My name is Adam and I'm the Gmpy Gay Otter. I'm also a survivor of Mental Illns, the gay muny and the December 2nd terrorist attack. My goal is to e my privilege super powers for good
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- THE GMPY GAY OTTER@GMPYGAYOTTERMY NAME IS ADAM AND I'M THE GMPY GAY OTTER. I'M ALSO A SURVIVOR OF MENTAL ILLNS, THE GAY MUNY AND THE DECEMBER 2ND TERRORIST ATTACK. MY GOAL IS TO E MY PRIVILEGE SUPER POWERS FOR GOOD FOLLOWPOSTSLIKGMPYGAYOTTERFOLLOWIT’S A YEAR LATERIT’S A YEAR LATERAND A GUN MAN STILL ATTACKEDIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I STILL FEEL THE PAIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I’M STILL A VICTIMIT’S A YEAR LATERAND PEOPLE ARE STILL ADIT’S YEAR LATERAND I’M STILL ARE STRONGIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I STILL REBUILDIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I STILL HAVE NIGHTMARIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I STILL WON’T FETIT’S A YEAR LATER AND WE STILL REMEMBERIT’S A YEAR LATERAND TOO MUCH HAS NOT CHANGEDIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I’LL STILL FIGHT FOR CHANGEIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I’LL STILL FIVEIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I’LL STILL BE A VICTOR#SAN BERNADO SHOOTG#MENTAL HEALTH#TERRORISM#REVEYGMPYGAYOTTERFOLLOWI'M GAY AND AUTISTICIT’S WEIRD, I’M PROBABLY GOG TO SWCH THAT BACK AND FORTH, THERE NOW PRETTY FG TO ME AS A PERSON. COULD GISTIC BE A THG? A NEW SUBGROUP! EH, I STILL DOWN WH BEG A REALLY GAY OTTER. I WAS DIAGNOSED WH D TISM ABOUT THREE YEARS AGO. A THERAPIST, THE FIRST PERSON WHO TLY GOT ME, ASKED IF I’VE BEEN TTED. HONTLY, I HAD ALWAYS THOUGHT ABOUT BUT NEVER MENTNED . WHEN I THK OF PEOPLE WH AUTISM, I THK OF MAX ON PARENTHOOD. IT WAS RIGHT AROUND THE TIME THAT THEY TRODUCED THE CHARACTER HANK, THAT STUFF STARTED TO CLICK MORE AND MORE MY HEAD.SO I WAS TTED, ME BACK THAT I WAS MOST LIKELY ON THE LOW END OF THE SPECTM. WE CID TO NOT DO FURTHER TTG BEE BY THE END OF ALL, THERE WOULD PROBABLY STILL BE MORE QUTNS. LET’S JT THROW THE OFFICIAL LABEL OF ASPERGER’S BUT REALLY, WE WILL JT AL WH YOU AS AN DIVIDUAL. I THK A LOT OF MY GROWTH UNRSTANDG MY STGGL, WHEN I STOPPED TRYG TO LABEL THEM. I’M NOT OCD, I DON’T HAVE AN EATG DISORR, I AM A PERSON WHO STGGL WH THGS. I KNOW THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE EXTREM, WHERE THOSE LABELS MATTER. HOWEVER, TO ME, UNLS WE ARE A HOSPAL OR YOU’RE MY SURANCE PANY, THE LABELS AREN’T EFUL. I’VE ALT WH THAT VERY RECENTLY, WH PEOPLE MAKG ASSUMPTNS ABOUT HOW SOMEONE WH MY DIAGNOSIS WOULD BEHAVE. USUALLY, ’S PEOPLE WHO WANT TO HELP. THEY SEE YOUR LABEL AND SUDN AWA A BREAK DOWN OR YOU TO GO CRAZY. I ACCINTLY LET TO SLIP TO SOMEONE I WAS MSAGG WH ONLE AND THE FACT THAT I HAVE AN ED SLIPPED OUT. I MENTNED THAT MAYBE A LOUD MEXIN RTRANT MIGHT NOT BE THE BT PLACE TO MEET. WHEN ASKED WHY, I TOOK A RISK AND WAS HONT. AFTER ABOUT FIVE MUT OF TRYG TO ASSURE HIM THAT I WAS ACTUALLY A FUNCTNAL HUMAN BEG HE AGREED TO MEET BUT AS TIME WENT ON I NCELLED. I REALIZED THAT DATE WAS BASILLY A TT TO SEE JT HOW CRAZY I WAS AND EVEN IF WASN’T I WOULD FEEL THAT WAY.HERE WE ARE AND A FEW THGS SUDN BEE CLEAR. I START TO WRE MORE, I START TO FEEL LIKE MYSELF FOR THE FIRST TIME A LONG TIME. THE WORDS JT START POURG OUT. I REALIZE THAT I WRE A STREAM OF THOUGHT BEE I AM ALWAYS WRG MY HEAD. THEN BE CLEAN, I HAVE AUTISM. WRG THAT IS ACTUALLY MUCH MORE POWERFUL TO ME BEE WH THE AUTISM, ’S HARD TO SPEAK THE WORDS. MY EMOTNS GET TURNED UP TO 11 AND EVERYTHG BE WHE NOISE. ALL THOSE WTY THGS I HAD MY MD STAY THERE AND I REMA QUE.WHEN I WAS A KID, I WAS PUT IS SPEECH THERAPY. I’M NOT MAD AT ANYONE. IT WAS THE RIGHT THG TO DO AT THE RIGHT TIME WH RMATN THEY HAD. I JT THK WAS EASIER TO HAVE THE NVERSATNS MY HEAD.I WAS THE KID THAT LOVED ALL THE ACTN FIGUR, BEE I ULD CREATE WORLDS OF MY OWN. MY STAR TREK ADVENTUR WERE MUCH BETTER THAN ANY SHOW EVERY CREATED. VERY DS9 HEAVY AND I LOVED MAJOR (VEK) KIRA.I WAS OK WH CREATG A WORLD MY ROOM AND EVERYONE TOLD ME THAT WAS NOT OK. I LEFT WHEN I NEED TO BUT A PAFUL CHILDHOOD, MAJOR KIRA AND DS9 NEVER LEFT ME. I THK THAT IS WHY I LOVE SHOWS SO PASSNATELY. I RRY THEM ON MY HEAD. CONSISTENTLY CREATG NEW WORLDS. OCSNALLY, MA THK I WAS CRAZY. WELL, CRAZIER.I WAS BOUNCED AROUND OM DIAGNOSIS TO DIAGNOSIS; I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED WH BIPOLAR, AN EATG DISORR AND SO ON. NONE OF THEM F. SOMETHG WAS SLIGHTLY OFF.SO HERE I AM, 36 YEARS OLD AND FIGURG OUT HOW THE HELL TO AL WH BEG AUTISTIC AND GAY OR GAY AND AUTISTIC. STILL HAVEN’T FIGURED OUT YET.SO FAR MEANS GENERAL MOST PEOPLE’S EMOTNAL SL GO TO 10, ME GO TO 11 AND GET THERE A LOT FASTER. I ALSO MEANS; THAT ’S ALWAYS BETTER TO GIVE ME A MOMENT AND WHEN I N, I NEED TO NTUE TO EXPRS MYSELF WORDS.GMPYGAYOTTERFOLLOWMY KIPPAH AND MEI HAVE BEEN THKG A LOT ABOUT RELIG IMAGERY LATELY. I HAVE BEEN FASCATED BY MY WHOLE LIFE. GROWG UP CATHOLIC, THE ONE THG YOU HAVE TO GIVE THE RELIGN, THEY LOVE THEIR INS, STUM AND PAGEANTRY. IT IS THE ONE THG THAT I ALWAYS FELT NNECTED TO AND STILL DO TO THIS DAY. MY CULTURAL HERAGE IS BEG IRISH CATHOLIC, SO EVERYTHG HAVG TO DO WH THE CATHOLIC CHURCH WILL ALWAYS BE A PART OF MY AND WHO I AM. MY SPIRUAL JOURNEY HAS CREATED A NEW RELIG INTY. ABOUT 8 YEARS AGO, I BEGAN THE NVERSN PROCS TO JUDAISM. IT WAS NOT PLANNED. IN MY STUDYG, IF THERE WAS A RELIGN, I LEARNED EVERYTHG I ULD AND ATTEND SERVIC. I’VE BEEN TO MLIM SERVIC, B’HAI CEREMONI, HDU, MORMON AND THE LIST GO ON. IN EVERYONE, I WAS FASCATED BY THEIR IMAGERY OR LACK OF. I THK I FALLY EMBRACED MY NEW JEWISH INTY WHEN AFTER THE SAN BERNARDO SHOOTG, WHERE I SPENT HOURS ON LOCKDOWN WH -WORKERS NOT KNOWG IF WE WERE THE NEXT TARGET AS WE WERE CLOST COUNTY BUILDG, I START WEARG MY KIPPAH TO WORK. THE KIPPAH I WEAR, I ACTUALLY BOUGHT FOR A CLOSE IEND THE JEWISH QUARTER OF PRAGUE. THIS TIME MY LIFE IS WHEN I FIRST FELT MY SPIRUAL NNECTN TO THE JEWISH COMMUNY. IT’S ALSO WHY I LL A KIPPAH AND NOT A YARMULKE LIKE MOST PEOPLE. TO ME, WAS A SIMPLE STATEMENT OF FAH. I QUICKLY REALIZED WAS NOT. HERE’S WHAT’S I FD TERTG. I, A WHE MALE, HAVE CHOSEN TO KEEP MY HEAD VERED AS A SIGN OF FAH AND I GET NGRATULATNS AND OPEN QUTNS. I AM DOG NOTHG DIFFERENT THAN MANY ISLAMIC WOMEN WHO CHOSE TO WEAR A HIJAB OR BURKA. I AM MAKG A CHOICE, OF MY OWN EE WILL, TO PUBLICLY DISPLAY MY FAH. THIS IS SOMETHG I REMEMBER OM CATHOLIC SCHOOL, THE SISTER’S MAKG THE SAME CHOICE AND SEEMED POWERFUL. THE IMMEDIATE RPONSE IS THAT THE JEWISH COMMUNY IS FAR LS NTROVERSIAL THAN THE ISLAMIC. I DON’T TEND TO SPEAK FOR ANYONE THIS NEW MUNY THAT HAS BEEN NOTHG BUT WELG, BUT I WOULD JT POT TO ISRAEL TO UNTER THAT. NO MATTER WHERE YOU FALL YOUR OPN, I THK ’S SAFE TO SAY, ISRAEL IS NTROVERSIAL. I STOPPED WEARG FOR NO PARTICULAR REASON; I JT NATURALLY STOPPED. HOWEVER, I’M GOG THROUGH SOME CHALLENG NOW AND HAVE CID TO WEAR . I HAD A GREAT NVERSATN ABOUT ON THE B YTERDAY. A WOMAN WAS TLY TERTED AND I WAS HAPPY TO TALK ABOUT. I DON’T KNOW WHEN OR IF I’LL STOP WEARG AGA. SOMETIM I JT WEAR A HAT BEE ’S SIMPLER. I’M A GAY GGER, SO VERG MY HAIR AT A TIME WHEN BEG A GGER IS ACTUALLY A BON IS NOT A SIMPLE CISN BUT ALSO AN EASY ONE. I JT THK THAT STEAD OF BEG SRRED BY OTHER’S RELIGNS IMAGERY, BE CUR.GMPYGAYOTTERFOLLOWTHE SUICI EPIMICIT’S SUICI PREVENTN MONTH AND I LIVE AN AREA OF THE UNTRY FACG A SUICI EPIMIC. THIS ISN’T A REMOTE AREA A STATE NO ONE N PLACE ON A MAP; THIS IS THE HEART OF CALIFORNIA. I LIVE THE INLAND EMPIRE; PEOPLE ARE FAIAR WH FOR THREE REASONS AT THIS POT, CRAZY EX-GIRLIEND, THE DECEMBER SEND ATTACKS SAN BERNARDO AND AS A P STOP BETWEEN VEGAS, BIG BEAR OR PALM SPRGS. IT’S ACTUALLY AN AMAZG MELTG POT OF CULTUR. EACH CY HAS ’S OWN ROOTS AND HERAGE TO BE PROUD OF. ONE THG TO NOT BE PROUD OF IS THE FACT THAT SUICI IS NNG RAMPANT THROUGH OUR MUNY. THE INLAND EMPIRE HAS A CULTURE OF SILENCE THAT IS THE DRIVG TREND. IT’S NOT MY PLACE TO GET TO THE ISSU FACG EACH CULTURE BUT GENERAL, THGS ARE NOT TALKED ABOUT. WHAT IS MY PLACE TO TALK ABOUT IS THE QUEER, LGBTQA OR GAY MUNY. I’LL E THE WORD QUEER BEE I THK ’S THE MOST CLIVE TERM, BUT INTIFY, AS YOU LIKE. THE QUEER MUNY HAS A VERY MYOPIC VIEW OF THE STGGL FACG THEIR MEMBERS. WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT THE QUEER RIGHTS MOVEMENTS, YOU LOOK AT OM AN URBAN, AFFLUENT, MALE, WHE AND CISGENR PERSPECTIVE. I’M THE FIRST TO ADM THAT BEE OF THE VIEW, I HAVE MORE ACCS TO EVERY GA THE QUEER MUNY HAS MA. HOWEVER, AS A SURVIVOR OF THE SAN BERNARDO SHOOTG WHO NOW WORKS ON THE GROUND TRYG TO HELP THE MUNY HEAL, MY EY HAVE BEEN OPEN TO THE FACT THAT THE MAJORY OF THE QUEER MUNY STILL HAS NO ACCS TO THE STRIS THAT HAVE BEEN MA. THIS IS NEVER CLEARER THAN THE MEDIA VERAGE OF MASS SHOOTGS. ORLANDO WAS A HORRIFIC ATTACK ON OUR MUNY THAT I FELT THE PTHS OF MY SOUL. THEY SERVE EVERY B OF HELP AND ATTENTN THEY ARE GETTG. WHAT TRAT ME IS THAT THE QUEER MUNY DON’T SEE THE ATTACKS SAN BERNARDO, OREGON, CHARLTON, AND AURORA AS ATTACKS ON OUR MUNY. PEOPLE FEEL LIKE AFTER ORLANDO, THEY WERE FOTTEN. IMMEDIATELY AFTER ORLANDO, THERE WAS A PH FOR PEOPLE TO UNRSTAND WHAT THE GAY BAR MEANS TO THE MUNY. I PARTICIPATED BEE I GREW UP AFFLUENT, CISGENR AND WHE, SO I WAS WELED WH OPEN ARMS AT THE GAY BARS AND FELT AT HOME. WHAT I HAVE LEARNED THROUGH MY WORK, THAT IS NOT THE RE FOR THE MAJORY OF THE QUEER COMMUNY. IN PLAC LIKE SAN BERNARDO COUNTY, THERE ARE NO GAY BARS OR FFEE SHOPS. THERE IS NO MUNY. PEOPLE ARE FOR TO BY TRYG TO STAY AFLOAT TO S A BAR OR FFEE SHOP. I’M SURE THERE ARE PLENTY OF QUEER MUNY MEMBERS WHO WOULD MUCH RATHER BE BNCHG WH IENDS ON A SUNDAY RATHER THAN WORKG A THIRD JOB TO HELP SUPPORT THEIR FAY. THAT’S NOT A LUXURY MOST PEOPLE N AFFORD. IN PLAC LIKE THE INLAND EMPIRE OR OREGON, THE INLAND ROURCE CENTER AND COMMUNY COLLEG ARE THE ONLY SAFE SPAC FOR MOST MUNY MEMBERS. PLAC WHERE PEOPLE N BE THEMSELV AND NOT FEAR BACKLASH. YOU DON’T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT BEG SEEN AT A ‘GAY’ PLACE. A YOUNG PERSON N JT ASK TO VIS THE CENTER TO GET THE HELP THEY NEED ANONYMOLY. THIS IS SOMETIM THE ONLY THG THAT SAV THE YOUTH. THE PLAC DO AMAZG WORK BUT STGGLE TO KEEP THE DOORS OPEN AND PROVI THE MOST BASIC SERVIC TO MUNY MEMBERS. WHEN THE SHOOTG OCCURRED SAN BERNARDO, THE ONE MAN WHO WAS SPECIFILLY TARGETED WAS AN OPENLY GAY MAN WHO I HAD THE PLEASURE OF MEETG A FEW YEARS AGO. HE WAS WORKG TEACHG AT-RISK YOUTH JOB-SKILLS AT AN HOE FFEE SHOP. HIS STORY SERV TO BE REMEMBERED AS MUCH AS ORLANDO. THE LIST NTU. THE ONE THG HUMANY HAS AN UNLIMED SUPPLI OF IS EMPATHY AND PASSN. WHEN I SPEAK UP ABOUT THIS, THERE IS AN IMMEDIATE AND ANGRY BACKLASH. PEOPLE ACT LIKE THERE IS A LIMED SUPPLY OF RG AND BY ASKG FOR SOMEONE TO RE ABOUT SOMETHG, THAT MEANS ANOTHER PERSON IS GETTG LS. THE MSAGE I NTUE TO RECEIVE MY WORK IS THAT PEOPLE DON’T WANT TO BE FOTTEN. I HAVE PRETTY HIGH STANDARDS FOR MY MUNY AND BELIEVE WE N REMEMBER EVERYONE, HAVE PASSN AND EMPATHY BEE EVERY MASS SHOOTG, TERRORIST ATTACK OR BOMBG IS AN ATTACK ON OUR MUNY. IT SHOULDN’T TAKE 49 PEOPLE BEG KILLED A BAR TO GET OUR ATTENTN. SCE ’S HAPPENED THOUGH, LETS TAKE THIS OPPORTUNY TO EXPAND THE NVERSATN!#SBSTRONG#MENTAL HEALTH#MENTAL ILLNS#SUIC#SUICIPREVENTNGMPYGAYOTTERFOLLOWNO ONE DERV TO BE FOTTEN
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THE GMPY GAY OTTER@GMPYGAYOTTERMY NAME IS ADAM AND I'M THE GMPY GAY OTTER. I'M ALSO A SURVIVOR OF MENTAL ILLNS, THE GAY MUNY AND THE DECEMBER 2ND TERRORIST ATTACK. MY GOAL IS TO E MY PRIVILEGE SUPER POWERS FOR GOOD FOLLOWPOSTSLIKGMPYGAYOTTERFOLLOWIT’S A YEAR LATERIT’S A YEAR LATERAND A GUN MAN STILL ATTACKEDIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I STILL FEEL THE PAIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I’M STILL A VICTIMIT’S A YEAR LATERAND PEOPLE ARE STILL ADIT’S YEAR LATERAND I’M STILL ARE STRONGIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I STILL REBUILDIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I STILL HAVE NIGHTMARIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I STILL WON’T FETIT’S A YEAR LATER AND WE STILL REMEMBERIT’S A YEAR LATERAND TOO MUCH HAS NOT CHANGEDIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I’LL STILL FIGHT FOR CHANGEIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I’LL STILL FIVEIT’S A YEAR LATERAND I’LL STILL BE A VICTOR#SAN BERNADO SHOOTG#MENTAL HEALTH#TERRORISM#REVEYGMPYGAYOTTERFOLLOWI'M GAY AND AUTISTICIT’S WEIRD, I’M PROBABLY GOG TO SWCH THAT BACK AND FORTH, THERE NOW PRETTY FG TO ME AS A PERSON. COULD GISTIC BE A THG? A NEW SUBGROUP! EH, I STILL DOWN WH BEG A REALLY GAY OTTER. I WAS DIAGNOSED WH D TISM ABOUT THREE YEARS AGO. A THERAPIST, THE FIRST PERSON WHO TLY GOT ME, ASKED IF I’VE BEEN TTED. HONTLY, I HAD ALWAYS THOUGHT ABOUT BUT NEVER MENTNED . WHEN I THK OF PEOPLE WH AUTISM, I THK OF MAX ON PARENTHOOD. IT WAS RIGHT AROUND THE TIME THAT THEY TRODUCED THE CHARACTER HANK, THAT STUFF STARTED TO CLICK MORE AND MORE MY HEAD.SO I WAS TTED, ME BACK THAT I WAS MOST LIKELY ON THE LOW END OF THE SPECTM. WE CID TO NOT DO FURTHER TTG BEE BY THE END OF ALL, THERE WOULD PROBABLY STILL BE MORE QUTNS. LET’S JT THROW THE OFFICIAL LABEL OF ASPERGER’S BUT REALLY, WE WILL JT AL WH YOU AS AN DIVIDUAL. I THK A LOT OF MY GROWTH UNRSTANDG MY STGGL, WHEN I STOPPED TRYG TO LABEL THEM. I’M NOT OCD, I DON’T HAVE AN EATG DISORR, I AM A PERSON WHO STGGL WH THGS. I KNOW THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE EXTREM, WHERE THOSE LABELS MATTER. HOWEVER, TO ME, UNLS WE ARE A HOSPAL OR YOU’RE MY SURANCE PANY, THE LABELS AREN’T EFUL. I’VE ALT WH THAT VERY RECENTLY, WH PEOPLE MAKG ASSUMPTNS ABOUT HOW SOMEONE WH MY DIAGNOSIS WOULD BEHAVE. USUALLY, ’S PEOPLE WHO WANT TO HELP. THEY SEE YOUR LABEL AND SUDN AWA A BREAK DOWN OR YOU TO GO CRAZY. I ACCINTLY LET TO SLIP TO SOMEONE I WAS MSAGG WH ONLE AND THE FACT THAT I HAVE AN ED SLIPPED OUT. I MENTNED THAT MAYBE A LOUD MEXIN RTRANT MIGHT NOT BE THE BT PLACE TO MEET. WHEN ASKED WHY, I TOOK A RISK AND WAS HONT. AFTER ABOUT FIVE MUT OF TRYG TO ASSURE HIM THAT I WAS ACTUALLY A FUNCTNAL HUMAN BEG HE AGREED TO MEET BUT AS TIME WENT ON I NCELLED. I REALIZED THAT DATE WAS BASILLY A TT TO SEE JT HOW CRAZY I WAS AND EVEN IF WASN’T I WOULD FEEL THAT WAY.HERE WE ARE AND A FEW THGS SUDN BEE CLEAR. I START TO WRE MORE, I START TO FEEL LIKE MYSELF FOR THE FIRST TIME A LONG TIME. THE WORDS JT START POURG OUT. I REALIZE THAT I WRE A STREAM OF THOUGHT BEE I AM ALWAYS WRG MY HEAD. THEN BE CLEAN, I HAVE AUTISM. WRG THAT IS ACTUALLY MUCH MORE POWERFUL TO ME BEE WH THE AUTISM, ’S HARD TO SPEAK THE WORDS. MY EMOTNS GET TURNED UP TO 11 AND EVERYTHG BE WHE NOISE. ALL THOSE WTY THGS I HAD MY MD STAY THERE AND I REMA QUE.WHEN I WAS A KID, I WAS PUT IS SPEECH THERAPY. I’M NOT MAD AT ANYONE. IT WAS THE RIGHT THG TO DO AT THE RIGHT TIME WH RMATN THEY HAD. I JT THK WAS EASIER TO HAVE THE NVERSATNS MY HEAD.I WAS THE KID THAT LOVED ALL THE ACTN FIGUR, BEE I ULD CREATE WORLDS OF MY OWN. MY STAR TREK ADVENTUR WERE MUCH BETTER THAN ANY SHOW EVERY CREATED. VERY DS9 HEAVY AND I LOVED MAJOR (VEK) KIRA.I WAS OK WH CREATG A WORLD MY ROOM AND EVERYONE TOLD ME THAT WAS NOT OK. I LEFT WHEN I NEED TO BUT A PAFUL CHILDHOOD, MAJOR KIRA AND DS9 NEVER LEFT ME. I THK THAT IS WHY I LOVE SHOWS SO PASSNATELY. I RRY THEM ON MY HEAD. CONSISTENTLY CREATG NEW WORLDS. OCSNALLY, MA THK I WAS CRAZY. WELL, CRAZIER.I WAS BOUNCED AROUND OM DIAGNOSIS TO DIAGNOSIS; I HAVE BEEN DIAGNOSED WH BIPOLAR, AN EATG DISORR AND SO ON. NONE OF THEM F. SOMETHG WAS SLIGHTLY OFF.SO HERE I AM, 36 YEARS OLD AND FIGURG OUT HOW THE HELL TO AL WH BEG AUTISTIC AND GAY OR GAY AND AUTISTIC. STILL HAVEN’T FIGURED OUT YET.SO FAR MEANS GENERAL MOST PEOPLE’S EMOTNAL SL GO TO 10, ME GO TO 11 AND GET THERE A LOT FASTER. I ALSO MEANS; THAT ’S ALWAYS BETTER TO GIVE ME A MOMENT AND WHEN I N, I NEED TO NTUE TO EXPRS MYSELF WORDS.GMPYGAYOTTERFOLLOWMY KIPPAH AND MEI HAVE BEEN THKG A LOT ABOUT RELIG IMAGERY LATELY. I HAVE BEEN FASCATED BY MY WHOLE LIFE. GROWG UP CATHOLIC, THE ONE THG YOU HAVE TO GIVE THE RELIGN, THEY LOVE THEIR INS, STUM AND PAGEANTRY. IT IS THE ONE THG THAT I ALWAYS FELT NNECTED TO AND STILL DO TO THIS DAY. MY CULTURAL HERAGE IS BEG IRISH CATHOLIC, SO EVERYTHG HAVG TO DO WH THE CATHOLIC CHURCH WILL ALWAYS BE A PART OF MY AND WHO I AM. MY SPIRUAL JOURNEY HAS CREATED A NEW RELIG INTY. ABOUT 8 YEARS AGO, I BEGAN THE NVERSN PROCS TO JUDAISM. IT WAS NOT PLANNED. IN MY STUDYG, IF THERE WAS A RELIGN, I LEARNED EVERYTHG I ULD AND ATTEND SERVIC. I’VE BEEN TO MLIM SERVIC, B’HAI CEREMONI, HDU, MORMON AND THE LIST GO ON. IN EVERYONE, I WAS FASCATED BY THEIR IMAGERY OR LACK OF. I THK I FALLY EMBRACED MY NEW JEWISH INTY WHEN AFTER THE SAN BERNARDO SHOOTG, WHERE I SPENT HOURS ON LOCKDOWN WH -WORKERS NOT KNOWG IF WE WERE THE NEXT TARGET AS WE WERE CLOST COUNTY BUILDG, I START WEARG MY KIPPAH TO WORK. THE KIPPAH I WEAR, I ACTUALLY BOUGHT FOR A CLOSE IEND THE JEWISH QUARTER OF PRAGUE. THIS TIME MY LIFE IS WHEN I FIRST FELT MY SPIRUAL NNECTN TO THE JEWISH COMMUNY. IT’S ALSO WHY I LL A KIPPAH AND NOT A YARMULKE LIKE MOST PEOPLE. TO ME, WAS A SIMPLE STATEMENT OF FAH. I QUICKLY REALIZED WAS NOT. HERE’S WHAT’S I FD TERTG. I, A WHE MALE, HAVE CHOSEN TO KEEP MY HEAD VERED AS A SIGN OF FAH AND I GET NGRATULATNS AND OPEN QUTNS. I AM DOG NOTHG DIFFERENT THAN MANY ISLAMIC WOMEN WHO CHOSE TO WEAR A HIJAB OR BURKA. I AM MAKG A CHOICE, OF MY OWN EE WILL, TO PUBLICLY DISPLAY MY FAH. THIS IS SOMETHG I REMEMBER OM CATHOLIC SCHOOL, THE SISTER’S MAKG THE SAME CHOICE AND SEEMED POWERFUL. THE IMMEDIATE RPONSE IS THAT THE JEWISH COMMUNY IS FAR LS NTROVERSIAL THAN THE ISLAMIC. I DON’T TEND TO SPEAK FOR ANYONE THIS NEW MUNY THAT HAS BEEN NOTHG BUT WELG, BUT I WOULD JT POT TO ISRAEL TO UNTER THAT. NO MATTER WHERE YOU FALL YOUR OPN, I THK ’S SAFE TO SAY, ISRAEL IS NTROVERSIAL. I STOPPED WEARG FOR NO PARTICULAR REASON; I JT NATURALLY STOPPED. HOWEVER, I’M GOG THROUGH SOME CHALLENG NOW AND HAVE CID TO WEAR . I HAD A GREAT NVERSATN ABOUT ON THE B YTERDAY. A WOMAN WAS TLY TERTED AND I WAS HAPPY TO TALK ABOUT. I DON’T KNOW WHEN OR IF I’LL STOP WEARG AGA. SOMETIM I JT WEAR A HAT BEE ’S SIMPLER. I’M A GAY GGER, SO VERG MY HAIR AT A TIME WHEN BEG A GGER IS ACTUALLY A BON IS NOT A SIMPLE CISN BUT ALSO AN EASY ONE. I JT THK THAT STEAD OF BEG SRRED BY OTHER’S RELIGNS IMAGERY, BE CUR.GMPYGAYOTTERFOLLOWTHE SUICI EPIMICIT’S SUICI PREVENTN MONTH AND I LIVE AN AREA OF THE UNTRY FACG A SUICI EPIMIC. THIS ISN’T A REMOTE AREA A STATE NO ONE N PLACE ON A MAP; THIS IS THE HEART OF CALIFORNIA. I LIVE THE INLAND EMPIRE; PEOPLE ARE FAIAR WH FOR THREE REASONS AT THIS POT, CRAZY EX-GIRLIEND, THE DECEMBER SEND ATTACKS SAN BERNARDO AND AS A P STOP BETWEEN VEGAS, BIG BEAR OR PALM SPRGS. IT’S ACTUALLY AN AMAZG MELTG POT OF CULTUR. EACH CY HAS ’S OWN ROOTS AND HERAGE TO BE PROUD OF. ONE THG TO NOT BE PROUD OF IS THE FACT THAT SUICI IS NNG RAMPANT THROUGH OUR MUNY. THE INLAND EMPIRE HAS A CULTURE OF SILENCE THAT IS THE DRIVG TREND. IT’S NOT MY PLACE TO GET TO THE ISSU FACG EACH CULTURE BUT GENERAL, THGS ARE NOT TALKED ABOUT. WHAT IS MY PLACE TO TALK ABOUT IS THE QUEER, LGBTQA OR GAY MUNY. I’LL E THE WORD QUEER BEE I THK ’S THE MOST CLIVE TERM, BUT INTIFY, AS YOU LIKE. THE QUEER MUNY HAS A VERY MYOPIC VIEW OF THE STGGL FACG THEIR MEMBERS. WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT THE QUEER RIGHTS MOVEMENTS, YOU LOOK AT OM AN URBAN, AFFLUENT, MALE, WHE AND CISGENR PERSPECTIVE. I’M THE FIRST TO ADM THAT BEE OF THE VIEW, I HAVE MORE ACCS TO EVERY GA THE QUEER MUNY HAS MA. HOWEVER, AS A SURVIVOR OF THE SAN BERNARDO SHOOTG WHO NOW WORKS ON THE GROUND TRYG TO HELP THE MUNY HEAL, MY EY HAVE BEEN OPEN TO THE FACT THAT THE MAJORY OF THE QUEER MUNY STILL HAS NO ACCS TO THE STRIS THAT HAVE BEEN MA. THIS IS NEVER CLEARER THAN THE MEDIA VERAGE OF MASS SHOOTGS. ORLANDO WAS A HORRIFIC ATTACK ON OUR MUNY THAT I FELT THE PTHS OF MY SOUL. THEY SERVE EVERY B OF HELP AND ATTENTN THEY ARE GETTG. WHAT TRAT ME IS THAT THE QUEER MUNY DON’T SEE THE ATTACKS SAN BERNARDO, OREGON, CHARLTON, AND AURORA AS ATTACKS ON OUR MUNY. PEOPLE FEEL LIKE AFTER ORLANDO, THEY WERE FOTTEN. IMMEDIATELY AFTER ORLANDO, THERE WAS A PH FOR PEOPLE TO UNRSTAND WHAT THE GAY BAR MEANS TO THE MUNY. I PARTICIPATED BEE I GREW UP AFFLUENT, CISGENR AND WHE, SO I WAS WELED WH OPEN ARMS AT THE GAY BARS AND FELT AT HOME. WHAT I HAVE LEARNED THROUGH MY WORK, THAT IS NOT THE RE FOR THE MAJORY OF THE QUEER COMMUNY. IN PLAC LIKE SAN BERNARDO COUNTY, THERE ARE NO GAY BARS OR FFEE SHOPS. THERE IS NO MUNY. PEOPLE ARE FOR TO BY TRYG TO STAY AFLOAT TO S A BAR OR FFEE SHOP. I’M SURE THERE ARE PLENTY OF QUEER MUNY MEMBERS WHO WOULD MUCH RATHER BE BNCHG WH IENDS ON A SUNDAY RATHER THAN WORKG A THIRD JOB TO HELP SUPPORT THEIR FAY. THAT’S NOT A LUXURY MOST PEOPLE N AFFORD. IN PLAC LIKE THE INLAND EMPIRE OR OREGON, THE INLAND ROURCE CENTER AND COMMUNY COLLEG ARE THE ONLY SAFE SPAC FOR MOST MUNY MEMBERS. PLAC WHERE PEOPLE N BE THEMSELV AND NOT FEAR BACKLASH. YOU DON’T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT BEG SEEN AT A ‘GAY’ PLACE. A YOUNG PERSON N JT ASK TO VIS THE CENTER TO GET THE HELP THEY NEED ANONYMOLY. THIS IS SOMETIM THE ONLY THG THAT SAV THE YOUTH. THE PLAC DO AMAZG WORK BUT STGGLE TO KEEP THE DOORS OPEN AND PROVI THE MOST BASIC SERVIC TO MUNY MEMBERS. WHEN THE SHOOTG OCCURRED SAN BERNARDO, THE ONE MAN WHO WAS SPECIFILLY TARGETED WAS AN OPENLY GAY MAN WHO I HAD THE PLEASURE OF MEETG A FEW YEARS AGO. HE WAS WORKG TEACHG AT-RISK YOUTH JOB-SKILLS AT AN HOE FFEE SHOP. HIS STORY SERV TO BE REMEMBERED AS MUCH AS ORLANDO. THE LIST NTU. THE ONE THG HUMANY HAS AN UNLIMED SUPPLI OF IS EMPATHY AND PASSN. WHEN I SPEAK UP ABOUT THIS, THERE IS AN IMMEDIATE AND ANGRY BACKLASH. PEOPLE ACT LIKE THERE IS A LIMED SUPPLY OF RG AND BY ASKG FOR SOMEONE TO RE ABOUT SOMETHG, THAT MEANS ANOTHER PERSON IS GETTG LS. THE MSAGE I NTUE TO RECEIVE MY WORK IS THAT PEOPLE DON’T WANT TO BE FOTTEN. I HAVE PRETTY HIGH STANDARDS FOR MY MUNY AND BELIEVE WE N REMEMBER EVERYONE, HAVE PASSN AND EMPATHY BEE EVERY MASS SHOOTG, TERRORIST ATTACK OR BOMBG IS AN ATTACK ON OUR MUNY. IT SHOULDN’T TAKE 49 PEOPLE BEG KILLED A BAR TO GET OUR ATTENTN. SCE ’S HAPPENED THOUGH, LETS TAKE THIS OPPORTUNY TO EXPAND THE NVERSATN!#SBSTRONG#MENTAL HEALTH#MENTAL ILLNS#SUIC#SUICIPREVENTNGMPYGAYOTTERFOLLOWNO ONE DERV TO BE FOTTEN
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