Bee my gayns is obv, I faced savage homophobic bullyg growg up and I’ve therefore always found hard to empathise wh men who are able to hi their sexualy. Perhaps I was wrong
Contents:
- GAY CONVERSN: I SLEPT WH OVER 200 MEN, NOW I'M A HAPPILY MARRIED HETEROSEXUAL DAD
- AM I GAY?
- THE FACT NO ONE LIK TO ADM: MANY GAY MEN ULD JT HAVE EASILY BEEN STRAIGHT
- I ED TO ENVY GAY MEN WHO ULD PASS FOR STRAIGHT – NOW I REALISE MIGHT BE A CURSE
- AS A GAY MAN, I’LL NEVER BE NORMAL
- I THOUGHT I WAS GAY BUT NOW I'M QUTNG MY ORIENTATN
GAY CONVERSN: I SLEPT WH OVER 200 MEN, NOW I'M A HAPPILY MARRIED HETEROSEXUAL DAD
My journey om gay to straight me pletely by accint - but 's allowed me to bee the person I always wanted to be * i used to be gay now i'm straight *
Jam Parker abandoned his gay liftyle and now has a fay. In an effort to prent both sis of the gay nversn bate, IBT ved a man whose sexualy changed through therapy to tell his story. But that's what happened – fact I changed had hundreds of homosexual partners, I eventually married a woman and had a child.
I knew I was gay at about 10 or 11. I was fely a number six on the Ksey Sle – an exclively homosexual male wh no heterosexual sir whatsoever.
AM I GAY?
Are you qutng your sexualy? Fd out if you’re gay, straight, bisexual, or asexual. Learn what the terms mean and if they apply to you. * i used to be gay now i'm straight *
I often thought of suici, ocsnally self-harmed and had a growg problem wh alhol and gay porn.
THE FACT NO ONE LIK TO ADM: MANY GAY MEN ULD JT HAVE EASILY BEEN STRAIGHT
Sexualy is plex and ever-evolvg, so how do you know if you're straight, gay, or somethg between? Answer the qutns about your csh and fantasi to fd out. * i used to be gay now i'm straight *
But mum and dad were amazg; they said they had known I was gay and then affirmed their unndnal love for me.
The 'g out' procs wasn't tortuo or 18 I moved to London om the north of England and fully embraced my gay inty. I beme the first person to live openly as a gay man the sectn of the universy I attend, and even tablished an LGBT group for other stunts, actively preachg agast those who suggted that beg gay was somehow a choice, or even wrong.
I ED TO ENVY GAY MEN WHO ULD PASS FOR STRAIGHT – NOW I REALISE MIGHT BE A CURSE
I was born gay, was all I'd ever known – end of.
Even though I'd been raised a Christian and attend an LGBT Christian Movement London, I reveled the pal's gay scene and led a very promiscuo liftyle.
I reveled the gay liftyle - beg gay was all I'd ever knownJam ParkerI realised I had some issu, centrg on mment. I had an nate fear of men – not of their homophobia, but the real thg: a chasm between me and the normal heterosexual male (Ksey's so-lled number on).
AS A GAY MAN, I’LL NEVER BE NORMAL
There was nothg btal or harrowg about the help I received; the horror stori you hear om some of those gay-straight 'nversn' documentari don't apply here.
It was simply a mixture of gnive therapy, to challenge my re beliefs and root out one-sid thkg; behavural therapy, to change problematic actns traed through years of rercement; and EMDR, which rhythmic eye movements to dampen the power of trmatic therapist and I never foced solely on my beg sexually attracted to men, but my "beg gay" had to be part of the dialogue, otherwise I'd have been leavg a part of my life at the door. At the age of 46, I've never felt better my own ParkerI began to see that maybe, jt maybe, I was never tly gay and that there was a man as real and as noble as the men I had often admired, worshipped and yearned for hidn ep wh me, wag to be eed and released. Jam Parker ed to be a regular London's gay bars, and revelled the gay scene.
I THOUGHT I WAS GAY BUT NOW I'M QUTNG MY ORIENTATN
I don't miss the gay liftyle I left behd –when I vised my ex-boyiend, five years after therapy, brought to home to me the drawbacks of that life.