The thor shar how readg through her notebook om when she was an early teen showed her what she always spected: she knew she was gay.
Contents:
- READG MY DIARY OM WHEN I WAS A TEEN MA ME REALIZE I ALWAYS KNEW I WAS GAY
- "I REALIZED I WAS GAY": MEN WHO CAME OUT LATER IN LIFE ARE SHARG WHAT IT WAS LIKE FOR THEM TO REVEAL THAT TTH AND LIVE AUTHENTILLY
- AM I GAY?
READG MY DIARY OM WHEN I WAS A TEEN MA ME REALIZE I ALWAYS KNEW I WAS GAY
* how i knew i was queer *
Maybe you’ve googled “signs you’re gay” like I did when I was growg up, or are livg fear that someone was gog to fd out that you’re queer – I know that I did. Maybe you’re a place where you’re cur, or you’ve never met a gay person before so you don’t know what their experienc of g out is like.
Readg my diary nfirmed that I knew way before then that I was gay. The clud stuffg my bra, buyg a thong, skny dippg, stealg, kissg a boy, havg cybersex, watchg porn, and wrg "bch" on a school the most movg tail was somethg I had no rellectn of — I always knew I was gay.
"I REALIZED I WAS GAY": MEN WHO CAME OUT LATER IN LIFE ARE SHARG WHAT IT WAS LIKE FOR THEM TO REVEAL THAT TTH AND LIVE AUTHENTILLY
I am nfint that, had the Deidre who wrote the words been exposed to healthy reprentatns of queer love om an early age, she would have known that beg gay was OK. When I found out earlier this month, along wh the rt of the world, that one of my favore actors, Kal Penn, is a fellow gay man and now engaged to his long-time partner, I was so happy that he was openly livg his tth. "I realized I was gay last year, after 36 years durg the lockdown.
After seeg a gay guy I uld see myself , I started to qutn myself more. I me out as bisexual at 44 after my stepson me out as gay at 11 years old. "I moved to Ireland jt before the referendum that legalized gay marriage.
Once the untry around me changed and I started seeg more gays the muny, felt safer, and I felt more fortable to e out. I'd fantasize about men and watch gay porn.
AM I GAY?
Part of me felt rponsible for her ath, as if beg bi or gay and my feelgs of regret somehow ed . I also realized that the label of ‘gay’ ma more sense for me than ‘bi. But when I moved to California and saw more gay people, then I really started to realize .
I gus that's the pot I f the fn of 'gay' rather than bi. I have a lot of stori about folks who were homophobic but me around to acceptg me and honorg me for beg a gay man, once they got to know me beyond what I do bed.
In the meantime, I kept watchg gay porn but wouldn't accept and felt guilty after jerkg off to . I me out to my wife many moons ago but took a long time to realize that prayg the gay away wasn’t workg. I’m a good place right now and share my home wh gay iends, as well as adult children.