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width: 100%; height: to;" siz="100vw" srcSet=" 640w, 980w, 1120w, 1200w, 1920w" src="" class="css-335qep exi4f7p0" /></div><style data-emotn="css 5kpeya">{font-fay:Gilroy,Helveti,Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:0.70003rem;letter-spacg:0.05em;le-height:2rem;text-transform:upperse;}@media(max-width: 73.75rem){{paddg-left:0.9375rem;}}@media(m-width: 64rem){{paddg-left:0;}} span{lor:#6F6F6F;}</style><figptn class="css-5kpeya enfs9c50"><style data-emotn="css bdkd9">{lor:#6F6F6F;paddg-right:0.3125rem;font-fay:Gilroy,Helveti,Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:0.70003rem;le-height:1.2;letter-spacg:0.05em;text-transform:upperse;}</style><span class="css-bdkd9 e6iqd2">Jenna Mrice</span></figptn></div></div><style data-emotn="css z6i669">{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-size:1.1875rem;le-height:1.6;paddg-left:0rem;paddg-right:0rem;posn:relative;}@media(m-width: 48rem){{paddg-left:3.5rem;paddg-right:3.5rem;}}@media(m-width: 48rem) and (max-width: 61.25rem){{max-width:45.25rem;marg-left:to;marg-right:to;}}@media(m-width: 61.25rem){{paddg-left:0rem;paddg-right:0rem;}}@media(m-width: 73.75rem) and (max-width: 100rem){{paddg-left:0rem;paddg-right:0rem;}}@media(m-width: 90rem){{paddg-left:0rem;paddg-right:0rem;}} em{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-style:alic;} strong{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-weight:bold;}{clear:both;ntent:" ";display:block;font-size:0.7rem;le-height:1.5rem;height:0rem;visibily:hidn;}</style><div class="article-body-ntent article-body standard-body-ntent css-z6i669 ewisyje7"><style data-emotn="css 18vfmjb">{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-size:1.1875rem;le-height:1.6;} em{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-style:alic;} strong{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-weight:bold;}</style><p data-no-id="0" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0"><em>In 's seri </em><style data-emotn="css 9cezh6">{-webk-text-ratn:unrle;text-ratn:unrle;text-ratn-thickns:0.0625rem;text-ratn-lor:her;text-unrle-offset:0.25rem;lor:#E61957;-webk-transn:all 0.3s ease--out;transn:all 0.3s ease--out;}{lor:#595959;text-ratn-lor:borr-lk-body-hover;}</style><a data-vars-ga-outbound-lk=" href=" target="_blank" data-vars-ga-ux-element="Hyperlk" data-vars-ga-ll-to-actn="Comg Out" class="body-lk css-9cezh6 et3p2gv0">Comg Out</a><em>, LGBTQ change-makers reflect on their journey toward self-acceptance. While 's betiful to bravely share your inty wh the world, choosg to do so is entirely up to you—perd.</em></p><style data-emotn="css 18pb4rg">{borr:0;borr-bottom:th solid black;marg:1.875rem 0;clear:both;}</style><hr data-no-id="1" class="css-18pb4rg et3p2gv0" /><p data-no-id="2" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">By the time V.E. Schwab was her 20s, she was already the #1 <em>New York Tim </em><em></em>btsellg thor of beloved, and staggergly epic, <a href=" target="_blank" data-vars-ga-outbound-lk=" data-vars-ga-ux-element="Hyperlk" data-vars-ga-ll-to-actn="works of fantasy" class="body-lk css-9cezh6 et3p2gv0">works of fantasy</a>. Her next book, and her first-ever standalone novel, <em><a href=" rel="nofollow" target="_blank" data-vars-ga-outbound-lk=" data-vars-ga-ux-element="Hyperlk" data-vars-ga-ll-to-actn="The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue" data-vars-ga-product-id="e2e86019-59f8-4b54-a348-8508c75d7b9d" data-href=" data-product-url=" data-affiliate="te" data-affiliate-url=" data-affiliate-work="{"id":"31518d15-56f8-4a3f-8799-8066452d82","se_id":"10a25939-3448-4c42-8343-9bfdfc32076b","metadata":{},"work":{"id":"469ce69f-4798-416d-9432-eaa9954b4053","name":"Amazon","metadata":{}}}" data-vars-ga-media-role data-vars-ga-media-type data-vars-ga-product-brand="V E Schwab" data-vars-ga-product-price="$10.46" data-vars-ga-product-retailer-id="d9dc0a-350c-4253-8bc1-5578d9fac25f" data-vars-ga-product-sem3-brand="V E Schwab" data-vars-ga-product-sem3-tegory="Horror" data-vars-ga-gallery-id data-vars-ga-lk-treatment="sale | (not set)" class="body-lk product-lks css-9cezh6 ebsw2pb0">The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue</a></em>, is already rackg up rave reviews. The book's central characters, Addie LaRue and Henry Strss, are troduced as bisexual whout fanfare. </p><style data-emotn="css 1fbb0rt">{--data-embed-display:flex;-webk-align-ems:center;-webk-box-align:center;-ms-flex-align:center;align-ems:center;display:-webk-box;display:-webk-flex;display:-ms-flexbox;display:flex;marg-bottom:0.9375rem;}@media(m-width: 20rem){{width:50%;marg-left:1rem;marg-right:0rem;float:right;clear:right;}}@media(m-width: 30rem){{width:40%;marg-left:1rem;marg-right:0rem;float:right;clear:right;}}@media(m-width: 40.625rem){{width:30%;marg-left:1rem;marg-right:0rem;float:right;clear:right;}}@media(m-width: 48rem){{width:30%;marg-left:1rem;marg-right:0rem;float:right;clear:right;}}@media(m-width: 64rem){{width:20%;marg-left:1rem;marg-right:0rem;float:right;clear:right;}}@media(m-width: 73.75rem){{width:20%;marg-left:1rem;marg-right:0rem;float:right;clear:right;}}@media(m-width: 75rem){{width:20%;marg-left:1rem;marg-right:0rem;float:right;clear:right;}}@media(m-width: 90rem){{width:20%;marg-left:1rem;marg-right:0rem;float:right;clear:right;}} a span{right:1rem;} img{width:to;height:85vh;} a{display:-webk-le-box;display:-webk-le-flex;display:-ms-le-flexbox;display:le-flex;posn:var(--posn, relative);} img:not(.ewcw41w1){display:block;width:100%;height:to;-webk-align-self:flex-start;-ms-flex-em-align:flex-start;align-self:flex-start;}</style><div size="small" data-embed="body-image" data-no-id="3" class="align-right size-small embed css-1fbb0rt e1xqj1sx4"><style data-emotn="css uwraif">{width:100%;display:-webk-le-box;display:-webk-le-flex;display:-ms-le-flexbox;display:le-flex;-webk-flex-directn:lumn;-ms-flex-directn:lumn;flex-directn:lumn;marg-left:to;marg-right:to;-webk-box-pack:center;-ms-flex-pack:center;-webk-jtify-ntent:center;jtify-ntent:center;}</style><div class="css-uwraif e1xqj1sx3"><img alt="temi oyeyola" tle="Temi Oyeyola" loadg="lazy" width="320" height="320" dg="async" data-nimg="1" style="lor: transparent; width: 100%; height: to;" siz="100vw" srcSet=" 640w, 980w, 1120w, 1200w, 1920w" src="" class="css-0 exi4f7p0" /><style data-emotn="css 78jldq">{paddg-left:0rem;}</style><div class="css-78jldq e1xqj1sx2"><style data-emotn="css 183nka8">{width:0;m-width:100%;paddg-top:0.625rem;font-fay:Gilroy,Helveti,Arial,Sans-serif;font-size:0.8125rem;le-height:1.2;} em, i{font-fay:her;font-style:alic;} em{font-fay:CharterItalic,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-style:alic;}</style><div class="css-183nka8 e1xqj1sx1"><a data-vars-ga-outbound-lk=" href=" target="_blank" class="css-9cezh6 et3p2gv0">Click here for more stori.</a></div><style data-emotn="css 1am3yn9">{paddg-left:0rem;le-height:1;}</style><figptn class="css-1am3yn9 enfs9c50"><span class="css-bdkd9 e6iqd2">Temi Oyeyola</span></figptn></div></div></div><p data-no-id="4" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">But while her characters eely lived out their romantic (and supernatural) adventur, Schwab felt nstraed to pursue her own. She didn't e out as gay until she was her late 20s—partially, she wr, bee she didn't have the vobulary. </p><p data-no-id="6" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">In this say for 's Comg Out seri, Schwab ploys her characteristic figurative language to scribe her own g-out story—this time around, sentially, she's the character. Schwab likens her s-long realizatn to movg through a hoe, and realizg, aga and aga, that certa inti are not que "home." It's a feat of storytellg that only Schwab n pull off. </p><p data-no-id="7" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">Comg out, as this say om Schwab shows, don't have to happen high school. Nor do have to be overnight, wh a lightng bolt of regnn. This is her journey. <em><br /></em></p><hr data-no-id="8" class="css-18pb4rg et3p2gv0" /><style data-emotn="css 1w19hrk">{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-size:1.1875rem;le-height:1.6;}{float:left;text-transform:upperse;font-weight:bold;marg-right:0.9375rem;marg-bottom:-0.625rem;marg-top:0;}{font-fay:Juana,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-size:3.8431rem;font-weight:300;le-height:1;}@-moz-document url-prefix(){{marg-top:0.625rem;}}@media(max-width: 64rem){{font-size:6.25rem;le-height:0.9;}}@media(m-width: 48rem){{font-size:6.25rem;le-height:0.9;}}@media(m-width: 64rem){{font-size:7.87499rem;le-height:0.9;}} em{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-style:alic;} strong{font-fay:Charter,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-weight:bold;}</style><p data-no-id="9" class="body-dropp css-1w19hrk et3p2gv0"> Y<em>ou are a room and is dark. There are no wdows and no doors, the bed is too soft—or too firm—and the books aren’t your taste, and the cloth the closet have never really f, and ’s a ltle hard to breathe here, but ’s your room. It has always been your room. So you stay put. </em></p><p data-no-id="10" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">You are 16 when you fall love wh your bt iend—only you don’t unrstand the “” part yet, so you jt ll love. Teenage girls are always lovg their iends, beg entangled, like tre grown together, so you thk that’s what is. You ll iendship when you lean your head on her shoulr between class. You ll iendship when she draws ty not the plaid margs of your uniform skirt. You ll iendship when she throws her arms around your shoulrs and everythg you settl like silt. </p><div supprsHydratnWarng data-no-id="11" data-embed="edorial-lk" class="embed css-0 e9hzx6g0"><style data-emotn="css y6rgkz">{borr:th solid #CDCDCD;borr-bottom:th solid black;borr-left:0;borr-right:0;borr-top:th solid black;borr-width:0.75rem;marg-bottom:1.875rem;marg-top:1.875rem;paddg:0.625rem 0 0.25rem;}@media(max-width: 73.75rem){{marg-top:1.875rem;marg-bottom:1.875rem;}}@media(m-width: 64rem){{marg-top:2.5rem;marg-bottom:2.5rem;}}</style><asi class="css-y6rgkz e6pr2lz5"><style data-emotn="css whsy2b">{borr-bottom:th solid black;display:block;font-fay:Juana,Geia,Tim,Serif;font-weight:500;letter-spacg:0.1em;marg:0rem;marg-bottom:0.3125rem;paddg-bottom:0.625rem;text-transform:upperse;}@media(max-width: 64rem){{font-size:1.1875rem;le-height:1.2;}}@media(m-width: 48rem){{font-size:1.3125rem;le-height:1.2;}}</style><h6 class="css-whsy2b e6pr2lz3"><span aria-hidn="te" class="css-0 eagam8p0"></span><style data-emotn="css 8lle59">{max-width:lc(100% - 120px - .625rem);}</style><span class="css-8lle59 e6pr2lz1">Related Stori</span><span aria-hidn="te" class="css-0 eagam8p1"></span></h6><style data-emotn="css c4s2gi">{paddg:0rem;marg:0rem;list-style:none;}</style><ul class="css-c4s2gi e6pr2lz4"><style data-emotn="css 1b7ml99">{font-fay:Juana,Geia,Tim,Serif;paddg-top:0.9375rem;}@media(max-width: 64rem){{font-size:1.125rem;le-height:1.2;}}@media(m-width: 48rem){{font-size:1.1875rem;le-height:1.2;}}{borr-bottom:th solid black;paddg-bottom:1.25rem;} a{-webk-text-ratn:none;text-ratn:none;lor:her;-webk-transn:all 0.3s ease--out;transn:all 0.3s ease--out;} a:hover{lor:#595959;} a>img{borr-radi:0.1875rem;}</style><li class="css-1b7ml99 e6pr2lz2"><style data-emotn="css 1bn7a5e">{-webk-text-ratn:none;text-ratn:none;display:-webk-box;display:-webk-flex;display:-ms-flexbox;display:flex;-webk-box-flex-wrap:wrap;-webk-flex-wrap:wrap;-ms-flex-wrap:wrap;flex-wrap:wrap;-webk-flex-directn:row;-ms-flex-directn:row;flex-directn:row;-webk-box-pack:start;-ms-flex-pack:start;-webk-jtify-ntent:flex-start;jtify-ntent:flex-start;-webk-align-ems:center;-webk-box-align:center;-ms-flex-align:center;align-ems:center;}</style><a href="/entertament/books/a28510255/ro-kwon-cendiari-bisexual-twter/" data-vars-ga-ll-to-actn="Why I Came Out As Bisexual on Twter" data-vars-ga-ux-element="Edorial Lks" data-vars-ga-outbound-lk=" class="css-1bn7a5e e1c1bym14"><span aria-hidn="te" class="css-0 eagam8p0"></span><style data-emotn="css 1l0u1">{marg-right:0.625rem;height:to;}</style><img src="" alt="Face, Hair, Blue, Eyebrow, Sk, Ch, Lip, Nose, Bety, Forehead, " tle="Face, Hair, Blue, Eyebrow, Sk, Ch, Lip, Nose, Bety, Forehead, " width="120" height="100%" dg="async" loadg="lazy" image-align="left" class="css-1l0u1 e6pr2lz0" /><span class="css-8lle59 e6pr2lz1">Why I Came Out As Bisexual on Twter</span><span aria-hidn="te" class="css-0 eagam8p1"></span></a></li><li class="css-1b7ml99 e6pr2lz2"><a href="/life/a33913828/g-out-police-statn-sexual-asslt/" data-vars-ga-ll-to-actn="On Comg Out a Police Statn Chigo" data-vars-ga-ux-element="Edorial Lks" data-vars-ga-outbound-lk=" class="css-1bn7a5e e1c1bym14"><span aria-hidn="te" class="css-0 eagam8p0"></span><img src="" alt="empty hospal bed emergency room" tle="Empty hospal bed emergency room" width="120" height="100%" dg="async" loadg="lazy" image-align="left" class="css-1l0u1 e6pr2lz0" /><span class="css-8lle59 e6pr2lz1">On Comg Out a Police Statn Chigo</span><span aria-hidn="te" class="css-0 eagam8p1"></span></a></li><li class="css-1b7ml99 e6pr2lz2"><a href="/life/relatnships-love/a32868010/genevieve-hudson-g-out-story/" data-vars-ga-ll-to-actn="Comg Out the Deep South Helped Me Fd Myself" data-vars-ga-ux-element="Edorial Lks" data-vars-ga-outbound-lk=" class="css-1bn7a5e e1c1bym14"><span aria-hidn="te" class="css-0 eagam8p0"></span><img src="" alt="genevieve hudson" tle="Comg Out the Deep South Helped Me Fd Myself" width="120" height="100%" dg="async" loadg="lazy" image-align="left" class="css-1l0u1 e6pr2lz0" /><span class="css-8lle59 e6pr2lz1">Comg Out the Deep South Helped Me Fd Myself</span><span aria-hidn="te" class="css-0 eagam8p1"></span></a></li></ul></asi></div><p data-no-id="12" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">You take a boy to prom, and his hand feels like a wet fish yours, his breath on your cheek like stale steam. You don’t have a brother but if you did, kissg him would feel like this. A sk-squirmg disfort. </p><p data-no-id="13" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0"><em>One day, you realize your room has a door. You don’t know why you’ve never noticed before. Perhaps wasn’t there, but now is. You don’t know where leads, except that leads out, which is a sry word, so you s on the bed, and stare at the handle. You don’t open . </em></p><p data-no-id="14" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">You are 17, and the girls around you are all boy crazy and you wonr if somethg si you is broken, or missg, or if your body is simply ignorant, unpracticed. You stggle wh an eatg disorr, and maybe your disfort your sk has spilled over, ma your body an enemy. Maybe is fightg back. You ci is jt your nerv, your nros, your md gettg your way. It shouts “wrong wrong wrong,: and you put your thoughts on mute. </p><p data-no-id="15" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0"><em>You n’t stand the room anymore. You open the door, and step out to the space beyond.</em></p><p data-no-id="16" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0"><em>And stantly, you feel better. There is room out here, to stretch, to move. There is even a lamp, stg a dim glow, and your ey beg to as they do, you realize, this isn’t a room, ’s jt a hall, a space between here and there. You have cid where you don’t belong, but you still have to fd where you do. </em></p><p data-no-id="17" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">You are 19, home for wter break and the girl you love is there, too. You flg yourself to each other’s arms, and feels like g home. For one credible moment, the world mak sense. 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He is handsome, and clever, and when he starts to climb on top of you, your stomach turns. And you know if someone took a picture, you would look right, tangled together like this, your hand on his sk and his hand unr your don’t feel right. You feel like the person behd the mera stead of the one the bed. How n a man’s body be so betiful, up until the moment touch you? </p><p data-no-id="20" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0"><em>You nnot stay the hall, so you keep walkg, to another room. And this one, this one is nice. It’s open and well-l and you thk, ah, there we are. This feels better, so you settle . You put up the curtas you saw someone else’s hoe, tell yourself they f yours, too. You hang pictur that other people like, you do everythg you n to make the space look right. You remd yourself ’s so much better than the room where you started. You try to make yourself fortable, and for a ltle while you’re nvced you don’t have to keep gog. This is far enough. </em></p><p data-no-id="21" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">The break ends and the girl go back to school, and so do you, but you don’t know what to do. You aren’t gay—as far as you know at this pot, gay is only one of two thgs, butch or lipstick, and neher of those f, and you like at least the ia of them. But you have never been love wh anyone other than your high school iend, so fally, you ci to ll and tell her how you feel, to fd the words and hope will not what you have. It tak months, but you are fally ready to pick up the phone, but she lls first, and you hold your breath and hope—but she’s llg to say that she’s engaged, which feels like the bad plot of a soap opera, except when ’s happeng to you. </p><p data-no-id="22" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">She asks how you are, and you say fe, the tth crawlg back si your throat as you tell yourself she was an exceptn, not the le. You will keep tryg to fd someone who mak you feel how other people look when they’re together.</p><p data-no-id="23" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0"><em>This room isn’t right. You thought you uld make work, but you n’t stand the pictur and the lor isn’t right, and you’re not sure when the room began to feel so small and stuffy, but do, and you n hear voic, g om somewhere else. You didn’t realize there were other people the hoe, but the sound of them talkg, lghg, fills you wh hope. You go to look for them. </em></p><p data-no-id="24" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">You are 21, watchg your bt llege iends—both girls—fall love. For two years, the three of you have been separable, but for the last few months, they have been pullg away om you and toward each other, and when they fally nfs that they’ve been datg, ’s the same breath they say “There is no room for you this anymore.” They have rved you out of their story, translated iendship to romance a way you uld not. And they are so sure of themselv, so at home their sk, and you are so nfed, you nvce yourself that what you felt for them was not love, though clearly was. You feel lost. You feel alone.</p><p data-no-id="25" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0"><em>You fd room after room that isn’t yours (you had no ia the hoe was so big). Everywhere you look, you fd open doors, and people ready to wele you. Some rooms are vast and brightly l, and others zy, and everyone you pass seems so happy their home, and you want to feel the way they do, but you know that none of the rooms are ma for you. You have gotten very good at knowg what and who you aren’t, an image ma up of negative space.</em></p><p data-no-id="26" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">You are 24 and you know you aren’t straight. When your parents ask when you’ll brg home a guy, you softly amend that might be a girl. They ask if you are bisexual, and you say y, and their takeaway is that there is still hope. To them, is 50/50, a roll of the dice. They love you so much that they want your life to be easy, and easy means normal, and so they hold their breath and hope you fall for a guy—and you hold your breath and hope you do, too. </p><p data-no-id="27" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0">You don’t. </p><p data-no-id="28" class="css-18vfmjb et3p2gv0"><em>You slump onto the stairs, tired of searchg this hoe for somewhere that feels like home. A stranger pass and offers to help you up. 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