear I'm gay.

‘AMERIN IDOL’ ALUM DAVID HERNANZ COM OUT AS GAY

I've been livg Los Angel for eight years as a gay man. "Nathaniel MarshallAfter makg to the top 36 of Season 8, Marshall first starred MTV realy show The Gay Real World. He then went on to a reer gay porn unr the name Jadyn told The Sword magaze: "I have always been a very sexual human beg.

I am not this gay, feme boy.

DANIEL HERNANZ IS GAY

As a gay Lat-Amerin artist, how is important for you to have your artistry reflect your inty? Cyberspace - (Bare Faced Cheek Ms): Gay Amerin Idol semi-falist David Hernanz's nu lapdancg photos have flood the after appreciative fans om Phoenix's Dick's Cabaret & Strip Club mounted a spired mpaign to help their dreamboat nttant w the star prize. Amatr vio footage of the lhe and supple-bodied 24 year-old Gay Amerin Idol nttant shows him strippg a variety or tradnal male clu a rpected Capol Hill Senator, a pstriped Gordon Gekko-que hedgefund harlot, a classic beefy bber-clad firefighter and the ever-popular Rock Hudson lookalike "although 99% of club patrons always thought that was a Bobby Kennedy mask he's wearg.

I was gettg msag om younger fans, gay younger fans, or people stgglg wh their sexualy. Jt bee you are gay don't mean you nt be a pop star or you n't be who you are. When I was talkg to the San Diego Gay & Lbian Paper, I was havg a very sual nversatn and was asked about the gay and lbian muny.

Not only was I a stripper, but I was gay, and terms of the prs, was like I had all the strik agast me. You have to remember, as that ltle gay boy si, I was always send gusg myself, tellg myself that I uldn't do this, they're gonna fd out about you, the stripper thg was still there, all that stuff.