Hamari Gay, Urdu Nazam by Ismail Merathi at UrduPot

Contents:

• HAMARI GAY
• HAMARI GAY, URDU NAZAM BY ISMAIL MERATHI
• G MATA KI AARTIGAYE HAMARI MATA HAI07:10 • TIM MICG MATA KI AARTI
• JAB GAYE NAHI HOGIGAYE HAMARI MATA HAI06:52 • TIM MICJAB GAYE NAHI HOGI
• ARE G MATA ROVEGAYE HAMARI MATA HAI07:17 • TIM MICARE G MATA ROVE
• GAYE HAMARI MATA HAI

HAMARI GAY

Ī rab ka shr ada kar bhai jis ne hamari gay banai malik ko kyun na paren jis ne pila dudh ki dhaaren KHak ko ne sabza banaya sabze ko phir gay ne khaya kal jo ghas chari thi ban me dudh bani ab gay ke than me subhan-allah dudh hai kaisa taza garm safed r miTha dudh me bhigi roTi meri ke karam ne baKHshi seri dudh dahi r miTha maska na KHuda to kis ke bas ka gay ko di kya achchhi surat KHubi ki hai goya murat dana dunka bhi chokar kha leti hai sab KHh ho kar kha kar tke r ThaThre dudh hai ti sham sawere kya hi gharib r kaisi pyari subh hui jangal ko sidhaari sabze se maidan hara hai jhil me pani saf bhara hai pani mjen mar raha hai charwaha chumkar raha hai pani pi kar chaara char kar sham ko aai apne ghar par duri me jo d hai kaTa bachche ko kis pyar se chaTa gay hamare haq me hai neamat dudh hai ti kha ke banaspat bachhDe ke bail banae jo kheti ke kaam me aae rab ki hamd-o-sana kar bhai jis ne aisi gay banai. koi fikar unko nahi meri, r na hi mujhko meri kadar rah gayi, vo ** gaye jis d paraye, jdagi meri jis d kisi gair ki bahon me aa toofan koi aaya, na koi hui halchal, bas raat bhar jaga, r subah sab taraf mayi cha gayi, vo ** gaye jis d paraye, meri mt ki tasek ** sam na kar sake vo mujhpe, na kabhi ek najar pyar se kh mujhko, khud hi khud me naat ki, r le liya na chahkar badla meri mohabat ka, ek dam se choda sath mera, vo kisi r ki mahbooba ** gayi, vo ** gaye jis d paraye, meri saanson se tba ** manga kabhi koi hak, na koi khatir kar saka, bewajah rota raha, tadapta raha bas pyaar me, chah kar bhi kuch na a, bas jdagi tabaah ** gayi, vo ** gaye jis d paraye, unki aadat hi bas, mera ant muqarrar kar gayi..... Waqt to Aaj bhi waisa he hai bachpan me jaisa hota tha wohi savera wahi sham Or baki cheeje tamam Par tab naa bhigne se lagta tha darr or naa sardi jam, or wo pani ki shrarate tamamJki Yaad bhar se aa jati hai hothon pe mkan par ab aisa kya hua jivan ki iss Dagar me kahan bhatak gaya jhuthe r riwazo me Kaise jivan ke Arth badalte gaye Kyo ek funny poem likhne waleEmotnal likhne pe majboor ** gayeHawa k jharoko se kashti hilti gayiwaqt k sath me t badlta gayar yeh zdagi chalti rahipal pal nayi hasratehar pal naye khwab bunti gayir yeh zdagi chalti gayiraah me manzar t bahut aayebulate rahe mujhe mere saayeme t ek pal ko k sa gayapar yeh zdagi chalti gayiyaadon k saaye me zda *** abhilagta hai tham sa gay *** me kahpar zdagi bewafa sanam si niklime t ka reh gaya r yeh chalti gayijdagi har pal apne arth badalti rahi ham hanste rahe chahhe rote rahepar woh apni rafataar se bas behati rahikabhi ban ke sawal, kabhi ban ke utarwoh hame har mod per ti rahiham tutate rahe, bikharate rahe fir khud hi gir ke sambhalte raher jdagi yun hi jalti bhujhati rahigum e kuch is tarah ki gum hi gum na lagekhhiyuon ki baat bhi hame gum ban ke ti rahikya kare kisi se shikva, kya kare kisi se shikayatapne hi jab todate saans meri har pal ghutati rahibas jdagi yuh hi chalti rahi har pal apne arth badalati rahi.

Jo puraani yaadon me zdagi dhundha kartey haiunhe sirf do pal ki mkurahat naseeb hoti hai r phir umar bhar ki tanhai ek aisi tanhai jaha hum bhari mehfil me bhi akele ** jaate hai r adhura pan bhi hame pura lagne lagta haiek aisi manhoosiyat dil pe cha jaati hai Jo chahe bhi m nhi paati r vo yaa bhulaaye bhi bhula nhi paate reh reh k **** me ga kaante ki tarah dard diye jaata hair hum hans hans kar ise taal diya karte hai kyun ki shaayad maddar ko yahi manzur tha kya shikva hum kisi r se karejab manzil hi humse Ruth gayiJo naayab tohfa khuda se ihaatho se yun choot gayivo toot k bikhri r kare par jaa Girir kashti humari doob gayi.

HAMARI GAY, URDU NAZAM BY ISMAIL MERATHI

Nikle to hum bhi the ghar se yahi soch kar ki shayad is bar manzil tak pahuch jayenge, kyunki ddna to unhone hume bachpan me hi sikha diya tha yeh kehkar, ki agar nah bhagoge to woh tumhe peeche chod ki kuch aisi adat se ** gayi hai ki pair ab kne ka nam hi nah lete, lek hume kya pata tha ki na age nikal ane se, apne hi paraye, r woh sabhi raste anjane se ** door rehte hue bhi, anjanon ki bheed me woh ek chehra apna sa lagta tha, lek woh bhi hamha kisi r chehre ki talash me rehta raste ko dhoondhne nikle to the, magar yeh nah pata tha ki ni jaldi thak kabhi to lagta hai ki ab k jana chahiye, thoda aram kar lena chahiye, lek woh bhi namumk lagta hai kyunki, ab to sapne bhi ajeeb se ate chalte, wa to kafi kiye the is safar me, kuch unse, kuch apne ap se, lek yeh andaza bhi nah tha ki un sabhi umeedon par pani ferte hue chale mehsoos bhi nah hua ki apne hi apnon ke pankh kat che the, talash thi to bas kandhe ki jo is ladkhadate hue ko sahara bhi, dheere dheere is katon ki chadar par age badna hai, dil yahi kehta rehta hai, kyunki jhoothi hansi ki kuch aisi adat si ** gayi hai, ki ab chahte hue bhi dard ka ehsas nah hota hai.

G MATA KI AARTIGAYE HAMARI MATA HAI07:10 • TIM MICG MATA KI AARTI

Kagaz ki kashtiyon me kai bar safar kar liya, ab ek lambi udan bhar lene bandhe hue pankhon ko khuli hava me sans le lene do, kyunki ab girne ka khff nah me ab koi maza nah hai, kyunki yahan to hava jaise tham si gayi ** kne ka bilkul man nah raha, aj to toofanon me sair karne lene me rehte hue adhi zdagi guzar gayi, aj to un hadon ko par kar lene dar ke kab tak khamosh rahoge dost, zameen par jeet jane me kuch nah rakha, aj to uchaiyon par jashn mana lene chale hue raston ko kai bar nap liya, aj mujhe bhi apni pehchan bana lene ka rona to sabhi rote ha, aj mujhe bhi apne naseeb ka kora kagaz rang lene kabhi to man karta hai ki un azad pardon ki tarah hava me bas tairta hi reh to kuch nah par sochta *** kiaj namumk ko hi apna dost bana loon. Ni zdagi'ch aaja fer ni Zdagi'ch aaja fer ni Sathon ss gayi ae peed marjaani Zakhman nu fer chhil jaa Beh ja ankhiyan'ch ban ke paani Zdagi'ch aaja fer niVekh mere bul'chandre Fer hans ne dard bhula ke Haaseya naal pawe aadiyan Dil honkeya ton ankh ji bacha ke haaye Fer mere muhre khad jaa Taza hoje koyi yaad ni puraniZdagi'ch aaja fer ni Sathon ss gayi ae peed marjaani Zakhman nu fer chhil jaa Peh ja ankhiyan'ch ban ke paani Zdagi'ch aaja fer niLangh ja ni rooh vich di Agg fer ni lahu nu lag jaave Hathaan utte kar totka Meri zdagi di leek mt jave haayeAnkhiyan'ch neend radke Ankhiyan'ch neend radke Langhe che koyi haddan thaa niZdagi'ch aaja fer ni Saathon ss gayi ae peed marjaani Zakhman nu fer chhil jaa Peh ja ankhiyan'ch ban ke paani Zdagi'ch aaja fer ni. Dadhkano ki dadhakti har awaaz hai sirf unki, Pyaar me tabdil ** gayi hamari sa hai mhda, Mere jigar ka tere jiyenge ab hum na ek pal, Tujhse juda hai aane wala har sataya humne aapko aapka jawab ne me, Hanji hum bhi chahte ha aapko aapki shiddat gye dil se dil tak, Mujh par sirf hai aapka se rooh ka rishta hai hamara, Tujh b ek pal nahi hume diya hum par rang apna, Poora hua ek pyaara sa me jab tak saro ka hai basera, Ek dre ka ha hum zdagi ke saaton janam hai aapke naam, Aapke hi rahenge hum bheja khuda ko mera rago me lahu ban d, Apna sab kuch tum par qurbaan kar saath ** tou zdagi me hai bahaar, Tere ba zdagi bhi hai meri kasam har saans sirf tumhari, Tumse hi judi hai zdagi jaane kya lekh likhe unhone, Milaya hai jab aage bhi whi teri ** gayi haa mahiya, Har kadam saath ha hum se pehle tumko yaad kiya, Apna dil tumhe diya mohabbat tumse kar bahe, Pta nahi chala kab hum aapke ** gye.

JAB GAYE NAHI HOGIGAYE HAMARI MATA HAI06:52 • TIM MICJAB GAYE NAHI HOGI

Himmat rakh, Honsle ke kami nahi tujh me, Sar utha ke chala kro, Tumhe darna nahi kisi bholi si nanhi si, Payari si thi, Mma papa ki gudiya dulari si thi, Ankhon ma anshoo a jate unki, Jab tum rote rote so jaati, Unki ladli payari si jaane kab unki gudiya badi ** gayi, Unhe pata bhi na chala, Ji hathon ma kheli unhi se vida ** ke chal bhi hi zdgi tumhe i hai, kuch pal rahi mma papa sang, Begane aye tujhe le gye, Tere mma papa ko anshoo kehlti papa ke dil ka taara thi tum, Kuch khelne ko na hota, To papa ki peeth ki sawari thi ki beti aaj badi ** gayi hai, Kl thak jo roti lagti nanhi si, Bechari si thi, Aaj mma ki vo ladli sayani ban gayi ko rehne , Papa ka sar na jhana kabhi, B laad payar se rakha hai tujhe, kabhi lana na tu lout ke jaldi aana tera tazar rahega, Teri maa royi to ma sambhal lunga, Par tere papa roye siva koi chup karvane nahi ayega... Aapka saath hume har janam me e, Dua hai hamari aapke jivan me phul khhnaseeb hai hum mere humsafar, Jo aapka saath hai hamare saath har rooh ka rishta hai gehra rooh se, Chehra basa hai sirf aapka dil ki tasveer ki gehrayi bhi kam hai is mohabbat ke saamne, Beteha mohabbat hai tumse kehti hai na zdagi me hamare pyaar ki hawa, Hum tumhare ha tum hamare oo ta hai sun khud ka naam aapke saath, Jaise koi subah judi ** shaam ke haathon ki lakeere, mehandi sirf aap **, Har pal aapka hi rehta hai khayal ** gayi har dua tumhari, Jab se i ha saanse ki gehrayi se chand ki roshni se, Kehna chahte ha hum kuch ke kagaz par likhte ha kuch labz, Beteha mohabbat hai har lamha har nahi aankhon se surat aapki, Aapki zdagi me rang bharne ki kasam gaye hume hamare bholenaath, Jab se a is khaas dost ka saath khte hi ** jaata hai dil bekaraar, Aapko e khhiyan saath hai aapka dil me dadhkan ki jagah, Fir zdagi ko saanso ki jaroorat se yhi ibadat me karte ha fariyaad, Ye jodi yu hi banaye rakhna kr tumhe th na jaana humse piya, Saath rehne ka vaada hai kiya mehsoos kiya is dil ne aapko, Milne gayi zameen par jannat saccha ** tou waqt bhi R hai jaata, Is pavra rishtey ke liye aasman bhi jh shu hote ha hum aapke saath hi khatam, Saath rahenge aapke har janam mere sanam.

Seetaro mai akela chaand si thi woFoolon ka mehekta guldan si thi woThi nadi jaisi aviral, chanchalmere dil ka haal si thi woGhani dhoop mai chav si thi woKisi geet ki addaon si thi woThi hava si mehekti, komalMere dil ka bhav si thi woBeech majhdhaar mai nav si thi woKhian ka pura gaon si thi woThi koyal si meethi, nishchalMere man ka abhiman si thi woPaido par wo patto waali hari bhari koi daal si thi woHoli ke rango mai sabse saadi ek akeli gulaal si thi woThi wadi kasmiri koiMere geeton ka sur r taal si thi woMandir mai wo shankhnaad si, pooja ka prasad si thi woBaarish mai mti ki khhboo, badal ka dharti se sanvaad si thi woThi meri wo beti pyari, se hi ghar 'harsh' thaMere ghar mai sooraj si, Mere ghar ki shaan si thi woThi ab wo jo nahi rahi, aakhir khata kya thi ki nemana hi to kia tha na beta shaadi se, Par dosti ka haath bhi to badhaya thaTeri Bezatti toh nahi thi ki neFir kyun tune ko har ghar badnaam kiaDhman na kare, dost hokar tune aisa kaam kiaChali gayi ab chhod ke mujhko, wo akele jeevan ki saanjh maiMeri khhiyan, meri duniya, meri pyari jaan si thi woMeri pyari jaan si thi wo.

ARE G MATA ROVEGAYE HAMARI MATA HAI07:17 • TIM MICARE G MATA ROVE

Udd jayegi ek d chiraiya chhodhkar babul ka ghar, Basane ek naya aashiyana sabhi ke aankho ko bhar, Vidai ka hota hai ye kaisi bela, Kyu hamha jana padta chhod kali ko hi akela, Beegh jati hai mata-pa ki palke vidai ke pal, Jab aata baag me chahchahane wali chidiya ki judai ke pal, Bahut si yaa chhoti aankho me sajaye hue, Ro rhi hai maa pari ko gale lagaye hue, Papa ki pyari gudiya aaj sazkar sasural chali, Tham ke hath humsafar ka ek nye dwar chali, Jahan pali badi wo pyari gudiya chali hai aaj ghar ko chhod, Karke suna ek aangan ko pa ki aankhon ko bhar, Na jaane kyu beti ko janam se hi paraya btaya, Aakhir kisne ye riwaz banaya, Nikalkar apne **** se ek pa apni jaan, Bahut bada dil hai ek pa ka jo kar te ha kanyadaan, Waqt ka kaisa hai ye dastoor Na jaane kyu ek beti ko jaana hota hai dur, Chali hai aaj papa ki gudiya, Chhodhkar apne aangan ki ndiya, Yaadon ki jhadi dil me basakar chali hai maa ki jaan, Chhod ke sabkuch apna Banane ek nayi pehchaan, Babul ki laadli kab ** gayi badi, Aayi hai dil ko chhune wali ghadi, Jis ghar me pali, ghar ko alwida kaise kahegi, Maa baba behan bhai b wo gudiya kaise rahegi, Vidhata ne ye kaisa niyam hai banaya, Chhod ghar babul ka, ek naye ghar ko basaya, Dekh tyad ek biya ki khuda ki bhi *** aankhen bhar, Udd jayegi ek d chirraiya chhodkar babul ka ghar, Babul ka ghar.........

Tum bheegna chahti thi baarish me hanth me hanth pakadkar, Tum aana chahti thi jdagi me meri khhi bankar, Chahti thi tum kabhi k mai tumoo baahon me bhar loo, Sona chahti thi tum mere seene pe sar rakh kar, Kha tumne hi ek d tha k tham lo haanth tum mera jdagi bhar k liye, Mujhe bas apna bana lo tum aane vaale har pal k liye, Har baar dil ko mere sunahre sapnr dikhaye tumne, Kabhi mere haanthon ko choomkar to kabhi hanthon me haanth pakadkar, Inkar tumko bhi nahi tha k tumhe mujhse mohabbat hai, Sirf mujhko hi nahi tumhe bhi mujhse utni hi mohabbat hai, Tumhar bhi kabhi khwahish thi k baal sanwaroo mai tumhare, Ungliyon se pajadkar kaan k paas le jan sare, Saath bayen jdagi baant le har mkurahat r ansoo aapas me hi saare, Magar tanha is dil ko ehsaas hua jab toota ye sapna, Meri khatao se rooth kar kh mod liya tumne jab apna, Ab na baaki rah gayi jafa koi, Tumhe vaapas bulane ki, Tum mujhse door ** gayi ** chahat todkar apni, Tum mujhse rooth jati ** ku vaa bhoolkar sare, Ijaajat tumne hi di thi tumko satane ki, Satata aaj b nahu hu, Khata fir bhi ** jaati hai, Chalo ek baar aa jao, Na mujhse door tum jao, Gunah mere kiye saare, Bhulakar dil ki ranjish ko paas aa jao tum mere, Samajh jao dil ki tadpan ko nigahen mujhse na fero, Aaajao is baar pyaar me kar le kar k vaa sare poore, Jo meri nasamjhi se abhi tak rah gaye adhoore, Paas tum aa jao mere paas tum aa jao mere, Ek tum hi to ** meri koi r nahi kareeb shiva ek pyaar k tere.

GAYE HAMARI MATA HAI

apno se jada gairon ki yaad aati hai, jab jdagi kisi gair ki mohtaaj ** jaati hai, dil ka haal samajhne vala koi nahi hota, r jdagi hai k bas ek chidiya ki tarah ud jati hai, dll me yaad basi rah jaati hai, mashaal jalti hui achanak bujh jati hai, aankhon k saamne base andhera hi andhera dikhta hai, har roshni bhi feeki pad jati hai, jab jdagi kisi gair ki mohtaaj ** jati bewajah hi dard uthta rhta hai, aankhon ka mom har waqt pighalta rahta hai, aansoo b rasta aona badal lete hai, dil me tadap k shiva r kuj nahi bachta hai, har khwahish dafan ** jati hai, chahat bas khud ko khatam karne ki rah jati hai, jab jdagi kisi gair ki mohtaaj ** jati logon se bhara hokar bhi veeran lagta hai, d nikalte hi dhalne lag jata hai, bewajah koi saan shaan lagne lagta hai, khud ki ek saan bhi bejaan lagne lagti hai, bejaan aawaj, rookhe shabd, pathrayi aankhen, r aansuon ki sookhi dhara shrajal ** uthti hai, jab jdagi kisi gair ki mohtaaj ** jati to har waqt khyal dil me rhta hai k vo mera hai, tabhi koi khta hai k vo nahi bas bhram tera hai, r kna pyar me barbaad ** jn, khatam ** jn ya tujhme hi mar jn, aasan nahi koi jirah rah jati hai, har gali kooche se bas unk nikalne ki aas rahti hai, vo mere nahi har taraf bas ek hi aawaj goonjti hai, d khatam raat shu, roshni gayi andhera shu, sath khatam tanhayi shu, bas yahi tadpan har ghadi rah jati hai, vo meri nahi kisi r ki ** jati hai, jdagi kisi gair ki mohtaaj ** jati hai.... bojh palkon k niche chupn kna, tumhe bhuln kna tumse door jn kna, tum aa gayi ** to mai samhal jnga, na chodkar jao mai ab na rah pnga, tumhe mai r chahunga tumhe mai r hi har taraf ** mere, nahi dikhta koi chehra, tum choti c gudiya meri, mai tumme simat jnga, tumhe pyar kanga tumhe mai r chahunga, na door tum jao na chodkar jao, ab door tumse mai ek pal bhi rah na pnga, tumhe mai r chahunga tumhe mai r to khwab ** mere, tumhi je ki hasrat **, tumh mai kho nahi sakta, door mai rah nahi sakta, tumhe kaise bhnga, ba tumhare ji na pnga, tumhe mai r chahunga, tumhe mai r tum aarjoo **, meri har tamnna **, chohton me tum meri **, bandagi bhi tum meri **, mera ehsas tum hi **, mere je ki khwahish **, tumhe mai r chahunga tumhe mai r meri ibadat **, tumhi meri rahgujar **, meri tum rahnuma bhi **, mere dil ki kavayad **, mujhme tum aise bas jao, kabhi na tumko bhulnga, mai tumko r chahunga mai tumko r ehsaas dhadkan ka, har ehsaas tadpan ka, machalta meri dil bhi hai, tadpta mera dil bhi hai, kaise mai paas aa jn, kaise mai bah me bhar loo, kaise mai yaad na an, kaise mai door jnga, na tere b rh pnga, tumhe mai r chahunga tumhe mai r chahunga.... DING **** MY KIDNAPPER IS DEAD, THAT IS WHY I ALLOWED TED BUNDY TO TAKE ME YEAH, I WANTED TO KIDNAP MY KIDNAPPERHOPING THE SPIRIT WORLD CAN **** MY KIDNAPPER, OH YEAHI KNOW IT’S ****** HARD, CAUSE, THE SCHITZOPHRENIA, WAS GIVING ME THE ****** YRGEI FOUND IT HARD TO RID THE URGE, SO I MADE TED BUNDY’S GHOST TIE ME UPBUT THIS MADE ME FIGHT MY FATHER, AND FORCE ME ON MEDICATIONWHICH MADE THE NICEST MAN, BUT MY KIDNAPPER KEPT COMING BACKDING **** I WANTED MY KIDNAPPER DEAD, I KNOW I ANNOYED A LOT OF PEOPLETRYING TO GRAB THEM OH YEAHI GRABBED A FEW SCHOOL MATES, AND THAT IS WHY I WAS TREATED LIKE A YEAH MATE YEAH KIDI WANT TO GET REOFORMED, BUT A VOICE SAID, NO YOUR NOR REFORMEDAND I WORKED AT THE RAINBOW, HELPING THE MENTALLY ILLAND I FELT LIKE A HAPPY CHIRPY COOL KID GOING TO THE BEACH AND BUSHWALKINGAND WORKING IN THE RAINBOW KITCHEN, AND NOBODY WANTED TO TEASE MECAUSE I HELPED TO GIVE THEM A MEAL, I WAS A COOL KID, AND VERY VERY CHIRPYAND THEN IN 2002, I FELT REALLY CRAZY, THE PARANORMAL SHOVING VOICES IN MY HEADWHICH WAS, I WAS THE KID, KILLED BY THE ******, THE AMERICAN ****** KILLED A KIDBUT I SAID I DREAMT IN THE REAL WORLD, SAYING THE KID HE KILLED WAS MEI STOOD MY LITTLE KIDNAPPING KID, OUT ON THE LONESOME, THE ****** KILLED MY CRAZY KIDNAPPERI AM NOT GAY, I RESPECT GAYS, BUT I AM NOT GAYI AM NOT A PHEDAPHILE, HAVING *** WITH KIDS IS REPULSIVEI AM NOT A CUDDLING KOOMARRI MAN, CAUSE THEY GET KILLED, I LIKE TO SAY THAT AT LEAST GAYS, HAVE A REASONTHE KOOMARRIS, ARE TOTALLY GEEKY, AS THEY CUDDLE UP TO YAI AM NOT GAY, HE SAID, I JUST LIKE TO CUDDLE MEN, NOT THAT THERE IS ANYTHING WRONG WITH GAYSI AM NOT GAY, I MADE MY CHOICE, TO BE A ******LIKE A ******, WHO PARTIES ALL THE FUCKEN TIME, LIKE A ****** BABY YEAHPARTY WITH ME, AND YOU AS WELL YO DUDEBUT TED BUNDY, ISN’T HASSLING ME NO MORE, I AGREED TO **** MY HOOLIGAN WHO GRABS KIDSAND IN JUP[ITER, I AM PREPARED TO SUFFER, FOR EVERY KID, AS CRONUS DOES DOTED BUNDY NOW HAS ME ******* TO THE LAMP POST ON JUPITERI PREFER THIS, RATHER THAN CUDDLING ******* KOOMARRI MENPRESUMING THAT I AM GAY, I AM STRAIGHT, MY PROBLEMS WERE WATCHING REALLY BAD KIDNAPPING ON TVAND MY LAST TWO LIVES KIDNAPPED AND KILLED AT AGE 8 GREAME THORNE ANDS PATRICK DUNBARI HAVE KILLED MY KIDNAPPER AND LEFT MY LITTLE DADDY’S SHY BOY WITH DAD, ON CLOUD 9SO I CAN ENJOY BATTLING THE YOU AND YOUR BROTHER AREN’T LIKE US VOICEBY DRINKING A BOTTLE OF COKE, I AM A COMPUTER **** KIDI WANT TO LOSE PAT’S VOICE, BUT WE HAD FUN TOGETHERI WANT TO LOSE HIS VOICE, BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO HEAR THESE DELLUSIONSOF HIM BEING A TEASING GAY MAN, CAUSE YOU HAVE TO BE CAREFUL TO TEASE NORMIESTHE WAY I USED TO TEASE THE MEN, WHETHER YOUR GAY OR NOTPEOPLE PRESUME THAT YOUR GAY, AND PUNCH AND **** YOUBULLYING LEADS TO KILLING, BRIAN ALLAN DOESN’T WANT TO BE KILLEDSO HE PREFERS TO GET RID OF HIS SHY BOY THE BRIAN ALLAN WAYCAUSE I HATE, THE IDEA IN HINDSIGHT OF BEING A LITTLE YOUNG DUDE LIKE THATIT WAS ALRIGHT WHEN I WAS YOUNG, WELL CRAWLING THROUGH DRAINPIPESAND RIDING OUR BIKES, AND PARTYING IN CLUBS WAS COOLBUT THE KIDNAPPING OR THE GAY ACTIVITY, REALLY AIN’T FOR MEI AM STILL DOING WHAT I USED TO DO, THE IMAGINATION BITART AND DRAWING, I WANT TO KIL MY KIDNAPPER AND HAVE TED BUNDY TIE HIM UP ON JUPITERAQND LEAVE MY DADDY’S LITTLE SHY BOY AS I SAID ON CLOUD 9 WITH DADWE HAVE TO STAND ON OUR OWN TWO FEETOH YEAH MY, HEART IS A PUMPING, AND MY LEGS ARE FITI WANNA STAND ON MY OWN TWO FEETI DON’T CARE WHAT MY VOICES SAYI PREFER FOR MY VOICES TO SAY BE AN ARTIST, BE A WRITER, BE A YOUTUBE PARTNER, BE A BUDDHISTI DON’T WANT TO HAVE ANY PART OF MY DADDY’S LITTLE SHY BOY IN ME, EVER AGAINMEDICATION, REINCARNATION, I AM COOL, HOW ABOUT A LITTLE CELEBRATIONSTOP THE CALLING ME WOOSEY, IN MY HEAD, CAUSE, IT’S FUCKEN DOWNGRADING YOU BIG *******I FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE AROUND GAYS, DOESN’T MEAN I HATE THEM, I HATE BEING TOLD I AM STILL GAY******* ****, *******, I AM NOT GAYDING **** MY KIDNAPPER IS DEAD AND MY LITTLE SHY BOY IS UP THERE WITH DEAR OLD DADI AM A MAN WHO ENJOYS PARTYING, YEAH MATE YEAH, I AM NO ****.