I hve been battlg what I thk is hocd. I've showered wh guys played gay never got aroed. This hocd has been gog on for ...
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HOCD, WEIRD GAY DREAM.
But yterday I had a spike morng, didn't bother me that much, but then I went to sleep and I remember dreamg about datg my iend, I remember weird l like "We're girliend and boyiend so 's not gay" (Weird, I know) and I remember almost kissg him the dream, but end up jt kd of huggg and wrtlg a buddy way, this really sr me tbh. I go to bed knowg that i don't want to have gay sex, but bee of this nowadays there are many nights where I dream about gay sex and is strange but the dreams i feel like i am ejaculatg and whenever i wake up i feel like $#%^. Sometim i am even prsed for the whole day bee of the dreams, bee them felt like i was gay (i almost never had the dreams before HOCD h, i ed to dream about havg sex wh girls and i loved ).
HOCD; AM I GAY OR STRAIGHT?
I looked this up onle and this webse said you uld prove you weren't gay if you had never had a gay dream and this ed my anxiety to spike to levels unseen and i jt don't know what to do.....
After the first time month i stopped easy for a week aga but bee of nng te some stggl life and stuff my HOCD was once aga really strong and i had a wet gay dream. Recently i wanted to jerk off to a girliend i was wrg wh whatsapp bee she got kd of erotic there and sends before i was about to e i though about my roommate and gaysex wh him and i was g kd of hard. But yterday night i was fantasizg once aga about gaysex - kd of checkg my self (y i know how bad that is) and i me wh touchg my self whout nothg not even gettg hard or somethg i jt me.
But as i got out of bad and start my normal routg all this jt rema like a bad dream or somethg i don't feel attracted to man i am jt disgt by my thoughts and i n see how the are not reflectg my personal wish or i where not aware about the whole HOCD thg i though i might be gay and i tried wh two different guys but both tim where jt where'd and i felt kd of nothg - well i got hard and me but i didn't wish to please them or kiss them was jt sexual relief and i never want to do aga. So om that perspective i n tell that this gay fantasi jt work my phantasi but not realy and maybe is as you say, a way for the subuns to al wh this HOCD thg.
YOU’RE NOT GAY: HOMOSEXUALY ANXIETY OCD
If you have thoughts that make you doubt your long-standg sexual preferenc, and the thoughts go agast your te sexual inty, and you have no genue sire to start a same-sex relatnship, You uld have a form of Obssive-pulsive disorr lled Homosexual you have arrived on this page, you have no doubt been googlg your thoughts as somewhere ep down, you know that your sexualy has not changed, but you do not unrstand the thoughts your is not an article about g out. The obssn n be the thought what if I am gay and then feelg pelled (the pulsn) to check this out by lookg at members of the same sex to tt if there is an attractn example, a straight person wh HOCD may fear beg secretly gay, while a gay person wh HOCD may fear beg you are a heterosexual male but sudnly start to qutn that maybe you are gay or a heterosexual female and beg to doubt your long-standg attractn to men, this article will help you make sense of what is gog on. Homosexual Obssive Compulsive Disorr (HOCD) is a type of OCD where the person experienc obssive thoughts and doubts about their prevly taken-for-granted sexual n often clu excsive checkg for signs of homosexualy, qutng recent teractns wh others and playg out potential the ndn first entered the public doma, was labelled HOCD and, acrdg to Bhatia & Kr, 2015 (1), was marked by excsive fear of beg or beg homosexual.