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• POEMS / GAY POEMS - THE BT POETRY ON THE WEBNEWTEMERE   FOLLOWON AUG 19 2023 06:26 PM PST  PLEADG TO KNOW
• THE GAY GOSPEL OF AARON SMH
• POEMS / GAY LOVE POEMS - THE BT POETRY ON THE WEBNEWTJOSHUA KENRYU   FOLLOWON FEB 16 2023 05:38 PM PST  BEE I WANTED YOU TO KNOW
• POEMS / GAY MAN POEMS - THE BT POETRY ON THE WEB

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Explore the rich tradn of gay, lbian, bisexual, transgenr, and queer poets and poetry by browsg a selectn of poems & d.

When I was a 17-year-old sufferg the suburbs of Hartford, Connecticut, Aaron Smh’s poems helped me image my future, both as a gay person and as a poet. The few gay male poets I’d read at that pot were eher ad (Frank O’Hara, for stance, whom I loved) or stuffy, which ma them feel even further away.

THE GAY GOSPEL OF AARON SMH

The famo one who was equently remend to me seemed ncerned, the poems I’d read, wh dignifyg the subject of gay life so that might be palatable to a typil poetry-readg dience—somethg I was not terted readg or wrg. If the difficulty of beg gay and effemate wasn’t a nstant prence my poetry, perhaps one day wouldn’t be my life. Still, I wanted to go to a gay club and fd out for myself.

POEMS / GAY LOVE POEMS - THE BT POETRY ON THE WEBNEWTJOSHUA KENRYU   FOLLOWON FEB 16 2023 05:38 PM PST  BEE I WANTED YOU TO KNOW

The glimpse of gay adulthood prented here was more troublg, but there was neverthels somethg affirmg about the poem’s existence. It was the first llectn by a livg gay poet that I ever read. In his past three books—Blue on Blue Ground (2005), Appete (2012), and Primer (2016)—Smh mataed the re set of poetic preoccupatns that spoke to me as a teenager: the gay male subject’s sir and sham (as well as the often blurry boundary between them), and the e of pop culture as a mirror which to figure one’s own experience (“Walkg to lunch I am Cher Moonstck, hly fucked, ” om Blue on Blue on Ground, is a le that will never leave me).

” It’s a triple-entendre: a play on the homophone you might hear a workshop or at an open mic, a nod to his own “poem to Cher, ” and a wkg acknowledgment of his secury about his stature as a poet. While Smh has been wrg unapologetilly gay poems sce the start of his reer, he has never seemed so unncerned wh acmodatg a general dience—that is, one outsi the poetry world. In Smh’s prev books, she was a remarkably unsympathetic figure, as she sometim is the pag; the last le of “The Dancg Lbian” reads, “Mom cried when she found out I was gay.

”) Though The Book of Daniel is a ls bleak llectn than his prev one—and I don’t e bleak pejoratively here— don’t shy away om his most difficult subjects: the trma of homophobia, both past and prent; his ght relatnship to sex; the specter of suici. The book’s fal poem, “Elegy, ” seems to yield some clary: “I told my therapist that gayns // has always been more athetic for me / than sexual.

POEMS / GAY MAN POEMS - THE BT POETRY ON THE WEB

And I am: gay, a poet, and a prsive. There have been some surprisg viatns om the expectatns I had when I first stumbled upon that say at 17: I’ve spent ls time gay clubs than I imaged I would, for one (but turns out I still enjoy hurried trysts basements, back seats, and the ocsnal bathroom).

DING **** MY KIDNAPPER IS DEAD, THAT IS WHY I ALLOWED TED BUNDY TO TAKE ME YEAH, I WANTED TO KIDNAP MY KIDNAPPERHOPING THE SPIRIT WORLD CAN **** MY KIDNAPPER, OH YEAHI KNOW IT’S ****** HARD, CAUSE, THE SCHITZOPHRENIA, WAS GIVING ME THE ****** YRGEI FOUND IT HARD TO RID THE URGE, SO I MADE TED BUNDY’S GHOST TIE ME UPBUT THIS MADE ME FIGHT MY FATHER, AND FORCE ME ON MEDICATIONWHICH MADE THE NICEST MAN, BUT MY KIDNAPPER KEPT COMING BACKDING **** I WANTED MY KIDNAPPER DEAD, I KNOW I ANNOYED A LOT OF PEOPLETRYING TO GRAB THEM OH YEAHI GRABBED A FEW SCHOOL MATES, AND THAT IS WHY I WAS TREATED LIKE A YEAH MATE YEAH KIDI WANT TO GET REOFORMED, BUT A VOICE SAID, NO YOUR NOR REFORMEDAND I WORKED AT THE RAINBOW, HELPING THE MENTALLY ILLAND I FELT LIKE A HAPPY CHIRPY COOL KID GOING TO THE BEACH AND BUSHWALKINGAND WORKING IN THE RAINBOW KITCHEN, AND NOBODY WANTED TO TEASE MECAUSE I HELPED TO GIVE THEM A MEAL, I WAS A COOL KID, AND VERY VERY CHIRPYAND THEN IN 2002, I FELT REALLY CRAZY, THE PARANORMAL SHOVING VOICES IN MY HEADWHICH WAS, I WAS THE KID, KILLED BY THE ******, THE AMERICAN ****** KILLED A KIDBUT I SAID I DREAMT IN THE REAL WORLD, SAYING THE KID HE KILLED WAS MEI STOOD MY LITTLE KIDNAPPING KID, OUT ON THE LONESOME, THE ****** KILLED MY CRAZY KIDNAPPERI AM NOT GAY, I RESPECT GAYS, BUT I AM NOT GAYI AM NOT A PHEDAPHILE, HAVING *** WITH KIDS IS REPULSIVEI AM NOT A CUDDLING KOOMARRI MAN, CAUSE THEY GET KILLED, I LIKE TO SAY THAT AT LEAST GAYS, HAVE A REASONTHE KOOMARRIS, ARE TOTALLY GEEKY, AS THEY CUDDLE UP TO YAI AM NOT GAY, HE SAID, I JUST LIKE TO CUDDLE MEN, NOT THAT THERE IS ANYTHING WRONG WITH GAYSI AM NOT GAY, I MADE MY CHOICE, TO BE A ******LIKE A ******, WHO PARTIES ALL THE FUCKEN TIME, LIKE A ****** BABY YEAHPARTY WITH ME, AND YOU AS WELL YO DUDEBUT TED BUNDY, ISN’T HASSLING ME NO MORE, I AGREED TO **** MY HOOLIGAN WHO GRABS KIDSAND IN JUP[ITER, I AM PREPARED TO SUFFER, FOR EVERY KID, AS CRONUS DOES DOTED BUNDY NOW HAS ME ******* TO THE LAMP POST ON JUPITERI PREFER THIS, RATHER THAN CUDDLING ******* KOOMARRI MENPRESUMING THAT I AM GAY, I AM STRAIGHT, MY PROBLEMS WERE WATCHING REALLY BAD KIDNAPPING ON TVAND MY LAST TWO LIVES KIDNAPPED AND KILLED AT AGE 8 GREAME THORNE ANDS PATRICK DUNBARI HAVE KILLED MY KIDNAPPER AND LEFT MY LITTLE DADDY’S SHY BOY WITH DAD, ON CLOUD 9SO I CAN ENJOY BATTLING THE YOU AND YOUR BROTHER AREN’T LIKE US VOICEBY DRINKING A BOTTLE OF COKE, I AM A COMPUTER **** KIDI WANT TO LOSE PAT’S VOICE, BUT WE HAD FUN TOGETHERI WANT TO LOSE HIS VOICE, BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO HEAR THESE DELLUSIONSOF HIM BEING A TEASING GAY MAN, CAUSE YOU HAVE TO BE CAREFUL TO TEASE NORMIESTHE WAY I USED TO TEASE THE MEN, WHETHER YOUR GAY OR NOTPEOPLE PRESUME THAT YOUR GAY, AND PUNCH AND **** YOUBULLYING LEADS TO KILLING, BRIAN ALLAN DOESN’T WANT TO BE KILLEDSO HE PREFERS TO GET RID OF HIS SHY BOY THE BRIAN ALLAN WAYCAUSE I HATE, THE IDEA IN HINDSIGHT OF BEING A LITTLE YOUNG DUDE LIKE THATIT WAS ALRIGHT WHEN I WAS YOUNG, WELL CRAWLING THROUGH DRAINPIPESAND RIDING OUR BIKES, AND PARTYING IN CLUBS WAS COOLBUT THE KIDNAPPING OR THE GAY ACTIVITY, REALLY AIN’T FOR MEI AM STILL DOING WHAT I USED TO DO, THE IMAGINATION BITART AND DRAWING, I WANT TO KIL MY KIDNAPPER AND HAVE TED BUNDY TIE HIM UP ON JUPITERAQND LEAVE MY DADDY’S LITTLE SHY BOY AS I SAID ON CLOUD 9 WITH DADWE HAVE TO STAND ON OUR OWN TWO FEETOH YEAH MY, HEART IS A PUMPING, AND MY LEGS ARE FITI WANNA STAND ON MY OWN TWO FEETI DON’T CARE WHAT MY VOICES SAYI PREFER FOR MY VOICES TO SAY BE AN ARTIST, BE A WRITER, BE A YOUTUBE PARTNER, BE A BUDDHISTI DON’T WANT TO HAVE ANY PART OF MY DADDY’S LITTLE SHY BOY IN ME, EVER AGAINMEDICATION, REINCARNATION, I AM COOL, HOW ABOUT A LITTLE CELEBRATIONSTOP THE CALLING ME WOOSEY, IN MY HEAD, CAUSE, IT’S FUCKEN DOWNGRADING YOU BIG *******I FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE AROUND GAYS, DOESN’T MEAN I HATE THEM, I HATE BEING TOLD I AM STILL GAY******* ****, *******, I AM NOT GAYDING **** MY KIDNAPPER IS DEAD AND MY LITTLE SHY BOY IS UP THERE WITH DEAR OLD DADI AM A MAN WHO ENJOYS PARTYING, YEAH MATE YEAH, I AM NO ****.

This is poetry over cricism © on Sep 18 2019 09:43 AM PST, Jurell Whe love • gay • gay-love • lgbt-love • god.